My life is now more complicated

[Anonymous]

Alright, I've been mauling this over since October, and I think EC needs to know this.

I'm tired of hiding it. I was Raped. By my brother. YOUNGER brother.

So for most of my life, people have guessed i was gay, not true, I'm actually Bi. However, 7th grade was terrible. I was bullied and physically harrased for months on end. My brother [Let's call him "A"] knows about this.

So in October, we were babysitting our little brother and we had just put him down for bed. When we left the back bedroom, we needed to walk through another to get downstairs. When we entered, my brother said "Come here and hump me." Of course, I refused. LIke I would ever do that. So he threatened, "Come here or else I'll tell everyone at school you are gay. Think about it, they belived you the first time after a while. But how would things change if it was your brother spreading the rumors?"

I was stunned, he was getting the better of me. I walked over, and we both took of our pants. A lot happened after: french kissing, swordplay, and intercural rape.

It wasn't my fault at all, and i didn't want it to happen. But now, his baseless blackmail came to be more baseless shit. He says I raped HIM! I didn't, i swear to God, Jesus, Budda,Alla, you name it. It was not my fault.

I'm not sure what to do. I can't see his face without wanting to puke. I hate him. and now, I try and make his life hell by working behind his back, spreading rumors that don't work, and I try to forget, but I can't. It's to painful...

I don't know anymore, maybe I should commit suicide and burn in hell just becuase.

***Keep in mind I'm fourteen, he is twelve. I was thirteen at the time. There is a 17 month age difference.

Help!

[Lexington]

Whhat's the current situation? Who is he telling/threatening to tell that you raped him? Has he told anyone? Does anyone believe him?

Lex

[Anonymous]

Originally Posted by Lexington

Whhat's the current situation? Who is he telling/threatening to tell that you raped him? Has he told anyone? Does anyone believe him?

Lex

He is just blackmailing me right now and hasn't told anyone. The problem is, if i tell people about it, they will most likely beilive him because he is younger.

[Lexington]

What's he blackmailing you with? What does he want you to do in exchange for his silence?

Lex

[Anonymous]

Originally Posted by Lexington

What's he blackmailing you with? What does he want you to do in exchange for his silence?

Lex

All sorts of stuff. Mostly, he want me to have more sexual contact with him, as well as simple things like being able to control who has the video game system at the moment, or making me do his homework for him.

[Jim1454]

This is certainly complicated, but nothing worth killing yourself over.

I can only imagine the household you live in if your brother, at 12, wanted to have sex with you and is blackmailing you. What kind of 12 year old does that?!?

I'm not sure what to suggest, as I really have no idea what your parents might do if they found out this has happened. What do you think? What would likely happen if you approached them (without your brother around) and told them everything?

[Anonymous]

Originally Posted by Jim1454

This is certainly complicated, but nothing worth killing yourself over.

I can only imagine the household you live in if your brother, at 12, wanted to have sex with you and is blackmailing you. What kind of 12 year old does that?!?

I'm not sure what to suggest, as I really have no idea what your parents might do if they found out this has happened. What do you think? What would likely happen if you approached them (without your brother around) and told them everything?

Our house is for the most part: normal. No smoking, drinking, or abuse other than him. It is just your average house.

I want to tell them, but i don't know how they would react. Think about it, who would you beilieve, the younger person or the older person? Most likely.... They will beilive him.

[Anonymous]

I'm so sorry that your going through this

My best advice would be to tell your parents. It will be extremely difficult and you will probably be overrun with emotion, but if your that serious and upset they will most likely believe you.

Please be strong, you can do this because you have done nothing wrong.