I hate my life

[Anonymous]

My life is a joke I hate it. My friends are never going to accept me, my family already hates me and refuses to acknowledge it even. Sat there and listened to friends badmouth the only 2 obviously gay guys at the bar and one of them asked me for a cigarette outside a little later and so I gave him one and talked to him, and I'm guessing his bf, for a couple minutes... anyway, friends came out, some people they knew that we were there with seen me when they came outside and sat there and gave them shit... I hate myself... I am spineless... I don't even know why I talk to anyone I know anymore... I don't know why I give a shit, well I do, but I'm just a wussy I guess god damnit..
I think I'd rather be lonely than have one more night like tonight... I threw my phone, guess it's time to build a new phoneb ook...

[Sunsetting]

You're not a wimp, you're not spineless, you're not a wussy. You are growing, you're developing compassion and you're developing strength. It takes time to build up muscles in the gym and it's the same with boldness. It starts in the heart and I want to affirm that your heart was inclined in the right direction. Don't berate yourself for what did not happen, recognize what did happen which was a sensitivity towards justice. Out of the abundance of your heart, your mouth will speak. Just be patient and give it time bro. You will speak so lighten up on yourself man. As for friends/family, you will also develop a voice and diplomacy to speak words to them about things that need to be addressed. It will happen as you take small risks. And yeah, get a new phone....