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[biisme]

I'm just wondering exactly what I do.

I mean, what's my role? What do people see me as? I completely suck ass at being sympathetic or whatever to other people. I mean, I let them rant at me and listen, but I'm terrible when it comes to advice for people. I'm the sort of person who just listens, and then that's it. Then I'm stuck. What then? My advice is terrible, even if I do give it.

And I see people on EC giving and sharing advice, and I just think, why can't I do that? Like I said, I can listen, but as for anything else I suck. And then I wonder just how useful a person I am on EC or anywhere else.

I mean, what do I do? What the hell do I do????

Sometimes what people really need is NOT someone to give them advice. Sometimes what they really need IS for someone to just listen.

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I've written erotica in class.

So have I. lol.

Me too, in the back of a very boring history lesson lol.

Haha, I'm not the only one! XD
I sit in the back of about half of my classes...:D

[Anonymous]

i really need to talk to someone but i don't know who :tears:

[biisme]

i really need to talk to someone but i don't know who :tears:

you can talk to me.

PM me.

(*hug*)

or, any of the other moderators. we're here to listen.

[Anonymous]

How do I help someone who doesn't know what's wrong, doesn't want to talk about it, and is becoming distant because of it? I don't think they're dperessed, and they don't either, but something's not right.

My secret is not everything is as hunky-dory as people see.

[Anonymous]

It turns out that the second I got over this crush, he got a boyfriend and asked him to the fall dance.

Suddenly I really don't want to go to that dance anymore.

Jealous of him.

Envious of his good looking boyfriend.

Confused on why it wasn't me.

[Joey]

Well... today sucked. Sucked badly enough to smoke a couple of cigarettes (which I haven't done in a long while) and go for a walk to clear my mind :/

Tomorrow's a new day though... busy too, so that should be good. I guess I'll hop in bed and read some more of my book so I can get to sleep. Goodnight.

[Anonymous]

I've written erotica in class.

So have I. And then I left it in my pocket and my mom found it when she was doing the wash. That was a horrible day,

[Anonymous]

I love Video Games...I think a little too much.

I HATE being the good guys. I want to be the bad guy, in real life. I want to be that guy that everyone fears, instead of simply takes advantage of, and tramples on. I love being that bad guy that everyone fears. I want to walk into a room and have people go "Ohh shit..." not "OHHH GREAT...YOU'RE HERE!?!?"

I'm tired of the Good Guys ALWAYS winning...For once it would be awesome to have the bad guys win...since that is what real life is like. Good guys don't always win, sometimes the bad guys do. Show Reality...not this "Good ALWAYS wins" crap.

Around family and friends, I always have on a happy face. At school...at home...but I know that deep inside, when I go to bed and end my day, I always wish for once I could be that bad guy.

[MeskElil]

Despite what the majority might think about God and Homosexuality, I believe in God and I beleive that he loves me despite the fact that I'm gay. It's what gives me my strength to keep going and to keep fighting...

Good for you! I'm glad you have something to hold on to.

[Wander]

When I'm feeling sad, I turn to FanFiction.net. Poorly written Harry/Draco stories by a raving thirteen year old girl are the greatest sources of comedy you can find online.

[Anonymous]

secret one:

you like me and i like you. i know you like me, and you don't know i like you.

why am i so intimidating to you? i'm really not as smart as i seem, not as arrogant, not as stuck-up as i seem. i think you're the only person who has ever seen my lack of self confidence or my idiosyncrasies as adorable.

how do i make myself less intimidating, more approachable?

we've been friends for far too long now. for how long have you liked me? how long will we dance this dance, hovering over the topic, never really getting there? i don't want to wait. if you want to do something, let's do it now; otherwise, i need to get over you now and focus on my work.

side note:

dear me,

you have other things i have to wallow in besides self pity, self loathing, and self medication. let's just get over the dramatics and focus on your work! it's your last year, you idiot. get some motivation and do something. you've done so well so far, and now it comes to this? i am embarrassed to have known you. you are better than this.

get your act together,
yourself

[Anonymous]

I was jokingly called a cum dumpster a few hours ago by someone on another forum. Even though they said sorry for it and explained it was a joke and I had a laugh, I kind of feel a bit pissed and angry with that person. :(

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I spend so much time on EC that when I go out, I'm shocked when I see a heterosexual couple holding hands. It's like "Oh yeah, there are straight people too" :lol:

[Anonymous]

ive been here since sunday
i cant be bothered to start my uni course
expensive mistake?




a month ago u cudnt get me out of your head...i left 3 days ago & it looks like you've forgotten me already
you're a heartless cow

[Anonymous]

I just spent $200 on books...No, not text books; fiction books....And I'm meant to be saving up to go to Canada...woops :D

I've rejected the three gay guys who were attracted to me...Am I too picky, or am I just being sensible in seeing that it would never work with someone who I don't like in that manner? Or that my friends don't like?...Should my friends' opinions matter when I look for a partner?

Im slipping back into old habits :(

I had a dream about someone's boobs falling out of a boob-tube when they were performing on stage...And after laughing at her, I started to feel really sorry for her, cos every time she attempted to pull her top up and continue dancing, they'd just pop out again. The poor girl :(

I hope my nipples never pop ou....Oh, wait, they already have on numerous occasions when drunk :D

[Anonymous]

I fell in love today.

[Anonymous]

I had a dream about someone's boobs falling out of a boob-tube when they were performing on stage...And after laughing at her, I started to feel really sorry for her, cos every time she attempted to pull her top up and continue dancing, they'd just pop out again. The poor girl :(


O_o

I fell in love today.

Do you care to tell us more?

[Anonymous]

I fell in love today.

Do you care to tell us more?

I just realised, about an hour ago. This isn't just lust anymore. I am in love. It was the words, 'You better get used to it, I'll always be there for you' that sealed the deal. I don't really know how I'm feeling, but it feels good. I feel content.

[Lexington]

I thought I'd made a major breakthrough this morning.
Then reality smacked the gargoyle in the face.
I'm not giving up.

Lex

[nodoubtjunkie]

I thought I'd made a major breakthrough this morning.
Then reality smacked the gargoyle in the face.
I'm not giving up.

Lex

Go for it Lex, We're all really proud of you.

[ccdd]

I want to get over my crush - but I can't!

But it's not like I only have one crush - I actually have two!

And I can't get over EITHER of them!

I try and I try but I just can't!


I just want to like someone who likes me back :tears:

[gutsrie]

Someone confessed to me but I didn't know how to respond because I don't even like the guy.

[Anonymous]

I fell in love today.


So Did I...

I hope you have better luck than I do.

[Muzzy]

I'm too good at procrastination for my own good...

[Anonymous]

I'm a jerk. I boss people around, give orders and assign menial, mindless tasks to people I think are below me. I have an overinflated ego. I constantly brag because I know people will get mad at me and yell at me if I talk about how I have low self-esteem. I feel alone lately.

[Paralyzer]

Sometimes I spend so much time on EC that when I go out, I'm shocked when I see a heterosexual couple holding hands. It's like "Oh yeah, there are straight people too" :lol:

Been there.. ;D

[Asteroid]

I'm a jerk. I boss people around, give orders and assign menial, mindless tasks to people I think are below me. I have an overinflated ego. I constantly brag because I know people will get mad at me and yell at me if I talk about how I have low self-esteem. I feel alone lately.

Hi there! Not to be too critical here, but I think you have identified a few things that you can change about yourself, and maybe you will not feel as alone. No one wants to be bossed around and be given orders. Maybe you can change that to asking people if they would mind doing it. Why do you think people are below you? If you treat others with respect and as equals, you will gain respect from them. Also, people will see you differently, maybe someone that they want to talk to.

The reactions you get and the fact that you feel alone lately, are related to how you treat others. Now, in terms of your low self-esteem, I try doing things that are good at (other than bossing and ordering people around). Do you have a or a couple of hobbies? Try to excel at something. Set yourself realistic goals. Try to achieve them. If you can't achieve them at first that's okay. Keep working at your goals. Over time as you do the things that you are good at and archive your goals, you will be able to build up your self-esteem.

Try to change a bit. I am sure it will help you in not feeling alone and you might find someone that is willing to listen to you when you want or need someone to talk to.

[Anonymous]

i'm at uni.freshers week starts next week.all i wana do is pull.just a few nice girls.come on.

[Anonymous]

i'm at uni.freshers week starts next week.all i wana do is pull.just a few nice girls.come on.

huh?

[Anonymous]

i'm at uni.freshers week starts next week.all i wana do is pull.just a few nice girls.come on.

huh?

what dont u get?

[Anonymous]

I seriously can not stop thinking about you. We talked for hours the other night, it seemed we hit it off? Now.. like it has been three days. I want to call but I have already. I'm not going to blow your phone up. Ugh. This plus what happened yesterday is just too much for me.

[Anonymous]

i thought you had gotten over me
you havent
you're not interested in anyone else
but now i'm ready to move on

arent i?

[Anonymous]

i'm at uni.freshers week starts next week.all i wana do is pull.just a few nice girls.come on.

huh?

what dont u get?

I'm at university. The first week (i.e. fresher / frosh week) starts next week. All I want to do is ???

I'm ok up to that point. What does pull mean? Just a few nice girls what? Come on what?

[lap531]

so im falling for this girl and ive only really know her for like 3 weeks and the only thing holding be back from asking her out is if i do and my parents find out i wont be able to hang out with her anymore. this really sucks

[Anonymous]

I can't take a joke about myself even when they tell me later on that they were just playing around.

[Anonymous]

todays accomplishment: actually eating dinner and without purging it afterwords even when i wish i didn't eat at all.

[Anonymous]

i'm at uni.freshers week starts next week.all i wana do is pull.just a few nice girls.come on.

huh?

what dont u get?

I'm at university. The first week (i.e. fresher / frosh week) starts next week. All I want to do is ???

I'm ok up to that point. What does pull mean? Just a few nice girls what? Come on what?
ohhh ok,pull = get with :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

i really dont know how i feel about u
you're expecting me to still be in love with you
how do i tell you that i love you,of course i do - i always will, but that i'm not IN love with you anymore

[Anonymous]

secret one: I love you, I know you love me back, but im afraid to mess up again

If only you knew how much my heart was breaking, I can't get the hell over you. I know it sounds kinda dramatic when I say this, but I seriously feel nothing anymore, I can't think of something for 5 mins without it somehow turning into something about you. I really do love you, I have been waiting, breaking, crumbling so patiently for you, waiting for you to come and help me pick up the pieces again. I can't love anyone else except you, I found love and to me anything else without you, isn't love its just there. Puta if you read this I wish you knew how much it hurts that your with that guy, and how when I see you in the band hallway during and I flash my most perfect dazzling grin to get you to say hi to me, when really inside I just want to wither away.

I still cry over you, you know.

I wish you'd just kiss me and embrace me, and say that we can be together and everything will be alright just one last time...i've never fought so hard for a guy, i've given everything I can away to you to see if you can somehow realize how much you mean to me. You are seriously my everything, without the hope of me and you being together one day soon, my life would have no meaning, i'd just be kinda a wandering soul in the purgatory that is high school. Dear God deliver me from this pain, I really don't think anyone can comprehend how helpless I feel.

Anyone...

[Anonymous]

I really wish there were an easy way to get him to come out to me, so that I would be more comfortable coming out to him. He's the first person I've felt a completely romantic, nonsexual connection with, and my gaydar is blipping slowly every time I get near him...we even share some of the same friends, but I've never actually spoken to him. Same grade and everything, but no classes together. What is it going to take?

[Asteroid]

I really wish there were an easy way to get him to come out to me, so that I would be more comfortable coming out to him. He's the first person I've felt a completely romantic, nonsexual connection with, and my gaydar is blipping slowly every time I get near him...we even share some of the same friends, but I've never actually spoken to him. Same grade and everything, but no classes together. What is it going to take?

Hi there! Why don't you try talking to him? When you do see him the next time, introduce yourself, try to talk to him and take it from there. Try to have a conversation with him. You have already one thing with which you could even start the conversation (i.e. sharing the same friends). Maybe try speaking to him during the lunch hour. I know it is easier said than done, but what do you have to lose?

[Anonymous]

Of all the people that could forget me now that i've moved away...why is it you i'm thinking of?why is it you that i'm scared will forget me?:bang::eek::eusa_doh:

[biisme]

secret one: I love you, I know you love me back, but im afraid to mess up again

If only you knew how much my heart was breaking, I can't get the hell over you. I know it sounds kinda dramatic when I say this, but I seriously feel nothing anymore, I can't think of something for 5 mins without it somehow turning into something about you. I really do love you, I have been waiting, breaking, crumbling so patiently for you, waiting for you to come and help me pick up the pieces again. I can't love anyone else except you, I found love and to me anything else without you, isn't love its just there. Puta if you read this I wish you knew how much it hurts that your with that guy, and how when I see you in the band hallway during and I flash my most perfect dazzling grin to get you to say hi to me, when really inside I just want to wither away.

I still cry over you, you know.

I wish you'd just kiss me and embrace me, and say that we can be together and everything will be alright just one last time...i've never fought so hard for a guy, i've given everything I can away to you to see if you can somehow realize how much you mean to me. You are seriously my everything, without the hope of me and you being together one day soon, my life would have no meaning, i'd just be kinda a wandering soul in the purgatory that is high school. Dear God deliver me from this pain, I really don't think anyone can comprehend how helpless I feel.

Anyone...

First off, (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

You can always talk to me.

[jazzrawr]

I hate being alone.
I always start to panic when i'm by myself for too long. >.<
Hopefully that'll go away...

[Anonymous]

I hate being alone.
I always start to panic when i'm by myself for too long. >.<
Hopefully that'll go away...

I'm with you there, I dont like being alone.
If I'm left alone for too long, I'll somehow manage to get myself depressed.

[Muzzy]

I hate being alone.
I always start to panic when i'm by myself for too long. >.<
Hopefully that'll go away...

I'm with you there, I dont like being alone.
If I'm left alone for too long, I'll somehow manage to get myself depressed.

[nodoubtjunkie]

I hate being alone.
I always start to panic when i'm by myself for too long. >.<
Hopefully that'll go away...

Aw jazz.
It's okay.
I always be here.
(*hug*)

[seanathon]

I always have a piece of paper to doodle on at my computer; sometimes I write really revealing things in my "language" because I can actually get it off my chest.

Tiri'so-ê'baü qiö-o'liku, taéb iï'liku'tun-mi no-ti-simé-vaé. O'taéné qiö oçu-baü'daéniöraéf'liveï-oö... O'taéné'tun-ju'nö tu-ti-diçaéné tis'taéjon. O'taéné'tun siçi'nö-oö, ru oçu'baü'daéniöraéf. : (

[Anonymous]

I hate being alone.
I always start to panic when i'm by myself for too long. >.<
Hopefully that'll go away...

(*hug*)
i know what you mean.
being alone freaks me out too.
(*hug*)


Tiri'so-ê'baü qiö-o'liku, taéb iï'liku'tun-mi no-ti-simé-vaé. O'taéné qiö oçu-baü'daéniöraéf'liveï-oö... O'taéné'tun-ju'nö tu-ti-diçaéné tis'taéjon. O'taéné'tun siçi'nö-oö, ru oçu'baü'daéniöraéf. : (

holy crap

[amyleona]

^ me by the way ^

[Anonymous]

I'm much prettier than my friends and it bothers me that they all have boyfriends and I don't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Or anything close to that. :rolleyes:

[Anonymous]

I'm much prettier than my friends and it bothers me that they all have boyfriends and I don't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Or anything close to that. :rolleyes:

Perhaps your feelings of superior prettiness have something to do with your singleness.

[Anonymous]

I once saw an episode of Poirot (I think it was Poirot anyway) where there was a murderer hidden behind a curtain. I've slept with my curtains open ever since...
Not that I'm scared of being murdered now, but I became accustomed to falling to sleep by the stars and waking up seeing the occasional red sky outside my window. It's always made my day a little brighter.

Thanks, fictional murderer :D

[Anonymous]

I'm much prettier than my friends and it bothers me that they all have boyfriends and I don't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Or anything close to that. :rolleyes:

Perhaps your feelings of superior prettiness have something to do with your singleness.


That's a possibility. But I don't think I'm like uber attractive. I just think that most of my friends are less attractive than me. I would say one is about the same attractive level as me, and another is prettier. But the other ones are just not as pretty.

Idk, maybe I'm also a little shallow.

[Anonymous]

I'm a bisexual girl.
Strangely, the only (ok, well a majority) of the guys that I like are gay.
WTF?

[Étoile]

I'm much prettier than my friends and it bothers me that they all have boyfriends and I don't have a boyfriend or a girlfriend. Or anything close to that. :rolleyes:

Perhaps your feelings of superior prettiness have something to do with your singleness.


That's a possibility. But I don't think I'm like uber attractive. I just think that most of my friends are less attractive than me. I would say one is about the same attractive level as me, and another is prettier. But the other ones are just not as pretty.

Idk, maybe I'm also a little shallow.

You also have to think about personality. I know several attractive people whose ugly personality actually makes them physically unattractive in my eyes. Maybe your friends' personalities outshines your looks and that's why people go for them more than you. Not saying you're a bitch or anything.:icon_bigg

[Anonymous]

I'm afraid to be alone with anyone.

[Anonymous]

I'm afraid that I will fail out of college.

Sometimes I think quitting school and being and working a lame job sounds so much better than going to school.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes i wish i had so many more problems and a much crappier life so all the anguish i feel would make more sense.

[Anonymous]

I've had falling out with a friend.
He's been a jerk about it lately, and last night after my friends party the remaining guests and myself ended up having a huge D&M (deep and meaningful) convo.
We all told each other really revealing stuff about ourselves then they started asking me about my our friend, the one who I had a falling out with.
I told them all about him and what kind of a person he really is but also told him that I'd told them.
Naturally he hates me more than ever but I'm sick of lying for him when he's being an arse to me.

He called me a terrible person but then threatened to expose the fact that I got a handjob from my best (straight) friend. Which is of no worry to me because I'm openly gay but he's still going to tell everyone despite the fact that it's only going to effect our friend.

I don't think I'm that terrible of a person, I just didn't feel obliged to lie for him anymore.
I do feel sorry for him though because he's still trying to threaten me with revealing my "secrets" when I have none.
Unlike him I'm honest with all my friends.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I want to strangle all the people who ask me "Are you mad at something? Or sad?" when they see me looking off into space. Is the world that stupid, that they've never seen someone thinking before?

[Starlight]

I feel so down right now, I don't think its possible to describe how down I feel. But I guess in the long run I need to feel this now in the hope that things will get better someday :(

[nodoubtjunkie]

I can only get to sleep if I'm listening to some form of audiobook. At the moment, it's Harry Potter, read by Stephen Fry. Otherwise I can't sleep, no matter how hard i try. Seriously, i can lie awake all night and get hardly any sleep, but i can fall asleep almost instantly with a chapter or so of Harry Potter.

[Anonymous]

The only being that knows just how far i went with my partner thursday night is my car.

[EthanS]

I can only get to sleep if I'm listening to some form of audiobook. At the moment, it's Harry Potter, read by Stephen Fry. Otherwise I can't sleep, no matter how hard i try. Seriously, i can lie awake all night and get hardly any sleep, but i can fall asleep almost instantly with a chapter or so of Harry Potter.

Maybe its because your used to listening to something when you go to sleep, I was like that i kept listening to music when i go sleep then I got used to it and when I stopped with the music i couldn't sleep

[Anonymous]

please just say "i love you" before i have to do it 1st. i've wanted so much just to say it,but i'm scared you wont say it back.

[Asteroid]

I feel so down right now, I don't think its possible to describe how down I feel. But I guess in the long run I need to feel this now in the hope that things will get better someday :(

I am sorry that you feel this way. Why do you feel this way? If you want to talk about it some more, feel free to pm me or any of the other EC advisors. We are here to listen and provide support.

I think taking the viewpoint that things will get better is definitely a step in the right direction. Have you talked to someone about it? If not, maybe consider talking to someone (such a counselor) about whatever makes you feel this way. If you feel that you need help, don't be afraid to ask for it.

I hope things will get better for you soon.

[Asteroid]

I'm afraid that I will fail out of college.

Sometimes I think quitting school and being and working a lame job sounds so much better than going to school.

Hey there! If you can, don't drop out of college. Dropping out of school and working at a 'lame job' isn't fun and you will regret it at some point later on in life.

Look at what you are doing right now (i.e. the programme that you are in, the courses you have, and the carrier path that you have chosen). If you are not happy with the current path that you have taken, try changing it. Ask yourself "what would interest me to do. What kind of a carrier would I like to have?" Look at your interests. I am sure there is something that you want to do. If you have troubles coming up with something, have a look at the information provided by your college. Browse through some of the programs that it offers and see if you find something there that would interest you more. Additionally, if possible, talk to a carrier counselor at your college who will also be able to help you in that regard.

Also, if you find it difficult to manage it all, try to develop some time management and organizational skills. Maybe you have to rearrange your priorities so that you have enough time to do the school work and be satisfied with the results. Most colleges offer instructional workshops on time management, organizational, and study skills. Maybe that's something that you could have a look at.

Whatever you decide to do, don't quit school. Quitting school is not a good idea.

[Wander]

No matter what the situation, no matter how dire or tragic, I can and will find a way to turn it into comedy. People have called me heartless and uncaring for it before, but I'd rather be laughing than depressed.

[Lexington]

^ Finding the humor in any situation is what makes life that much more bearable. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I feel like I'm on my own... :icon_sad:

[biisme]

I feel like I'm on my own... :icon_sad:

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[EthanS]

I feel like I'm on my own... :icon_sad:

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

(*hug*):)

[Anonymous]

I'm afraid that I will fail out of college.

Sometimes I think quitting school and being and working a lame job sounds so much better than going to school.

Hey there! If you can, don't drop out of college. Dropping out of school and working at a 'lame job' isn't fun and you will regret it at some point later on in life.

Look at what you are doing right now (i.e. the programme that you are in, the courses you have, and the carrier path that you have chosen). If you are not happy with the current path that you have taken, try changing it. Ask yourself "what would interest me to do. What kind of a carrier would I like to have?" Look at your interests. I am sure there is something that you want to do. If you have troubles coming up with something, have a look at the information provided by your college. Browse through some of the programs that it offers and see if you find something there that would interest you more. Additionally, if possible, talk to a carrier counselor at your college who will also be able to help you in that regard.

Also, if you find it difficult to manage it all, try to develop some time management and organizational skills. Maybe you have to rearrange your priorities so that you have enough time to do the school work and be satisfied with the results. Most colleges offer instructional workshops on time management, organizational, and study skills. Maybe that's something that you could have a look at.

Whatever you decide to do, don't quit school. Quitting school is not a good idea.

Thanks for that.

I could never actually quit school, it just seems so much easier. Half of my friends don't go to school and their lives (now) are much easier. It's just difficult to see it in the long run how it will pay off.

I couldn't quit school for the fact of upsetting my mother. My older brother is a bit of a screw up and I feel it is my responsibility to do well to make her proud.

Education is very important to me, but I bit off a little more than I could chew this semester.

[Anonymous]

If I had the will power I would be anorexic.
If I could gag myself I would be bulimic.

[biisme]

If I had the will power I would be anorexic.
If I could gag myself I would be bulimic.

I've actually thought that exact thing before.

But, I'm glad that I can't. It takes away the temptation of a really harmful condition.

[Anonymous]

whenever i read threads that other people wrote, you all seem so helpful, and it helps me.
but when i post a thread of my own asking for help, like two people respond with stuff like "follow your heart" and "do what feels right".
not helpful.
:eusa_hand

[Anonymous]

i think i'm becoming a stalker.
i just did something that makes me feel like one.
i really don't want to be.
:icon_sad:
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[Lexington]

>>>when i post a thread of my own asking for help, like two people respond with stuff like "follow your heart" and "do what feels right".
not helpful.

Sometimes, that's all we can offer. We can't make your decisions for you, after all.

Lex

[Anonymous]

I'm going to fail my freshman year of high school...:bang::bang::bang:

[Anonymous]

If I had the will power I would be anorexic.
If I could gag myself I would be bulimic.
(*hug*)
I've thought the same thing with the bulimia.
Did the anorexic thing, its not worth it. its better to diet and work out.

[Lexington]

>>>I'm going to fail my freshman year of high school...

Not if you take the right steps to prevent it from happening...

Lex

[Anonymous]

>>>>>I'm going to fail my freshman year of high school...

>>Not if you take the right steps to prevent it from happening...

Lex

I try to take the right steps but always get distracted...

[Anonymous]

I'd rather spend time on EC than hang out with my 'friends'

[Anonymous]

whenever i read threads that other people wrote, you all seem so helpful, and it helps me.
but when i post a thread of my own asking for help, like two people respond with stuff like "follow your heart" and "do what feels right".
not helpful.
:eusa_hand

So have you reflected on how other people ask for help, or what kind of problems they are asking for help with? Have you tried to clarify the issue when others have asked for more information? Perhaps it's you, not us. :dry:

[Lexington]

>>>I try to take the right steps but always get distracted...

Eliminate distractions. Unplug the computer, have your parents hold your Wii Remote, tell your friends not to call tonight.

Lex

[Anonymous]

ive made a great friend at uni
i dont want her to come round to our halls anymore though cuz i think i like her & i dont want anythin happenin with her & one of my flat mates

[xxAngelOnFirexx]

If I had the will power I would be anorexic.
If I could gag myself I would be bulimic.

i had been anorexic for a while and wanted to be bulimic. i found out how to do it. now i wish i hadn't.

[Anonymous]

I feel highly awkward being on EC while at my school library.

[Anonymous]

I wonder why I've always felt depressed whenever I gain feelings for someone... I think I really need to try and go at it in a different way. I want to actually enjoy having these feelings and not care about actually wanting to be with that person. Well, maybe I would care, but I want make those happy thoughts.

[jazzrawr]

I feel highly awkward being on EC while at my school library.

I never go on EC at school, too many of my friends come over and look over my shoulder >.<

[rawr].

[davo-man]

I feel highly awkward being on EC while at my school library.

I never go on EC at school, too many of my friends come over and look over my shoulder >.<

[rawr].

I'm at my uni library right now! :D I used to be awkward as well, but I figure, all the people who care, know, and all the people who dont matter, dont matter, if that makes sense

[Anonymous]

I feel highly awkward being on EC while at my school library.

I never go on EC at school, too many of my friends come over and look over my shoulder >.<

[rawr].

I'm at my uni library right now! :D I used to be awkward as well, but I figure, all the people who care, know, and all the people who dont matter, dont matter, if that makes sense

(Original Poster)
I go to a community college where I know nobody. So in some ways I wouldn't care if someone looked over my shoulder, because really, if the person doesn't know me, they're not going to call one of our mutual friends (because we don't have any) and be like omg, guess who's gay?!?

[Anonymous]

I have all my most visited websites on my toolbar: facebook, yahoo email, cox email, school email, wikipedia, my bank. I definitely don't have EC saved anywhere, so I always have to type it in. And, every couple days I erase the history off my computer just in case. Also, if I know someone is going to come over I erase the history.

Just in case when someone comes over they
use my computer
go somewhere not on my toolbars
it happens to start with an E
and they type slow enough to see EC pop up.

Really...? It's definitely not necessary to be this paranoid, especially because I don't think any of my friends have ever used my computer.

[Anonymous]

Sucked a dick once hated it

[Anonymous]

Sucked a dick once hated it

I'm terrified to do that, partially for that reason.

[Lexington]

^ I thought it would be the most amazing thing in the world...until I tried sucking one the first time, and it wasn't any big deal. Then I wondered if there was something wrong with me.

...until I went to bed with someone I really cared for. Then, suddenly, I couldn't get enough of it. :D

Lex

[Anonymous]

Idk why, but I always thought that Paul_UK was asian.

[Wander]

Out of my entire school, there are maybe two or three people I enjoy spending time with. I don't feel superior to all them, I don't put myself on a higher level, but I've always felt like a person watching television. Where the entire world is in the TV, and I'm on the couch outside it. I'm having way too much fun watching the chaos to drag myself into it.

[Anonymous]

I wish I could sing like Duffy...

[Nodnarb]

This weekend is Homecoming Coronation, and I'm really excited about going. I'm not sure if its just because of that, or just a combination of everything, but I'm feeling happier than I have felt in a LONG time. But then, Sean decides to go with our group. And I just got over that damn crush I've had on him forever. And going out and spending the whole day with him(especially when he is all cute and dressed up:)), when I've hardly talked to him for months now, has me worried that all those feelings will come back.

I've always felt like a person watching television. Where the entire world is in the TV, and I'm on the couch outside it. I'm having way too much fun watching the chaos to drag myself into it.

I feel like that a lot, but I really hate that I do it. But sometimes watching the "chaos" is just too much fun.:)

[seanathon]

This weekend is Homecoming Coronation, and I'm really excited about going. I'm not sure if its just because of that, or just a combination of everything, but I'm feeling happier than I have felt in a LONG time. But then, Sean decides to go with our group. And I just got over that damn crush I've had on him forever. And going out and spending the whole day with him(especially when he is all cute and dressed up:)), when I've hardly talked to him for months now, has me worried that all those feelings will come back.

I've always felt like a person watching television. Where the entire world is in the TV, and I'm on the couch outside it. I'm having way too much fun watching the chaos to drag myself into it.

I feel like that a lot, but I really hate that I do it. But sometimes watching the "chaos" is just too much fun.:)

I. just. realized.

Nodnarb is BRANDON backwards.

:O

[Nodnarb]

This weekend is Homecoming Coronation, and I'm really excited about going. I'm not sure if its just because of that, or just a combination of everything, but I'm feeling happier than I have felt in a LONG time. But then, Sean decides to go with our group. And I just got over that damn crush I've had on him forever. And going out and spending the whole day with him(especially when he is all cute and dressed up:)), when I've hardly talked to him for months now, has me worried that all those feelings will come back.

I've always felt like a person watching television. Where the entire world is in the TV, and I'm on the couch outside it. I'm having way too much fun watching the chaos to drag myself into it.

I feel like that a lot, but I really hate that I do it. But sometimes watching the "chaos" is just too much fun.:)

I. just. realized.

Nodnarb is BRANDON backwards.

:O

Yup. Two years ago my history teacher gave us a quiz just to waste some time, and the first question was "What is your name spelled backwards?" We went around and compared our backwards names, and everybody loved mine, so it became my nickname.:)

[Anonymous]

I like a boy, but I wish I liked a girl.

[Anonymous]

I had lustful feelings for a friend of mine.

They lasted about two/three days.

I so heavily regret it that I'm willing to cut off all connections with that person.

The thought makes me sick to my stomach.

[Joey]

My friends worry too much about their school work and grades and push a lot of people away from them (i.e. me). I think it would be good for them to get away from their schoolwork for an hour or so during lunch and have a fun conversation or something.



Also, my secret is that I haven't done any work since last.... Thursday...? or so. I'm not completely positive on that one. Also, I woke up this morning and got dressed, only to wear an outfit I thought wasn't suiting me today, so I changed my pants a few minutes ago. I think it looks much better.

[Anonymous]

Practicly every gay person ive met recently seem to like me.
And they just tell me.
I want them to stop.
They tell me when my boyfriend is right next to me.

[nodoubtjunkie]

I had the best art lesson ever.
We were mod rocking.
We had to do random parts of each others body.
Sitting next to and therefore getting partnered with the girl of my dreams, and having to cling-film and mod rock her body was just bliss.
And we genuinely made some fantastic pieces of work. Our teacher was very proud. XD
I mean, seriously, how can one girl resist the chance to touch the girl she dreams about?

You're right. You can't XD

[Anonymous]

My friends worry too much about their school work and grades and push a lot of people away from them (i.e. me). I think it would be good for them to get away from their schoolwork for an hour or so during lunch and have a fun conversation or something.



Also, my secret is that I haven't done any work since last.... Thursday...? or so. I'm not completely positive on that one. Also, I woke up this morning and got dressed, only to wear an outfit I thought wasn't suiting me today, so I changed my pants a few minutes ago. I think it looks much better.

Since you haven't done any work since approximately Thursday why not join your friends at lunch and work together? You'll be doing work and you'll be with your friends at the same time~! (Which is usually what I do:lol:)

[Paul_UK]

Idk why, but I always thought that Paul_UK was asian.

I'm not! :confused:

[Anonymous]

i cross my fingers when i tell my girlfriend i love her. I cross my fingers when i promise that its her that i want to be with. I know i shouldn't, and i know its wrong, i just don't know what else to do. I'm in love with someone else, but i don't ever want to hurt her, i don't want to break her heart. She's more into me than i am to her, and i don't know how to deal with it.

[Lexington]

^ Did you used to love her, but "slipped out"? Or have you just started saying "Yeah, I love you, too" just to spare her feelings? If you do care for her, and you think you COULD love her, then feel free to stay with her for a bit and try to keep the relationship going. If not, it's best to hurt her now than string her along and hurt her worse later on...

Lex

[Anonymous]

^ I used to love her. Alot. I still do, just not like i used to. I love her like I love her like I love my cat, I love her like I love my best friend, you know what I mean? It's comfortable. Maybe too comfortable. I want to be with someone who makes my heart race, and still give me that fire in the pit of my stomache, but its just comfort, like old slippers. They feel good, but they maybe aren't the best for your feet? I don't know. I don't know whether the 'spark' would ever be able to come back, i just don't know whether it could.

[Joey]

My friends worry too much about their school work and grades and push a lot of people away from them (i.e. me). I think it would be good for them to get away from their schoolwork for an hour or so during lunch and have a fun conversation or something.



Also, my secret is that I haven't done any work since last.... Thursday...? or so. I'm not completely positive on that one. Also, I woke up this morning and got dressed, only to wear an outfit I thought wasn't suiting me today, so I changed my pants a few minutes ago. I think it looks much better.

Since you haven't done any work since approximately Thursday why not join your friends at lunch and work together? You'll be doing work and you'll be with your friends at the same time~! (Which is usually what I do:lol:)

They take their lunches in their rooms... I take my in the cafeteria maybe with some work but I usually stick to a novel I'm reading. Lunch used to be the time we would get together and talk and joke around and stuff but they stopped doing all that jazz.



And I've got another one (Wooooo). So, lately I've been finding myself in a dismal mood, intermittent headaches and a general feeling of loneliness and just, kinda... blah all together. I don't really want to be in this funk, but I can't help it and it doesn't feel like it will end any time soon; it really cuts into my work time because I can't really concentrate and I have a general lack of motivation :/. I've got almost 2 more weeks before I can go home for break and leave this horrible place for a while.... I'm very much looking forward to that time.

[Anonymous]

Idk why, but I always thought that Paul_UK was asian.

I'm not! :confused:

Oh I know. I used to work at a Chinese restaurant and there were two Pauls that worked there too. So I just associate the name Paul with Asians, even tho it's not an Asian name.

[Anonymous]

A new girl came to my church tonight. I couldn't stop staring at her. But chances are she's straight.

[Anonymous]

I don't hate them or anything, but I feel almost completely unattached from my father's side of the family. They're the complete opposite of me - all country people, mostly military, not much base education.

[Anonymous]

Why is it that almost every thread I post in dies? I know I haven't posted much (I'm quite close to 500 posts...), but this is really pissing me off. Even when anonymous, I only get a few replies. I think I may leave this place... I don't really want to though...

:mad:

[Anonymous]

Why is it that almost every thread I post in dies? I know I haven't posted much (I'm quite close to 500 posts...), but this is really pissing me off. Even when anonymous, I only get a few replies. I think I may leave this place... I don't really want to though...

:mad:

I'm one step ahead of you, I'm already leaving....

[Lexington]

>>>Why is it that almost every thread I post in dies? I know I haven't posted much (I'm quite close to 500 posts...), but this is really pissing me off. Even when anonymous, I only get a few replies. I think I may leave this place... I don't really want to though...

Is that what you're looking for here? People responding specifically to what you're posting? In that case, it's almost certainly not you. Otherwise, the other ECers would be all over your anonymous posts to the exclusion of those with your name on them. So if it isn't you, it may be what you're posting, or how your posts are worded.

Look over your past posts. What are you posting? How are you phrasing things? Do your posts sort of invite people to get involved? Are they open-ended? Do they ask questions, and ask people to join in? Really simplistic examples:

"Coldplay rocks!"

Nothing wrong with that post, but especially if it's in response to somebody else's comment about Coldplay, it won't invite much comment. If anybody responds, they're more likely to respond to the first person who mentioned Coldplay, rather than you.

"I love Coldplay! I actually didn't like the new album when I first heard it, but the more I listen to it, the more I love it."

Better. It gives people something better to latch onto - something specific to discuss. But it can be more inviting.

"I love Coldplay! I actually didn't like the new album when I first heard it, but the more I listen to it, the more I love it. Anyone else feel this way?"

Still better. It openly INVITES people to respond.

"I love Coldplay! Who here has heard the new album? What did you guys think of it? It took me a while to get into it, and there's a few songs I still don't get - like the first one - but the rest of it is really growing on me. What do you guys think?"

Much much better. It makes your position very clear, while inviting people to discuss and even debate what you've said. This sort of post is a lot more likely to get some responses.

Some topics aren't going to get much response. I don't often mention Duran Duran or my late 80s cartoon fixation here, mainly because I know the vast majority of folks here aren't going to share my enthusiasm. Sure, in a thread about "what bands do you like", I'll mention Duran Duran. But I probably won't start a "what's your favorite Duran Duran song" thread, because I'm betting that won't have legs. :)

If at any time you're specifically craving interaction, it's best if you don't go fishing for it - go GET it. Jump in the chatroom and start a conversation. Send a wall message or PM to somebody you like. Hit up an advisor if you want to talk about something. The direct approach is usually the best. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

Even when anonymous, I only get a few replies.

Maybe that shows that your posts aren't being responded to because of what they are, not who you are. Anyway, I don't think EC is about recognition.

So stick around and maybe if you want to get some more attention, like Lex said go into chat or post more in the fun and games thread where you can interact with everyone else :) And we don't want you to leave! :)

[Anonymous]

after callbacks where posted, i just told everyone that i auditioned for extra credit. in reality, i auditioned for real. i wanted to be in this show so much. i didnt even get a callback. terrible actors who auditioned for no good reason got into the show, but i didnt. people who dont belong in theatre got in. people who dont spend every second dreaming about ashland and broadway got leads.

i would give up so much to play antigone, but i cant even get a callback for chorus.

right now, i feel talentless, worthless, unwanted...a loser, basically.

[Anonymous]

men with only a mustache (no beard or goatee) freak me out. they look extra-horny or something to me. its just creepy!

[Paralyzer]

men with only a mustache (no beard or goatee) freak me out. they look extra-horny or something to me. its just creepy!

HAHA :grin:
Well.. that sorta describes me, except I have a bit of hair under my lip.. however I actually shaved my moustache the other week so it looks a lot thinner now than in my pictures.

[Anonymous]

I think I found some I have actual disdain for... Wyatt... Shame though, because he has such a cool name. I think he should shut his mouth long enough for someone to make a point. And stop calling people faggots when then miss a shot... he's lucky I didn't swat him across the mouth with my cue...

[Lexington]

>>>terrible actors who auditioned for no good reason got into the show, but i didnt. people who dont belong in theatre got in. people who dont spend every second dreaming about ashland and broadway got leads.

Don't let this be a crushing blow. Find out how to use it to your advantage. See if you can meet with the person/people you auditioned for. Tell them that you respect their decision, but you're looking to do more stuff in the theater, and you'd like to know what you might do differently next time. Prepare to hear some rough criticism (even if it's couched nicely), and steel yourself to take it. Don't argue it - listen to it, mull it over, and think about how you can knock them dead next time. And, if possible, see if there's some behind-the-scenes stuff you can do. Programs designed and printed, lighting, sound?

Lex

[Anonymous]

I always wanted to be the kid who ran away...

(because it seemed so cool)

...I guess I sort of am... but I'm mostly the dyke who went to college and came back as a guy...

[Lexington]

^ That's infinitely cooler. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I think I found some I have actual disdain for... Wyatt... Shame though, because he has such a cool name. I think he should shut his mouth long enough for someone to make a point. And stop calling people faggots when then miss a shot... he's lucky I didn't swat him across the mouth with my cue...

I knew a kid named Wyatt, he was pretty cute, but my friends always called him "gay" and that's how I found out that they were complete homophobes. I stopped hanging out with them (well, they stopped hanging out with me), so I never got the chance to tell them that they are so stupid-- HE WASN'T GAY!!!!! My gaydar is 90% on the money, and he was straight as an arrow.... god they were so fucking stupid. I hate them.

[Anonymous]

>>>terrible actors who auditioned for no good reason got into the show, but i didnt. people who dont belong in theatre got in. people who dont spend every second dreaming about ashland and broadway got leads.

Don't let this be a crushing blow. Find out how to use it to your advantage. See if you can meet with the person/people you auditioned for. Tell them that you respect their decision, but you're looking to do more stuff in the theater, and you'd like to know what you might do differently next time. Prepare to hear some rough criticism (even if it's couched nicely), and steel yourself to take it. Don't argue it - listen to it, mull it over, and think about how you can knock them dead next time. And, if possible, see if there's some behind-the-scenes stuff you can do. Programs designed and printed, lighting, sound?

Lex


i asked he director and she told me to work on the script. which is ridiculous. i worked non-stop for 6 days. i can tell you every single word, every possible pronounciation for the names. i have blocking, costuming and lighting. i even have a pantomine worked out for the guys audition monologue. i built entire lives for antigone and ismene. i projected well enough to be heard throughout the entire theatre. in my drama class, i was told that, out of the 28 students, i was one of the 4 who would get a callback.

i would actually love to do tech. props and stage crew...i rock that shit. but, no. i cant for this show because im only a sophomore. its going be junoirs and senoirs who need credits and stagecraft students, most of which dont know what the hell theyre supposed to do.

the director knows me. shes my drama teacher, and is always telling me to not say all of the answers in class. she went with me to ashland, so she knows that osf is The Dream for me. she just...i dont know what she is, actually.


its really pissing me off.

[Lexington]

Then you wait. And you let the "inferior" students have the play this year.

And next year, it's your turn.

Lex

[Anonymous]

men with only a mustache (no beard or goatee) freak me out. they look extra-horny or something to me. its just creepy!

HAHA :grin:
Well.. that sorta describes me, except I have a bit of hair under my lip.. however I actually shaved my moustache the other week so it looks a lot thinner now than in my pictures.

I like to call that a creeper 'stache

[Anonymous]

The only woman I've ever had a crush on is someone I work with. The thing is, she's 12 years older than me. She has been with her partner for ten years I believe. The really weird thing, is, about 5 years ago, she was my teacher...I feel strange when I work with her...

[Anonymous]

the other day i accidentally walked into a door frame and scraped my arm.

i scare myself because i like the way the cut looked and felt.

[Anonymous]

I'm GAY!
lol

[Anonymous]

I wish I was closer to people on EC. I've been here six months or so and I try to be friendly and all, but I don't really feel accepted. I don't feel like I belong anywhere in my life in general, really.

[biisme]

I wish I was closer to people on EC. I've been here six months or so and I try to be friendly and all, but I don't really feel accepted. I don't feel like I belong anywhere in my life in general, really.

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[heatqueen]

I'm GAY!
lol

Congratz. :)

[Anonymous]

I feel sick, cos I ate too much pizza :(

[Anonymous]

I'm very excited for class today- we get to do the whole thing on pointe! And I get to see my gf!

(Lol, I'm sure everyone knows who this is but IDRC!)

[Anonymous]

I have a crush on this guy and I think he might like me too. But I'd rather have a crush on a girl.

PS I'm a girl.

[Anonymous]

My friendship with my best friend had been destroyed; I don't know if it can ever be fixed. It requires me to do what I've been most afraid of for 6 years.

[nodoubtjunkie]

My stepdad just put the picture i had of my parents on their wedding day in the bin, infront of me. I kept it because even though they've been broken up for 5 years now, i was happy before they broke up, my parents look so happy in that photo, and it meant alot to me. They got married 19 years ago, i am the spitting image of my mum. She was pregnant with my older brother at the time, and it just makes a lovely photo.

But now it's ripped up, thrown in the bin and disposed of and i can't get it back. I don't know why it's got to me so much, i really wish it didn't.

Oh, and to make me feel better, i'm listening to 'Oh, Carolina' by Shaggy. I think thats quite shameful, it's post secret worth lol.

Damn stepdad.

[Wander]

I feel sick, cos I ate too much pizza :(

For dinner last night, I ate three pieces of pizza with loads of sauce and cheese when normally my limit is two, and right afterward I drank two cans of caffeine-filled Mountain Dew. My stomach hurt the whole rest of the night.

[Anonymous]

I want to be able to face my problems instead of turning to booze and cigarettes. Trouble is, I find a bit of mind-numbing a lot easier than talking to people about stuff that upsets me.

[Lexington]

>>>I find a bit of mind-numbing a lot easier than talking to people about stuff that upsets me.

Easier, perhaps. But once the buzz wears off, you're back where you were.
Once you talk with them, though, it's handled.

Lex

[Anonymous]

I honestly can say I do not hate a single person =/

[nodoubtjunkie]

I'm a secretish poet. It's my only 'constructive' outlet really. It helps me to not damage myself.
Anyways:

everytime i close my eyes
to slip into my world of dreams
where everything is possible
and nothing is as it seems
you're always standing there
the beautiful dilemma you are
to make my heart skip a beat
never near, and always far
I'll reach out for you
the same as every night
desperate to touch your face
trying with all my might
then, in my waking world
the one you've shook so hard
you've fixed my broken heart
picked up all the shards
you're amazing, sacred,
beautiful, free
How can i tell you,
you're the one for me?

[Anonymous]

i kno some people really love it but i'm way disgusted by the thought of anal sex

[Lexington]

>>>i kno some people really love it but i'm way disgusted by the thought of anal sex

That's fine. So was I. For several years, anyway. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

i miss my 8th grade teacher more than anything. i would give up my voice to be able to have her back in my life.

i havent done any writting in over a year be cause my teacher was the one who encouraged me to keep writting.

she was tried for "lewd contact with a student". bullSHIT. she wouldnt, she couldnt. its not her.

now she cant be in the same room as her sister without having to have a chparone older then 21.


she was my everything. she still is.


im going to my old school on wednessday. i have to see if the office has her address.

if they dont have it, im calling every rogers in southern california.

i need to face my fear of being there--where she was. i need to tell her what happened after she left.

i need to see her again.

[Anonymous]

My friendship with my best friend had been destroyed; I don't know if it can ever be fixed. It requires me to do what I've been most afraid of for 6 years.

but i've already started. and it's going okay. i hope to god this is enough,

[Étoile]

>>>terrible actors who auditioned for no good reason got into the show, but i didnt. people who dont belong in theatre got in. people who dont spend every second dreaming about ashland and broadway got leads.

Don't let this be a crushing blow. Find out how to use it to your advantage. See if you can meet with the person/people you auditioned for. Tell them that you respect their decision, but you're looking to do more stuff in the theater, and you'd like to know what you might do differently next time. Prepare to hear some rough criticism (even if it's couched nicely), and steel yourself to take it. Don't argue it - listen to it, mull it over, and think about how you can knock them dead next time. And, if possible, see if there's some behind-the-scenes stuff you can do. Programs designed and printed, lighting, sound?

Lex


i asked he director and she told me to work on the script. which is ridiculous. i worked non-stop for 6 days. i can tell you every single word, every possible pronounciation for the names. i have blocking, costuming and lighting. i even have a pantomine worked out for the guys audition monologue. i built entire lives for antigone and ismene. i projected well enough to be heard throughout the entire theatre. in my drama class, i was told that, out of the 28 students, i was one of the 4 who would get a callback.

i would actually love to do tech. props and stage crew...i rock that shit. but, no. i cant for this show because im only a sophomore. its going be junoirs and senoirs who need credits and stagecraft students, most of which dont know what the hell theyre supposed to do.

the director knows me. shes my drama teacher, and is always telling me to not say all of the answers in class. she went with me to ashland, so she knows that osf is The Dream for me. she just...i dont know what she is, actually.


its really pissing me off.

I know you're angry, but that's not the way you should think. You don't know how much the other people like theatre; they could like it just as much as you or even more than you. And even though you feel you are better than them in theatre (and maybe you really are better than them), that doesn't mean the people who got accepted were random kids who had nothing else better to do. There's probably been instances were you've gotten accepted into a play and a rejectee felt you sucked, but you rightfully earned that spot. No need to be so hot and bothered over this. Be happy for the people who made it.:thumbsup:

[Nodnarb]

SOOOO.....I just got back from Coronation a while ago...and it was a GREAT (and strangely gay-themed) night!

I met Sophie's friend Matt from college....he was really nice. And he's gay:D

Anyways...all the way up to La Mesa and while we were eating, Phil was flirting with Kris. Then, on the way back, he pretty much outed himself. But I have no idea if he was joking or what....

Then Rus won King. Too bad Nikki didn't win Queen:(

Then the Dance....a lot of fun. I danced with Phil a bit, and Heather was trying to set me and Grace up all night. It was hilarious, but I did end up dancing with her most of the night.

Then we went back and were just standing around outside of Sophie's and talking. And Phil was flirting with Kris again. And Fallon says, "Why don't you just kiss him and get it over with already." And Kris and Phil kind of mumble something. And Fallon says, "Come on Kris. Let him to it. Just on the cheek or something." And Kris says, "Isn't that a bit gay?" And we change subjects for awhile.

Then Phil's mom get there to pick him up, and Phil hugs Fallon and then goes over to hug Kris. And kisses him. Fallon started jumping up and down and clapping. It was hilarious. I was surprised Kris didn't freak out at all. He didn't seem to care, which is a VERY good sign. So Phil leaves and we start to debate whether or not he is gay. Fallon thinks he's bi. But I'm about 99% sure he's gay. I knew Matt was gay the second Sophie introduced me to him, and it was the same with Phil.

And apparently some guy named Jordan, presumably from our school, is gay. Fallon was going on about how excited she was because he told her and now he has a boyfriend. I wonder if its the guy I had a crush on last year....who I also thought was gay. Maybe my gay-dar is better than I thought:)

[Anonymous]

I really like EC and all the people on here.

I'm very impressed by the number of people here that come out, knowing that thier parents/friends won't be supportive. I'm 95% sure that my mom and closests friends would be completely supportive and yet coming out to any of them is definitely not something on my to do list.

[Anonymous]

I absolutely love my bf more than anything. I've been with him for over a year and I'm so happy to have him. But there is just one thing that really bothers me sometimes. The fact that he's bi and I'm not. Well I just think that I know he has to have sexual feelings and desires for the other sex, and that I could never completely 100% satisfy him, whether he admits it or not, I'm so certain that this is true. I know he loves me, and wants only me, but still, the thought that I'm depriving him of what he really wants, and the fact that he even wants it, really bothers me. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

i'm scared i masturbate in my sleep...

[Anonymous]

I want all relationships to fail. I love romance and love, but I can't stand relationships, even though I want one so badly. Well, I want all relationships but the one I'm in to fail.

A friend of mine put it nicely: When you're single, it's like you're walking down the street and watching all these parties going on inside, and you want so badly to be in there with everyone. Once you get in, you're having a good time, but you need air, you crave a different party because it's getting so boring.

Fuck relationships.

[Anonymous]

I want all relationships to fail. I love romance and love, but I can't stand relationships, even though I want one so badly. Well, I want all relationships but the one I'm in to fail.

A friend of mine put it nicely: When you're single, it's like you're walking down the street and watching all these parties going on inside, and you want so badly to be in there with everyone. Once you get in, you're having a good time, but you need air, you crave a different party because it's getting so boring.

Fuck relationships.

Wow.
Thats a miserable way of thinking.
Just cuz you can't find love you want everyone else to suffer...
Horrible...
Why not just get out there and try to find someone, I'm sure you'd be much happier

[Lexington]

>>>A friend of mine put it nicely: When you're single, it's like you're walking down the street and watching all these parties going on inside, and you want so badly to be in there with everyone. Once you get in, you're having a good time, but you need air, you crave a different party because it's getting so boring.

That's just "greener grass" syndrome. It has nothing to do with relationships per se. People like to think that they're getting the raw end of the deal, and if only they'd be on the other team, all their problems would be solved, and life would be sunshine lollipops and rainbows.

Bullshit. Entering a relationship doesn't end your problems. It just swaps out your "single" problems for "in a relationship" problems. And breaking up does the same thing in reverse. I'm not saynig that people shouldn't get into relationships, or leave ones that aren't going well. But anyone who thinks that a problem-free life is waiting just around the corner is going to be hellaciously disappointed for a very long time.

Lex

[Anonymous]

you just asked how long i thought we'd be going out with each other
thing is...
i wasnt aware we were exclusively back together








crap

[Anonymous]

Ed I've dreamed about you two nights in a row. Last night I dreamt you looked directly into my eyes the way you used to do and you took my hand in yours and I knew we'd never be apart again. I didn't want to wake up.

[Anonymous]

i'm scared i masturbate in my sleep...

http://teenadvice.about.com/od/factsheetsforteens/a/10thingswetdr.htm

[Anonymous]

I'm disgusted by the human race.

I HATE that people will judge and judge and judge someone they might not even know based on something they've been told or heard. Based on something that takes human beings off of a level plane and lowers them to less-than. Lower class. I thought perhaps I was exaggerating in times past but I see it now. I see it objectively. I witnessed the conversation of a hundred people, without participating, about a man they've never met. It is, without doubt, how they perceive strangers...homosexual strangers...and what they would like to do while crying out the name of their Saviour.

I'm am terrified. Will this be my fate? My skull smashed by the both ends of the axe as the faceless assailant cries Christianity? Could they possibly act on what they say they would?

[Anonymous]

I feel like crying myself to sleep for the first time in a long time.

[Anonymous]

>>I feel like crying myself to sleep for the first time.

I usually do that 4times a week :help:

[Anonymous]

I don't want to tell my friends but I want them to know. I don't want to have some awkward coming out conversation. I know they won't care, but I don't want to deal with all of their random questions pertaining to my sexuality. It's not that I don't want to talk about it, I just don't want to have to defend or explain myself, as that's where I'm really bad with words and highly awkward.

[Anonymous]

There's a really cute guy in my PE class, whom I've had a crush on since the day I saw him. Recently he put up a "Girlfriend Application" bulletin on myspace, and a few of my friends dared me to send an application in. I made a really goofy one, and they were laughing hysterically.

I haven't told them, nor anyone else, that I really want to send in a real one...just to see if he would go out with me.

I doubt it...I don't think he's gay.

[Anonymous]

I had an exam today and I finished with half an hour to spare, so I spent that half hour writing porn on a spare piece of paper. It was pretty decent, too.

[Anonymous]

I have way too many whining little girls following me around. I would kick their annoying asses away if I weren't concerned with being rude, but I know at least one of them will be gone by the end of the week.

[ccdd]

I am finally coming to terms with being single again.

(!)(!) SINGLE AND LOVING IT (!)(!)

[Matty]

I'm right with you...I LOVE being single...(!)

It's so freeing...I never want to be in a relationship like that again...it felt stupid and silly in hindsight...I only want companionship one day.

[Anonymous]

>>I feel like crying myself to sleep for the first time.

I usually do that 4times a week :help:

I used to, when I was younger. But then I realized life really isn't all about having someone to hug at night.

But now I'm feeling lonely again.

[Anonymous]

i wanted to end it before u did...

[Anonymous]

i don't think i'm going to make it past a year not cutting. :tears:

[Anonymous]

I miss you a lot less than you think. I think about you every day wondering what you're up to now...but I don't you to be here with me.

[Anonymous]

Dear dickless wonder who stole my detergent.... I hate you... I hate you with every fiber of my being. Why in the hell would you steal somebody's detergent?! It just blows my mind that some prick would do something like that! Honestly, who just ups and steals a bottle of detergent?! If I find out who it was I'm going to smack the ever living crap out of them.

[Joey]

^^
that was me... still pissed off at my detergent "magically" disappearing

[Anonymous]

I had an exam today and I finished with half an hour to spare, so I spent that half hour writing porn on a spare piece of paper. It was pretty decent, too.

Did you hand it in ?

[Wander]

In my Latin class, whenever I have a translation to do and not enough time to do it in, I start replacing the dialog with the Bel-Air lyrics to save time.

[Anonymous]

I watched I Am Legend today for the first time and it made me cry twice.
I haven't cried in awhile, and it kinda felt good.

[Anonymous]

I had an exam today and I finished with half an hour to spare, so I spent that half hour writing porn on a spare piece of paper. It was pretty decent, too.

Did you hand it in ?

Almost. I realised as I was about to hand the exam booklet up that the porn was tucked inside it. Could have been very interesting.

[Anonymous]

I spent over 4 hours in the school library doing a crapload of ridiculous assignments for my computer class. Each time I would read the directions and realize I was doing something wrong, or when i read the syllabus and I actually did about 10 assignments too many and didn't do some of the ones I needed I did lots of muttering F**:***: S**:***: I'm so F:***:ing stupid! The people around me kept staring at me like I was some sort of freak. I liked it because the reason they thought I was a freak is not the reason I think that I'm a freak.

[Janvier]

I watched I Am Legend today for the first time and it made me cry twice.
I haven't cried in awhile, and it kinda felt good.

OMG Thats the last movie I saw, I saw it with Ty (ex-EC Member) and yeah I cried twice too, well, when Sam died I pretty much cried during the entire last part of the movie.
Then he cried too, we were 2 little gay boys in the cinema crying their eyes out :p

[nodoubtjunkie]

I do my singing practice in the shower.
Really loudly lol.
I have a track list that i usually choose from for the 10 minutes I spend in the shower lol.

*When You Say Nothing At All - Ronan Keating
*Picture Of You - Boyzone
*What If I'm Right - Sandi Thom
*Anything For Love - Meatloaf
*It Must Have Been Love - Roxette
or
*What Took You So Long - Emma Bunton

It depends on my mood.

Oh, and i found myself being roped into a band today, as a part of vocals. Not sure whether this is a good thing or not. Lol.

[pirateninja]

I've been cast as a drunk person in our house musical for school.

Is it scary that I think it's the perfect part for me?

[Anonymous]

This site is supposed to help, but i feel worse ever since i joined.

[Anonymous]

This site is supposed to help, but i feel worse ever since i joined.

(*hug*)

[beckyg]

This site is supposed to help, but i feel worse ever since i joined.

PM me if you would like to talk about it. We really are here to help! (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I dread going to rehearsals for my school's musical. I can't sing to save my life... and they've gone and cast me as the male lead. Every time they make me sing, I manage to screw up by not singing the correct pitch. It's so embarrassing that I just want to curl up into a little ball and die by the end of rehearsal each night. I practice my parts at home, and I really am making an effort, but half the time I can't find my pitch when it's time to sing. The music director acknowledges this, but he's as clueless as I am as to why I can't hit a pitch. I'm glad it's my senior year... I won't have to go through this any more.

[Anonymous]

I love my friend to DEATH.

But sometimes I just wanna tell her to get over stuff. Things could be much worse, and to not take things so damn seriously.

I love her, but she's the only person where I have to watch what I say so much that it's almost stressful. :confused:

[Anonymous]

Everyday I want to run away from home, just my laptop, the internet, and myself.

[Zūn Jìng]

^That was me...

[biisme]

Everyday I want to run away from home, just my laptop, the internet, and myself.

^That was me...
(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

Everyday I want to run away from home, just my laptop, the internet, and myself.

I feel the same way sometimes.

[Anonymous]

I've been sitting here, in my closet, no windows, no lights, for over 6hours now.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I think of killing my ex just so I can have him back again.

[Anonymous]

I feel like crying myself to sleep for the first time.


i cry myself to sleep nearly every night.

when i dont cry, i pass out because im so exausted.

im still not even close to being over what happened in 8th grade, and ill try anything to get at least a little bit of the pain to just go away.


most of the signs that i can remember off the top of my head are swears and insults.


in all of my anon posts i fuck up the grammar so no one knows its me. in reality, i correct anyone in their grammar, puncuation, and knowlege. its less bitchy than it sounds. i think...


ive perfected the "me" attitude. just so people dont see my pain. its who i would be without the fuck-y-ness of life.


i have my life planned out perfectly. im afraid of getting rejected from college for being overqualified. i do so much that i will be for many things.

[Anonymous]

i think my best friend is a slut

[Anonymous]

I've been contemplating suicide for over a month.

[amyleona]

literary confessions:

im supposed to be reading a tale of two cities right now. truth is, i read it in 8th grade art while posing for my portrait.

i started reading shakespeare when i was 7. i understood it.

i first read emily dickinson when i was 9. i instantly fell in love with her poetry.

i once had all of hermia's lines memorized.

ive didnt read a separate peace, jane eyre, oliver twist, or alas babylon. i read the cliffnotes and sparknotes. that way i got two veiwpoints.

i HATE hemingway. and my english teacher loves me for it.

i take honours english for the fast pace and the in depth work, not because my parents want me too. in fact, they would prefer if i not take any advanced classes at the moment.

i read plays, and direct them in my head. many stagings of anne frank and the crucible have taken place in my head.

[ColbieMarie]

In 9th grade I memorized pi to 3.1415926535897 (...and a few more digits)

[heatqueen]

In 9th grade I memorized pi to 3.1415926535897 (...and a few more digits)

I can list the first 20 elements of the periodic table from memory. :)

[pirateninja]

I've been wowing Davo-man and others in the chatroom with my extensive South Park knowledge. Tell me a short analysis of what happens in an episode, I can tell you the name of the episode and what season it's in. I also know a ton of random South Park trivia and quotations off the top of my head.

Looking at the above two posts, I'm feeling quite ashamed; my memory storage could be used for something a hell of a lot more useful.

[Asteroid]

This site is supposed to help, but i feel worse ever since i joined.

If you feel that you are not getting the help that you need through the forums than by all means pm anyone of us. Becky replied as well and offered her help. PM her and let her know what's bothering you. We are all here to listen and to help.

[Asteroid]

I've been contemplating suicide for over a month.

Hi there! Harming yourself is not the answer! Please talk to someone about whatever makes you feel this way and leads you to contemplate harming yourself. Don't leave your emotions/feelings inside of you. Please see a counselor at your school or outside of school. Talking about whatever is bothering you will help you to gain a different perspective on things. Please feel free to talk to anyone of us. Sometimes, writing it all out can also help a bit . If you want, you could write it all out in the anonymous section, and we will try helping you as much as we can.

Why do you want to harm yourself? Think about all the great things that you have done and will do in the future. Think about all the good things you can do in life. Sometimes life deals us road blocks that are hard to overcome. But if you keep working at things at your own pace you will be able to overcome them. Once you have overcome the road blocks you will be stronger because you have learned how to deal with it and to overcome them. Never give up on life.

Please, do talk to someone and seek the help you need. There is no shame in admitting that you need help.

(*hug*)

[byeee]

In 9th grade I memorized pi to 3.1415926535897 (...and a few more digits)

I can list the first 20 elements of the periodic table from memory. :)

I still know the first 30 decimals of Pi. And I learned them 7 years ago or so...
3.1415926535897932384626433832795....

I can list the first four rows completely... so... 36? :D And I know the atomic numbers for some of the more important of the rest... oh wait, I still know the P block fully.

I've been wowing Davo-man and others in the chatroom with my extensive South Park knowledge. Tell me a short analysis of what happens in an episode, I can tell you the name of the episode and what season it's in. I also know a ton of random South Park trivia and quotations off the top of my head.

Looking at the above two posts, I'm feeling quite ashamed; my memory storage could be used for something a hell of a lot more useful.

I can do that with Stargate (SG-1 + Atlantis), The 4400 and Farscape.
Or the reverse- tell me the episode number and I'll tell you what it's about :D

[nodoubtjunkie]

For the first time in my life, I'm actually proud of myself.

[Wander]

My own literary confessions:

-I almost quit reading The Scarlet Letter because HOLY CRAP COMMAS EVERYWHERE. If I weren't having a major test on it later, I would have.
-I finished each of the last three HP books in one day. I only took breaks for food and bathroom.
-I'm the only one in my Advanced Placement English class who even knows about, much less reads, Kurt Vonnegut.
-I like Stephen King less and less the more I read of him. It's like he can't create a good human villain, he has to make them possessed or the reincarnation of evil or something, and too many of his books start out good and end in some sort of shitty supernatural fantasy jumble. "Misery" was the last of his good books in that it was short, concise, interesting, frightening, and contained exactly zero supernatural elements.
-Yes, that means I didn't like "The Green Mile".
-"3xCarlin: An Orgy of George" was the last book I really laughed at.
-After finishing "A Man Without a Country" by Vonnegut, I immediately turned to the first page and began reading it a second time.

[biisme]

I've been sitting here, in my closet, no windows, no lights, for over 6hours now.

why?

[Anonymous]

I thought I was pretty sure about part of this....no I'm all confused.

[amyleona]

My own literary confessions:

-I almost quit reading The Scarlet Letter because HOLY CRAP COMMAS EVERYWHERE. If I weren't having a major test on it later, I would have.
-I finished each of the last three HP books in one day. I only took breaks for food and bathroom.
-"3xCarlin: An Orgy of George" was the last book I really laughed at.
-After finishing "A Man Without a Country" by Vonnegut, I immediately turned to the first page and began reading it a second time.

-i know people who quite reading tale of two cities because of the frightening amount of commas. and para-pages. they dont scare me at all. :)
-yay. im a hp NERD. i ready deathly hallows when my aunt was doing a triathalon.
-dramarama had me :roflmao: -ing
-i was that way with perfect by natasha friend.

when i first read perfect, i was coming back from roseville, and i finished it by stockton. which means an hour for those of you not from the bay. :)

[Anonymous]

The only thing I've ever really been good at is schoolwork, and now there are a million people better at it than I am, so there's really nothing good about me.

[Anonymous]

The only thing I've ever really been good at is schoolwork, and now there are a million people better at it than I am, so there's really nothing good about me.

I've felt the same way countless times.

[Anonymous]

-I finished each of the last three HP books in one day. I only took breaks for food and bathroom.

Ah yes... I remember :D

OotP - Got it at midnight, read until 3am, slept until 6am, kept reading until 11pm. My sister had a ballet recital that day, and I sat in the corner and just read the whole way through. :D

HBP - Got it at midnight, read until 6am, slept until 8am, finished that afternoon. (can't remember when)

DH - Got at Midnight - read until 4am, slept until 7am, read until 2.15 in the afternoon.

Yes, my HP otaku-ness becomes clear now. :D I only took bathroom breaks for these, my mom had to bring up food to my bedroom because I couldn't stop reading long enough to make myself a sandwich.

[Gerry]

-I finished each of the last three HP books in one day. I only took breaks for food and bathroom.

Ah yes... I remember :D

OotP - Got it at midnight, read until 3am, slept until 6am, kept reading until 11pm. My sister had a ballet recital that day, and I sat in the corner and just read the whole way through. :D

HBP - Got it at midnight, read until 6am, slept until 8am, finished that afternoon. (can't remember when)

DH - Got at Midnight - read until 4am, slept until 7am, read until 2.15 in the afternoon.

Yes, my HP otaku-ness becomes clear now. :D I only took bathroom breaks for these, my mom had to bring up food to my bedroom because I couldn't stop reading long enough to make myself a sandwich.

Now that's a true Harry Potter fan! I own all 7 and have read all but the 7th. :dry:

[nodoubtjunkie]

Talking about Harry Potter, my dad dropped the Deathly Hallows off at my house at 2am, he went to tescos and got it for me on the way home from work, i started reading it straight away. I finished at 8am, horrendously tired, dying for a wee and stupidly hungry, but oddly satisfied XD

[Anonymous]

yeh,ur right,i do think its weird that ur one of my best mates & now ur gettin with my flatmate who is also a great mate:rolleyes:

[ccdd]

I Want Out Of The Closet!

[byeee]

Talking about Harry Potter, my dad dropped the Deathly Hallows off at my house at 2am, he went to tescos and got it for me on the way home from work, i started reading it straight away. I finished at 8am, horrendously tired, dying for a wee and stupidly hungry, but oddly satisfied XD

I read the first five volumes in one day, the sixth also in one day, and the 7th in two days... but on my 4-year-old cell phone while on holiday, mostly on the beach :) Heh.

[Anonymous]

I like guys and a friend's brother

[Anonymous]

people suck

[Anonymous]

people suck

<3 (*hug*) <3

[Wander]

people suck

We see eye to eye.

[Anonymous]

Some people suck

That's better :)

[Nodnarb]

Some people suck

That's better :)

Normally, I would have replied with "most people suck", but I'm in a good mood, so I'll agree with you.

[jazzrawr]

-I finished each of the last three HP books in one day. I only took breaks for food and bathroom.

Ah yes... I remember :D

OotP - Got it at midnight, read until 3am, slept until 6am, kept reading until 11pm. My sister had a ballet recital that day, and I sat in the corner and just read the whole way through. :D

HBP - Got it at midnight, read until 6am, slept until 8am, finished that afternoon. (can't remember when)

DH - Got at Midnight - read until 4am, slept until 7am, read until 2.15 in the afternoon.

Yes, my HP otaku-ness becomes clear now. :D I only took bathroom breaks for these, my mom had to bring up food to my bedroom because I couldn't stop reading long enough to make myself a sandwich.

I read OOTP in 8 hours, no breaks, (I read in the bathroom. XD) HBP in 7 hours, and DH in 6.
I don't take breaks when it comes to harry potter. XD

[Anonymous]

I feel like I'm just going through the motions of life. I don't wake up because I want to see my family or friends or anything really. I just wake up because well what else is there to do. Its like I'm just doing everything for the hell of it. I didn't do well my freshman year of high school and I did ok I guess sophomore year. However I'm afraid I won't get into college because I'm not in any honors classes and those bad grades that I got freshman year. On top of that its like I have to wa