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[Anonymous]

Only music seems to be keeping me alive...

[Anonymous]

I see all of these posts here and i just want to say this:

It took my to realize that you help yourself get stable. then when you can stand on your own feet, help others to do so. making yourself comfortable with material things will get you nowhere.

here are things i want everyone to know and realize

live for others even if you can't live for yourself

there is good in everyone even you

giving up never solved anything

always forgive yourself

even if you think your life is worth living, think of all the reasons you'd want your best friend to live or your loved relative. that is why they love you

the first step isn't getting help, its realizing you need help. then the best thing to do is talk to a trusted person you can call a friend.

life may not be what we expected but that doesn't mean we can't find a good reason to live it out anyway (how about for others that love you?)

let karma solve all personal disputes instead of revenge

never stop the tears if you are sad, but when your done crying, don't forget that you are still strong.

and lastly if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, advice on anything, or just a good hug my door is always open. i'm here to help. i keep all secret and would love talking to you about things that are normally taboo to you.
as always (*hug*)



nicely said!



I agree!

[Anonymous]

Grr, I'm tired of my body feeling like it's ok to have same-sex attractions when it isn't.

[Anonymous]

Grr, I'm tired of my body feeling like it's ok to have same-sex attractions when it isn't.

But it is okay to have same-sex attractions! (*hug*) It's perfectly fine! And oooooh believe me, no matter HOW much you try to deny that you're attracted to the same sex, it will never just go away!

(*hug*) I'm so sorry you don't feel that it's okay to be attracted to the same sex. There really is nothing wrong with it, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise!

[Anonymous]

Im jealous of all the people that got more gifts than me

[Anonymous]

Grr, I'm tired of my body feeling like it's ok to have same-sex attractions when it isn't.

But it is okay to have same-sex attractions! (*hug*) It's perfectly fine! And oooooh believe me, no matter HOW much you try to deny that you're attracted to the same sex, it will never just go away!

(*hug*) I'm so sorry you don't feel that it's okay to be attracted to the same sex. There really is nothing wrong with it, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise!

Aww, thanks =]. (*hug*) that makes me feel a bit better.

[Anonymous]

once, when under survelence for self harm, i got so desperate to choke myself that i used my own hand when no one was looking.

[Anonymous]

i miss my eating disorder...
...i'm starting to think it never left

[Anonymous]

Everyone says i'm not fat anymore, but I dont believe them.. But I cant help it.

[Anonymous]

I want to die so badly... I'm just afraid of commiting suicide..

[Anonymous]

My parent's divorced when I was 13 and my dad lives about 4 hours away from me now and I hardly see him or talk to him anymore. I thought it didn't bother me that I don't talk to him anymore, but then a couple days ago I realized that it REALLY does bother me that I don't have a close relationship with him.

[Anonymous]

When people tell me that I am skinny, it makes me want to lose more weight even though I am already on the low side of weight for my age group.

[CrimsonThunder]

Everyone says i'm not fat anymore, but I dont believe them.. But I cant help it.

Thats right, you cant view yourself as thinner because you have the image of you being fat stuck in your head! Its a problem all people that were fat and worked it off have, hopefully you'll realize it soon. =]

[Anonymous]

Everyone says i'm not fat anymore, but I dont believe them.. But I cant help it.

Thats right, you cant view yourself as thinner because you have the image of you being fat stuck in your head! Its a problem all people that were fat and worked it off have, hopefully you'll realize it soon. =]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6ddCz540jY

I hope you realize it soon too(*hug*)

[Hollywood]

Everyone says i'm not fat anymore, but I dont believe them.. But I cant help it.

Thats right, you cant view yourself as thinner because you have the image of you being fat stuck in your head! Its a problem all people that were fat and worked it off have, hopefully you'll realize it soon. =]

Exactly. I developed male aneroxia after loosing 60 pounds. Luckily I fixed myself eventually without it getting too out of hand.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes people at work say Im good looking.. But i know they lie:( .. I hate it when people do that.. Gets me all disillusioned...

[Anonymous]

My friends don't know that I know that they go behind my back to ask my best friend if I'm gay.
My best friend doesn't know I'm gay, so she keeps telling them I'm straight.

It's just going to make it a bit harder to come out to people if they keep asking her. JUST ASK ME!

[Anonymous]

My friends don't know that I know that they go behind my back to ask my best friend if I'm gay.
My best friend doesn't know I'm gay, so she keeps telling them I'm straight.

It's just going to make it a bit harder to come out to people if they keep asking her. JUST ASK ME!

maybe you should try addressing it.

i mean, would you tell them the truth if they asked you?

[Anonymous]

5 years ago my parents got a divorce...
my mom was having an affair...
I knew, but never told my dad...
I am scared he will never forgive me.

[Anonymous]

My parent's divorced when I was 13 and my dad lives about 4 hours away from me now and I hardly see him or talk to him anymore. I thought it didn't bother me that I don't talk to him anymore, but then a couple days ago I realized that it REALLY does bother me that I don't have a close relationship with him.

My parents divorced when I was around your age, too. My father moved to Canada a few years later, and I haven't heard from him since. Like you, for the longest time I didn't think it bothered me, but nowadays I really do wish I had a dad, you know? My mom remarried, but that's not the same. I really want my dad back.

[Anonymous]

I'm worried he is only with me because he thinks he can't get anyone better:(

[Anonymous]

5 years ago my parents got a divorce...
my mom was having an affair...
I knew, but never told my dad...
I am scared he will never forgive me.

Please realize that if your parents had a healthy relationship this wouldn't of happened in the first place. Affairs are never just the fault of one person. It takes two to make a relationship go bad.

[Anonymous]

I'm afraid to come out to my parents.
Mostly my dad.
He thinks lesbians are disgusting...
:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I attract more than a couple gay guys at my school, even though im straight, and they have even come on to me and stared at me during passing period or while im in the lunch line. i also had a horrible sex dream about my biology teacher.

[Anonymous]

i hate myself for what i did to my bf yesterday... we had a date and i never showed up.. and he waited for me the whole night while i was in the mall shopping... plus we were kind of mad so ya... i'm the worst bf ever... i hate myself ... ugh

:bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears:

[Anonymous]

faces freak me out. i crossed all the faces off in my school planner. i don't look people in the eye. even my own family and friends. faces like disgust me and scare me. mirrors scare me too. no matter what that person in there won't stop looking at me and it bothers me.

[Anonymous]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8XVkPpDJfYE

one day in the future when my weight gets far below
I want to appear in front of them my bones can show.
And tell them that their words i took so dearly to my heart
and that indeed my self esteems was already ripped apart.
that i haven't eaten anything since three days long past
and that i think i'm strong enough to show you all at last.
you said i wasn't that skinnny and that i needed to be thin.
well i guess i can show you all that i made your best bet win.
because now i stand before you to show that I am tough.
i ask you very clearly now, 'did i even loose enough?'

[Anonymous]

I attract more than a couple gay guys at my school, even though im straight, and they have even come on to me and stared at me during passing period or while im in the lunch line. i also had a horrible sex dream about my biology teacher.
Have you told them you're straight? I know I hate it when girls come on to me, I know it must be just as bad for you.

[Anonymous]

Reading the "New years" thread where everyone says how good their year was makes me sad,jealous, depressed. Life in total make me depressed i chronicaly get depressed i want to die i want to escape i want to fly away i want to just dissapear. I dont know why im alawyas like this. Im a stupid kid im a hoe and i hate my life

[Anonymous]

I cried at the cinema today for the first time in like 3 years! How embarrassing!

[Anonymous]

i'm really sick of seeing really old threads being revived and new threads made based on old ones. i understand the newer members would enjoy having a 'new' discussion but it sort of annoys me. the reason being: should i post the same exact rely i did before? i mean its not like my outlook on it did. so its sorta annoying. i just ignore them. or when a cool game is overrun to the point that reading all the replys is ridiculus i stop posting.

[Anonymous]

My 'boyfriend' (that's what I think of him as) is coming to my house tomorrow, and we've already toyed around with the fact that we'll be messing around, but I'm afraid he'll want to have anal sex and I'm not ready for that. I think it's stupid that I'm willing to do oral, but not anal. It just seems like a big step in the relationship to me.

And I think of him as that, but I don't know what he thinks of me as. Communication is an issue for us :S

[Paul_UK]

Communication is what's needed here. If it is "an issue" and he is also wanting you to go further sexually than you are prepared to do at this stage, then I would be concerned about the relationship generally.

Somehow you need to communicate your limits to him and he needs to respect them. Don't let him force you into doing things you are not happy to do. That is abuse, not love.

(*hug*)

[Ty]

Just say "Hun, you aint sticking that into me untill I'm ready" if your not comfortable with something then you should never feel forced. That's the difference between love and someone using you.

[Anonymous]

i wanna get fucked by my mate constantly but i never see him

[Anonymous]

Communication is what's needed here. If it is "an issue" and he is also wanting you to go further sexually than you are prepared to do at this stage, then I would be concerned about the relationship generally.

Somehow you need to communicate your limits to him and he needs to respect them. Don't let him force you into doing things you are not happy to do. That is abuse, not love.

(*hug*)

Just say "Hun, you aint sticking that into me untill I'm ready" if your not comfortable with something then you should never feel forced. That's the difference between love and someone using you.

Thanks for the advice. He's now talking about getting one of his buddies to come over to my house with him so we can have a threesome. I'm a little uneasy about this now...I told him no, and he said that it was ok. But still...I guess he might be after 'one thing' instead of a serious relationship. I'll just have to see how it goes tomorrow I guess.

[EthanS]

faces freak me out. i crossed all the faces off in my school planner. i don't look people in the eye. even my own family and friends. faces like disgust me and scare me. mirrors scare me too. no matter what that person in there won't stop looking at me and it bothers me.

:eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: ...... How...d.o.. u live?? (*hug*)

[Ty]

What the hell? it seems like your boyfriends taking libertys! Talk to him! If he cares about your relationship, hes not gonna be forcing you into all of this sexual stuff! (*hug*)

and inviting a third person into it? do you really want your first time to be so unpersonal that you have a third person.. urgh, your boyfriend doesn't sound like a decent guy o far....

[Anonymous]

i was going to try and purge to day but i didn't. i wish i did but its too late now...

[step49x]

Thanks for the advice. He's now talking about getting one of his buddies to come over to my house with him so we can have a threesome. I'm a little uneasy about this now...I told him no, and he said that it was ok. But still...I guess he might be after 'one thing' instead of a serious relationship. I'll just have to see how it goes tomorrow I guess.
If I was in your situation, I think I'd have a serious chat with my bf. How open of a relationship do you want? Are you more interested in love or sex? It does sound like he's wanting to do some things that you aren't to thrilled about. If he keeps wanting these things, and you don't, I might reconsider.

[Anonymous]

Low self-esteem has driven me to make too many bad choices in my life. I hope by recognizing these choices as bad, I am less likely to repeat them in the future. It doesn't always help though.

[Anonymous]

My mom worries constantly so when I am up late doing homework, I have to use a flashlight and hide under th covers of my bed so she can't see the light under my door or else she lectures me about th importance of sleep and will literally confiscate my books and homework, then get mad when my grades suffer.

[Anonymous]

My mom worries constantly so when I am up late doing homework, I have to use a flashlight and hide under th covers of my bed so she can't see the light under my door or else she lectures me about th importance of sleep and will literally confiscate my books and homework, then get mad when my grades suffer.

ooo...that's not good...

AND you'd probably finish faster if you didn't have to do it like that...

have you ever tried putting a shirt or something at the crack under the door so the light doesn't get through?

[Étoile]

If possible, maybe you should just try to do your homework earlier than what you usually do. Being a professional procrastinator, I know this is hard but you can gradually start doing it earlier and earlier until you don't have to wait when everyone's asleep and you're trying to start/do/finish your homework.

[Anonymous]

i wanna get fucked by my mate constantly but i never see him

I want to fuck my boyfriend constantly but he's far away :tears:

[Anonymous]

Im going to go nowhere in life ..

[Anonymous]

I feel sooo down right now.. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I'm very uncomfortable around stereotypical gay men, despite being gay myself.

I find it difficult talking to someone who sounds/acts very much like a girl. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

^ uh, whoops replace the "someone" with "a guy". Silly me, I only read it once I posted it. ^_^

[Anonymous]

I'm Gay but I FUCKING HATE Gay Culture & the Gay community.

[Anonymous]

then why r u here? ..this is a gay community...hmm

[Anonymous]

i'm a girl. ask me why i have a cut on my forehead?
i was shaving it. lol
sorta embaressing though! its only because foundation looks bad with a peach fuzz forhead.

[Anonymous]

then why r u here? ..this is a gay community...hmm

That's true...why are u here? it sorta makes u a hypocrite but if that's ur secret.

I am scared of myself and even though i am 16, i feel sorta insecure, incomplete and left out knowing i am the only virgin amongst my friends..worst, in my class. The next issue is that i am gay...(i would think) and i have never physically met anyone gay in my life.

[Anonymous]

I hate being gay so much.

[Anonymous]

Life is so meaningless at the moment.. I was so happy two days ago, why am i suddenly going blah

[Anonymous]

then why r u here? ..this is a gay community...hmm

That's true...why are u here? it sorta makes u a hypocrite but if that's ur secret.



I don't even know why I'm still here. Gay Culture & The Gay community use to not bother me but as time goes by I find myself hating it more and more and I would give almost anything not to be gay and calling me a hypocrite isn't going to help me get over it.

[Anonymous]

then why r u here? ..this is a gay community...hmm

That's true...why are u here? it sorta makes u a hypocrite but if that's ur secret.



I don't even know why I'm still here. Gay Culture & The Gay community use to not bother me but as time goes by I find myself hating it more and more and I would give almost anything not to be gay and calling me a hypocrite isn't going to help me get over it.

all i can say is, i'm sorry u feel that way.

[Anonymous]

then why r u here? ..this is a gay community...hmm

That's true...why are u here? it sorta makes u a hypocrite but if that's ur secret.



I don't even know why I'm still here. Gay Culture & The Gay community use to not bother me but as time goes by I find myself hating it more and more and I would give almost anything not to be gay and calling me a hypocrite isn't going to help me get over it.

all i can say is, i'm sorry u feel that way.


It's okay, I'll get over it. Sometimes I go through phases where I won't have any problem with being gay then sometimes I'll hate it.

[Anonymous]

I had one of the easiest times coming out I've ever heard of. I faced it by myself, experienced next to no denial or anger. I wasn't afraid of being gay. I told the world, and I'm proud and grateful every day that I'm gay. I'm 22, and I've known I'm gay for 9 years. I've never feared being attracted to men... ever.

Suddenly in recent months, I fantasize about women. I even feel a mild attraction sometimes. And it scares me.

[biisme]

maybe you're bisexual. does it scare you b/c u were so sure, and now you're not?

[Anonymous]

i'm thinking of giving up EC as a new years resolution. the mods and admin don't want me here. i'd rather not be a hassle.

[CrimsonThunder]

i'm thinking of giving up EC as a new years resolution. the mods and admin don't want me here. i'd rather not be a hassle.

The mods and admins want you here, if you are here to support people/be supported or have fun.

[Anonymous]

it's new years day, right now.

and I'm crying.

happy :***: ing newyears

[Anonymous]

it's new years day, right now.

and I'm crying.

happy :***: ing newyears

(*hug*) its new years and i've very angry (leaving person^)

[Anonymous]

its new years and i want to kill myself

[Anonymous]

i'm thinking of giving up EC as a new years resolution. the mods and admin don't want me here. i'd rather not be a hassle.

i guess i'll stay and make then put up with me. i've wanted to leave for months but never can

[Anonymous]

I'm Gay but I FUCKING HATE Gay Culture & the Gay community.

Hey, I'm not really into the whole "gay culture" thing, but no-one ever said you have to be. Everyone's different, and not all straight guys are into football, and not all straight girls act like Paris Hilton. Don't think you have to fit into the "gay lifestyle". =)

Don't let one particular segment (the most publicized one. :confused: ) get you down.

[biisme]

its new years and i want to kill myself

please don't kill yourself. please.

we love u.(&&&)

[Anonymous]

I am 16 years old, and I fantasise about my mum's 46 year old boyfriend almost daily. It's getting more and more frequent, and I dont know what to do. What if he finds out? Plus they're getting married in May, and that just makes it worse.

Staying with my mum's bf, before I came out to my him and my mum, he always used to make anti-gay remarks, and he was really against gay rights. But then when I came out, he suddenly stopped, but surely he must still feel it. I can't live with someone who thinks that. I often think about running away, going to the city, living the way i want to - free.

One last thing. After I left school, I moved really far away from everyone I knew. They didn't seem to care that I might never see my friends again. Now, I feel that me and my best friend are drifting apart.

Thanks y'all, that's a weight off my mind.

[Anonymous]

I PARTLY hate being gay sometimes and wander how different things would be if I wern't gay!

[Anonymous]

I am starting to get really annoyed with some of the members of EC, TCT and I'm starting to feel left out because of the randomness thread its like their own little thing.I miss the old EC when it was only a handful of us.

[Anonymous]

i FEEl like crying i feel left out and depressed.....i felt like shit this whole day...i want to escape

[JSG]

Hey, anyone is welcome, yeah loads of inside jokes, but thats what it is, jokes.
We can have other threads than the serious and sad ones. We need a bit of everything.

[pirateninja]

Trust me, I didn't make it to try and make anyone feel left out. The previously ruined topics were possibly my fault but became hilariously funny because of the input of many people. I'm just sorry I made you feel that way.

[Anonymous]

you didn't.... just people who annoy me..im a scruge

[Anonymous]

Trust me, I didn't make it to try and make anyone feel left out. The previously ruined topics were possibly my fault but became hilariously funny because of the input of many people. I'm just sorry I made you feel that way.

No no, it was me who's apparently made this person miserable, dont blame yourself.

[Ty]

Above was me -.-

[Anonymous]

You have to wonder what is up with these random threads. You know like the picture one. They say it's just jokes, but I didn't really laugh much. Really their probably trying to brainwash us or something.

[Ty]

You have to wonder what is up with these random threads. You know like the picture one. They say it's just jokes, but I didn't really laugh much. Really their probably trying to brainwash us or something.

Or you simply didn't understand/like the humour.

[JSG]

You have to wonder what is up with these miserable people complaining about others having fun...

Sorry if I sound rude or offend but thats what I think.

[biisme]

sorry, but,

if you don't like a certain thread....the obvious answer is just to NOT read it

[Anonymous]

I enjoyed reading the Pictures thread, although I wish I could have joined in, but that;s just cos I'm not that random...and plus it's hard to join in halfway through a convo like that (or at least I find it hard too)....however, thanks for the half hour entertainment that I got while reading all 50 pages of it

[davo-man]

I swear I unchecked the Anonymous box, and I didn't preview it or anything....oh well...The one above was me

[Anonymous]

I Like Cheese!

[davo-man]

...Also, sorry for my noobness, but what does TCT stand for?

[Anonymous]

thatcrazythang

[Ty]

thatcrazythang

Thats me

[Anonymous]

With your strut
With your stuff
Down the sidewalk
Flexing it
For anyone who cares to see
Cause what I need
I’m not good enough for
With your strut
One foot before the other
You wont take me down my brother
You wont do it calmly my brother
Stone by stone
Hopes and dream
We wrap them in our arms
As to protect them
But oh how weak I am
I let them tumble, tumble down
In my arms I cant hold him
Your own private heaven
If only you hadn’t been so
Your own private great wall
If only you hadn’t had a preference
For all those greater things in life
For the greater things
You could discover in the city
They have a lot more to offer
So I can clearly see
Why my mind would play a trick on me
To make me think I was worthy
So I can clearly see
Where it is your coming from
And boy
Maybe I could make you cum
Maybe its better than it seems
But to me
Its seems I was never enough
For anyone besides myself
If only, that wall hadn’t come down at all
If only, you hadn’t have built that fucking wall
You could have been swinging your hammer
Letting it meet the thin air
So now say its not as likely as it seems
For you to make me whole again
But now it seems to me
Maybe I might pack a punch
But I believe this
Things would be easier
If one of us were to just lean over…

[Anonymous]

right now i have a belt around my neck and its tight and my face is getting red ...i wonder if ill have the guts to do it

[Anonymous]

I wish people who needed help would just come out and say it instead of giving MUCH grief toother posting anonymous sucide notes. do you realize how much mental strain that is todearly want to help them but can't. thats just cruel! have some consideration for others, post it w3ith your name, and get some real help! THIS IS NOT A GAME YOUR PLAYIGN THIS IS YOUR LIFE!

[Anonymous]

right now i have a belt around my neck and its tight and my face is getting red ...i wonder if ill have the guts to do it

You better not

[Paul_UK]

right now i have a belt around my neck and its tight and my face is getting red ...i wonder if ill have the guts to do it

The person who posted this (yes, I did look it up) is still online and active here as of the time of my post (nearly an hour later). So we have to assume that either he/she released the belt or that he/she was joking.

[Anonymous]

No i was not joking Paul. I released the belt...i talked to someone, I guess i shudnt post that here that wud be my own secret tat i shud live with not you guys. Im sry if i upset anyone..

[Paul_UK]

You and everyone can always post here on EC about how you are feeling and whatever is troubling you, either by name or anonymously, and we will all try to help. If you need to speak to someone in person, call a suicide support group (in the UK that would be The Samaritans) who are always there.

Someone said here yesterday that "suicide is a long-term solution to a short-term problem". That's part right, though I don't see it as a solution. It doesn't solve nothing and causes a long-term problem for those who love and care for you.

By the way it is extremely rare that we mods/admins will look up who makes anonymous posts, but this was one of those rare cases for obvious reasons.

[Anonymous]

I've always been the "black sheep" of the family. I've never lived up to anyones expectations and now they know I'm gay just adds to it.

[Ty]

I've always been the "black sheep" of the family. I've never lived up to anyones expectations and now they know I'm gay just adds to it.

Being the odd one out isn't a bad thing, individuality should be praised and welcomed, if not at your own house, than at EmptyClosets :) Don't feel that you should be something that your not.

[Anonymous]

My dad used to beat me up. It got so bad once that I blacked out for 3 hours.

[Ty]

My dad used to beat me up. It got so bad once that I blacked out for 3 hours.

Domestic violence should never just be accepted. Your not alone. Hundreds of familys are identical to you and they've all done the same thing. you should report him and have this all sorted out. Theres no need for you to suffer in silence.

http://www.ndvh.org/

[biisme]

^i hope that "used to" means that this has stopped.

[step49x]

No i was not joking Paul. I released the belt...i talked to someone, I guess i shudnt post that here that wud be my own secret tat i shud live with not you guys. Im sry if i upset anyone..
Honestly, this post hurts me just as much as the last one you posted. Don't get me wrong, I'm thrilled that you released the belt. What hurts me is that it sounds like you feel the need to hide your feelings, like it would have been better if you hadn't said anything. Yes, if you don't post anything, then we wouldn't have worry. But I don't think that's the point.

EC for me has been a place that I can come to, where I can say the things I can't say anywhere else. I want it to be that kind of place for everyone else, as well. No matter how deep and dark your secrets may be, I really hope that you feel safe posting them here.

If you don't feel like sharing your secrets with all of EC, I at least hope that you'll tell them to one person. Talk about them, get support (if needed). There's no need to feel embarrassed, no one will share your secrets, if you don't want them to. If you need someone to talk to, feel free to contact the mods, xxAngelOnFirexx, myself, anyone. Please, don't just keep them bottled inside. That won't help anything.

We want to help you with your problems, but we can't help you if we don't know who you are. Everyone here is very special. Please, give us a chance to help you.

[Paul_UK]

I have just deleted about 12 posts of religious stuff that was becoming bitchy, some of it anonymously.

There are plenty of religious discussions on this site at the moment. Please keep the discussions in those and don't spread the discussion all over the place.

[Jeimuzu]

^ The problem with anonymity is that it sometimes allows people to be insulting and spiteful, knowing other members can't tell who is saying such things. I'm not criticising the anonymous system, I'm just thinking how much of a shame it is that people willing to say such insulting things don't have the courage to face up to the consequences.

[Paul_UK]

^ The problem with anonymity is that it sometimes allows people to be insulting and spiteful, knowing other members can't tell who is saying such things. I'm not criticising the anonymous system, I'm just thinking how much of a shame it is that people willing to say such insulting things don't have the courage to face up to the consequences.

This was exactly the concern I had when we added this feature. It started out well but we are having more problems here now. I hope things improve again or this section may well be removed.

[Anonymous]

i feel that people don't recognize me for who i am

[Anonymous]

While you're out having a social life...
I'm in using all of your expensive Clinique makeup.

[Siateac34]

I still pee sitting down.

[Anonymous]

I never stop thinking about suicide.4 yrs ao I downed the majority of sleepping pills on New Years and nearly succeeded aroundnd my family.This Christmas,again surrounded by family,I walked into the bathroom for aspirin for an aching tooth,just to open the cabinet door to run into a bottle of sleep aid.........I thought about it as I feel I always will.

When I was very young,my father had me watch porn,and ever since I thought people were just sluts.......STILL DO!!!

I don't post pics of myself cause I'm fat and don't feel attractive,as many people think that fat is very unattractive and I dispise them for it,as it always brings me down.

[Anonymous]

I find comfort in reading other people's depressing things.

[Anonymous]

I really like this guy named Adam from my Winter camp. He's bi, and we're both just beginning to come out! :) I love you Adam! (*hug*)

[Today4U]

By the way, Adam, if you're here, it's Alec!:icon_redf (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I LOVE SpikySpice

[Anonymous]

I've thought of having a threesome with two of my friends, who are boyfriends. I want to be in the middle and I want them to make me feel good... but it is SO WRONG... I feel so bad about it :tears::tears::tears:Geez... I think this is a pretty normal feeling... who wants to be left out of the fun?

I've had threesomes and they can be pretty fun. I feel bad you feel guilty about your fantasies. :(

[Anonymous]

My relatives have suffered greatly from unexpected deaths divorces unplanned pregnances and so on. My family is practically the only one that doesn't have these kinds of problems and unlike many of my cousins i actually have a future ahead of me and i feel like i would shame to my family if i came out as gay and tarnish my familys image

[Anonymous]

...I think it's my fault Social Survices is investigating my family...I want to kill my brother...And I feel like I have to act like nothing is wrong so no one else is bothered.

[Anonymous]

why do you want to kill him? I don't think that's a good idea...that's a very bad idea

[Anonymous]

I wish I was straight, it's just easier..

[Anonymous]

I love staring at naked guys in my bathroom at college. It's weird, though: the better I get to know them, the less I want to see them naked. I almost feel like I think that in general: On one hand, I'd love to see the people I've talked to online naked, but on the other, I almost prefer seeing them clothed. Some I think are pretty hot, too.

[Anonymous]

When I was younger I thought that if I got strong enough to be able to lift my own weight I could sit on a chair, lift myself up with my hands holding onto the bottom, and FLY! :D

[Anonymous]

I'm rly emotional with stuff, but I try to hide it from people at school because I don't want people thinking i'm like some loser or baby or whatever...:dry:

[Anonymous]

I really like this guy, and he's bi, and he jdoesn't know I like him. He knows I'm gay. We were talking about stuff, and I asked him if he likes anyone, and he said this girl that we both know. Now I'm really sad. Does anyone just want to talk?

[Today4U]

Sorry, that was kind of pointless, I posted above.

[biisme]

When I was younger I thought that if I got strong enough to be able to lift my own weight I could sit on a chair, lift myself up with my hands holding onto the bottom, and FLY! :D

yea? well i thought that if i took two long sticks, glued a TON of feathers to them, rubber banded them to my arms and jumped off something, i should be able to fly. :)

[Anonymous]

even though i'm not too depressed reading about all these suicide attempts reminds me of my own and makes me want to try them again. I don't want to die but life is just whatever happens. i have no plans. its just now and forever. I like the thought that i can end it anytime i want.

[Anonymous]

at my school i told on girls for cutting 'because i used to cut and i didn't like to see others in the same situation and hurting'
then in my black heart i saw the truth. i was jealous they were cutting when i couldnt. i told because if i wasn't allowed to cut, no one else could either.

[Anonymous]

I really can't understand the whole suicide / self-harm thing so many people seem to be involved in. What's the point of hurting yourself? All it does is make you more depressed, potentially damage vital nerves and cause permanent disability in your hand, and hurt everyone close to you.

As for suicide, all it does it leave loads of guilt on the people who love and care for you. Seriously, it's the cowards way out. People who are thinking of suicide always seem to think that "it's better if i die so everyone can be happier and I'm not depressed anymore". WRONG. Apart from destroying your own life, you've destroyed your family and friend's lives as well. They'll have to live with wondering if it was their fault.

Seriously, anyone thinking of self-harm or suicide, don't be an asshole. Stop hurting other people by wallowing in self-pity and stand up and live your life. All suicide shows is that you were too stupid to put in the effort into living a great fulfilling life.

Sorry for my little rant, but it makes me angry seeing people who can't be bothered enjoying the life we have...

[Anonymous]

Silly girl, being dumb,
Has a razor at her thumb.
Even sad, she does insist,
That she can't cut her wrist.

[Anonymous]

This written by JayHew - forgot the button.

I really can't understand the whole suicide / self-harm thing so many people seem to be involved in.

And that is the problem, you don't understand it and haven't walked a mile in someone else's moccasins, especially someone who happens to have this disorder or disease (dis - ease).

What causes some to commit suicide appears to be a psychological stress with a psychological pain, to the point where it is as bad as chronic intense pain. If you have ever experienced intense pain for a long period of time it does changed your attitude, way to deal on a daily basis with people, places, things, whereas most of anything you do has the luster for life removed. Thought processes are no longer similar to yours, everything operates totally different. It is wrong of you to presume people are doing this just for the sake of it or being stupid. They are not, but caught up in different way of thinking.

Somewhat the same with the personality disorders of cutting and self injury. It is a disassociative disorder as well as personality disorder. It is the result of low self esteem, isolation, abandonment, depression and other aspects as the result of emotional or physical abuse of long standing or no meaningful attention giving to someone at the critical development stage when growing up. There are a number of issues needing to be overcome and thought processes changed and requires extreme time and effort for care givers being given.

We tend to condemn, criticize, fear that which we don't understand, as it has been shown with the above statement. Before making blanket statements concerning something you don't understand, it would behoove you to gather up some understanding, before you might embarrass yourself.

[Anonymous]

Seriously, anyone thinking of self-harm or suicide, don't be an asshole. Stop hurting other people by wallowing in self-pity and stand up and live your life. All suicide shows is that you were too stupid to put in the effort into living a great fulfilling life.
:tears:
its sad that you are such a sit misuderstanding person. as a person of self harm and suicide i have on pity on you for having such a cold and evil heart. you are in much worse shoes than mine by being so terribly bitter and stupid.

[Jim1454]

I really can't understand the whole suicide / self-harm thing so many people seem to be involved in. What's the point of hurting yourself? All it does is make you more depressed, potentially damage vital nerves and cause permanent disability in your hand, and hurt everyone close to you.

As for suicide, all it does it leave loads of guilt on the people who love and care for you. Seriously, it's the cowards way out. People who are thinking of suicide always seem to think that "it's better if i die so everyone can be happier and I'm not depressed anymore". WRONG. Apart from destroying your own life, you've destroyed your family and friend's lives as well. They'll have to live with wondering if it was their fault.

Seriously, anyone thinking of self-harm or suicide, don't be an asshole. Stop hurting other people by wallowing in self-pity and stand up and live your life. All suicide shows is that you were too stupid to put in the effort into living a great fulfilling life.

Sorry for my little rant, but it makes me angry seeing people who can't be bothered enjoying the life we have...

Jayhew nailed this in terms of his response. Thanks Jayhew. I can't help but comment as well though:

To the person that posted this, consider yourself extremely lucky that you've never found yourself in the shoes of someone that is suicidal or prone to self harm. Why do I konw you've never been there? Because you WOULD understand what it's like, and not offer up the obvious and easy alternative of simply 'not' engagind in these things. In other threads I've likened cutting to other forms of addiction - all of which are extremely harmful to the person that finds themselves caught up in it. So similarly, we should simply tell the alcoholic to stop drinking, the heroin addict to stop shooting up, etc., and they'd be all better.

If only life were that easy for those of us that unfortunately find ourselves - for one reason or another - in the grip of an addiction or in the lonely, black abyss of depression and suicidal thoughts.

[Anonymous]

i have almost died 6 times and some times i wish one of them would have worked :tears:

[Anonymous]

people are scared of me but i am probably the most harmless person ever

[biisme]

i have almost died 6 times and some times i wish one of them would have worked :tears:

well, i'm most certainly glad that none of them worked! (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

i have almost died 6 times and some times i wish one of them would have worked :tears:

i can't even count how many close calls i've had with every single suicide attempt. its all the time that i wish i died the first time i tried around two years ago. i mean god! everyone knows i'ma die anyway.

[biisme]

i can't even count how many close calls i've had with every single suicide attempt. its all the time that i wish i died the first time i tried around two years ago. i mean god! everyone knows i'ma die anyway.

no, no, noooooooo

[Anonymous]

SO testing out this anonmous thing.....ok...umm..everyones else said stuffs so i will too..:::: SOmetimes i feel alone here....cuz i feel like the only gay guy for at least 50 miles away....T_T..cuz no one in my town is out or anything...so ya...

sometimes i feel a need to protest...like...get billions of ppl together..and march to wherever......and make gayness LEGAL in alabama :) and all the other places...where its not...

well i mean its legal..but they treat it like its not...ugh..lol..anyways..u get what i mean right?

[Anonymous]

I really need help, but...I can't get any. I can't tell anyone in my life because it concerns them. I can't post it on ec because it also concerns someone here. I can't post it anonymously because all it'd do is depress and upset people. There is absolutely no way for me to say it, anywhere, except to myself.

[JSG]

You can PM members on EC, there's always someone here to listen to you and give advice.

I suggest you PM Louise :icon_wink

[Anonymous]

I really need help, but...I can't get any. I can't tell anyone in my life because it concerns them. I can't post it on ec because it also concerns someone here. I can't post it anonymously because all it'd do is depress and upset people. There is absolutely no way for me to say it, anywhere, except to myself.

Can you post it anonymously without saying who the person is? If not then as JSG suggests can you PM someone you trust? Maybe Louise, Becky or JayHew?

[Anonymous]

I'll post a few -

I'm incredibly underweight, I don't think I'm anorexic because I want to be fit and healthy,
but I can't eat I find it incredibly hard.
I haven't eaten a vegetable in over about 13 years, I will vomit if I know there is one in my mouth. But I do eat potatoes, I know it's a psychological thing but I don't know how to fix it.

I was born with an undeveloped bladder and used to wet the bed, up until the last few years. I never stayed at a friends house for this reason. I stayed at a friends house last year and woke up just as I started to urinate so I ran home as soon as I did taking the sleeping bag with me. I washed and returned it to him and told him I was feeling sick and went home and took the sleeping bag because it was cold. I told him the truth later on though and haven't had the problem since.

I used to be afraid of death to the point where I would almost cry, I'm now over it but have recently become somewhat suicidal. I do cut myself, not to try and kill myself as a stress relief and in an area where it causes minimal damage. I could end my life at any time now but only don't because I don't want to hurt my family, even though I somewhat hate them. On the same note I want to know how people would react if I did die.

I cry to myself when seeing/hearing about people having any kind of interaction with their father because mine doesn't want to know me, I've net him 5-6 times and he was only there to try and get some from my mum and every time he was drunk.

I've smoked marijuana a lot, but did it in the bathroom at 4 in the morning with the shower running. I did that almost every night just so I could escape my life. I still have a large amount of it under my bed right now but I'm not tempted to use it, although I haven't got rid of it.

[beckyg]

For those of you posting suicial tendicies or thoughts, please go to this website immediately: http://www.donteraseyourqueerfuture.org/

You are here to change the world for the better. If you leave this world, the change won't happen.

[Anonymous]

On a lighter note -

I'm addicted to Heroes, The 4400, Smallville, Torchwood, Journeyman, Supernatural, Stargate SG1 and Atlantis those are just a few, there are many many more. Also I don't watch television, even though there is one in my room lol, so I just download them.

I have, as of yesterday, taking a vow of abstinence because I masturbate far too much. But that will end if I ever get my first boyfriend.

I love to read and write and I'm going to publish a book because I find the notion of having my ideas and thoughts running through the minds of others. I also want to be remembered in whatever little way possible and would love it to be in this form.

[beckyg]

I really need help, but...I can't get any. I can't tell anyone in my life because it concerns them. I can't post it on ec because it also concerns someone here. I can't post it anonymously because all it'd do is depress and upset people. There is absolutely no way for me to say it, anywhere, except to myself.

Can you post it anonymously without saying who the person is? If not then as JSG suggests can you PM someone you trust? Maybe Louise, Becky or JayHew?


You can PM me anytime and I will try to help you in any way I can. (*hug*)

[Jim1454]

I really need help, but...I can't get any. I can't tell anyone in my life because it concerns them. I can't post it on ec because it also concerns someone here. I can't post it anonymously because all it'd do is depress and upset people. There is absolutely no way for me to say it, anywhere, except to myself.

Can you post it anonymously without saying who the person is? If not then as JSG suggests can you PM someone you trust? Maybe Louise, Becky or JayHew?


You can PM me anytime and I will try to help you in any way I can. (*hug*)

You can PM me as well. Sometimes your secrets only rule your world as long as they are kept secret. Once you've shared them with someone, they aren't as bad as they seemed. Give it a try. If not with me, then with someone.

[Paul_UK]

Any of us on the mod team will be glad to help if we can.

I'm sure many of the EC regulars would be happy to help too. Look for someone that's been here for a while, that you like and feel you can trust.

[joeyconnick]

I'm addicted to Heroes, The 4400, Smallville, Torchwood, Journeyman, Supernatural, Stargate SG1 and Atlantis those are just a few, there are many many more. Also I don't watch television, even though there is one in my room lol, so I just download them.I LOVE Journeyman and The 4400, and they've gone and cancelled BOTH, those bastard networks! Well technicaly that bastard NBC network, because NBC owns SciFi, which makes/broadcasts The 4400, and Journeyman is a NBC show. *sigh*

They always kill good TV.

[Latinokid]

I like to buy underwear..

[Anonymous]

i get suicidal and depressed everytime i'm close to my period by a week. so it feels like soon as i get better i get bad again. they used to up my meds during it but we always forget and then i want to keep myself at that does so i just get my meds raised when i ask. it really sux. i can be happy but soon as that time comes around i just cry and am depressed and get bad urges to self harm. i don't know what the heck to do. its embarresing to tell people that this is why i'm depressed so i dont.

[Anonymous]

I sometimes wonder if the world's really going to end in 2012 like some people and psychics predict. The Mayan's view of the world ends in 2012 when the sun cycle reaches its crux. If anyone listens to Coast-to-Coast AM on the radio, they're always talking about this stuff too. It's silly because I don't prescribe to any religion and just take what wisdom I can from everything I read and hear, but sometimes I wonder if there might be something more to it. Oooh! And some of Nostradamus' most recently-discovered prophecies also date to 2012 in which the Last Pope will cause world strife.

[Anonymous]

Yer thats what i heard.. That makes me want to live more sometimes becuase the worlds going to end neway soon so i might aswell live the rest of the few years we have.. it may sounds stupid but i was going to get ready for whateveres going to happen i was thiking to get fit .. ..:icon_redf

[EthanS]

I'll post a few -

I'm incredibly underweight, I don't think I'm anorexic because I want to be fit and healthy,
but I can't eat I find it incredibly hard.
I haven't eaten a vegetable in over about 13 years, I will vomit if I know there is one in my mouth. But I do eat potatoes, I know it's a psychological thing but I don't know how to fix it.

I was born with an undeveloped bladder and used to wet the bed, up until the last few years. I never stayed at a friends house for this reason. I stayed at a friends house last year and woke up just as I started to urinate so I ran home as soon as I did taking the sleeping bag with me. I washed and returned it to him and told him I was feeling sick and went home and took the sleeping bag because it was cold. I told him the truth later on though and haven't had the problem since.

I used to be afraid of death to the point where I would almost cry, I'm now over it but have recently become somewhat suicidal. I do cut myself, not to try and kill myself as a stress relief and in an area where it causes minimal damage. I could end my life at any time now but only don't because I don't want to hurt my family, even though I somewhat hate them. On the same note I want to know how people would react if I did die.

I cry to myself when seeing/hearing about people having any kind of interaction with their father because mine doesn't want to know me, I've net him 5-6 times and he was only there to try and get some from my mum and every time he was drunk.

I've smoked marijuana a lot, but did it in the bathroom at 4 in the morning with the shower running. I did that almost every night just so I could escape my life. I still have a large amount of it under my bed right now but I'm not tempted to use it, although I haven't got rid of it.

....(*hug*)
.[/QUOTE]
I could end my life at any time now but only don't because I don't want to hurt my family, even though I somewhat hate them. On the same note I want to know how people would react if I did die.[/QUOTE]
thats what i used to think

[Anonymous]

Yer thats what i heard.. That makes me want to live more sometimes becuase the worlds going to end neway soon so i might aswell live the rest of the few years we have.. it may sounds stupid but i was going to get ready for whateveres going to happen i was thiking to get fit .. ..:icon_redfThat is definitely the most unusual motivation for working out I've ever heard but hey, if it works for you...

[Anonymous]

i'm not an athesist because i find while there no proof he exsists there is no proof that he doesn't. i mean he may exsist in some way in science we don't understand yet. we just have no idea so i'm not going to deny the possibility but i don't really find it enough to worship and live for as fact.

[Anonymous]

I enjoy swimming, bathing and showering with clothes on.

No one knows this.

[Anonymous]

I sometimes hope that certain family members could die before I have to tell them. At least then they wouldn't have to put up with the fact I'm gay. And I hate myself for thinking such horrible thoughts.

[Anonymous]

I sometimes hope that certain family members could die before I have to tell them. At least then they wouldn't have to put up with the fact I'm gay. And I hate myself for thinking such horrible thoughts.



I know that even if it ment to be blissfully happy with the girl of my dreams, that half of my family will die with out ever knowing i looked her way... do not hate yourself for it, its self preservation, for both parties, its the way life is, i know sometimes i feel guilty as well, but i know its for the best. *hugs*

keep it from them if it makes things easier and better for you, not only if it saves them, you know!?

[step49x]

I enjoy swimming, bathing and showering with clothes on.

No one knows this.
For the longest time, I'd always go swimming with a shirt on. I've always been a bit self-conscious, and the top of my back is covered in scabs/bumps/something (don't know what it is, maybe i'll post a topic and see if someone can figure it out).

[JSG]

I don't have the nicest back either.

[Anonymous]

right now the only eating disorder i'm not partaking in is binge disorder. now i have anorexia(starving myself), bulimia(binging when i think i ate too much, normally over 350calories at one meal), and exersise anorexia (a real thing that is exersising excessivly and burning more calories than you manage to eat).
and i'm happier than i've been since March 07'. i deserve to be happy. this is a choice and a lifestyle. heh, maybe a disorder... but not enough for me to weigh out the odds.

[Time]

i'm not an athesist because i find while there no proof he exsists there is no proof that he doesn't. i mean he may exsist in some way in science we don't understand yet. we just have no idea so i'm not going to deny the possibility but i don't really find it enough to worship and live for as fact.

Sounds like you're agnostic, just like me :)

[Anonymous]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

[Anonymous]

I feel like i will never be able to come out.

[The Enigmatic]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

Well you can take solace in the fact that I'm not ignoring you. :)
Here's something about me, I feel physically ill when I find out my friends have hung out and not invited me.
Which sadly happens quite a bit.

[Anonymous]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

Well you can take solace in the fact that I'm not ignoring you. :)
Here's something about me, I feel physically ill when I find out my friends have hung out and not invited me.
Which sadly happens quite a bit.

i haven't hung out with my friends since the summer, and that was only once. yet she says i'm her best friend even though i'm always last to hear her gossip and she never talks to me. i virtually am friendless. and even then i feel i'm ignored by family and on here. thanks for replying (*hug*)

-ignored

[The Enigmatic]

School holidays stink in my case I too am the last to, or the one not to be mostly, invited to go places or even talked to. And I don't make it any easier for myself because I find it impossible to ask someone to hang out because I feel like I'm forcing myself onto them and that they don't like me if they have other plans.
But I've also somewhat drifted apart from my friends and am starting at a new school at the end of this month so maybe I should try looking for some more friends.

[Hollywood]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

Well you can take solace in the fact that I'm not ignoring you. :)
Here's something about me, I feel physically ill when I find out my friends have hung out and not invited me.
Which sadly happens quite a bit.

i get like that too. i have jealously/trust issues. plus the fact that im a total bitch dosent help it xD

[The Enigmatic]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

Well you can take solace in the fact that I'm not ignoring you. :)
Here's something about me, I feel physically ill when I find out my friends have hung out and not invited me.
Which sadly happens quite a bit.

i get like that too. i have jealously/trust issues. plus the fact that im a total bitch dosent help it xD

Hahahaha I've never thought about whether I'm a bitch or not, I shall ponder on this and get back to you.

[Anonymous]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

Well you can take solace in the fact that I'm not ignoring you. :)
Here's something about me, I feel physically ill when I find out my friends have hung out and not invited me.
Which sadly happens quite a bit.

i get like that too. i have jealously/trust issues. plus the fact that im a total bitch dosent help it xD

Hahahaha I've never thought about whether I'm a bitch or not, I shall ponder on this and get back to you.

i think everyone can agree that i walk around at school with a face that clearly reads 'stay away from me' and that is what i'm thinking! i am ignored though. the teacher asked if there was anyone who hadn't gotten a chance to read and i didn't. i didn't want to so i didn't say anything and we just moved on.
-ignored

[Anonymous]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

Well you can take solace in the fact that I'm not ignoring you. :)
Here's something about me, I feel physically ill when I find out my friends have hung out and not invited me.
Which sadly happens quite a bit.

I get like that too...I get really annoyed when my friends do stuff and forget me, which happens more than I'd like to say

...And I am also not ignoring you

...Hmm a secret about me?....I have way too many shorts in my cupboard and my handwriting is horrible

[Anonymous]

i think i'm better off dead.

[Anonymous]

I feel completely ignored by everyone

I feel the same way

[Anonymous]

I get ignored and treated badly by most "friends".I never tell them how I actually feel when they do it.

[Anonymous]

i feel like everyone is just gunna let me be destroyed by my eating disorder instead of trying to help or letting me at least know they care or something.

[Anonymous]

I also feel ignored alot....i feel like I just don't have any .....motivation to keep living my mom is always pissed off we fight everyday and i have had enough. She always attaking me and stuff....*long sigh*......i want to get away.....i wish i could run away somewhere

[Anonymous]

You looks for help on here,nobody responds,then your thread disappears so anyone that would respond won't see it.

What a great way to end my night:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

You looks for help on here,nobody responds,then your thread disappears so anyone that would respond won't see it.

What a great way to end my night:icon_sad:

i was just thinking the EXACT same thing!!

[biisme]

i think i'm better off dead.

you can always send me a PM if you want to talk

[Anonymous]

sometimes all i want to do is scream...but then i hold it in.....i don't allow myself to lose too much control.... and doin that makes me more angry, because i kno it's bad.....i'm afraid that one day i'm just going to snap.

[Anonymous]

i used to pray that i'd be invisible in grade school. now i am sad that i am clearly invisible to everyone. now i just have to make myself loose drastic weight into phsically feeling invisible as i feel.
imagine a little 6th grader in gym class her blonde hair pulled back in a pony tail, a mess. quiet strange girl, usually taunted by the bully and few friends, sitting in the back corner with her eyes closed chanting.... "please just let me be invisible" only just in six grade.
just kept repeating:eusa_pray :

Dragon fog and chameleon sight
I command the shrouded sea.
I blend the mist, I mix the light.
Refract, around, behind me.

chanting, repeating....

want to be invisible?
Its not as fun as it sounds........ :dry:

(credit to the witch, Silver Ravenwolf for creating the spell that i quote from her book "Teen Witch: Wicca for a New Generation")
Right around the time i was saying this spell i wrote this poem:
The Shadow
I am fading into the backround,
As the colors swirl and mix.
I am slowly disappearing,
It is something no one can fix.

I am fading away from reality,
I can't distinguish my dreams.
This world that I'm living in,
Is more crazy than it seems.

Soon I'm going to disappear,
And no ones going to care.
For some one once told me,
That life is not fair.


i want to go back in time and give this girl a hug. it was only the beginning. :icon_sad: that summer she had a dream. she saw this girl in the future with obvious eating disorder, goth, sad, nothing she was at the moment, and knew it was her future self. that morning when she woke up she knew life was going to be different. and it was.


don't bother yourself replying. i'm not worth it............
just had to get all that out.....

[Anonymous]

The posts about self-harm, eating disorders, suicide, and depression make me kind of sad. :icon_sad: Though I suppose it's good that people at least feel open enough to post their feelings.

[biisme]

The posts about self-harm, eating disorders, suicide, and depression make me kind of sad. :icon_sad: Though I suppose it's good that people at least feel open enough to post their feelings.

i feel the same way...but i want people to open up and not hold it all inside

[The Enigmatic]

I like telling my secrets and have been putting easy links in my posts hoping that people will guess who I am lol. I'm pretty desperate for attention. :icon_redf :roflmao: (!)

[biisme]

well here i am, acknowledging your post and giving you attention

(*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*) :kiss:

ever want some more, you can PM me

(*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*) :kiss:

[Anonymous]

i'm like a cat when u give it, its dinner: i either don't eat it or throw it up. *meow*

[biisme]

i'm like a cat when u give it, its dinner: i either don't eat it or throw it up. *meow*

well, THAT doesn't sound good...

maybe you should try NOT to be a cat...

:kiss:

[Anonymous]

i'm like a cat when u give it, its dinner: i either don't eat it or throw it up. *meow*

well, THAT doesn't sound good...

maybe you should try NOT to be a cat...

:kiss:

its not that. i'm facinated with cats and i find metaphors in everything all the time and i thought this one was cute. but my main point is i don't and and or throw up what i do it. just like my grandmas old cat. (she's my age, 15)

[Anonymous]

i'm very sick and if i don't try to get better immediatly what i'm ill with could indirectly kill me. i fell alseep last night by passing out from pain, as i could not sleep with it. and i was so messed up this morning i could barely walk. i missed schol today and i am trying to get better but i have no idea how this is going to play out. at least i'm walking. even though all functions are slowed down alot.

[EthanS]

..Erm.. shudnt you go to hospital??.. what did ya family say??
do they even know??

[Anonymous]

I want to get to know the people that are only a state away,so I'd have some gay buddies to talk to or even eventually see and hang with,but I don't know how to go about it.

[Anonymous]

^I'm just a very lonely boy:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I've been in a low spot emotionally lately, keep looking for a safe way out but keep ending up drowning in another bottle. To compound my depression one of my best freinds, one of the two people I was actually out to died suddenly a few days ago. He was 39.

[biisme]

i'm sorry honey^

(*hug*) (*hug*)

how'd he die?

[Anonymous]

i'd pay anything to be able to meet...no, talk too...no, know that they are okay. :tears:

[Anonymous]

No??.. who's no
?:confused:

[biisme]

i believe they were contradicting themselves in the middle of their statement, kind of like "no, i didn't mean that". the "they" is who the person wants to meet. but we don't kno who "they" is

i think

[EthanS]

Still dotn get it ..

it was me btw ^_^

[Anonymous]

Hearing other people's problems really puts into perspective how stupid
and silly my own ones are. If any of you need to talk, don't hesitate to
PM me :icon_wink . (*hug*)

[Fiorino]

Hearing other people's problems really puts into perspective how stupid
and silly my own ones are. If any of you need to talk, don't hesitate to
PM me :icon_wink . (*hug*)

Crap, that was me forgot to undo the anonymous thing.

[biisme]

those bunnies are adorable! ^

[Latinokid]

Oh My God! I'm In Love With Hannah Montana! And Nick Jonas He Is Soo Sexy! Oh My God!

[Anonymous]

i'm sorry honey^

(*hug*) (*hug*)

how'd he die?


He hit his head but said he was fine when people tried to help him, went home to take a nap and was found dead a few hours later. Doctors say he had a stroke, apparently he got a concussion when he hit his head. Guess that is why people with head injuries aren't supposed to go to sleep until after they are checked out, because they may not wake-up. :icon_sad:

[biisme]

i'm so so so so sorry that happened. :kiss:

if u ever need to talk or anything you can PM me anytime.

xoxo

[Anonymous]

i'd pay anything to be able to meet...no, talk too...no, know that they are okay. :tears:

grammar morons. let me type it 'perfectly' for you

I would pay anything to be able to meet, no wait-, just talk to, no wait-, just to hear how my dear friend is, and just to know that they are okay. :tears:

got it?:dry:

[Anonymous]

I feel like i can't be sad because it makes other people sad.

[biisme]

i'd pay anything to be able to meet...no, talk too...no, know that they are okay. :tears:

grammar morons. let me type it 'perfectly' for you

I would pay anything to be able to meet, no wait-, just talk to, no wait-, just to hear how my dear friend is, and just to know that they are okay. :tears:

got it?:dry:

hey, i had it b4.

[biisme]

I feel like i can't be sad because it makes other people sad.

but then they'll feel worse if they find out you're sad and u didn't ask for ehlp from them

[SpikySpice]

i'm like a cat when u give it, its dinner: i either don't eat it or throw it up. *meow*

Im more like a sick cat, lol, now i dont eat anymore cuz when I eat, Im liek a dead cat, sooooooooooooo slow

[Anonymous]

i had a bad bloody nose so i made a fake suicide/homicide/cutters scene and like an artisti set it all up. then i took pics, cleaned it, stopped my bleeding, and went on with my day. phycho-path!! :badgrin:

[Anonymous]

All of my smile are fake, and I hate it when peole look into my eyes because I'm scared that they'll see that I don't mean them.

[Anonymous]

my older step brother molested me when i was 10. i am 16 now and i have held it up for years because idk who to tell or who would beleive me. I also often blame him for my sexuality and think that if he never did the stuff he did to me, i would have been straight. :(

[Anonymous]

my older step brother molested me when i was 10. i am 16 now and i have held it up for years because idk who to tell or who would beleive me. I also often blame him for my sexuality and think that if he never did the stuff he did to me, i would have been straight. :(

Hey, kids do get molested by their older siblings because of (whether to beilve it or not) raging emotions and hormones. Dont blame your self. Find help. Im serious. If you are joking with me, that is so not cool. but really. dont blame any one for your sexuality. its nothing that anyone, most definately, you can control. im really sorry for you, but you have to realize that what he did was wrong. is your brother gay/bi? he, like many teens could have been questioning his sexuality... i am really sorry to hear that. please find some counseling or a website to help you with trauma.

[Anonymous]

i've always wanted to have sex with two of my best male friends, Sean U. and Brandon L.J they are so hot and have nice sizes.

[Anonymous]

I kno too well the effects that hardcore drugs can have on people, both the users and their families and friends...

It doesnt stop the longing i have to go on a binge to lose weight.

[Anonymous]

I've always been looked at as the one "good" and "successful" kid in my family, and I know if I were to reveal to them who I really was everything I've worked for would amount to nothing, because all I would appear to be was a disappointment. I just can't help but hate myself for who I really am. :(

[Anonymous]

Am I freaking Invisible!? Does no one want to know me?! I just don't know what to do anymore... :(

[biisme]

Am I freaking Invisible!? Does no one want to know me?! I just don't know what to do anymore... :(

I WANT TO KNOW YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!

really, i do.

:kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:

[Anonymous]

Am I freaking Invisible!? Does no one want to know me?! I just don't know what to do anymore... :(

^ That was me, I almost feel kind of dumb for putting it up :redface:

[Blitzkrieg]

Oops forgot to undo anonymous ^

[Anonymous]

Oops forgot to undo anonymous ^

i want to kno u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

talk to me!

hehe.

don't feel dumb.

[biisme]

damn, that's the first time i didn't unclick the anon^

[Anonymous]

I hate that black history month is coming soon. IM FUCKING TIRED OF LEANING ABOUT BLACK PEOPLE!

[biisme]

would u feel better if there was a white history month?

or whatever u are?

[Ty]

I hate that black history month is coming soon. IM FUCKING TIRED OF LEANING ABOUT BLACK PEOPLE!

Im sure they got quite 'tired' after hundreds of years of slavery.

Besides, its in October, and if you want to be that ignorant, then simply don't absorb any information.

*sigh*

[Anonymous]

Actually its in Febuary since u are not in america.

[Ty]

Actually its in Febuary since u are not in america so stop trying to be a smart ass

This is where Hate starts.

[biisme]

why don't we not let things become offensive.

you're entitled to your opinion, and you're allowed to post it, and although i am sorry that you feel that way, i'm not going to get mad and spend my time arguing.

maybe it would be best if we moved on to something else, or if people could post in a manner that is not so accusatory.

[Anonymous]

why don't we not let things become offensive.

you're entitled to your opinion, and you're allowed to post it, and although i am sorry that you feel that way, i'm not going to get mad and spend my time arguing.

maybe it would be best if we moved on to something else, or if people could post in a manner that is not so accusatory.

Well sorry but I simply cannot allow ignorant little things to be said like that. My dad was bullied because of his race when he was younger and im not gonna let some ignorant little kid write stuff like that while im a member on these forums.

[Ty]

why don't we not let things become offensive.

you're entitled to your opinion, and you're allowed to post it, and although i am sorry that you feel that way, i'm not going to get mad and spend my time arguing.

maybe it would be best if we moved on to something else, or if people could post in a manner that is not so accusatory.

Well sorry but I simply cannot allow ignorant little things to be said like that. My dad was bullied because of his race when he was younger and im not gonna let some ignorant little kid write stuff like that while im a member on these forums.

Gah, so angry i forgot to untick -.-

[biisme]

why don't we not let things become offensive.

you're entitled to your opinion, and you're allowed to post it, and although i am sorry that you feel that way, i'm not going to get mad and spend my time arguing.

maybe it would be best if we moved on to something else, or if people could post in a manner that is not so accusatory.

Well sorry but I simply cannot allow ignorant little things to be said like that. My dad was bullied because of his race when he was younger and im not gonna let some ignorant little kid write stuff like that while im a member on these forums.

Gah, so angry i forgot to untick -.-

i'm not saying not to post your opinion (this is to everyone). but maybe try to phrase it in a way that isn't so harsh. it's a sensitive topic and i don't want this to turn into a huge war. i kno i sound lik i don't want u to say what u really feel, i just don't want everyone to get mad at everyone else.

don't attack the other person, argue their POINTS.

and, i'm sorry about ur dad thatcrazythang.

[beckyg]

Just a reminder.....Personal attacks are not okay on this forum. Please be respectful of eachother without the name calling.

[biisme]

thank u becky!

[Ty]

Fine ~ I'll simply not use this portion of EC if thats any to everyone.

[Anonymous]

This is what gets me pissed i can't say nothing woth out getting attacled, that was my secret so i don;t know why people are all up in it.

[biisme]

everyone should be able to post their opinion WITHOUT being personally attacked. and people should not attack others in their posts.

[Paul_UK]

^ Agreed.

[Anonymous]

I hate being born a female. I mean, females are brilliant (I love 'em, after all), but sometimes I just wish I wasn't born in this body.

[Anonymous]

my older step brother molested me when i was 10. i am 16 now and i have held it up for years because idk who to tell or who would beleive me. I also often blame him for my sexuality and think that if he never did the stuff he did to me, i would have been straight. :(

Hey, kids do get molested by their older siblings because of (whether to beilve it or not) raging emotions and hormones. Dont blame your self. Find help. Im serious. If you are joking with me, that is so not cool. but really. dont blame any one for your sexuality. its nothing that anyone, most definately, you can control. im really sorry for you, but you have to realize that what he did was wrong. is your brother gay/bi? he, like many teens could have been questioning his sexuality... i am really sorry to hear that. please find some counseling or a website to help you with trauma.


i wasn't makeing a joke nether was i lieing. i tried suicide 3 times and it just didn't work. for one, maybe it's just not my time to die and secondly, maybe i am what my mom says i am "a disgrace to the family". idk what sexuality my brother is for i havn't spoken to him in over 4 years. however when he was in high school i remember him having a gf.
i wake up every day and all that comes to mind is to be a serial killer for i have somewhat diversificated from hateing myself to hateing those who try to hurt me. :tears:

the only thing that keeps me going is my grandmother's wish to me before she died. and that is why i have been retaining my composure and hopeing that my plans to take over the world comes true (chyea right:dry: , in my dreams) and get back at everyone after changing my last name : x

[biisme]

if you EVER need yo talk, please send me a PM.

:kiss:

[Anonymous]

..Online when i talk to someone i check their pic, and if they are ugly or i find them not good looking , i dotn take interest.. And i aitn even good looking at least I dont think..

[Anonymous]

these are my role models for body image. i think they have reached the body perfection.
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=371&pictureid=2380
especially the muscular one in the black bikini, the one in the white skirt, and the one in the right upper corner.
sometimes i'm sad that i won't look like that but i can always try my hardest. at least then i can't be sad with my self if i try.

[Anonymous]

I hate being born a female. I mean, females are brilliant (I love 'em, after all), but sometimes I just wish I wasn't born in this body.

same here.

[The Enigmatic]

i had a bad bloody nose so i made a fake suicide/homicide/cutters scene and like an artisti set it all up. then i took pics, cleaned it, stopped my bleeding, and went on with my day. phycho-path!! :badgrin:

Hahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!! :thumbsup: I did the same thing a few weeks ago! I had a blood nose that went for over half an hour and after a while I got bored and started taking photos, which I then posted on my myspace. They turned out pretty bad because I just rushed them and ended up bleeding on my new camera.
But seriously I did do it as well.

[Anonymous]

these are my role models for body image. i think they have reached the body perfection.
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/picture.php?albumid=371&pictureid=2380
especially the muscular one in the black bikini, the one in the white skirt, and the one in the right upper corner.
sometimes i'm sad that i won't look like that but i can always try my hardest. at least then i can't be sad with my self if i try.
I look like that...

[Latinokid]

I feel like crying from all the frustration in my life and stress.

[biisme]

I feel like crying from all the frustration in my life and stress.

oh...honey.....

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!

[Anonymous]

I have a really big crush on somebody I met on this site. And it's weird. I don't want to say anything because I don't want him to stop talking to me. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

maybe they'll be extremely happy and flattered.

[Anonymous]

maybe they'll be extremely happy and flattered.

You don't think they'll find it odd that somebody so far away has those types of feelings for them? I mean, it is JUST a crush though.

[biisme]

it doesn't seem that odd to have a crush on someone at all.

that was me earlier

[Anonymous]

Sometimes, I feel like my life has been a bit of a tidalwave of bad luck. Everything I try for, I fail. It's made me stop trying. I've got no motivation to do anything anymore.

[Anonymous]

I'm NOT saying your worries are meaningless but remember, theres always someone in a worse situation than you.
http://llamaindustries.com/cremaster/images/starving.jpg