Not Gay; Just Really Sexual

[xyc]

Okay, when I first was realizing I was gay, I can vividly remember that one of my first denial thoughts was... 'Well, I'm not really gay! Maybe there are gay people out there but that's not me. I'm not gay, I'm just really sexual... and so just me putting my dick in a girl's hole isn't enough.' Sorry for the vulgarity...

Anyways, I was watching a skit show where at least one comedian really is gay and the skit included gay people. At one point they started talking about 'have you come out' and the gay comedian response was, "No; but I'm not really gay, I'm just really sexual." It hit me so hard and it was weird. It also developed, for the first time, this kind of link where 'Hey, there may be other people who are going through and have gone through what I have!'

So, I just wanted to know if anyone else can remember thinking 'I'm not gay, just really sexual' or something like that. Because it seems that at least me and that comedian shared that...

[hawkeye]

Yep, I remember thinking that too, but I've noticed that I'm not just physicly attracted to guys. At one time a few years ago, i was really porn addicted, and another excuse that i thought up was that i was "getting bored" of straight porn because of watching so much.

[goratrix]

same here. Although It stopped when I started having fantasies of guys 'putting their dicks in my hole'... weird uh??

[nisomer]

^^^^^ LOL!! :lol:

[Aaron]

same here. Although It stopped when I started having fantasies of guys 'putting their dicks in my hole'... weird uh??
You make me laugh.

I never went through that phase. Identifying as gay was very quick and easy for me - I didn;t really go through denial. I accepted it quite quickly.

[goratrix]

Hey! it's the truth! I actually had fantasies about having sex with guys (where I was the top) and I just kept saying to myslef: 'it's still ahole, like a girl's... so it's all right'. Then I started having fantasies about being a bottom, at first I kept trying to think in something else when that happened...

Then after that I got in touch with gay porn... Actually it wasn't gay porn... just a male model site, you know, underwear pics and stuff. And I started to admire the male body in all it's beauty, and so I started to accept that I might be gay.

[joeyconnick]

You guys are so funny! :lol:

I'm not sure if I ever made that particular excuse but I can totally see how it would make sense to someone who was just coming to terms with being non-straight.

I did do the whole envy/jealous "oh I just want to be more like him" and "I just want to be better friends/closer to him" and I just want to be popular like him" and "I wish I had a body like he had" stuff.

Which, as goratrix points out, did not explain the whole "oh I just want to suck his cock" thing. :eusa_whis