I can understand your frustration. Life isn't always easy, nor does it work out the way you envisioned...
However, and you've perhaps seen me say this before, you have to accept the things you can not change. And what has happened in the past will always and forever remain in the past. There's nothing you can do to change that either.
So... keep things in perspective.
10 months is a long time to be without work, but not unusual in this economic situation. When I was in my last year of university, many of my peers in the business program got job offers in November, but I didn't. I still hadn't arranged for work when I graduated in May. It wasn't until August of that year when I found a job. But you know what? The job I got in August was better (at least for me) than any of the jobs I'd been denied along the way. So sometimes there are 'blessings in disguise' that you don't recognize without hindsight. Try to stay positive, stay active, find ways to demonstrate that you're still interested in your field of work, either through joining an association, doing volunteer work, reading in your field of study, continuing with additional courses in the mean time, etc...
Try not to think about your situation as a 'sad reality'. With that kind of thinking you will prove yourself right every time. You expected your life to be a certain way (essentially like everyone elses) and as it has evolved it appears that it will be different. 'Different' often creates an uncomfortable feeling in us. So work on accepting yourself, and know that there are still LOTS of opportunities for you to live a full and happy life. I was scared to death about what the future held for me when my marriage ended, but in fact my life has turned out to be better than I would have ever imagined. So hold onto hope, and in the mean time make the best of things.
You can always PM me if you want to discuss this stuff with someone one on one.
