Sexual Orientation: Opening Up About My Sexuality

[Anonymous]

I'm a bisexual woman that is currently dating a man. Over the past year or so, mostly of his own fault, I have become much more boisterous about my political opinions and such. He taught me to stand up for myself and to be myself, most importantly. Well, over the past few months I've really been questioning my sexuality. I don't find myself attracted to many guys. I mean, I love my boyfriend...he's my best friend. He can still turn me on when he tries, but I'm not necessarily turned on by him...if that makes any sense. But lately, I've been speaking out more and more for gay rights. And I've been more outspoken about my own sexuality, but only to close friends of ours. I don't just go up to random people and say "hey I like girls!" But, the more vocal I get about gay rights, the more he starts questioning me. He actually asked me one day if he was my beard, and I didn't know how to answer him. I mean, is he? I don't know. It was like I woke up one day and boys just weren't attractive anymore. There was even this one guy in my History class two semesters ago that I was crazy about, but now I see him in the halls at school and he does nothing for me.

Along with this, I've also been thinking about coming out to my parents. My dad and I had a long discussion today about political stuff, and though we disagree on..most everything..he's at least willing to agree to disagree and he's willing to accept my views even if he doesn't agree with him. But one thing he did tell me was that he doesn't support gay rights. He said he doesn't think gays should be discriminated against, but he doesn't support gay rights. I don't know how that makes sense. My mom is super religious and has been really oppressive about many issues over the course of my life. I don't want to lose them, but I'm sick of hiding it.

I can live without telling my parents though. I live 2000 miles away, they don't need to stick their noses in my personal life. I would just feel better if I came clean. The thing with my boyfriend, though...I don't want to lose him, whatever happens. He's been a big influence in my life, and I am forever grateful for what he has shown me and done for me.