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[Anonymous]

I wish I was closer to people here. I try, but I'm not really close to anyone, even though I'd really like to be.

[Anonymous]

I'm dressing like a slut tonight...

[Anonymous]

Everyone seems to say they love me, but I don't hear it from the people I want it from most of all.

And because of this I feel like some spoiled brat who wanted a Playstation 3 but got an X-box instead. :dry:

[Kenko]

Everyone says "Looks don't matter" or "it's what's on the inside that counts", but no matter how hard I try, I always end up with absolutely massive crushes only on physically attractive guys.

And these are almost debilitating crushes. As an example, normally I don't really mind public speaking, but if I'm doing a class presentation and "he" is in the room, my heart rate jumps to almost dangerous levels, my faces turns red, I break out in a sweat, and I start shaking.

Really I'd like to be less shallow.

[Anonymous]

Everyone says "Looks don't matter" or "it's what's on the inside that counts", but no matter how hard I try, I always end up with absolutely massive crushes only on physically attractive guys.

And these are almost debilitating crushes. As an example, normally I don't really mind public speaking, but if I'm doing a class presentation and "he" is in the room, my heart rate jumps to almost dangerous levels, my faces turns red, I break out in a sweat, and I start shaking.

Really I'd like to be less shallow.

I took a public speaking class and the instructor told the class that our bodies go through the same things when we are nervous about public speaking as when we see a crush...interesting, most people like the butterflies when they see the crush, but not when public speaking...

oh and i like my brother's girlfriend.

[ColbieMarie]

I wish I was closer to people here. I try, but I'm not really close to anyone, even though I'd really like to be.

me too...

[Derek the Wolf]

I wish I was closer to people here. I try, but I'm not really close to anyone, even though I'd really like to be.

me too...

*hugs* Talk to us, you'll get closer. :)

[Asteroid]

I have a crush on a guy named Matt at school. He's really cute, nice, funny, and we have similar interests. I don't know if he's gay or straight. I heard he's a bit homophobic though.
I've never wanted somebody all to myself more (physically speaking).

Well, there is only one way to find out....talk to him. Get to know him, and soon enough you will figure out whether he is straight or gay. If he is straight, and has some homophobic tendencies, you could educate him and maybe he'll change his views a bit.

If it turns out that he is gay, then think about as to whether you want to come out to him. Even though it seems that he is homophobic, sometimes we project homophobic behavior as a result of our own inner homophobia because we want to fit into the larger society, and are afraid of what our friends and family are going to think about us.

Even if nothing comes of it, at the very least, you will get to know someone, who might become a good friend down the road. Yes it can be hard, and it does can take an emotional toll, but if you remind yourself that you are doing this to get to know someone, it should be okay. You have similar interests, which is good! You have already a base from which to build a friendship. Take it slow and take your time. :thumbsup:

[Kenko]

I took a public speaking class and the instructor told the class that our bodies go through the same things when we are nervous about public speaking as when we see a crush...interesting, most people like the butterflies when they see the crush, but not when public speaking...

oh and i like my brother's girlfriend.
I think in both scenarios it's a shot of adrenaline caused by a fight-or-flight response.

In both cases I find it very undesirable. In the case of a crush it might mean I'm giving visible outward signs which may be very undesirable.

[Asteroid]

i wish i was strong enough to come out to my friends

grr!

In time you will be. No worries. When we fail to come out to friends or when we feel that we just can't say it just yet, it just means that we are not completely ready to take that step. But that's okay. Sometimes, we have to try it a couple of times before we can say it and come out to someone.

Wondering though if you would feel comfortable with joining a GLBT group at school or in your community (if your school/community has it). This could help you in becoming more comfortable to talk about it and to gather the courage to come out to your friends.

[Anonymous]

I am going to be "sick" tomorrow so I don't have to explain to my family I can't come because my vehicle is "hiding" because I'm trying to save it from being repo'd.

[Anonymous]

I really thought I was done with missing you. When you said you were moving I couldn't picture functioning at school without your support and friendship.

I still think what you would have done if you were at school with me. I still miss you, but I'm happy that when you left I figured out I do have true friends at school.

I'll never forget you hopefully we'll cross paths again. That would make me happy :)

[Anonymous]

I took a public speaking class and the instructor told the class that our bodies go through the same things when we are nervous about public speaking as when we see a crush...interesting, most people like the butterflies when they see the crush, but not when public speaking...

oh and i like my brother's girlfriend.


So tonight I stopped at a grocery store/Gas Station after work. My mom needed bread and I needed gas.

I walked in and my best friend was working and I got nervous. And then I didn't know what quite to say to her when I was at the counter.

We've been best friends for years and it's only recently hit me how much I like her D:

[Drizzt DoUrden]

I was laying down with one of my best friends, female of course, and the physical contact felt good. But feeling that made me want that with a guy so much it almost hurts.

Sometimes I feel like an outsider even among only my closest friends.

[Nodnarb]

Sometimes I feel like an outsider even among only my closest friends.

(*hug*)I feel that way too sometimes.

[Anonymous]

I stare at this guy in my history class half hoping that he will notice and tell me that he likes me and half afraid that he will notice and freak out and get all homophobic :bang:

[mattypants]

Sometimes I feel like an outsider even among only my closest friends.

(*hug*)I feel that way too sometimes.

so do I
*hugs for all*

[ColbieMarie]

I Want To Kiss A Girl

[Anonymous]

I Want To Kiss A Girl

replace girl with guy and i will have to agree

[ColbieMarie]

I Want To Kiss A Girl

replace girl with guy and i will have to agree

i'd be ok kissing a boy, but i'd much rather it be a girl

[Anonymous]

I have this ridiculous fear that if I come out to my bestfriend/roommate as bisexual, she will think that we should hook-up.

I think this because she has made NO friends since we moved here a year ago. She's intensely introverted.

Gah. I worry about her.

[Anonymous]

I'm drunk and horny.

[Anonymous]

I Want To Kiss A Girl

replace girl with guy and i will have to agree

i'd be ok kissing a boy, but i'd much rather it be a girl

no kissing girls for me. i would like hugs though

[Anonymous]

I laugh at people who think they need a relationship to be validated, but right now I want a boyfriend so much. Its worse knowing that it probably wont happen becuse Im not that out and I dont plan to be until I finish high school and go to a more accepting environment. so no boyfriend for me :(

[Anonymous]

They say that the thing I worked so hard on is useless and it's crushing me. They want me to do something else, but that "something" implies leaving me without anything to do. :(

I wanna cry right now.

[Anonymous]

When my cat first disappeared, I was scared we would fine her body decomposing in the house.

[Anonymous]

You probably have NO idea how much I like you...
I wish you did. But I don't know how to tell you.

[Lexington]

>>>They say that the thing I worked so hard on is useless and it's crushing me.

If it gave you pleasure to do, then it wasn't useless at all.

Lex

[Anonymous]

My two roommates don't know that I'm unhappy and that I cry myself to sleep every other night; I can't tell them without explaining why; I can't explain why.

Ironically, one of them spends a day each week counseling my friends at the university who are having problems, and the only thing I can think of is: now I can't go to the student counseling group.

[Anonymous]

I download gay porno stories and change the names to me and my crush. Is that wrong?

[Anonymous]

I download gay porno stories and change the names to me and my crush. Is that wrong?

I don't think it is wrong, but it is a little bit funny.

[Lexington]

>>>Ironically, one of them spends a day each week counseling my friends at the university who are having problems, and the only thing I can think of is: now I can't go to the student counseling group.

Can you just go to your roommate instead?

Lex

[Anonymous]

:***:
:bang:
i have a girlfriend. but i think i'm gay.
she's dropping out of college and moving far away after first semester.
i think i'm going to stay with her until then, when we will mutually break up.
:help:

[Anonymous]

i cant believe you said such horrid things to me the other day then tonight say "i was probs just in a mood"
i hope you rot to be truly honest

[Anonymous]

I'm writing a speech on integrity and I flat out lied to my mom today. I feel like such a shmuck.

[Anonymous]

I don't know what the f i just did.

[Anonymous]

I told her I would always love her... I told my friends I didn't care if she died.

[Anonymous]

I have a series of books I want to write but I think I suck at writing. I also have some designs of stuff I want to make. I think I am afraid of failure so I don't do anything.

[Anonymous]

I feel alone and empty inside and I want someone to care about me, but I never let people in. The idea that someone can know everything about me and still care about me doesnt seem to exist, even in my dreams. Im afraid of myself, i'm afraid of losingmy friends, im afraid of losing myself. :tears:

[Anonymous]

By the time April comes I'll be truly happy... I just know it :)

All I can do now is wait... *Five more months*. :D

[yahooooo]

Ooo I'm so confused!

I wrote the email, saved it in drafts and it's just waiting to be sent. But the more I think about it the more I keep psyching myself out of telling my parents. I want to tell them, but I'm too scared. As soon as I think about telling them all these doubts come into my mind, like am I really gay? It is so stupid but I can't help it. :( I'm not sure if I'm ever going to be happy and just accept it. :eusa_doh: :bang::bang::bang::bang:

[Lexington]

>>>I have a series of books I want to write but I think I suck at writing.

Then write them anyway. Because then you're writing for the best reason of all - not for the expected accolades, but because you just want to write. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I just made myself some scrambled eggs. But I can't eat them anymore because I keep thinking about baby chickens....how weird am I?

[Anonymous]

I finally feel like I'm not a poser on here. I have a legit crush on a girl.

[Paralyzer]

I don't know who to talk to when I'm sad now...
For once, someone was finally there to pick ME up.. and now he's gone
Maybe I did rely on him too much

[Anonymous]

Apathy pisses me off.

The irony. It kills.

[Anonymous]

I think i'm falling for someone again.
I don't know if it's good or not...
It always feels so good when you start, but then it just hurts.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes if I see there's almost 20 posts on the last page of a thread, I will wait for it to spill over on a new page before I reply, in the hope my comment won't disappear into oblivion.

[Lexington]

^ I know the feeling. :) I don't actively do what you're doing, but I do notice that I'm post #20 a lot, and keep thinking "Why does that keep happening?" Maybe everyone's waiting for someone (me) to be post #20... :D

Lex

[Anonymous]

I hate myself and my life. i have no friends and i don't have a boyfriend. nor do i have any hope of getting these things, I wish i could be someone else

[Anonymous]

I feel like a creep because all the girls i talk to on here are 5 years younger than me. I wish there were more 20 year old girls on here.

[Ruthel]

I feel like a creep because all the girls i talk to on here are 5 years younger than me. I wish there were more 20 year old girls on here.

<--- 22 year old girl. Do I count? (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I’m sick of being gay, I’m sick of being different. I actually don’t care who I’m attracted to, but I hate being different. People tear you apart for having differences and if I came out, I would be the only out gay guy in my school, other than an out bi guy. It’s so frustrating knowing that I’ll never fit in here because I just can’t. I’m only here until June if I pass everything, but I worry that I wont pass and I will be condemned to hell for another year. Another year of lies and not being able to come out and be myself.

I’m afraid of myself, I know that with depression comes increasingly erratic behavior and I’m worried that I’ll do something stupid. I’m worried that I’ll hurt myself or someone else when I freak out. I’m afraid that I might have a panic attack. Most of all, I’m afraid of having so many mental health problems, that they force me to go into their care so they can drug me up. The drugs made me more suicidal and I already have a reputation as a weird kid without being the kid that had to go to a mental institution.

[Asteroid]

I hate myself and my life. i have no friends and i don't have a boyfriend. nor do i have any hope of getting these things, I wish i could be someone else

Hi there! Please don't hate yourself or your life. Please try to see a counselor at your school or outside of school. Often talking about the things that bother us out loud will allow us to understand them better and make better sense of them.

There are lot of bumps and road blocks along the way and at times it seems that nothing is happening but then something good happens in which we can find some purpose and we have something to hold on to. Life is worth living. I'm sure that you have great qualities that other people will want to know about. There are people out there that do want to get to know you.

Try to think about the good things in your life. We all have them. Sometimes it is just a matter to place the emphasis on the good rather than the bad things. Even though it might take some time to be able to focus on the good aspects of your life, but if you try and give it your all, you will be able to change things. Try to build up some self esteem, by reminding yourself about the things that you like about yourself and the things you like doing everyday. To start, try to look into the mirror and just say "I like [insert] about myself" or just "I like myself." Try to do it on a regular basis. Try to pursue the things that you like doing and which you know you are good at. Pursuing the things that you like will help you to reaffirm the things that you like about you, and in your life.

When it comes to building friendships, try to join a club at school or an activity at the community centre or try joining a GLBT group in your community and/or school. Try to talk with people. It can take a while until you find the right person with whom you can build a friendship and feel comfortable enough around, but if you make it a point to get to know people you will get there. Sometimes it is just a matter of saying 'hi' to someone say at a GLBT support group/meeting, and this will start things going. Don't be afraid to talk to people about yourself. Don't be afraid to start a conversation on a topic that you like talking about. This will often lead to other things and before you know it, you will have learned something about the person.

As you get to know people, you will also give yourself the opportunity to get to know someone who might be potentially a boyfriend down the road. Friendships, good friendships, are at the base of any deeper relationship. If you allow yourself the time to get to know people, and to really 'connect' with people, you will be able to find someone. Not having someone right now, that's okay. Try not to worry about it. With time, you will find someone that is right for you, who respects you and with whom you enjoy being with.

Try to work on the things that you can change. Be yourself. I'm absolutely sure that you have great qualities that other people want to get to know and learn about. In changing things, try to take it one day at a time. Set yourself some realistic goals that you would like to achieve. Work away at them. Even if you did not achieve one of the goals on a given day, that's okay. Keep working on it the next day or until you have reached your goal.

I hope this helps a bit. (*hug*)

[davo-man]

I love RENT...oh wait, that's no secret ;D

Also, I want them to bring out the live finale performance on DVD! Gah! They showed in cinemas in America...Silly America getting everything hehe

[Anonymous]

i dream an crush an work myself up over strait guys i love then come crashing down after i remember theyre strait an off limits. then i tend to distance myself from them even if their my freinds...:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I feel kinda strange because I am extraordinarily excited about the elections, and I seem to be the only one around me who actually gives a damn.

[Anonymous]

I've just realised that my Biology teacher may be great at being a teacher, but she's crap at being a HUMAN BEING. She spent a whole hour-long lesson shouting at us because some of us had forgotten our homework, then she spent the next lesson shouting at us because we didn't do anything in the last lesson due to her shouting at us. What a bitch. Plus she's given me SO MUCH FUCKING homework to do tonight...

I FUCKING HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
/rant

[Anonymous]

I denied being gay... again! I'm trying to come out! Idk whats wrong with me, i give up.

[Anonymous]

I'm scared of turning into anything like my father :confused:

[Midnight Angel]

I've just realised that my Biology teacher may be great at being a teacher, but she's crap at being a HUMAN BEING. She spent a whole hour-long lesson shouting at us because some of us had forgotten our homework, then she spent the next lesson shouting at us because we didn't do anything in the last lesson due to her shouting at us. What a bitch. Plus she's given me SO MUCH FUCKING homework to do tonight...

I FUCKING HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
/rant

My physiology teacher last year was the same exact way, except not only was she a disgusting human being she was a horrible teacher. She was out for two days once and screamed at us when we came back because we couldn't read her mind and know enough to start the next chapter. She said we were all worthless and would amount to nothing. I bitched her out in front of the entire class, just full on screamed at her. Then I went and spoke to the vice principal and almost got her fired for her saying that to us. So if she keeps giving you shit, turn around and say you know what my parents taxes aren't paying your salary so you can stand up there and condescend to us.

[Anonymous]

I hate myself and my life. i have no friends and i don't have a boyfriend. nor do i have any hope of getting these things, I wish i could be someone else

I swear to God you sound just like me

[Anonymous]

I have no idea what to answer when people ask if I am happy. :confused:

[biisme]

I have no idea what to answer when people ask if I am happy. :confused:

If they're asking does this mean they care? Maybe you should just tell them whatever is the truth.

[Anonymous]

I want so much to just be straight. I hate the fact I keep falling for my straight friends.

[interstella]

I want so much to just be straight. I hate the fact I keep falling for my straight friends.

I hate falling for my straight friends too, but I don't wish I was straight. I just wish they were gay :D

[nodoubtjunkie]

CNN.com - Live, is the sex.
I can actually watch all the shizz. It's awesome.
*hyperventilates*

[Anonymous]

I have a secret fear that McCain and his cronies have orchestrated massive voter fraud and he will win. My gut twists around every time I think of the possibility of Sarah Palin having any sort of authority in our country.

[Anonymous]

I honestly don't trust McCain or Obama, I'm scared :(:eek:

[Anonymous]

I really want to change my facebook status to relfect how happy I am that the early results are looking good for Obama but I am afraid of what all my republican facebook friends will say.

[Anonymous]

I hate being gay, probably since its the reason i hate myself, and am depressed.

Oh, I wana hook up with my straight guy friends. Half the times when I sleep ova at them, i just wana lean ova and give them a huge kiss :kiss:

[ColbieMarie]

I want to come out to someone else so bad right now. But there's no one that I trust enough.

[JeremyB]

I really feel so much better than I did at the beginning of the year. I went through so much, and learned so much about myself and life.
My parents think i'm absolutely fine, and so do my friends. I feel so horrible when I have to admit when i'm not doing so well in my head some days. I feel like I have to be strong for them now since they were so strong for me back then... So when I do have my crappy, messed up days, I feel weak; not good enough.
... But at least I don't feel like that ALL the time now. Progress is good.

[Drizzt DoUrden]

Even though I absolutely love most of Evanescence's songs, I almost never admit to liking them and don't let people see my doPi (iPod) because I have like 100 of their songs. It just annoys me how much people judge you over your taste in music.

[Anonymous]

I am so depressed about my life and pissed off at the world that when I was reading coming out stories that were positive, I was mad. I wished that they didnt feel accepted and loved because even though some people accept me I feel like the rest of the world hates me, and if i'm going to feel like this, i want everyone else to have to share it with me.

that scared me. i am usually so not like that. i am a compassionate and caring person and this just goes to show how much being depressed is affecting me. im turning into a complete jerk and i hate it but i feel powerless against it. i have slipped into depression before and it is the worst feeling ive ever felt and im afraid of it getting so bad that i have to go to a mental institution. I dont know how i got out of my depression, and now im beginning to wonder if i just lied to myself an pretended not to be depressed so its not back, it always was here.

somebody help me :tears:

[Ruthel]

I am so depressed about my life and pissed off at the world that when I was reading coming out stories that were positive, I was mad. I wished that they didnt feel accepted and loved because even though some people accept me I feel like the rest of the world hates me, and if i'm going to feel like this, i want everyone else to have to share it with me.

that scared me. i am usually so not like that. i am a compassionate and caring person and this just goes to show how much being depressed is affecting me. im turning into a complete jerk and i hate it but i feel powerless against it. i have slipped into depression before and it is the worst feeling ive ever felt and im afraid of it getting so bad that i have to go to a mental institution. I dont know how i got out of my depression, and now im beginning to wonder if i just lied to myself an pretended not to be depressed so its not back, it always was here.

somebody help me :tears:

I've probably been mildly depressed, off and on, for one and a half years now. There have been times it would get so bad I wouldn't want to get up in the morning (or afternoon, or evening, whenever I finally wake up). There have been times I haven't wanted to see anyone for days. There have been times that I cried for hours in bed before drifting off to sleep.

I thought I got better, in the past couple of months, but it's always lurking there in the back of my mind, and it rears its head now and again.

Very recently I went to a counselor, after a lot of coaxing by a few very dear close friends. I didn't want to think of myself as someone who needed therapy, but, as cliche as it may sound, it really really helped just to talk about my troubles and feelings (or lack thereof) to someone who didn't judge at all. The first time, I cried uncontrollably the whole time through. The second appointment, I was smiling, a bit.

It really helps, and if you have the means or opportunity, I really do suggest it. Otherwise... hey, that's what EC is for, right? (*hug*)

[Pinstripe]

Seeing other people in happy relationships makes me sad.

And I randomly cry/feel sad for no apparent (or very little) reason.

[Anonymous]

I want to come out to someone else so bad right now. But there's no one that I trust enough.

i know the feeling. its hard to find a person you trust with anything and everything.

[Paul_UK]

Seeing other people in happy relationships makes me sad.
Me too :confused:

[Anonymous]

I've just realised that my Biology teacher may be great at being a teacher, but she's crap at being a HUMAN BEING. She spent a whole hour-long lesson shouting at us because some of us had forgotten our homework, then she spent the next lesson shouting at us because we didn't do anything in the last lesson due to her shouting at us. What a bitch. Plus she's given me SO MUCH FUCKING homework to do tonight...

I FUCKING HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
/rant

My physiology teacher last year was the same exact way, except not only was she a disgusting human being she was a horrible teacher. She was out for two days once and screamed at us when we came back because we couldn't read her mind and know enough to start the next chapter. She said we were all worthless and would amount to nothing. I bitched her out in front of the entire class, just full on screamed at her. Then I went and spoke to the vice principal and almost got her fired for her saying that to us. So if she keeps giving you shit, turn around and say you know what my parents taxes aren't paying your salary so you can stand up there and condescend to us.


OP: OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. That bitch gave me a MONTHS detention for sitting on the bench whilst we were waiting for the experiment to work. I really want to slap her in the face right now :tantrum::bang::angry::mad:

[Anonymous]

I have a secret fear that McCain and his cronies have orchestrated massive voter fraud and he will win. My gut twists around every time I think of the possibility of Sarah Palin having any sort of authority in our country.

Thank God I was wrong!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Anonymous]

Today i learned my former friend is a racist when she was talking about Obama. Stupid bitch:dry:

[Lexington]

^ Don't name-call. Educate. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I bet if I actually told the doctor things that are wrong, I would diagnosed with a ton of stuff. But, I can't bring myself too. I try too hard to pretend I'm fine.

[Anonymous]

I bet if I actually told the doctor things that are wrong, I would diagnosed with a ton of stuff. But, I can't bring myself too. I try too hard to pretend I'm fine.

Doctors are there to help you, not judge you (*hug*)

[pirateninja]

I keep having this recurring dream that Sarah Palin sneaks into my room at night, trying to convince me that we could go bonding over a good ol' moose hunt.

I wish I was joking.

[Nodnarb]

I've started to feel really bad about not coming out to my friends. I feel like I'm....betraying them by not telling them, when I know that they aren't going to care. And it has started to make me depressed. I feel like I did before I told my parents....The guilt of keeping this a secret is getting to me now like it did then.

And then, today, there came....jealousy. A guy I eat lunch with everyday is out. It isn't really talked about, but most people know. But today, Megan was looking at a magazine during lunch. She flipped to a page with a picture with two guys on it, and declared to the table which one she thought was hotter. Cody leaned over, and said he thought the otehr one was hotter. And those two argued about it for the next five minutes (It made about half the guys at the table noticably uncomfortable, which I thought was ridiculous. They all knew he was gay....).

Anyways, seeing that just made me want it so bad. To be able to have a conversation with somebody about it; whether the conversation be about cute guys or something more meaningful;).

I know, it's ridiculous that I feel that way. If I want to be open, all I have to do is come out - to people I know will accecpt me(for the most part). But there is something keeping me from doing it. I think I accept myself completely....maybe I just don't allow myself to trust? Ugh...

[biisme]

I keep having this recurring dream that Sarah Palin sneaks into my room at night, trying to convince me that we could go bonding over a good ol' moose hunt.

I wish I was joking.

poor holly!!!!

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I keep having this recurring dream that Sarah Palin sneaks into my room at night, trying to convince me that we could go bonding over a good ol' moose hunt.

I wish I was joking.

Hahahaalksdasoidosjdlaskjd that's amazing.

I've never had a recurring dream before.

[ColbieMarie]

I keep having this recurring dream that Sarah Palin sneaks into my room at night, trying to convince me that we could go bonding over a good ol' moose hunt.

I wish I was joking.

Hahahaalksdasoidosjdlaskjd that's amazing.

I've never had a recurring dream before.

^^that would be me^^

[Anonymous]

I bet if I actually told the doctor things that are wrong, I would diagnosed with a ton of stuff. But, I can't bring myself too. I try too hard to pretend I'm fine.

Doctors are there to help you, not judge you (*hug*)

It's not doctors I'm afraid of. It's my family.

[Anonymous]

I was abused as a kid and never told any adults.

[nodoubtjunkie]

I was abused as a kid and never told any adults.

It's never, ever too late. Thats all I'm going to say, apart from I really hope you're okay, and to PM me anytime you want to. I know what you are going through, maybe I can help.

[Anonymous]

I don't know who to talk to when I'm sad now...
For once, someone was finally there to pick ME up.. and now he's gone
Maybe I did rely on him too much
same
since i moved here i have a laugh but when it comes to needing someone to be there & hold me & look after me, when i need someone to truly understand i feel lost & lonely

[Anonymous]

i no longer know what on earth my life is about!

[Myzou]

I keep having this recurring dream that Sarah Palin sneaks into my room at night, trying to convince me that we could go bonding over a good ol' moose hunt.

I wish I was joking.

Poor Holly :( I'd probably shoot myself if I had a dream about McCain. LOL

[Anonymous]

I was abused as a kid and never told any adults.

It's never, ever too late. Thats all I'm going to say, apart from I really hope you're okay, and to PM me anytime you want to. I know what you are going through, maybe I can help.

I think i'm ok. (but if i need you i'll let you know)

[Anonymous]

i have an underwear fetish that just seems to deplete my funds way to quick....

[pookie]

i have an underwear fetish that just seems to deplete my funds way to quick....

But Undies are so much fun!

[Anonymous]

I have shoulder length hair and thinking of shaving it all off.

[Numfarh]

I have shoulder length hair and thinking of shaving it all off.

If you do it, you should donate the hair (if it is long enough) to an organization like Locks for Love. A Cancer wig foundation type thing.

[Anonymous]

I have shoulder length hair and thinking of shaving it all off.

If you do it, you should donate the hair (if it is long enough) to an organization like Locks for Love. A Cancer wig foundation type thing.

I don't think my hairs long enough, but i have thought of doing that.:)

[tylerzane69]

I don't know who to talk to when I'm sad now...
For once, someone was finally there to pick ME up.. and now he's gone
Maybe I did rely on him too much

it sux when you loose someone that you relied on to be there for you when you were sad or just needed someone to talk to, but thats why your here as well, everyone here so far has been so nice to me and im sure they will give you great advice as well. and just because you lost one doesnt mean you will loose them all... just gotta get back on your feet and live life to the fullest.

[Anonymous]

Omg. I accidentally just watched a couple of youtube videos of people popping ridiculously large pimples, I want to vomit. Seriously gross.

[Loveless]

Ew!^ lol XD

[Anonymous]

I have shoulder length hair and thinking of shaving it all off.

I think about doing the same thing!! you are not alone!!

[musican]

I really feel so much better than I did at the beginning of the year. I went through so much, and learned so much about myself and life.
My parents think i'm absolutely fine, and so do my friends. I feel so horrible when I have to admit when i'm not doing so well in my head some days. I feel like I have to be strong for them now since they were so strong for me back then... So when I do have my crappy, messed up days, I feel weak; not good enough.
... But at least I don't feel like that ALL the time now. Progress is good.

I know what you mean. I try not to act depressed even when I am because I know how much it affects my family and friends. I hate feeling so sad, but I hate it more that Im making them sad by being sad. I try to ignore it, but there are days when I have to admit to myself that Im feeling really depressed and that I need to talk to someone about it. Sometimes I end up on EC becauseI found some really good people who like to help me work through ,y problems. Let me know if you want to talk and need advice, or just someone who can listen.

[Pinstripe]

A friend's mum called me whipped because of all the things I do for her and she doesn't even know me XP

[firecausesburns]

Seven or eight years ago, I was pretty much a healthy kid, albeit clumsy and with less-than-perfect eyesight. Now I'm close to blind in one eye and have lost a good deal of vision in the other (which was perfect until a couple of years ago), enough hearing that I have trouble following conversations if there's any background noise, and pretty much any balance I had (I have trouble walking unaided). If I can deteriorate that much in that time, what's to say I won't just get worse and worse? I'm scared for my future.

[Anonymous]

I stay up all night because I don't think I deserve to sleep. I have too much work to do.

[xballetxbeautyx]

Seven or eight years ago, I was pretty much a healthy kid, albeit clumsy and with less-than-perfect eyesight. Now I'm close to blind in one eye and have lost a good deal of vision in the other (which was perfect until a couple of years ago), enough hearing that I have trouble following conversations if there's any background noise, and pretty much any balance I had (I have trouble walking unaided). If I can deteriorate that much in that time, what's to say I won't just get worse and worse? I'm scared for my future.

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I stay up all night because I don't think I deserve to sleep. I have too much work to do.

I stay up all night because I don't think I deserve to sleep. I waste too much time and still have too much work to do...

[Anonymous]

I secretly wish I wasn't anti-social.
I secretly wish the person I like would like me back.
I secretly wish that somebody was in love with me.

:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

i dont know why i let her upset me because when i think about the other girls i'd rather have them...

[mediumdietcoke]

I have shoulder length hair and thinking of shaving it all off.

that'd be cool!
i sort of did that, went from mid-back to Ellen-length.
:D

[Anonymous]

I'm a gay guy. But I really hate guys.

STRAIGHT GUYS: They are mean to me. Their minds seem to be stuck with the three B's: Booze, Boobs and Baseball. I feel unsafe and uncomfortable among them.

BI GUYS: I perceive them as straight most of the time... and I really couldn't date one. I wouldn't like to be dumped for a girl. Plus it's too much temptation around for them... at least 1/2 of the population are potential sex partners - 9/20 (straight girls) + 1/20 (gay guys)...

GAY GUYS: They just want sex. They seem to be sex-crazed monsters who don't want to be friends, nor to be boyfriends, nor acquaintances nor anything. They just want to have sex, then leave ASAP.

I wish my body liked girls too. I'd be happier.

[Anonymous]

I'm a gay guy. But I really hate guys.

STRAIGHT GUYS: They are mean to me. Their minds seem to be stuck with the three B's: Booze, Boobs and Baseball. I feel unsafe and uncomfortable among them.

BI GUYS: I perceive them as straight most of the time... and I really couldn't date one. I wouldn't like to be dumped for a girl. Plus it's too much temptation around for them... at least 1/2 of the population are potential sex partners - 9/20 (straight girls) + 1/20 (gay guys)...

GAY GUYS: They just want sex. They seem to be sex-crazed monsters who don't want to be friends, nor to be boyfriends, nor acquaintances nor anything. They just want to have sex, then leave ASAP.

I wish my body liked girls too. I'd be happier.

You just seem to be filled with stereotypes, which most of the time simply aren't true.

[Anonymous]

I'm a gay guy. But I really hate guys.

STRAIGHT GUYS: They are mean to me. Their minds seem to be stuck with the three B's: Booze, Boobs and Baseball. I feel unsafe and uncomfortable among them.

BI GUYS: I perceive them as straight most of the time... and I really couldn't date one. I wouldn't like to be dumped for a girl. Plus it's too much temptation around for them... at least 1/2 of the population are potential sex partners - 9/20 (straight girls) + 1/20 (gay guys)...

GAY GUYS: They just want sex. They seem to be sex-crazed monsters who don't want to be friends, nor to be boyfriends, nor acquaintances nor anything. They just want to have sex, then leave ASAP.

I wish my body liked girls too. I'd be happier.

You just seem to be filled with stereotypes, which most of the time simply aren't true.

I know I'm prejudiced. But in 95% of cases I'm right... And with this I am actually right. I think I've met like two decent straight guys in my life, zero bi guys and one gay guy...

[nodoubtjunkie]

Seven or eight years ago, I was pretty much a healthy kid, albeit clumsy and with less-than-perfect eyesight. Now I'm close to blind in one eye and have lost a good deal of vision in the other (which was perfect until a couple of years ago), enough hearing that I have trouble following conversations if there's any background noise, and pretty much any balance I had (I have trouble walking unaided). If I can deteriorate that much in that time, what's to say I won't just get worse and worse? I'm scared for my future.

I just want to say Maddy, you're a legend, we love you no matter what. We love you for the person that you are, and whatever you will become, you're always gonna be awesome, always. And we'll always be right behind you, regardless of what happens in the future.

(*hug*)

[Invisible]

Seven or eight years ago, I was pretty much a healthy kid, albeit clumsy and with less-than-perfect eyesight. Now I'm close to blind in one eye and have lost a good deal of vision in the other (which was perfect until a couple of years ago), enough hearing that I have trouble following conversations if there's any background noise, and pretty much any balance I had (I have trouble walking unaided). If I can deteriorate that much in that time, what's to say I won't just get worse and worse? I'm scared for my future.

I just want to say Maddy, you're a legend, we love you no matter what. We love you for the person that you are, and whatever you will become, you're always gonna be awesome, always. And we'll always be right behind you, regardless of what happens in the future.

(*hug*)

Agreed! We love you, Maddy. :kiss:

[Anonymous]

How can someone be proud of who they are, and like themself...but not love themself? If someone knows....

[Anonymous]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

Omg me 2...

[Anonymous]

I've never felt "proud" to be gay. Not ashamed of it either, but I don't feel like a natural chance occurrence is something to be proud of. I feel pride for personal achievements and accomplishments, but not things that just happened by chance and that I had no part in.

[jazzrawr]

Seven or eight years ago, I was pretty much a healthy kid, albeit clumsy and with less-than-perfect eyesight. Now I'm close to blind in one eye and have lost a good deal of vision in the other (which was perfect until a couple of years ago), enough hearing that I have trouble following conversations if there's any background noise, and pretty much any balance I had (I have trouble walking unaided). If I can deteriorate that much in that time, what's to say I won't just get worse and worse? I'm scared for my future.

I just want to say Maddy, you're a legend, we love you no matter what. We love you for the person that you are, and whatever you will become, you're always gonna be awesome, always. And we'll always be right behind you, regardless of what happens in the future.

(*hug*)


Agreed! We love you, Maddy. :kiss:

Totally agreed.
MADDY LOVE!! :D
*hugs*

[Anonymous]

I wish I could be appreciated. Everything I do seems to go by unnoticed. Not even a "Good job" or "thank you". Just two damn words.

[firecausesburns]

Seven or eight years ago, I was pretty much a healthy kid, albeit clumsy and with less-than-perfect eyesight. Now I'm close to blind in one eye and have lost a good deal of vision in the other (which was perfect until a couple of years ago), enough hearing that I have trouble following conversations if there's any background noise, and pretty much any balance I had (I have trouble walking unaided). If I can deteriorate that much in that time, what's to say I won't just get worse and worse? I'm scared for my future.

I just want to say Maddy, you're a legend, we love you no matter what. We love you for the person that you are, and whatever you will become, you're always gonna be awesome, always. And we'll always be right behind you, regardless of what happens in the future.

(*hug*)


Agreed! We love you, Maddy. :kiss:

Totally agreed.
MADDY LOVE!! :D
*hugs*

Thank you so much, guys (&&&) :kiss:

[biisme]

I wish I could be appreciated. Everything I do seems to go by unnoticed. Not even a "Good job" or "thank you". Just two damn words.

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I secretly wish I wasn't anti-social.
I secretly wish the person I like would like me back.
I secretly wish that somebody was in love with me.

:icon_sad:

sounds like me :(

[Anonymous]

mediumdietcoke is CUUUUUUUTE! :D

[Z3ni]

I secretly wish I wasn't anti-social.
I secretly wish the person I like would like me back.
I secretly wish that somebody was in love with me.

:icon_sad:

sounds like me :(

Me 3 or 2

[Anonymous]

I secretly wish I wasn't anti-social.
I secretly wish the person I like would like me back.
I secretly wish that somebody was in love with me.

:icon_sad:

sounds like me :(

Me 3 or 2

*sigh* I can relate completely.

[Anonymous]

I'm well aware of the fact that you are looking for me in this post secret thread.
and sometimes I look for you too.
and it scares me as to how many of these secrets sound like they could be yours.
It makes me feel closer to you, and I hope you feel closer to me.
I'm starting to use this to my advantage-and that scares me more because I dont really know if I'll ever learn to speak.you're extremely hard to talk to,do you know that?

[Anonymous]

I honestly believe that a 100% secular world would be infinitely safer, more accepting, and more free than the current one.

[Anonymous]

I really wish I wasn't so socially awkward. I feel like such a fool sometimes.

I really wish I could give up on you, knowing that the chance of anything happen is approximately nil. It would really clear my mind.

[Anonymous]

I hate watching TV when it's my time of month. I cry at anything. I've cried watching TV on three separate occasions this week. I feel like such a [insert word i cannot think of]

[Anonymous]

I wish I came first with someone. Anyone.

[Numfarh]

I hate watching TV when it's my time of month. I cry at anything. I've cried watching TV on three separate occasions this week. I feel like such a [insert word i cannot think of]

I hate that I'm like that twenty-four seven. I cry all the time. I simply cannot control my emotions. I love debating but I get so passionate about topics that I can't do it without looking immature. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I'm really horny... I want sex.

But I don't want people to think I'm a slut, and I wish I had someone special...

[Anonymous]

I'm really horny... I want sex.

But I don't want people to think I'm a slut, and I wish I had someone special...

I feel that way also. I was offered by someone to give/receive oral. I am seriously thinking of taking them up on the offer.

[Anonymous]

I know exactly where I want to study and what I want to study there. It seems like the most ideal thing that could happen, it would set my future up perfectly.
But I'm not clever enough to ever get accepted.

[Anonymous]

I really like to read depressing books.

[Anonymous]

I kinda like watersports.

[Anonymous]

I think I'm in love with one of my best friends, but don't have enough self confidence to tell him. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I have a naturally joyous personality, and depressed/angry tendencies. They clash rather annoyingly.

[Numfarh]

When we were debating the logistics of rights and freedoms and whether the majority has a right to determine others right, you helped me think.

You also frustrated me so much.

When you said that I shouldn't care so much about same-sex marriage because I'm not gay, you just made it that much harder for me to tell you.

GAH.:bang:

PS: A LBGT community in my area is hosting a pansexual speed dating thing. It sounds fun, but I don't know if I should tell them I'm attending. Afterall, I'm not sure if I would be considered pansexual. I mean, I feel attraction to girls and guys. But I find that most pansexuals say that they don't care about the outside bits. I DO care. I find the outside very attractive. I guess that's why I identify as a bisexual. Opinions?

[Anonymous]

I'm afraid to come out to my parents because my dad has previously said to me that it's up to me to keep the family name alive. (I'm my father's only child and his siblings (my aunt and uncles) don't have any children)

[Anonymous]

I'm always tired but I can never get to sleep and I cry over the littlest things. I can't be bothered studying for exams (but hopefully I'll do alright).

People reckon I might be depressed but I'm too embarrassed to talk to anyone about it (I'm a student counsellor and people should be able to feel like they can approach us, but talking to myself hasn't worked).

[Martin]

I'm afraid to come out to my parents because my dad has previously said to me that it's up to me to keep the family name alive. (I'm my father's only child and his siblings (my aunt and uncles) don't have any children)

I was in the same position. It's not about him though, nor does he have any right to tell you how to live your life. It was one of the things that annoyed my dad when I came out, but he has no right to tell me whether I should have kids or not. Any expectations he creates is his own fault. You can't change who you are, so worrying about the inevitable wont change anything. He will just have to deal with it and accept he was wrong in making expectations.

Beisdes, there are ways you can have kids. That's only if you want them though.

[nodoubtjunkie]

I just woke up from a really horrible dream. I dreamt that one of my best friends had made a complaint to the police telling them that everything I told them about what happened to me was bullshit, and then the police persecuted me for wasting police time.

It's not bullshit. But I'm scared that something like this is going to happen, He always told me they would never believe me if I tried to tell anyone. Now i just feel like it is all going to blow up in my face, and that everyone will think I'm lying and he will be seen as the victim, and I will be seen as the offender. I'm really starting to wish that I'd never started all of this.

Oh, and I've completely fallen for someone. But I'm scared that after everything I've told her, she thinks I'm a complete nutter. I hope she doesn't, I love her so much.

[xballetxbeautyx]

I was perving on an eighteen-year-old in Nutcracker rehearsal yesterday. :eek:

Also, I'm too much of a wimp for Sweeney Todd. I watched about half of it peeking through my fingers, ready to shield my eyes.

[epiphanies]

My aunt's on her deathbed, and I don't know if I want her to die or not. She's really suffering, but it's horrible to wish someone would die.

[ColbieMarie]

My aunt's on her deathbed, and I don't know if I want her to die or not. She's really suffering, but it's horrible to wish someone would die.

It's not horrible for you to wish her to die. It's very compassionate for you to want her to die, she's suffering and death would end her suffering.

[Daniel]

I'm trying to get a crush going so that I feel a bit more normal. But I am too cynical to have one now...and I am extremely bitter of those who are in a happy relationship.

Life is just plain weird.

[Anonymous]

she text me back yesterday & we've texted non-stop since.it was just like it was before i left & it got all flirty again.
but then i cant help myself & i wana text her all the time.then she didnt reply.so i sent another one making general conversation.she didnt reply.ive left it.but i dont wana have to be the first one to text her in a few days
i still like her

[Anonymous]

I hate when people endlessly complain about their lives and how awful everything is, dragging down everyone around them, and I hate being the person who acts like I care because I want to help them at first but I end up regretting it because I have to listen to them drone for hours about how "horrible" their life is.

But now, I just want someone to talk to. I feel so marooned, far stretched from reality. I don't even know what I want to say, but I want to say it. But I don't think anyone cares now, and if they would decide to care, they'd get bored.

I just want to talk to someone I feel safe with, somebody I know but I can be confidential with. I can't talk to my friends, or I'll be the angst-ridden pity wheel, and I can't talk to anyone anonymous because they wouldn't understand.

I just want someone to ask me how my day is and stand around long enough for me to tell them the answer.

[Anonymous]

some times i wish my parents had taken me being gay worse, kicked me out of the house even. then i wouldn't have to put up with them.

[Anonymous]

i am having bad mood swings lately. two hours ago i sent my gf a love message on facebook asking her to drop my later, before she fell asleep. now i feel like crap, and am seriously thinking about breaking up with her.

i am FTM and have been reading this blog of a post-op transman who's been on T for two and a half years. just reading about all of his happiness makes me sad, but his struggles make me even more sad. right now I'm at the point where I want to start hormones and want surgery, and am in the mindset that both will make my troubles go away. i know they won't, but just reading about this guy and how his has a bunch of new problems makes me depressed.

plus, i can't sleep. i haven't slept alone in my own bed for three or four days, and most days in the past week and a half i've slept with my gf. i just can't fall asleep alone.

also, i tried to drop calculus because i'm failing, but i was told i couldn't because then i'd be going below the minimum number of credits, which isn't true. i'd have exactly the minimum. but apparently my music lessons don't actually count as a credit, but my advisor said they did. so basically i'm in limbo- haven't gone to calc for almost three weeks, can't drop it but can't go back. which is stressing me.

and my dad cc'd me on an email where he called me his daughter and used my birth name.

my life seems so crappy it's almost comic.

[/rant]

[Nodnarb]

Tonight, one of my friends had a date with a girl, and people who like to meddle decided I should go with a date with them to "take the pressure off him". I enjoyed the "date", but the entire time I wished it was just me and him. Sometimes it actually felt like it was. Or maybe I'm just making things up in my head?

But sometimes...the way he acts, the things he says, how he talks....reminds me so much of me. And I can't help but to think....

And then I realize that it's all in my head.

But then again...

It's a vicious cycle:bang:

[vampireboy56]

I want someone to hold me in their arms at night

Sometimes I want to run away to West Hollywood because I know I'll be accepted there and don't have to hide who I am

[Zūn Jìng]

My brother just walked in on me...uhmm you know... masturbating >.>"""

[ColbieMarie]

I just found out her name is Cayla and not Cara, I feel like an idiot.

[Pinstripe]

Some people say that I'm submissive (sometimes too submissive).

I always feel guilty, I usually feel sad and I apologise for everything.

I've got problems (mood swings, sadness) but I don't know what causes them.

I feel bad because a friend who is overseas wants to help me but she can't (not until she gets back in ~73 days, anyway)

/whine

[Lexington]

>>>Sometimes I want to run away to West Hollywood because I know I'll be accepted there and don't have to hide who I am

There are many many places where you'll be accepted, and won't have to hide what you are. West Hollywood's one of them, but the rent there is insane. :)

>>>My brother just walked in on me...uhmm you know... masturbating

We've all been there. Or most of us have. Next time you see him, just say "Hey, how about knocking from here on out?" You don't have to say anything else. :)

>>>I've got problems (mood swings, sadness) but I don't know what causes them.

Have you seen a doctor about this?

Lex

[Pinstripe]

>>>I've got problems (mood swings, sadness) but I don't know what causes them.

Have you seen a doctor about this?

No. I'm too embarrassed/ashamed. (crying now, wtf?)

[Lexington]

Don't be. These are the things doctors are there for. Our bodies are amazingly complex machines, and sometimes, they don't work quite right. And the brain, being the most complex part in the body, is just as prone to have some issues as any other.

I recently had a major bout of depression. I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom at work, banging my head against the wall, trying to stop my thoughts. Because at that moment, all I could think of was my cats burning alive, over and over again. I'm not proud of that moment, but it made me realize that whatever I was going through wasn't some standard "blues" - it was something bigger than that. So I went to the doctor, told her about my symptoms, discussed various treatment options, got put on a course of treatment, and started pulling myself out. And now, thankfully, I'm on the other side.

Go. Make an appointment with your doctor. Yeah, it can be a bit embarrassing. I can't say as I loved telling my doctor about my bathroom incident. But I did. Because it was necessary. It helped get me back on track. And you need to get to the other side, so you can get back to living a kick-ass life again. :)

Lex

[Pinstripe]

I'll try and make a time to go see someone (probably the school counsellor. I don't even know who the doctor is...) but most of the time I just can't be bothered doing much :\

This has been going on for months now and I probably should have done something about it earlier... I don't exactly remember the kick-ass life (and I like to think that I have a good memory. In fact, that is what is causing lots of painful memories)

Thanks Lex.

[Lexington]

That's perhaps a bigger sign that you're suffering from depression. I know when I've been deep in, not only does life seem to suck something fierce, but it seems like:

* it's always been like that
* it'll always be like that
* and that's the way it's supposed to be.

No, no and no. Just your brain giving some bad info. It does that sometimes. Do go see the counselor, and see about making your first step away from it.

Lex

[Anonymous]

what a joke
i skived my screening at uni last week but i watched the film at home so no big deal
tomorrow i have big plans.like that involve 20+ ppl coming over all organised.the screening was meant to be 5-7 so thats fine for folk to come over like half 7.
but nooooo what a slap in the face.its changed to 6-9
as if am i going to that!!!!
is that wrong to skip it?
i will watch the film...just not in the lecture theatre
it makes me more determined to pull 2moro knowing that i'm skipping that:rolleyes:

[ricoca]

i wish i can scream to the world that i like guys...
i wish no one will discriminate me...
i wish my friend didn't turn her back on me and dated the guy who i told her was cute and had a crush on... i felt like i was sucker-punched...

[Anonymous]

I sometimes wish I wasn't the one all my straight friends seem to turn to with their relationship problems. How about talking to me about me for a change?

[Anonymous]

My worst fear is disappointing my mother. Im and only child and she has always wanted grand-babies and I just don't have the heart to tell her I'm lesbian.

[Anonymous]

My worst fear is disappointing my mother. Im and only child and she has always wanted grand-babies and I just don't have the heart to tell her I'm lesbian.

Who says you can't have grand-babies?
The answers are always there, there are always ways and means.
It will be okay. (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

My worst fear is disappointing my mother. Im and only child and she has always wanted grand-babies and I just don't have the heart to tell her I'm lesbian.

Who says you can't have grand-babies?
The answers are always there, there are always ways and means.
It will be okay. (*hug*)

True. But still... she is always happy when she thinks of me marrying some guy. She is a fan of the traditional wedding with the big white pouffy dress and the tux and such...

[Anonymous]

I have a ridiculous crush on someone at Uni, and I feel very junior high about it. As in I'm trying to avoid him, even if it means taking ridiculous detours. The very sight of him sends my heart rate skyrocketing, and when he bumped into me and said "Oops", I thought I was having a heart attack.

[Anonymous]

I wish I could send him this letter:

Sweetie,

please get treated and stay on your pills this time. I'm watching this mental illness take over you and kill the person I fell in love with. I've watched it wreck you financially, emotionally,and it nearly wrecked you at work. And now its wrecking our relationship and its headed for your family relations. It's not really seasonal, and its going to get you killed. I know that it sucks to live on medication,but It's wrecking you not to be.

-your partner

but it wouldnt do any good, because he wont listen to me. I feel like I have no voice no matter what I do, and I really don't want to see him get himself into trouble constantly- and have him get eaten by this illness- just because he wont take a pill. I just want him to be ok.

[Anonymous]

My worst fear is disappointing my mother. Im and only child and she has always wanted grand-babies and I just don't have the heart to tell her I'm lesbian.

Who says you can't have grand-babies?
The answers are always there, there are always ways and means.
It will be okay. (*hug*)

True. But still... she is always happy when she thinks of me marrying some guy. She is a fan of the traditional wedding with the big white pouffy dress and the tux and such...

No one said you can't wear a puffy dress or a tux when you get married~!(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

the word grand-babies made me smile

[Lexington]

>>>I sometimes wish I wasn't the one all my straight friends seem to turn to with their relationship problems. How about talking to me about me for a change?

Don't wait for them to ask. Get proactive. "I really need to talk to somebody about something I'm going through. Can I talk to you?"

Lex

[Anonymous]

ive never spoken to her, ive seen she gets a lot of attention, i read her posts...shes really cool & funny & sexual
i wont say her name yet...lets see if someone can guess who it is :rolleyes:

[Anonymous]

I'm unemployed and don't want to work

[Anonymous]

ive never spoken to her, ive seen she gets a lot of attention, i read her posts...shes really cool & funny & sexual
i wont say her name yet...lets see if someone can guess who it is :rolleyes:

i guess holly...?

[Lexington]

>>>I'm unemployed and don't want to work

Do you want to bang on the drum all day?

2SGTT4sV2VE

Lex

[Asteroid]

I wish I could send him this letter:

Sweetie,

please get treated and stay on your pills this time. I'm watching this mental illness take over you and kill the person I fell in love with. I've watched it wreck you financially, emotionally,and it nearly wrecked you at work. And now its wrecking our relationship and its headed for your family relations. It's not really seasonal, and its going to get you killed. I know that it sucks to live on medication,but It's wrecking you not to be.

-your partner

but it wouldnt do any good, because he wont listen to me. I feel like I have no voice no matter what I do, and I really don't want to see him get himself into trouble constantly- and have him get eaten by this illness- just because he wont take a pill. I just want him to be ok.

Hi there! You know what? You can send him the letter. Better yet, give it to him in person if you can. Be with him as much you can, or feel is necessary. Show him that you love him and care for him. If he means this much to you, don't give up on trying to speak with him and trying to get him on his medication. Maybe reassure him that you will be there for him; that you will stand by his side and help him.

[interstella]

I just want to scream at the top of my fucking lungs until my throat is sore.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH

:tears:

[Asteroid]

I just want to scream at the top of my fucking lungs until my throat is sore.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH

:tears:

Why? What happened? (*hug*)

[interstella]

I just want to scream at the top of my fucking lungs until my throat is sore.


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH

:tears:

Why? What happened? (*hug*)

I've just been bottling up my emotions until now, and my friend's homophobic rant today pushed me over the edge. Seriously, no one in my school (teachers included) has ever said ANYTHING positive about gays. My friend was actually fucking GLAD that prop 8 passed :(
I just need to let my emotions ouuuuuuuuuuuut. :tears:

[Anonymous]

ive never spoken to her, ive seen she gets a lot of attention, i read her posts...shes really cool & funny & sexual
i wont say her name yet...lets see if someone can guess who it is :rolleyes:

i guess holly...?

u guess correctly :thumbsup:

[Asteroid]

I've just been bottling up my emotions until now, and my friend's homophobic rant today pushed me over the edge. Seriously, no one in my school (teachers included) has ever said ANYTHING positive about gays. My friend was actually fucking GLAD that prop 8 passed :(
I just need to let my emotions ouuuuuuuuuuuut. :tears:

Hi there. I'm sorry to hear that. (*hug*)

It must be really hard to go to a school that doesn't show understanding for gays or has nothing positive to say. If you find it so hard, could you change schools? If your friend can not support and understand you, maybe try re-evaluating your friendship with him. Maybe distance yourself a bit and tell him that you don't want to be around someone who behaves like this. Maybe try spending more time with friends who are accepting.

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

ive never spoken to her, ive seen she gets a lot of attention, i read her posts...shes really cool & funny & sexual
i wont say her name yet...lets see if someone can guess who it is :rolleyes:

i guess holly...?

u guess correctly :thumbsup:

I guess I'm not the only one crushing on Holly....

[Anonymous]

ive never spoken to her, ive seen she gets a lot of attention, i read her posts...shes really cool & funny & sexual
i wont say her name yet...lets see if someone can guess who it is :rolleyes:

i guess holly...?

u guess correctly :thumbsup:

I guess I'm not the only one crushing on Holly....

reading this thread a few pages back there was a little discussion on it :lol: but i've never even spoken to her.
fair play to her she's definately got something about her :thumbsup:

[Numfarh]

I heard two guys arguing today.

Guy A: What do you mean you aren't coming out to party tonight?
Guy B: I don't feel like it. Besides, your girlfriend will be there.
Guy A: Dude! You know I would totally rather sleep with you.
Guy B: ...
Guy A: I would! Seriously! If I was gay, I mean.

I laughed.

[ColbieMarie]

My friend asked if I was secretly dating this guy friend of ours because I'm always texting him (and next year I'm transferring to the university that he's at which is a couple hours away).

I laughed because he's the only person I can talk to about girls.

[Drizzt DoUrden]

Sometimes, endorphins are the only things keeping me going.

[Anonymous]

I watch The Girls Next Door because there are cute girls with big boobs wearing little or no clothing.

[pirateninja]

ive never spoken to her, ive seen she gets a lot of attention, i read her posts...shes really cool & funny & sexual
i wont say her name yet...lets see if someone can guess who it is :rolleyes:

i guess holly...?

u guess correctly :thumbsup:

I guess I'm not the only one crushing on Holly....

reading this thread a few pages back there was a little discussion on it :lol: but i've never even spoken to her.
fair play to her she's definately got something about her :thumbsup:

<<<<PM Button's right there if you want to speak :D

And thank you again. Seriously now, I don't know what I do that makes you guys say stuff like this, but it makes me feel good all the same :D

Like I said, I don't mean not to speak to you, but just press PM if you do want to talk. I don't bite..... that hard. :lol:

[ColbieMarie]

It's after 2AM here and I cannot sleep because a couple hours ago I ate a bunch of chips and now I feel really bloated and gross.

[Anonymous]

i guess holly...?

u guess correctly :thumbsup:

I guess I'm not the only one crushing on Holly....

reading this thread a few pages back there was a little discussion on it :lol: but i've never even spoken to her.
fair play to her she's definately got something about her :thumbsup:

<<<<PM Button's right there if you want to speak :D

And thank you again. Seriously now, I don't know what I do that makes you guys say stuff like this, but it makes me feel good all the same :D

Like I said, I don't mean not to speak to you, but just press PM if you do want to talk. I don't bite..... that hard. :lol:

it wouldn't be quite so anonymous then would it :eusa_naug :eek:

[Anonymous]

Today I realised that when I come out I will probably lose all but one of my friends.

[Paul_UK]

it wouldn't be quite so anonymous then would it :eusa_naug :eek:

No, but it's private. All the staff will keep private discussions confidential.

[Anonymous]

I don't want to get into the family business like everyone in my family else has done. All it would entail would be monotonous office work with no chance of promotion. I'm going to break the mould and go to a good university, get my degree and go work in the city. :D

[Paul_UK]

I don't want to get into the family business like everyone in my family else has done. All it would entail would be monotonous office work with no chance of promotion. I'm going to break the mould and go to a good university, get my degree and go work in the city. :D

Sounds like a good plan to me! :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

I've never had sex, and I don't know if i want too...

[Anonymous]

I will probably lose all but one of my friends when I come out... and I'll be kicked out of the house.

[mediumdietcoke]

I don't want to get into the family business like everyone in my family else has done. All it would entail would be monotonous office work with no chance of promotion. I'm going to break the mould and go to a good university, get my degree and go work in the city. :D

That sounds awesome!!!
w00t for breaking the mold!

[Anonymous]

it wouldn't be quite so anonymous then would it :eusa_naug :eek:

No, but it's private. All the staff will keep private discussions confidential.

yes but then we would actually have to tell Holly who we are. I don't think i really want to do that...

[amyleona]

I think that Jeffree Star, when in full hair and make-up, is beautiful.

[Anonymous]

Life is moving forwards and I'm left behind, clinging on desperately with slippery fingers.

There aren't enough hours in the day.

[Nodnarb]

I don't want to get into the family business like everyone in my family else has done. All it would entail would be monotonous office work with no chance of promotion. I'm going to break the mould and go to a good university, get my degree and go work in the city. :D

:D I'm doing pretty much the same thing. But I sometimes wonder who will take over the business when dad retires....I guess I have one cousin who would probably be willing to do it...


I also learned today that there is a chance that one of my aunts has cancer. She has to go in for more tests, but I'm worried for her and her family:(

[Anonymous]

If I don't get at least one date offer from tonight,

I may just cry.
Which isn't really anything new.
:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I'm very confused about my sexuality and I want to have sex, but also in many ways I definitely don't.

[pirateninja]

it wouldn't be quite so anonymous then would it :eusa_naug :eek:

No, but it's private. All the staff will keep private discussions confidential.

yes but then we would actually have to tell Holly who we are. I don't think i really want to do that...

Haha, I'm not THAT scary, am I? :D

[Anonymous]

Yes.......

[Anonymous]

This is the true appearance of a pirateninja
http://i36.photobucket.com/albums/e18/flatlanded/pirateninjaSmall.jpg
no wonder they're scared of you !
(I'd totally do you if you were Johnny Depp tho :p)

[Janvier]

^moi

[hoping]

Sometimes i feel like i hate the guy i thought i liked

[Ruthel]

I tried to tell a friend. I may have lost the friend.

[Anonymous]

i dont know what i want to do
i dont want a normal job, but then i see my supervisor at work and he's very happy and fosters kids and he's very nice to be around and to work with
now i'm at uni but my course isnt doing a lot for me
i do not want to be a film director and i'm sorry i dont know every film and every director to ever grace the earth!i really dont care too much for it.
i thought film and media production would include things such as magazines and the like, being as stupid as i am i never thought that journalism might cover it more - but i dont want to write for magazines and what not. more along the lines of editting and things.
so i dont know what to do.
then i think it might be easier to just get a "normal" job but then that would be giving up on my dream - btw nobody knows about how i want to get into this magazine stuff. but sometimes i think i'm just being unrealistic but theres nothing else i really want to do so theres no back up plan.
it doesnt help either that people are annoying me all the time :bang: my close friends are all dotted around the country now,ive seen a few and it was great :icon_bigg but then we all have to go back off to uni. ive made some great friends here but they cant be with you 24/7. my flatmates,argh,i really liked them but now theyre starting to drive me mad.then they complain when i wana just sit in my room and have me time.i dont wana be the first one to cause a major argument and rift in the flat though.as you get to know people that you thought you really liked you find out things about them that you really disapprove of.
people are talking about who they are going to live with next year and looking at places.we'd discussed it and 3/5 of us in this flat were going to get someone together,but now it looks like thats fallen apart.and one of my best mates up here had told me i was welcome to have the last room in their flat...but now thats gone :icon_sad:
so all i pretty much do is wait for the night we go out with our lgbt group. not in a "they understand" kind of way :eusa_naug i just have more fun with them, theyre a really nice group of people its nothing to do with their sexuality.

so yeah i duno what i'm gona do :rolleyes::eusa_doh:

[Anonymous]

it wouldn't be quite so anonymous then would it :eusa_naug :eek:

No, but it's private. All the staff will keep private discussions confidential.

yes but then we would actually have to tell Holly who we are. I don't think i really want to do that...

Haha, I'm not THAT scary, am I? :D

Nope....
This could become some sort of guessing game :p
You ask the questions, and I'll answer them.
And if you ask me in person, I'll tell you :p

[nodoubtjunkie]

Rather funny moment during general studies this morning.
I stood up to go out and for some reason looked down at my chair, just to realise that someone had drawn a picture of a certain part of the male anatomy. I had a rather bad case of verbal diarrhea, and without thinking just exclaimed:
'OMG! There's a, a penis on my chair!'
My teacher nearly killed himself laughing.
Chloe's reaction :'Well, thats ironic' :p

I don't know why I got all the weird looks I did....

[MLCarr]

Rather funny moment during general studies this morning.
I stood up to go out and for some reason looked down at my chair, just to realise that someone had drawn a picture of a certain part of the male anatomy. I had a rather bad case of verbal diarrhea, and without thinking just exclaimed:
'OMG! There's a, a penis on my chair!'
My teacher nearly killed himself laughing.
Chloe's reaction :'Well, thats ironic' :p

I don't know why I got all the weird looks I did....

You totally just made my day with that.

[Invisible]

Rather funny moment during general studies this morning.
I stood up to go out and for some reason looked down at my chair, just to realise that someone had drawn a picture of a certain part of the male anatomy. I had a rather bad case of verbal diarrhea, and without thinking just exclaimed:
'OMG! There's a, a penis on my chair!'
My teacher nearly killed himself laughing.
Chloe's reaction :'Well, thats ironic' :p

I don't know why I got all the weird looks I did....

Haha :lol: That reminds me.
We were putting condoms on fake plastic penises for PSHE once for sexual education, and mine snapped in two off the base. so I shouted out, before realising what I was saying, "Oh no! my penis broke." Then had to go ask the teacher for a new penis.

I'll never live that one down.

[Anonymous]

it wouldn't be quite so anonymous then would it :eusa_naug :eek:

No, but it's private. All the staff will keep private discussions confidential.

yes but then we would actually have to tell Holly who we are. I don't think i really want to do that...

Haha, I'm not THAT scary, am I? :D

Nope....
This could become some sort of guessing game :p
You ask the questions, and I'll answer them.
And if you ask me in person, I'll tell you :p

this could turn into a rather fun game of 20 Q's :badgrin: (ok that face is evil)

[Anonymous]

I'm almost 20 and I just learned how to spell individual.

[Anonymous]

I totally checked out the guys in the pool today. I almost died, theres this one guy I think is really not and he was in there, swimming, with no shirt on, his body glistening from the water, omg. :icon_redf

[pirateninja]

No, but it's private. All the staff will keep private discussions confidential.

yes but then we would actually have to tell Holly who we are. I don't think i really want to do that...

Haha, I'm not THAT scary, am I? :D

Nope....
This could become some sort of guessing game :p
You ask the questions, and I'll answer them.
And if you ask me in person, I'll tell you :p

this could turn into a rather fun game of 20 Q's :badgrin: (ok that face is evil)

Okayyyyyyy..... :D

Question 1; What's your favourite TV show?

[Anonymous]

Here's the non-secret:

I'm fat.

Here's the secret:

I hate my body and I hate myself for letting it get this bad.
I don't deserve food.

[Anonymous]

Okayyyyyyy..... :D

Question 1; What's your favourite TV show?

this will be interesting because there's two of us lol
u wont have read it anywhere i dont think
i hate picking just one but i'll go for...anything with graham norton on (!)

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I make myself act more feminine (Im a gay guy) just because im ashamed to act so masculine.

[Anonymous]

You traitor. YOU TRAITOR!

How could you do this to me?!?! It's not right, I tell you! There are so many things I want to scream at you, but can't because you closed the door between us.

How could you shut me out like that? What did I do? Can't you understand how I feel?

Answer me, damn it!!

[Anonymous]

I want a relationship, when i'm not in one, but then, when it happens, and i meet somone, and we start seeing each other, i just want to be as far from in the relationship as possible.

Strange.

[Anonymous]

i want a relationship too.but i dont.
i want that closeness.but then i want to be able to do what i like and go out on the pull so obviously i couldnt do that without actually cheating on the girl and thats not right so

[Anonymous]

Anyone else on EC got synaesthesia? :icon_redf

I'm reluctant to reveal my identity because some people may think it's weird. For example:
The sound of a violin is deep red, whereas cymbals crashing are always yellow.
Depending on how a person acts, their colour changes. This applies to pretty much everyone. It proves that I do judge people when I first meet them, because everyone has a colour. Even those who I don't know.
Pain through touch is also coloured, as are other things.

[Anonymous]

Anyone else on EC got synaesthesia? :icon_redf

I'm reluctant to reveal my identity because some people may think it's weird. For example:
The sound of a violin is deep red, whereas cymbals crashing are always yellow.
Depending on how a person acts, their colour changes. This applies to pretty much everyone. It proves that I do judge people when I first meet them, because everyone has a colour. Even those who I don't know.
Pain through touch is also coloured, as are other things.


Yes. I don't see it as weird, I see it as a gift.

[Anonymous]

Okayyyyyyy..... :D

Question 1; What's your favourite TV show?

this will be interesting because there's two of us lol
u wont have read it anywhere i dont think
i hate picking just one but i'll go for...anything with graham norton on (!)

person 2 :p

Um...favourite tv show?...

Gnarr....this could give me away...

My second favourite though, is the L Word :p

[Anonymous]

Anyone else on EC got synaesthesia? :icon_redf

I'm reluctant to reveal my identity because some people may think it's weird. For example:
The sound of a violin is deep red, whereas cymbals crashing are always yellow.
Depending on how a person acts, their colour changes. This applies to pretty much everyone. It proves that I do judge people when I first meet them, because everyone has a colour. Even those who I don't know.
Pain through touch is also coloured, as are other things.


Yes. I don't see it as weird, I see it as a gift.

OP... I think it's a gift too :) I've gotten some weird looks because of it when I've talked about it before though.

[Anonymous]

Okayyyyyyy..... :D

Question 1; What's your favourite TV show?

this will be interesting because there's two of us lol
u wont have read it anywhere i dont think
i hate picking just one but i'll go for...anything with graham norton on (!)

person 2 :p

Um...favourite tv show?...

Gnarr....this could give me away...

My second favourite though, is the L Word :p

cheater

though tbh q's like that arent gona get us far - for me anyway
because ive never had a conversation chatting about general stuff like that :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

Okayyyyyyy..... :D

Question 1; What's your favourite TV show?

this will be interesting because there's two of us lol
u wont have read it anywhere i dont think
i hate picking just one but i'll go for...anything with graham norton on (!)

person 2 :p

Um...favourite tv show?...

Gnarr....this could give me away...

My second favourite though, is the L Word :p

cheater

though tbh q's like that arent gona get us far - for me anyway
because ive never had a conversation chatting about general stuff like that :icon_sad:

person 2:

Okay, my favouritest show is Bad Girls.

[Anonymous]

Okayyyyyyy..... :D

Question 1; What's your favourite TV show?

this will be interesting because there's two of us lol
u wont have read it anywhere i dont think
i hate picking just one but i'll go for...anything with graham norton on (!)

person 2 :p

Um...favourite tv show?...

Gnarr....this could give me away...

My second favourite though, is the L Word :p

cheater

though tbh q's like that arent gona get us far - for me anyway
because ive never had a conversation chatting about general stuff like that :icon_sad:

person 2:

Okay, my favouritest show is Bad Girls.

me too :) not my fave show ever but it was awesome

[Anonymous]

Anyone else on EC got synaesthesia? :icon_redf

I'm reluctant to reveal my identity because some people may think it's weird. For example:
The sound of a violin is deep red, whereas cymbals crashing are always yellow.
Depending on how a person acts, their colour changes. This applies to pretty much everyone. It proves that I do judge people when I first meet them, because everyone has a colour. Even those who I don't know.
Pain through touch is also coloured, as are other things.


Yes. I don't see it as weird, I see it as a gift.

OP... I think it's a gift too :) I've gotten some weird looks because of it when I've talked about it before though.

I just think it's just purely because people don't understand. Do you think that everybodies colors are the same? Like, do you think that everybody will see the same color with the same things?
Like, when I see somebody in pain, I always see a dark orange color, like rust....

[Anonymous]

Anyone else on EC got synaesthesia? :icon_redf

I'm