Wanting to self harm - help please

[Anonymous]

I made a thread a while ago asking for advice on how to NOT start cutting. I'm really sorry for bothering you guys again and wasting your time but it really helped the first time. If you have any advice at all then it would be really appreciated. I think I'm actually getting worse(even though a few of my problems are gone- the only big one left is that I'm questioning my sexuality), I keep wanting to hurt or punish myself in some way(I've stopped myself so far). I feel like such a freak for still not knowing who I'm attracted to. At the same time I don't think I really want to know because I'd probably not like or be able to accept the answer. I really really dislike myself right now and I keep wanting to cut myself. I'm really trying not to, I've heard how addictive it is, but right now I just feel so worthless and wrong that I'm finding it hard to see that logically. The only thing that is really stopping me is that if I did then someone would see, I swim a lot, I couldn't hide it. If I started then this temptation might get even worse and because of my hobbies,my room would be a death trap. I'm not really sure what I'm looking for here. Maybe just for someone to try and convince me that whatever I am is ok, and that I'm not broken for not knowing.

[cheekycharlieb]

Hi Anon ..
although i don't know you at all , or anything about you i think it's irrevelevent , no matter what gender you are , and even if your attracted to a fucking cactus as long as you can come to terms with it and be happy that's all that really matters . if you like both sexes then you do , nothing can change that , and if your just worried about your family or friends , don't be so worried , everyone prepares themselves for the worse but it's never as bad as we make it out to be,, so hopefully i've stopped you from harming yourself and you'll in time get happier x x
Charlie

I promise you that no matter what sexuality you are, you won't be weird or abnormal, and, you may not accept it to begin with, but, most people have to grow into their own skin. Some people don't accept it right away, but once you see what you really are, you'll eventually come to terms with yourself. Self harm is not an answer to a temporary problem, because it can result in something much more worse. You won't get anything out of self harming except scars to remind you of the reason why you did it in the first place. Self harming does twice the damage. There's no reason to self harm, no matter how badly you feel about yourself, it will not change your current situation. You have to think about who you are and accept yourself for who you are.