Nervous for Std test after rape (GRAPHIC)

[Ambrosio]

Let's just cut to the chase. In February I was raped, by a man in his late 30's. I'm so sure that there wasn't penetration. Though as discusting as it sounds I felt extremely sore in that area. And it hurt to touch it back then.

I had a bit to drink, then basically I was drugged.

I was tested for HIV the first month I was raped, this Friday will be my 5-6 months window period. I'm freaking out, I tested negative for Std's, but HIV is different. I'm afraid, I feel that I already accepted that I have it. I've been dating a guy now for a month, we haven't had sex yet. Because I want to know I'm safe before we do anything.



I never reported my case to the police. He didn't wear a condom, I because I was on my back.

But I know he didn't ejaculate because he only did it for maybe 15 seconds. But of course
stats wise, what are the chances of getting infected with HIV by pre-cum?

I'm so scared. -- I will seriously don't know what I'd do if I was infected.

I'm getting tested this friday. ugh the next 2 weeks are torture. i've done so much research on this topic.

[MeskElil]

Hang in there. It sounds like you've done your homework and know all you can possibly know about it, but now all you can do is wait. We're all thinking about you / praying for you.
I would talk to Karabulut about the pre-cum-ness of the thing, as he would probably know more about it.
I'm sorry I can't really help more, but talk to Karabulut.
You'll be okay. (&&&) We're here for you.

[zerozerozero]

From what I've heard its somewhere in the range of 1/100-1/20, depending on various factors.

For what its worth, I will be praying for you and your health.

[ausdtc]

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you. It sounds like you've done everything you possibly can and, as MeskElil has said, all that's left to do is wait.

We're all here for you, whatever the outcome, I hope it all turns out well for you.

[Psychedelic Bookmarks]

We're all here for you (*hug*)

[nodoubtjunkie]

I'm sorry, i really don't know much about the subject, we were never really taught much about it at school, just the basic facts. But i can offer you my support, and I'll be thinking of you and hoping everything turns out the way you want it to, I'm sure everything is going to be fine. But yeah, my support for you is there all the way, and just PM me or something if you ever want to talk or anything.

I think that talking to Karabulut would benefit you, if he doesn't know himself, he will know where to find reliable information, and perhaps it would put you mind at ease just a little more.
I wish you all the luck in the world, and just hang in there, you can do this.

Major hugs, (*hug*)

Marie x

[otc877]

Why didn't you report this to the police again?

[Level N Human]

I'm sorry that such a thing had to happen to you, and I hope your results are healthy and fine. You didn't mention it in your post, but do you mind if I ask if you are dealing with the incident okay mentally?

I think if you can still do it, you ought to report this guy to the police, not just for you but for anyone he may potentially rape in the future.

[Louise]

Your post is rather confused, you say that there wasn't penetration but that you were sore, I imagine you are talking about your anus, then you say he didn't wear a condom because you were on your back and then that he was only 'at it' for 15 seconds, for someone drugged and drunk you seem to have a clear memory.

I am not saying that you weren't raped, not at all, any non consentual sex drunk, drugged, or sober is rape. You obviously were raped but your story is so muddled it is difficult to know what to say to you to help calm your fears.

Searching out information on the internet or from a qualified doctor is good but you mustn't let this take over your life for the next two weeks. Worrying about it and making yourself ill will not change the results. All you can do it try to occupy yourself, get on with your job or an interesting hobby and hope that time doesn't drag too slowly.

[Ambrosio]

How was I mentally? For about a month and a half after the incident. I went to the psychiatrist. I refused to take psychotic drugs because I wanted to feel the pain. I tried to slice my arm, and commit suicide. If I ever see him again. I'd rip his reproductive organs into shreds with my hands.
I mean.

How would you feel if your first sexual experience EVER was done by force? (Yes, I was a complete virgin before that)

I just want to move on with my life. I've gotten some odd tests done for Gonorehea and Clamydia. Like urine test, but in conclusion. I haven't done an HIV test with a minimum of 3-month waiting period after you think you got infected. I do feel like already LIVE with it, that's the bad part.

I'm sorry that such a thing had to happen to you, and I hope your results are healthy and fine. You didn't mention it in your post, but do you mind if I ask if you are dealing with the incident okay mentally?

[gutsrie]

I understand what you are going through. My first time happened under the influence as well and someone took advantage of me and yes, it was unprotected. Like you, I am worried about STDs but I don't know where to get tested.

All in all, best of luck with your results and I hope it turns out well.

[nodoubtjunkie]

How was I mentally? For about a month and a half after the incident. I went to the psychiatrist. I refused to take psychotic drugs because I wanted to feel the pain. I tried to slice my arm, and commit suicide. If I ever see him again. I'd rip his reproductive organs into shreds with my hands.
I mean.

How would you feel if your first sexual experience EVER was done by force? (Yes, I was a complete virgin before that)

I just want to move on with my life. I've gotten some odd tests done for Gonorehea and Clamydia. Like urine test, but in conclusion. I haven't done an HIV test with a minimum of 3-month waiting period after you think you got infected. I do feel like already LIVE with it, that's the bad part.

I'm sorry that such a thing had to happen to you, and I hope your results are healthy and fine. You didn't mention it in your post, but do you mind if I ask if you are dealing with the incident okay mentally?


maybe I'm seeing this from the wrong point, but we are all worried about you, and we all just want to help you, as did Level N Human I'm sure, and i feel that your response was a little mean. I know how you are feeling, and i know that it's possibly one of the worst feelings in the world, but we are here to help, and please try not to take out your anger and frustration on fellow members who are just trying to offer you support and guidance.

I wish you the very best of luck with the results, and i hope you find the inner peace that you deserve after your ordeal, chin up and stay strong, and we are all behind you.

Good Luck, and many hugs,

Marie

[sexyalex]

-twitches-

oh wow. In all my years...i mean i don't have many but ehehe..."lets cut to the chase, i was raped"? anddddd
"I was on my back", "he did it for only 15 seconds"? he ejaculated?!
ok ok ok ok ok back up! -shakes head-

I must first of all say for someone who seems figurativly "tramatised and worried about their health" u seem to manage to keep ur composure and come straight forward with it. great! i guees....:eusa_shif

I mean...so he raped you...for 15 seconds....and u were on ur back....and he didn't use a condom...and...-scratches neck- :eusa_eh:

hummm:dry: why do i suddenly remember Crystal Thompson all over again. Why have u went...months, without even reporting this to the authorities? Who else have u told? Are ur guardians aware? Have u told a close friend or family member? look, as much as i wanna share greef and sympathize with you...you got to do something. and i don't mean take tests on ur body like some lab rat and sit and worry about being infected with something that can change ur life. Are you appart of a religous group? have u told even a preist, or ........:shrug: hmmmm. Shame on that Psychitrist; here, its called accesory to crime.

excuse my uncharitable and unorthadox behaviour cuz it isn't my place to tell u what to do. But Mr. I may be just 16 but i'm not dumb. you story has gaps and sounds vage...makes no sence to be inevitable. I've heard better stories from a 12 year old :dry:.................


Alex.

[EthanS]

-twitches-

oh wow. In all my years...i mean i don't have many but ehehe..."lets cut to the chase, i was raped"? anddddd
"I was on my back", "he did it for only 15 seconds"? he ejaculated?!
ok ok ok ok ok back up! -shakes head-

I must first of all say for someone who seems figurativly "tramatised and worried about their health" u seem to manage to keep ur composure and come straight forward with it. great! i guees....:eusa_shif

I mean...so he raped you...for 15 seconds....and u were on ur back....and he didn't use a condom...and...-scratches neck- :eusa_eh:

hummm:dry: why do i suddenly remember Crystal Thompson all over again. Why have u went...months, without even reporting this to the authorities? Who else have u told? Are ur guardians aware? Have u told a close friend or family member? look, as much as i wanna share greef and sympathize with you...you got to do something. and i don't mean take tests on ur body like some lab rat and sit and worry about being infected with something that can change ur life. Are you appart of a religous group? have u told even a preist, or ........:shrug: hmmmm. Shame on that Psychitrist; here, its called accesory to crime.

excuse my uncharitable and unorthadox behaviour cuz it isn't my place to tell u what to do. But Mr. I may be just 16 but i'm not dumb. you story has gaps and sounds vage...makes no sence to be inevitable. I've heard better stories from a 12 year old :dry:.................


Alex.

:eek:he wants advice lol..

Good Lucky neway:)

[sexyalex]

can't say i never gave him ......
as my granny always say, bring the cammel to the river, but u can't force it to drink water.:confused:

[Swamp56]

:( :(

Sorry to hear about that...it looks good though since there was no penetration nor ejaculation, since the virus for HIV comes from ejaculate.

Try and calm down a bit, and you'll probably be ok :) .

[Ambrosio]

Besides psychologist, and my best friend. No one knows.

From the 15-30 seconds he was in me. It doesn't change the minutes he kept touching me, he took of my clothes. And kept touching my genitals. You may be 16, but with all due respect you did make yourself look dumb. A psychologist is supposed to keep it under descreptancy. That means unless I'm hurting someone or commiting a crime. He can't report me to the authorities. -- even if its for my own good.

A psychologist can't tell the police, because there is a patient-doctor confidentiality

DO some research before you spew.



(But in general my question is regarding STATISTCS) What are the chances of getting HIV. I know its different. Usually Ive heard its next to impossible to get HIV after one time. But I mean it only takes ONE time you know? -- I'm an extreme health freak, I got tested 4-5 times in the past months. (Because for my doctor every time I went, he made me take urine test. Just policy)

So far negative for all possibe Std's, but HIV is a different test. That I understand.





-twitches-

oh wow. In all my years...i mean i don't have many but ehehe..."lets cut to the chase, i was raped"? anddddd
"I was on my back", "he did it for only 15 seconds"? he ejaculated?!
ok ok ok ok ok back up! -shakes head-

I must first of all say for someone who seems figurativly "tramatised and worried about their health" u seem to manage to keep ur composure and come straight forward with it. great! i guees....:eusa_shif

I mean...so he raped you...for 15 seconds....and u were on ur back....and he didn't use a condom...and...-scratches neck- :eusa_eh:

hummm:dry: why do i suddenly remember Crystal Thompson all over again. Why have u went...months, without even reporting this to the authorities? Who else have u told? Are ur guardians aware? Have u told a close friend or family member? look, as much as i wanna share greef and sympathize with you...you got to do something. and i don't mean take tests on ur body like some lab rat and sit and worry about being infected with something that can change ur life. Are you appart of a religous group? have u told even a preist, or ........:shrug: hmmmm. Shame on that Psychitrist; here, its called accesory to crime.

excuse my uncharitable and unorthadox behaviour cuz it isn't my place to tell u what to do. But Mr. I may be just 16 but i'm not dumb. you story has gaps and sounds vage...makes no sence to be inevitable. I've heard better stories from a 12 year old :dry:.................


Alex.

[Adrian]

Are you sure finding out the probability will give you peace of mind? Maybe you'd be better off just trying to take your mind off it until the results come back rather than dwelling on it, after all it isn't going to affect the results of the test.

I know you haven't asked about going to the police but people have mentioned it, so I feel I should point this out - now that it's so long after the event there'll be little in the way of evidence and it's very unlikely that anything will come of it, so if going to the police will dredge up a load of bad things in your mind then I wouldn't bother.

Hope you're aright and that things go OK.

[Proud1p4]

I am by no means any replacement for KaraBulut (http://emptyclosets.com/forum/private.php?do=newpm&u=2419)(i recommend you message him privately as soon as possible). Although i have been spearheading "World AIDS Day" in my school for the past 3 years and through that i have picked up a few things here and there.

From what i know, precum is low virility; meaning it has less potential to carry the virus. There is a high chance that I may be very wrong on this. But i hope i am right because it would be a devastation to us all here at EC.

Thinking of you and best wishes.(&&&)

[TriBi]

I'm sure that KaraBulut will be along to post here - he will certainly be able to give the best qualified response here.

That said, given the circumstances you describe, I would be fairly sure that the chances would be pretty substantially in your favour of the test being negative - so don't let it prey on your mind too much. Of course you must get the confirming test...and it is going to be worrying until you know the answer for sure...but try not to let it drag you down. (*hug*)

[KaraBulut]

If you've read the studies, you know that anything is possible. However, on the risk scale your exposure carries very low risk of infection- considering that you've tested negative for HIV at the 30 day mark and you have also tested negative for other STDs.

what are the chances of getting infected with HIV by pre-cum?

The studies of precum show that the virus is present in precum. However, transmission of HIV requires more than just exposure to precum. Given your description of the encounter, the small amount of precum and the fact that it does not sound like the perpetrator ejaculated inside you, your exposure risk is low.

But the numbers and probable risks aren't going to resolve this for you. We both know that you won't have peace of mind until you get the results of your test. I suspect that it will be the second negative that you need to hopefully put your mind at ease.

Best wishes for both a negative test and for an end to your worrying and uncertainty.

[mimame]

Hey there, first of all im very sorry to hear your story. To calm you down a bit here.

Some facts about HIV.

It takes about (6 to 12 weeks) 3 month before the virus can be detected in your blood, so hold your breath those months.
If your infected you normally experience a Flu like illness normally lasting 1-3 days this normally happens within 1 to 6 weeks. This is also an indication that you got infected, however you can get ill anyways without the virus.
The HIV virus is very weak outside the body, and it takes a certain amount of cum for it to be able to spread. Even though it enter your blood, the chance of getting infected is low it will need to enter a cell before it can spread. In your case with passive anal sex, only precum the chances is minimal.

There is no real statistisk showing the risk of unprotected sex, what is known is.

Passiv anal sex unprotected precum (very low risk)

Passiv anal sex (to the end) is like 1-10% (risk)

All together the chances of you catching the virus VERY low. You already had the 30 test, and im sure you just fine. What you need to deal with now is your emotions after such a bad experience, im sure you had a scar on your soul. I wish you the best luck in the future, Write me if you neeed someone to speak to.

[sexyalex]

Besides psychologist, and my best friend. No one knows.

From the 15-30 seconds he was in me. It doesn't change the minutes he kept touching me, he took of my clothes. And kept touching my genitals. You may be 16, but with all due respect you did make yourself look dumb. A psychologist is supposed to keep it under descreptancy. That means unless I'm hurting someone or commiting a crime. He can't report me to the authorities. -- even if its for my own good.

A psychologist can't tell the police, because there is a patient-doctor confidentiality

DO some research before you spew.




agh! >.< no no no....-holds in words- ok, i'm gonna pause for a sec, to say this in the most respectable way possible.
-pauses-
ok, good. My oldest sister, is a Psychologist, my cousin and best friend, they are studying Guidance and Counceling in university...I did my research and i did specify "why i come from".
sorry if i came off a a mockry to you but i build my principles base on morality, science and facts and its shocking how a therapist sits down and allow you to come to them and have u frighten for your life while the criminal gets away. All i am saying is, even if not for urself, u should have atleast reported it for someone else. You may not have been the only victim and think about how you feel right now....

maybe the next boy he rapes, will not handel it so well.

oh and..btw, I am not going to lie. I still don't see someone taking off your clothes, holding you down on ur back and having intercourse with you (especially to ejacualtion) in 15-30 seconds. But its ur story.
-mhm- not unless u bearly had on any clothes in the first place.

well, i want u to know u have my best regards.
-Alex.

[Ambrosio]

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Once again its called being privacy with the psychologist. (Trust me, I don't lose sleep if he did rape someone else. I'm the one who matters in my world. Yes that's a cruel thing to say. But I don't care. Seriously)
oh and btw, I pointed out that I was very intoxicated. (If I didn't mention that in the first post, I apologize) It just shows you haven't even read anything in the thread but YOU skimmed it.

that's the thing He didn't ejaculate, that's like the MAIN topic of this thread.
Seriously, you're trying to make yourself look intelligent but you can't get any point across. Try and read the thread next time


Anyway.. does anyone know how long it takes for the test results to come back? What is the average wait? For people who have done it?

I'm getting it done tommorow morning.

[mimame]

ít depends if you go through your doctor its 3-5 days wait before the answer. if you go to a screening center it takes 1hour

[Proud1p4]

Now now you two, no need to be sending out bad vibes.
Ambrosio, where it is a blood test efficient results are usually within a few days at the most.

[Martin]

Whoa, cat fight. :eek: As said above, lets cool it. :cool:

To make the mood better I edited a picture to get my message across. :D

http://i83.photobucket.com/albums/j317/LPK1990/bag.jpg

Stop hitting each other with handbags!

[sexyalex]

LMAO Martin. HIV results can be received on the very same day. in about a hour or less. The only way it takes about 3-5 days is if your getting tests for Syphilis as well.

Tell me i should do research now. :dry:
Trust me, I don't lose sleep if he did rape someone else. I'm the one who matters in my world. Yes that's a cruel thing to say. But I don't care. Seriously

I pitty ur attitude. and i really hope that your ego and not your personality. cuz that was cold. really cold. Bad things may keep happening to you if u keep thinking that way.

[Quitex]

Ambrosio, (*hug*)
Everything will be fine. the test will be negative. You'll feel better, and you will beable to move on and learn from what happened.

Alex, I am no one to judge you, but yeah.... a little off. I know Ambrosio does care about other people, but I bet that even yourself when this situation happens, you'll be watching for your health first. In my opinion, the one cold and really... hard to understand were you this time. So shall we learn to just respect the Original Poster, answer their question, offer emotional support, and so be it?

HIV results, at least from a respectable institution, won't be available the same day, within an hour, etc. They may last to three to five days. I would expect them by Wednesday.
Try not to freak out - it WONT change the results of the test. Do stuff that you like to do: Order pizza, watch movies, go to your friend's house to play gamecube or playstation or whatever, or go out with your parents somewhere, etc. Use your mind on other stuff that won't bring you back to wherever you are. Try not to stay in bed! The least you want now is to get more depressed.

And I am, I mean we all are here for you. Best of the lucks man, and think positive, because the exam will be negative :)

[Level N Human]

How was I mentally? For about a month and a half after the incident. I went to the psychiatrist. I refused to take psychotic drugs because I wanted to feel the pain. I tried to slice my arm, and commit suicide. If I ever see him again. I'd rip his reproductive organs into shreds with my hands.
I mean.

How would you feel if your first sexual experience EVER was done by force? (Yes, I was a complete virgin before that)

I just want to move on with my life. I've gotten some odd tests done for Gonorehea and Clamydia. Like urine test, but in conclusion. I haven't done an HIV test with a minimum of 3-month waiting period after you think you got infected. I do feel like already LIVE with it, that's the bad part.

I'm sorry that such a thing had to happen to you, and I hope your results are healthy and fine. You didn't mention it in your post, but do you mind if I ask if you are dealing with the incident okay mentally?


Hey, sorry if I offended you with my question. I didn't have any ill-intent. It's just you didn't mention too much of how you were feeling and I wanted you to vent and get anything off oyur chest if you needed to. I know rape is a serious and sensitive topic, which is why I asked if you minded my asking. I know you're being responsible and getting tested; just wanted to know if you were getting help with other aspects of it, is all.

Here's to hoping your results come back negative. (*hug*)

[Ambrosio]

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The way I felt after being raped was, I wasn't really upset by the fact I was "raped". I was more upset by the fact that my virginity was taken away without me saying "Yes". I always was very conservative with people back then. I've never even had a kiss with a boy or a girl. I was a total virgin in the whole fact. Then it made me feel dirty, I wasn't even emotional when I was driving home maybe half-drunk?

Then it HIT ME the next day, of course I couldn't stop crying AT ALL for the first week. I cut my left arm with a razor what I wanted to do was dig into the flesh. (Didn't do that) Then is started cutting my upper-right leg. Though when it started healing it was very painful for some reason, and the scars are very visible to this day. People many times ask me "What are those lines" on the arm? Of course I lie to them. (I don't want them to know)

Afterwards I got really drunk at home, I took oxycodone. And set myself in warm water in the shower. I tried to overdose and at least die slowly, as I didn't want to bring pain to myself. The next week I was seeing my psychologist. The psychologist didn't do anything, he gave me psychotic drugs that made me even more moodier. He gave me another prescription I didn't even bother taking it.

I healed by Accepting what happened to me, counceling didn't help in my case.
I tried to be humble about the situation, and bring inner peace with myself. Today hopefully everything goes well, I'm kind of paranoid. That I've been sick for two weeks (Flu and sore throat) Of course I think its HIV, I'm just that way. And I won't stop thinking about this until I get my results back.

[beckyg]

The fact that you are sick is probably due to stress.

I agree with Martin, that we need to try to understand eachothers points of view. Please do not throw insults at eachother. The original poster is going through a very difficult time. Let's try to offer support the best way we can.

[acorn7]

I'm so sorry of what has happened to you. I want to give you a huge hug for a very long time. I'm sending love vibes towards you...

More concretely, I really hope and I'm sincerely certain the tests will bring good news and bring you peace of mind on that front. There are so many words of support I want to offer you, but I can just say I believe in you and I believe in the higher powers, whoever they may be, to do the right thing.

As for the mental pain of dealing with the pain... all I can say is two things: talk about it with people you trust so you can put all of this behind you and get love, lots of it.

Hugs hugs hugs.

[Master Hade]

This is really terrible.... I feel for you and I am also sending you major love vibes!!!!!!!! Keep us informed!!!! :)

[Ambrosio]

Hello everyone got tested. WAs tested for general std's.
I'm positive for HIV, thank you rapist. :)

[Quitex]

Oh god.
I.... don't know what to say.

He didn't took away your will to live, to love and to fight. So keep a positive attitude.

Dude, I don't know what to say really.
I still can't understand why there are such selfish and awful people in this planet. However you gotta remember that it is up to you to get beat down or to move on (I know it is not easy, we all do) and I know it will take time but, you will do what is the best for you.

(again I just don't really know what to say)

(*hug*)(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

Jean.

[Level N Human]

Please don't lose your will to live - I know it may sound naive or flippant for a complete strange to say to you, but it doesn't make it less pertinent.

There is no way I can understand how you are feeling - I know that. But there must be some other people out there who can. If the last psychologist didn't work out for you, can you contact another? Maybe join a support group.

The man has taken your virginity, but don't let him take your dignity too.

I don't know what else to say.

[Ambrosio]

I guess its better to get infected with HIV through rape then me being promiscious.

I acquired HIV from being raped, so when I go the doc's that's what I will tell them. It would be nice to recieve this sympathy.

They said that you can live for over 15-20 years with good treatment. Because its getting better. Supposedly a cure for HIV has been found, but it hasn't been tested on humans yet. It will take at least another 5 years for them to attempt human trials.

[Level N Human]

Well I will be rooting for a cure, and I will be rooting for you in the meantime.

[Quitex]

Now HIV =/= Aids.
You can live until you turn 90 with HIV if it doesn't develops to AIDS.

However, a cure will come.

[TasteMyRainbow]

I wish there was something I could say to make this all better. There are no magic words I can come up with to make this seem less awful than it is.

When I was thirteen, I was raped in the woods near my school. That was my virginity as well. I know how you feel.

I know you're probably still angry, you have every right to be. I can't wave my hand and make it so that this didn't happen. I wish I could, but I can't.

All I can do is offer support and friendship, if you want it. That's all anyone can really do now. Everyone on this site is probably willing to support you, to the best of their ability. Me, as well. If you'd like to talk, pm me anytime.

Best of luck.

[Jim1454]

I'm sorry to hear about this...

I hope your bf is being supportive. How is he taking the news?

[Ambrosio]

Since we aren't sexually active, I won't tell him. Simple as that. -- If anything we will remain friends. But i still won't tell him.
I don't need people around me crumbling apart.

I'm getting prescribed anti-depressants next week. Anyone know any over-the-counter mood-calmers(anti-depressants) for now?

I'm sorry to hear about this...

I hope your bf is being supportive. How is he taking the news?

[Hidden Angel]

All I can say is I'm so sorry for what you went through and good luck. Let us all know the outcome we will be thinking of you
<HUGS>(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)

[Quitex]

Ambrosio, I understand that I can't put myself in your situation, however the thing that I would do if I receive such news is to tell only and ONLY the people I care. Sure, I would tell my boyfriend. However if he leaves you because of you being HIV+, then he was not worth in the first place.

Just my opinion, not my advice.

My advice: Don't drown in a glass of water.... even if this glass seems more like the ocean. Difficulties comes and goes, but hope and will to fight should always remain.

[Sam]

I'm sorry about what happened to you. Waiting is hard to do but hopefully it will be ok I wish you the best and hope it turns out ok. We are always here for you.

[omgitssum1]

I'm so sorry about what had happened and I hope that all goes well and you're not infected.

[Wonderwall]

(But in general my question is regarding STATISTCS) What are the chances of getting HIV. I know its different. Usually Ive heard its next to impossible to get HIV after one time. But I mean it only takes ONE time you know? -- I'm an extreme health freak, I got tested 4-5 times in the past months. (Because for my doctor every time I went, he made me take urine test. Just policy)

I can't help much here, but I remember one thing from 6th grade when we started talking about HIV for the first time.
My teacher kept saying, any risk is a high risk.
That doesn't help much with statistics, but that's all I really know

[mimame]

hehe yeah teachers in US tent to scare the youngsters

[Proud1p4]

I'm getting prescribed anti-depressants next week. Anyone know any over-the-counter mood-calmers(anti-depressants) for now?


St. John's Wort, but i would not take it. As most anti-depressants specifically list the herb as something not to mix with the medication. Better off going without.

Sending good vibes your way. (*hug*)

[EthanS]

I guess its better to get infected with HIV through rape then me being promiscious.

I acquired HIV from being raped, so when I go the doc's that's what I will tell them. It would be nice to recieve this sympathy.

They said that you can live for over 15-20 years with good treatment. Because its getting better. Supposedly a cure for HIV has been found, but it hasn't been tested on humans yet. It will take at least another 5 years for them to attempt human trials.

Aww(*hug*) Good Luck

[Rain33]

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The way I felt after being raped was, I wasn't really upset by the fact I was "raped". I was more upset by the fact that my virginity was taken away without me saying "Yes". I always was very conservative with people back then. I've never even had a kiss with a boy or a girl. I was a total virgin in the whole fact. Then it made me feel dirty, I wasn't even emotional when I was driving home maybe half-drunk?

Then it HIT ME the next day, of course I couldn't stop crying AT ALL for the first week. I cut my left arm with a razor what I wanted to do was dig into the flesh. (Didn't do that) Then is started cutting my upper-right leg. Though when it started healing it was very painful for some reason, and the scars are very visible to this day. People many times ask me "What are those lines" on the arm? Of course I lie to them. (I don't want them to know)

Afterwards I got really drunk at home, I took oxycodone. And set myself in warm water in the shower. I tried to overdose and at least die slowly, as I didn't want to bring pain to myself. The next week I was seeing my psychologist. The psychologist didn't do anything, he gave me psychotic drugs that made me even more moodier. He gave me another prescription I didn't even bother taking it.

I healed by Accepting what happened to me, counceling didn't help in my case.
I tried to be humble about the situation, and bring inner peace with myself. Today hopefully everything goes well, I'm kind of paranoid. That I've been sick for two weeks (Flu and sore throat) Of course I think its HIV, I'm just that way. And I won't stop thinking about this until I get my results back.


Uhm i went to therapy for attempted suicide. your story kind of sounds fake to me as well i agree with Alex. If it isnt fake then stop getting so mad when people are just trying to help you. And if you went to a therapist and told her all of this confidentiality(sp?) only goes so far they have to report certain things.

[Rbbhf111]

Another 16 year old trying to make themselves sound more intelligent then they actually are. Seriously do research and read a book. Not all "attempted" suicides are done the same.
There is a thing called patient-doctor agreement. A psychologist cannot disclose private information, unless the patient is trying to commit harm to other people. If you aren't going to provide anything useful then don't post anything.






Uhm i went to therapy for attempted suicide. your story kind of sounds fake to me as well i agree with Alex. If it isnt fake then stop getting so mad when people are just trying to help you. And if you went to a therapist and told her all of this confidentiality(sp?) only goes so far they have to report certain things.

Ambrosio -- My best friends mother specialized in AIDS for ten years and here is what I have to tell you.

Since your risk was a one time thing, you have a more chance of living a healthy life. Where as gay men if they have had the same HIV partner and had un-protected sex with them. The HIV strain would contract into the blood more then once which would make it difficult to treat.

If you get infected only once, your viral load can go to undetectable levels. There isn't a cure for HIV, there have been people who took the HIV drugs and the doctor stopped prescribing it to them. They are only taking One drug now!

Statisticlly a one time exposure is easier to treat then men and women who have sex constantly and can be exposed often.
Chances are your viral load will be so low at the end of treatment. ESPECIALLY since you are young. -- you have more of a chance of living a healthier life then lets say if you where in your 30's or 40's.

[Martin]

Hi peeps,

This is not the usual way to deal with these type of situations but as a few of you have expressed concern for the OP then I think it would be best you are informed to stop your worrying.

After investigating this thread EC staff have concluded it has been a made up fantasy by some bored member who is seeking attention. There has been quite a bit of suspicion towards this thread by various members and it seems that the member in question decided it would be fun to create a dupe account to start offering themself some advice. Furthermore, background checks conducted by EC staff have found that he is not who he says he is. We cannot be sure who he is, but his profile information is not consistant to that of other websites that he is a member of.

The member and dupe have now been banned, and we hope that the rest of you can forget about this thread as it has been nothing more than a sick hoax.