Can't see the light at the end

[Anonymous]

My life is in transition at the moment.. I'm 25, never had a real strong relationship, most of my friends live hours away and I live with my mum.

I really feel like a non-person at the moment. In my early 20s, I thought I had direction, thought I was doing well, I came out, I partied, I was alive. This all suddenly came to a crashing halt, I lost jobs and it feels like I lost friends.. we all just drifted away. A lot of them moved back to my hometown which is pretty backward. So I decided to move where my mum is, which is a bit more populated and start a fresh. I thought study, tried it and failed.. Ive already studied before so have some qualifications, just the thought of doing more study was such a turn off to me.

So its been a big reset for me. I've been here for like 8 months now, and now I have to start getting some direction back. I feel really insecure about it all. It seems I have to do it all on my own if I want to meet new people, and I don't feel comfortable about this. So I've been applying for jobs manically in hope that this will be a new avenue for me to grow here.

Theres so much in my life that I want to change, yet there is no positivity to facilitate the changes. I am sick of telling myself I will change things and then failing. I'm sick of staying in the house achieving nothing and I feel really crap about living with my mum. I just don't know where to turn..I know I have to get out more and I try to at least excercise each day, but I'm tired of doing things alone, I'm in a rut..

[Chouchou]

I'm pretty much in the same rut as you're in. I'm afraid that there's no magic pill that will make everything better. You've just got to keep applying to jobs like you've been doing, even though right now you feel that you're getting nowhere and going it all alone. Once you get that job, it's the first step to to living independently and doing what you really want to do. Also, good on you for at least having the desire to exercise every day, because health and fitness are things you absolutely want to maintain at a high level, for many reasons.