I feel like i'm falling apart

[Anonymous]

What it says on the title.

I don't really know how to express this... but it feels like my brain is unraveling. I'm stuttering, I jumble every other sentence and mix words up all the time. I can't even keep more then a little breakfast down every day and without fail i wake up with a monster of a headache that's been consistently strong on the left side of my head for the past year or so.

I'm scared out of my mind almost every minute of the day. Most of the time it isn't even rational. I can't go outside without thinking about gravity flipping on its head and sending me on a fairly long ride to my death, the dark scares the crap out of me, people scare the crap out of me, and i'm without fail always afraid of my father.

And it feels like i'm playing tug of war where the invisible line has a mine under it that'll blow me to dead without warning, and i can never out-pull the other side. Or perhaps it's just an invisible countdown hanging over my head. Ticking out the time till i finally stop running on fear and realize that its time for me to leave.

And, if i'm honest, i don't really know why i'm writing this. Although i suppose having coughing fits every few minutes for almost 24 hours straight might be impairing my judgement a little. oh well.

[silverhalo]

Hey sounds like you are having a difficult time, I think you need to visit the doctor, take what you have written here with you if you like, you probably need to have a medical check up to see what is going on and then perhaps talk to a professional about the way you are feeling and how you can move forward.
Dont give up, im sure there are better things around the corner.