cavillor
25th Aug 2007, 01:33 AM
About two and a half weeks ago I changed my Facebook "interested in" to "men." I also personally notified five or six people I know well, including my (ex, though it's still odd to think of her that way!) girlfriend. My relationship with her spurred my coming-out. It's not that a woman's nethers are disgusting to me, as I know they are to some guys; I rather like the smell, to be honest. But, it wasn't doing a thing for me in my nethers, and she kept wanting to do things to me instead of me just doing things to her. I held out hope for a while, but eventually I could no longer handle the pressure of not being able to fulfill her sexually. Plus, there was the matter of three and a half years of gay sexual fantasy and porn. :icon_bigg
She took it very hard, but I think is mostly okay with it at this point. I've met a few gay guys over Facebook, which has been quite cool, though I'm not romantically interested in any of them. I am now out to everyone but my family. It's not that they would disown me, but it would be awkward. I'll let them know in a year, when I leave for college. (I sure as hell am not living at home any longer than I have to. Independent living has been one of my deepest fantasies for about fifteen months now! -- Again, not because I don't like my family, but because I am ready to be on my own!)
Yet very little else has happened! I have received no PMs from people on Facebook w/regards to my orientation. A few days after coming out, someone did shout something about "heterosexuality" to me -- he was driving by in his car as I was running. It seems a bit too coincidental for him to have been reacting to my Facebook modification, though. Probably I just have a funny way of running. :lol:
Mostly uneventful. I am still pretending to be dating my ex for the sake of my grandmother and my step-grandfather, the latter of whom is conservative enough that coming out would be awkward to no end. And for the sake of the rest of my family ... I suppose I'll have to announce the relationship's end to them, and come up with some inane reason.
She took it very hard, but I think is mostly okay with it at this point. I've met a few gay guys over Facebook, which has been quite cool, though I'm not romantically interested in any of them. I am now out to everyone but my family. It's not that they would disown me, but it would be awkward. I'll let them know in a year, when I leave for college. (I sure as hell am not living at home any longer than I have to. Independent living has been one of my deepest fantasies for about fifteen months now! -- Again, not because I don't like my family, but because I am ready to be on my own!)
Yet very little else has happened! I have received no PMs from people on Facebook w/regards to my orientation. A few days after coming out, someone did shout something about "heterosexuality" to me -- he was driving by in his car as I was running. It seems a bit too coincidental for him to have been reacting to my Facebook modification, though. Probably I just have a funny way of running. :lol:
Mostly uneventful. I am still pretending to be dating my ex for the sake of my grandmother and my step-grandfather, the latter of whom is conservative enough that coming out would be awkward to no end. And for the sake of the rest of my family ... I suppose I'll have to announce the relationship's end to them, and come up with some inane reason.