[goratrix]

Well, for those of you who own a calendar, you probably noticed taht today isn't thursday... anyway... I needed to update this.

Let's see... where to begin... Ah! yeah! concerning hobbits....

I've had a rough week... the weekend was great. I met a friend who moved away and was here for a few weeks, and we had a great time together. I did all those weekend-like stuff. My friends and I went to the movies, watched The Ring 2. Not a great film, but it was ok.

Ok, when I say rough week you proabaly think it's bad... well. it's not! it's actually good! I had a week where all I cared about was college, tests and studying. No human relations!

Well, remember that girl I came out to because I felt she was falling for me? I talked to her a little bit more, and decided that it was for the best that we didn't see each other any more... or at least not as much. So I started arriving late, when I knew she wouldn't be there. We haven't spoken in a week, I think on tuesday I'll go see what's of her :-). Anyway, as a sidekicker on avoiding her, I kind of started spending less time with AC, so I was actually avoiding him as well. Anyway, I couldn't go on tuesday and thursday because I had to study, and on monday and wednesday I just went at 9pm, when he wasn't supposed to be there! well, guess what.. HE WAS there. I don't know if it's fate laughing at my face or what... but the one week I try to avoid him, he stays until I get there... that's not fair!

I noted him a little... well... down the last few days, (since wednesday) and last night (friday) I asked if something was wrong. I think I'm starting to care about him in a more friendwise way... There was actually nothing wrong, he was just tired and had a bad day at school (like, welcome to MY world).

Well. I'll reproduce a part of a conversation with popboy and a later e-mail he sent me: (please, excuse the translation)

ME: I'm enlove with the idealization of a guy, that in reality i can't read (both the guy and the idealization), he's homophobic and underage.

Pupboy: the fact that he is homophobic and underage are the rational obstacles less convincing you could have thought.

Popboy (in his e-mail): I am surprised that you thought that him being homophobic and underage were greater obstacles than him being straigh.

I mean... what the hell is wrong with me... why didn't I think of that? because I DIDN'T!

ok, thursday was over two days ago... so I think it's time for me to end this post.

Thanks you guys for reading and putting up with me... :-)