That's a long reply. But thanks anyway! I guess I'm reluctant to leave them because we were so close. The guy, who I'll call A, was pretty much my only friend throughout elementary school. I found a few friends in middle school, but they left to go their separate ways. The girl who has graduated, let's call her K, is either working, going to school, or sleeping. We were definitely close. She was one of my best friends at band camp. (If anyone out there is a fellow band geek, you know what that means.) I know, and I accept that she is busy, but I do miss our talks. And the girl who won't talk to me, H, well... that's a long story. I'll only get into it later if I have to. We were so close before. Then she grew up and started dating. That's not what makes me upset. What makes me upset is that she has practically just 'dropped' me. And that's almost literally.
I don't really have any place to go and hang out. I mean, I can go - I have a car - but there is nowhere to go. Not in my city. I've been trying to get a job, but so far that hasn't worked out.
I'm just getting really tired of sitting around the house watching TV all day. As much as I enjoy it, I get the feeling that I'm missing something. I sort of have a project that I'm working on, but the saw blade broke, so I have to wait for my dad to get a new one. And who knows how long that will take? I just want to get out and do something.
Of course, it seems to me that when I occasionally bike out to the lake just to hang, my parents will eventually make me come home so that I can do thing. (Yes I love my parents, but hey, I'm a teenager. This is how teenagers view their parents. We don't have any 'abnormal' problems.
) I just have all this emotion penned up inside me, and I don't feel like there is anywhere to release it.