anxiety or reality?

[Anonymous]

Since accepting im gay i have started to actually notice/check guys out a lot more, i no longer block the thoughts out u could say.. but when i meet an attractive guy i get really nervous and probably seem a little odd and dodgy, like tonight i was at a meeting and the speaker was pretty good looking, at least to me anyway... this is how i am always now though and i feel like its going to have some bad consequences, not to meantion lower my chances of meeting mr. Right. I just have the habit of avoiding good looking guys like some kind of wierd ocd tick or something. Its especially bad when i find a guy who is both hot and fun to be around i dont want them to think im an asshole or that i hate them i really dont know how i got like this but i guess its just something to work on? Im not out to most people or obvious either, i guess i feel like where i live being out isnt really a good thing ....

Am i just weird or what?

[Sunsetting]

you are totally normal and we all get nervous bro. i tell you this. you remember how wonderful you are.... ok, no matter how badly you FEEL, remember who you are...may sound silly, but take 30 minutes with a blank sheet of paper and write down all your positives. don't stop writing, even if they are only a smidgeon in you... write it, because it's probably much more than a smidgeon.

sometimes when we go into a situation and see someone who is good looking and smart and fun, we shrink ourselves and say we're not good looking enough, we're not smart enough, we're not funny enough... not enough of anything... but reality check. dude, you really are wonderful and i bet if i spent 5 minutes with you, i could give you 10 positives in those 5. don't let yourself shrink just because you 'feel' like someone is more awesome than you. feelings will lead us astray.

YOU my friend are a gift (and i WILL tell this to a million people on EC, because it's TRUE). bro, YOU are a gift and there is NO other GIFT like you. just walk into a room knowing that you are more than how you look or how you feel. and when you look at a dude, never say, wow, he's so much better than me... look at him and say, yeah, he's got a lot of positives. but...you know, i'm a real catch and i want to make sure that anyone i get into a relationship with is worthy of the gift that i am

i tell you bro....YOU are probably more lovable and lovely than you could ever imagine.... and trust me on this one... it's true.