You guys are so funny!
I'm not sure if I ever made that particular excuse but I can totally see how it would make sense to someone who was just coming to terms with being non-straight.
I did do the whole envy/jealous "oh I just want to be more like him" and "I just want to be better friends/closer to him" and I just want to be popular like him" and "I wish I had a body like he had" stuff.
Which, as goratrix points out, did not explain the whole "oh I just want to suck his cock" thing.
