| | getting over my nerves
So im single now at 47 and can finally explore what ive been wanting to do for the the last 35 years but i cant get over my nerves. I dont want to out myself by going to a gay bar so ive been on some hook up siress and found someone that seems safe, trustworthy and attractive and fun but i have the feeling im just going to chicken out. Im nervous for two reasons:
1. I wont like it and hate myself (the whole fantasy vs reality thing)
2. Ill like it and it will be a life changing experience and im not sure im ready for that.
i also dont know how ill act afterwards, im thinking it will be super weird.
A little more information. Im basically meeting the guy for oral. Thats what ive been thinking about for a long time, ive done it once before but not to completion and thats what i want to do. Thats why i think it will be awkward afterwards as i just dont know how ill react when its over.
Anyway else have their first experience in an nsa way and how was it? Im genuinely excited for it and get really turned on by thinking about and want to do it but im just nervous. So im looking for advice to settle my nerves so i can go through with it. Or just some hot stories that make it seem so exciting im not even nervous anymore thanks in advance