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[Anonymous]

Oh that is such a heartbreaking picture...

I dreamed I got seduced by my favourite celebrity..and loved it..

[biisme]

who wouldn't love that?

[Anonymous]

i have fantasies about my friends,
who dont know about my sexuality
>_<!!!

[BabyBoy]

i have fantasies about my friends,
who dont know about my sexuality
>_<!!!

So do I!:lol:

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I'll find pictures of my crush (through facebook or whatnot) and post them on hotornot.com to see if my idea of hot is way out to lunch.

[Anonymous]

I am a oozer not a shooter

[Anonymous]

i masturbate in the bathroom at school and love my best friend, Sean U.
i secretly crush on every hot guy in the locker room

[Latinokid]

I think that just a nice foggy day in fall with the leaves nice and crisp and orange/yellow/red. Nice cool air with fog are the best days ever. They make me feel so hapy. So do gray days with no sun.

[Anonymous]

I'm trying to get in touch with my current boyfriend's ex-boyfriend to do one of two things.

1. My current boyfriend suggested a 3 way with this ex, which kind of repulsed me at first, because I want our relationship to be special and exclusive, but now it might not be so bad. I want to get in touch with this guy to see if maybe he's not so bad.

2. Cheat on my boyfriend :(

[Anonymous]

i just had the sickest worst bloody nose ever. dripped and filled about 1/4 cup and then threw up some more blood and coughed up some too. :***:

[biisme]

um, that sounds really bad! how did this happen?

maybe you should go to a doctor!

[Anonymous]

um, that sounds really bad! how did this happen?

maybe you should go to a doctor!

i've had a similar blood nose for at least the past three days in a row. no idea but me being a sure hypochondriac and my mom being a pharmasist for over 20+ years she's seen everything and very mellow. she said if i filled up a whole cup then she'd take me to emergency. lol i took a pic of the cup before i threw it out but i doubt anyone would be interested but me :lol:

[biisme]

^that is rather....gross. i hope it stops, because i still don't think it sounds good.

[Anonymous]

i just took a handful of pills. sadly its my regular proscribed amount so i took the right amount of the right meds. it just happens to be alot. meds suck.:bang:

[Anonymous]

I've distanced myself from my dad to the point where I don't really even know him. All because he's a homophobe and I'm afraid of his response. It wont hurt as much if I'm not as close, right?

[biisme]

i just took a handful of pills. sadly its my regular proscribed amount so i took the right amount of the right meds. it just happens to be alot. meds suck.:bang:

you really freaked me out for a minute

[biisme]

I've distanced myself from my dad to the point where I don't really even know him. All because he's a homophobe and I'm afraid of his response. It wont hurt as much if I'm not as close, right?

you might just be hurting yourself more now

[Anonymous]

I can't look at a guy at my school without wondering how their, um johnnies look like.

And I have "sick" thoughts with at least half of my guy friends.

AND I have a huge crush on my best friend's brother.

[Anonymous]

I've shaved my ass. More than once.

[Anonymous]

I wish i was not gay. Life would be alot easier. I try and make it sem like im proud of who i am but really i dislike who i am.

[Aawon]

I tell people I'm Bi, but it's not like I want a boyfriend and all that, so they won't see me differently.


But I secretly do.

[ppreston9]

i accidentally let my mom hear me call her a bitch and i totally didnt mean it. I felt so bad.:icon_sad:

[ppreston9]

I feel like im living some sort of double/triple life.

-I have my old best friend and my brother and his friends and do alot of chillin with them. They like to do crazy stuff and go to rock concerts, drink beer, and smoke and shit.

-I have my new best friends and my more preppy group. We drink too kind of, but dont go to concerts and stuff like that

-then with my old best friend we have sex on occasions, and no one knows about it except me and him.

idk if its really a big deal, but does anyone think im lying at all?

[Anonymous]

i dont talk much about homosexual rights and what i believe at school because im afraid they'll find out im not straight.

[Anonymous]

i realized that even if i don't want a relationship right now, that i'm still attracted to girls and lesbian not asexual.

[Anonymous]

I love a member on EC but i think he's just playing me!!:***:

[biisme]

I love a member on EC but i think he's just playing me!!:***:

sorry honey (*hug*)

[Hollywood]

I love a member on EC but i think he's just playing me!!:***:

:( internet relationships arent the best, in my opinion....don't get hurt!

[jocr92]

ppreston, i cant believe you are having sex already. i mean wtf? (is it truly b8r without a condom?) anyway, control your hormones boy!

i love brandon julian and i have fantasies with him. I want to kiss him in surprise:kiss:

[Anonymous]

my life is so boring i sometimes wish something horrible would happen just to spice things up :icon_sad:

[JayHew]

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[Dizzy]

my life is so boring i sometimes wish something horrible would happen just to spice things up :icon_sad:

Amen. I am constantly imagining things that could happen to make things more interesting. But there again I am petrified of boredom, so there you go...

[Anonymous]

Whenever I bleed, like catch my knee or something, I like to either leave it there bleeding, or rub it on my face because I like the feeling of blood on my skin. Sometimes I prick myself with pins just to get the sensation, then I think of a hundred different scenarios on how it got there. Then I have to wash it off, in case my parents see.

[biisme]

my life is so boring i sometimes wish something horrible would happen just to spice things up :icon_sad:

Amen. I am constantly imagining things that could happen to make things more interesting. But there again I am petrified of boredom, so there you go...

i constantly imagine long drawn out scenarios, usually disasters and stuff. i could spend 2 hours going over 15 minutes.

[Anonymous]

I hate the idea of people being able to read me as a person so i purposly keep secrets from everyone but let different people in on different things so no one totally understands the problems that i am dealing with i even keep secrets from my psychologist even though i know that it will make it harder for him to help me.

[biisme]

I hate the idea of people being able to read me as a person so i purposly keep secrets from everyone but let different people in on different things so no one totally understands the problems that i am dealing with i even keep secrets from my psychologist even though i know that it will make it harder for him to help me.

although i understand the need to not be completely open with any one person, i would recommend to try to tell your psychologist, even if you tell no one else. i have a really hard time opening up to people, so i know about keeping secrets.

maybe if you think of something trivial to keep from your psychologist, and tell him the important stuff...

[Anonymous]

I can't stand when people post rude comments about others on youtube, and if I see someone who does not stick up for themselves I do it for them.

I know I'm a failure to my family because I don't drink or do drugs.

My best friend always ignores me to have cyber sex with people, even though she has a boyfriend. As a result, I feel my desire to listen to her talk about her problems is fading.

That same friend was also dating a homophobic guy a while ago and said nothing to him except "be nice" when he violently threatened me and another friend in an msn conversation. She claims she's bisexual but I don't really think she is. She sometimes does things to make me think she's still in love with me (we dated) and it scares me. She blows me off so she can talk to straight people.

School is too easy for me. I find it pathetic and a complete waste of my time. Almost everything they "teach" me I already know. So I don't try. I have no motivation. I hate the prospect of homework, because it doesn't prove at all whether someone knows the information or not. I got a 91% on my final in math, but almost failed from not doing homework.

I resent most of my friends for their immaturity.

I care more about other people's emotions than my own. Most of my friends don't know a lot of stuff about me because I don't want their opinion of me to change. I've had cyber sex with people multiple times because I don't want to let down anyone who wants something from me.

I don't like talking about my problems because I think I can work them out myself.

I want to become famous because I feel I could make the world a better place, and then I think of how conceited that is.

[Tokarov]

Ppreston is defintely NOT the only kid to have sex at a young age.

I was going to post Anonymously...but what the hell!

My life is so boring! I feel like I need to spice it up!

I'm a video gamer, a HUGE one, not World of Warcraft, but I see video games as some SPICE in my life. I mean, people around corners...whos a friend...whos an ally...it's fun and exciting besides my boring life! It may not sound that bad...but to me it is...I need to stop thinking like that! I'm afraid I will end up addicted to the computer...and I LOVE soccer and that's the LAST thing I want...My cousin is addicted to the point where he doesn't sleep now...and his life revolves around it...it's the LAST thing I want is to become like my cousin!

I also drink a bit...when I've had a bad day or something...

I don't have alot of juicy secrets lol...the only huge one is that I'm gay :O but you all know that already!

[Anonymous]

I don't even think that coming out to my best friends was worth my time. I got all worked up and almost hysterical over how they would react, and I just was hoping they would want to talk with me about it and make sure I was okay (because I'm not, and I'm not at communicating when I need help). They act like it never happened, and I wish they would be there for me to talk to. It's like I don't exist anymore, and I'm afraid I'm going to do something stupid eventually.

My depression is getting worse, and I don't have any vices (alcohol, drugs, self-harm) that would let me hide from my problems. I have no way to let out my frustration. I want to scream, and break things, or at least cry but I can't. All I know is that I hate something or someone, either myself or society or both, idk. I want to get rid of this hate, make it better but I don't know how to go about it.

I want to feel good about myself again! I want to KNOW it's okay to be myself and be unique, but it's hard when people would hate me just for being...myself (lesbian/atheist).

[Anonymous]

I hate that my friends know I'm gay. It bothers me a ton everytime they refer to it. I wish that I had never told them.

I'm sick of not being in a relationship, I NEED someone badly.

My moods are so messed up lately. I slip in and out of happiness and anger and depression. I dunno why, but when I go on these mood swings I get mean towards my friends.

I don't want to be Gay anymore.

I'm curious as to what it feels like to cut, it intrigues me. (although I don't really want to start....)

I dunno what to do.....:tears:

[Anonymous]

I think I'm afraid to let people get to know me...i don't know why...

[Paul_UK]

I think I'm afraid to let people get to know me...i don't know why...

Are you still in the closet, partly or fully? If so then probably part of the reason (maybe subconsciously) is that you are concerned that they will find out your secret. I was like this too during my closeted and in denial years.

[Anonymous]

I sorta feel left out on this board. No one really ever replies to stuff I post, no one ever really chats with me on the chat room even tho I try to be active, I mean, I know I"m not perfect but whats wrong with me?

[Latinokid]

I wana chat with you...just msg on my aim and msn to the ermm*does L with left hand* to my your left lol or PM me. =]

[SimplyChaotic]

I sorta feel left out on this board. No one really ever replies to stuff I post, no one ever really chats with me on the chat room even tho I try to be active, I mean, I know I"m not perfect but whats wrong with me?

:O I'll talk to you. Send a PM my way if you want my yahoo or MSN.

[ohioboy]

I sorta feel left out on this board. No one really ever replies to stuff I post, no one ever really chats with me on the chat room even tho I try to be active, I mean, I know I"m not perfect but whats wrong with me?

I will chat with you do you have msn or pm me

[biisme]

I sorta feel left out on this board. No one really ever replies to stuff I post, no one ever really chats with me on the chat room even tho I try to be active, I mean, I know I"m not perfect but whats wrong with me?

i will talk with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i want to! i want to!!!!!

but seriously, you can always message me and i will always answer. i care about you. i try to answer a lot of stuff on the site, and i'm sorry that you feel neglected.

:kiss: (*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*) :kiss:

[Anonymous]

one day i am going to flip out on my family. it's full of hypocrites and they just make me so mad!

what i wouldn't give to just scream at them, but i would never do that b/c i hold everything inside

[Anonymous]

Tomorrow I'm to go sledding with my boyfriend and his ex. It's going to be very awkward, I just know it, for many reasons.

I've tried to get in contact with this guy so I know what he's like and maybe find out why he dumped/got dumped by my boyfriend. Before I started going out with him, he suggested we have a little 3 way and I was very uncomfortable with it, so I shot it down. I think he may be trying at it again. I was gonna invite to spend the night tomorrow, but I don't know how I'm gonna do it with the ex there. My bf will want him to come too.

I'm so confused. :icon_sad:

[KatoKumi]

ppreston, i cant believe you are having sex already. i mean wtf? (is it truly b8r without a condom?) anyway, control your hormones boy!

i love brandon julian and i have fantasies with him. I want to kiss him in surprise:kiss:

Yeah it's better without a condom, if you know they're clean, that is.

Andandand it's not like, bad to have sex[?] Idk what to say, but I'm kinda with Peter. I like sex too :/

[Anonymous]

I've got a serious crush on two EC members.

[Anonymous]

I wish I wasn't so good at hiding my feelings and botteling everything up inside
(I don't do anything like cut or anything), then maybe someone would be able to tell I'm silently wishing for help....

[Anonymous]

I have a need to help people, but I never ask for help myself and I never ask or expect to be repayed for my efforts. Is it bad to extend yourself so thin that you hurt your own emotional stability trying to be there for everyone that needs help?
It is like the satisfaction I get from helping someone is a drug, but after I get the high I slip down into a low and need another fix to keep me happy again. If that makes sense, I don't know if it does.

[Anonymous]

I wish I wasn't so good at hiding my feelings and botteling everything up inside
(I don't do anything like cut or anything), then maybe someone would be able to tell I'm silently wishing for help....
me too, you're not alone. but i cant stand the thought of cutting my wrists, i get scared at the thought of even writing on my wrist with a pen

-I want to cry pretty badly sometimes but i cant remember the last time i did
-I am very vein sometimes but i don't show it and i feel bad about it
-Sometimes I wish I was straight but didn't have to have hetero-sex lol
-I wish someone would tell me they liked me on EC hehe
-When I was little I thought there was something wrong with me because I would get erections lol

[Anonymous]

I wish I wasn't so good at hiding my feelings and botteling everything up inside
(I don't do anything like cut or anything), then maybe someone would be able to tell I'm silently wishing for help....
me too, you're not alone. but i cant stand the thought of cutting my wrists, i get scared at the thought of even writing on my wrist with a pen

-I want to cry pretty badly sometimes but i cant remember the last time i did
-I am very vein sometimes but i don't show it and i feel bad about it
-Sometimes I wish I was straight but didn't have to have hetero-sex lol
-I wish someone would tell me they liked me on EC hehe
-When I was little I thought there was something wrong with me because I would get erections lol
i used to self harm they say it's an addiction almost like drugs but that doesn't really mean anything

[Anonymous]

i'm completley obsessed with the way a good looking guy smells i have to get close to them

[Ty]

ppreston, i cant believe you are having sex already. i mean wtf? (is it truly b8r without a condom?) anyway, control your hormones boy!

i love brandon julian and i have fantasies with him. I want to kiss him in surprise:kiss:

Yeah it's better without a condom, if you know they're clean, that is.

Andandand it's not like, bad to have sex[?] Idk what to say, but I'm kinda with Peter. I like sex too :/

actually the bottom doesn't feel a difference between with and without a condom. So its always best to use one.

[Anonymous]

i think i am gay but i pretend i'm not sure.
i hate making decisions and this is one you can't go back from.
i'm so scared of rejection. especially from my family and my church

[Anonymous]

i would do anything for him to like me.

anything.

[Bromptonrocks]

I sorta feel left out on this board. No one really ever replies to stuff I post, no one ever really chats with me on the chat room even tho I try to be active, I mean, I know I"m not perfect but whats wrong with me?

If you want to chat, PM me and I'll give you my MSN address.

[Anonymous]

Yeah it's better without a condom, if you know they're clean, that is.

Andandand it's not like, bad to have sex[?] Idk what to say, but I'm kinda with Peter. I like sex too :/

actually the bottom doesn't feel a difference between with and without a condom. So its always best to use one.

I only do the bare thing if I know they're virgins. :/

And I prefer the warm skin as opposed to the rubber. The thrusting is the same, but I like the feeling of someone.

I don't know; weird fetish, maybe? Lol.

[KatoKumi]

osht.

Sorry that was me.

Gosh, it's too early in the morning for EC

x__x.

[Connor]

Just a note, STDs can be caught at birth if the mother has one. So it's not a sure thing that a virgin won't have an STD. Better to use a condom unless you've both been tested.

[Anonymous]

I find it very hard to deal with death. Especially with young people. I first noticed this with Heath Ledger, then Jerry. Two people I don't personally know, but it effected me very strongly.

[Anonymous]

i am actually somewhat upset that brandon rejected me so harshly. he is gay and he should know what it feels like to be rejected. i only want a reason to why and i'll be ok.

[Miaplacidus]

actually the bottom doesn't feel a difference between with and without a condom. So its always best to use one.

hmmm depends. If the top finishes inside, yeah there is a difference, a rather nasty one. Personally I'm not a fan of um, leaking...

So when I bottom (not very often), condoms please. Topping is better without but well, it's a must to wear condoms as well.

[Anonymous]

I believe i have the souls of four different people living inside of me, their names:

Caedmon
Leven
Tristram
Drystan

and im planning on revealing each of these men through pictures very soon, and im planning on putting the pics on here. Their stories need to be told.......

[Anonymous]

^by saying Leven i just revealed who i was to a select few of you lol, i need to figure out which one of these men is the one who made me do that so i can yell at him :icon_wink

[KatoKumi]

I don't forgive people.

But I end up giving them second chances, then third chances, and some people are up to their 294812721 chance.

And I hate when people accuse me for the tone of my voice when I talk to them.
Because if I'm angry, I will never say it; because I wanna try to hide it. Because I hate being angry, but it's obvious, apparently.

[Anonymous]

When i find my self ugly i look at uglier people online to make my self feel better ...

[EthanS]

Im disillusioned with my appearance --__--

[Anonymous]

i'm so very tired.

i just wish i could live in peace without my parents breathing unnecessarily down my neck. i'm 16. i do my homework, i tutor, i'm an honors student, i don't party, drink, smoke, or have sex.

why can't they accept that i'm responsible, and leave me alone for a little while!?!

[Anonymous]

My support threads always get ignored.

I think the advice I attempt to give here is often overlooked because of my age.

This makes me unhappy.

[Anonymous]

I'm terrible at giving advice, so I often either don't reply to Support threads or ignore them. I just don't know how to give advice

I think I'm becoming anorexic, but it's a bit weird. For a couple of days I will eat next to nothing, like maybe one meal, then realise that it's bad for me and eat normally, then a few days later, start eating very little again. I think it's triggered by being depressed about things (not clinically depressed, just sad), cos when i had a fight with a couple of my friends, I stopped eating, then when I made up with them, i started eating normally again

I'm not looking for advice/support, cos I do actually know what Im doing is wrong and that its completely unhealthy, but I just dont particularly feel like eating when I should.

[biisme]

My support threads always get ignored.

I think the advice I attempt to give here is often overlooked because of my age.

This makes me unhappy.

send me a private message and i will be sure to respond. i really care, but i can't respond to everything, though i try to respond a lot.

please, talk to me.

[BabyBoy]

i'm so very tired.

i just wish i could live in peace without my parents breathing unnecessarily down my neck. i'm 16. i do my homework, i tutor, i'm an honors student, i don't party, drink, smoke, or have sex.

why can't they accept that i'm responsible, and leave me alone for a little while!?!

You're like, perfect. Tell your parents "Can you guys PLEASE, PLEASE just get off my dick for ONCE?!?!?"

You might not want to say it like that, in those words, but something to that effect.

[Anonymous]

i'm so very tired.

i just wish i could live in peace without my parents breathing unnecessarily down my neck. i'm 16. i do my homework, i tutor, i'm an honors student, i don't party, drink, smoke, or have sex.

why can't they accept that i'm responsible, and leave me alone for a little while!?!

my parents are the same way it's as if they can't trust me, I hate them so much.

[Anonymous]

I hate my dad, I feel as if I act older than he does.

[Anonymous]

I like it when ppl hurt me. Emotionally or physically, it doesn't matter. I don't know why but I always feel like I deserve it..........but it just makes me feel so.......good.

[Anonymous]

I hate my dad, I feel as if I act older than he does.


That sounds VERY familiar... *looks at his own dad*

[KatoKumi]

This isn't really much of a secret; I've got nothing to hide. So here:

I don't like the taste of hard alcohol. I don't like the feeling of getting high on weed. I don't like the feeling tobacco leaves in my mouth when I smoke it. But more than all those combined, I hate when I tell someone that I've done all those things, that they treat me like I'm so bad for it.

I didn't like it.
I'm not addicted.
I don't see why everyone else cares so much when I don't.

._.

[Anonymous]

I feel so ignored on this message board sometimes, but idk if it's just me making it out to be like that or not. It's a bit annoying. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I feel petty saying this, but when somebody dies that I know, I can't hep but wonder if people are going to miss me as much as they miss the particular person. I am thinking about JayHew, and I am going to miss him very much. I just want to be appreciated, and it's stuff like this that awakens me to it. The last thing I want to do is disrespect JayHew's memory, but I feel slightly disheartened in knowing that I won't be missed as much as him. And then I hate myself for thinking only about how I feel.

[Jerr]

Every time I see the "oops forgot to uncheck...." ect. thing it drives me up the gdamn wall!!!



Come on!!! Just copy... paste in a new message where you unclicked it and ask a mod to delete the duplicate! *twitch*

[Geist]

For some reason i have an overwhelming compulsion to play mind games with people just to keep them on there toes especially when the topic stears towards my personal life. I have tried to force myself to stop because it annoys a lot of people especially my mom, but for some reason i just can't help but mess with people.

[EthanS]

I dunoo.. but.. i get excited when people fight or argue or if something happens

[EthanS]

I get influenced easy i think.. im quite soft.. Im quite gullible.. I get jealous quite easy.. I think I'm weak minded --____-- and Im confuseed

[biisme]

I feel so ignored on this message board sometimes, but idk if it's just me making it out to be like that or not. It's a bit annoying. :icon_sad:

you can send me a PM anytime.

[Anonymous]

http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d199/borednign0red/notforhim.jpg

thought id add sum art.
bc every1 else is jus typin.

[Anonymous]

I was working out for a few months leading up to the uni holidays and looking better than I ever have, but since holidays started I've let it all go and now uni starts again in 2 weeks I'm annoyed because I'll be going back looking yuck again. =(

~Alex89 (the anonymous button is glitched and won't work for some reason today)

[Anonymous]

I was VERY distracted at work yesterday by an attractive guy that I met. I'll be working with him off and on for the next little while - I hope I can get over how absolutely gorgeous he is! :rolleyes:

[Anonymous]

I'm starting to really dislike my best friend atm...I'm not sure whether it's because she's going out with my crush (although my crush is finally starting to wane) or whether whenever she's wth my best best friend they act as if I'm not even in the room...I know people have inside jokes, I have many with many different ppl, but it gets annoying when that is the ONLY thing that constitutes their conversations and at least when I make an inside joke, I explain it, as in "It's from Rocky Horror, you should really check it out (whcih everyone should)", but noooo they just act as if Im not there at all!

[Anonymous]

I was VERY distracted at work yesterday by an attractive guy that I met. I'll be working with him off and on for the next little while - I hope I can get over how absolutely gorgeous he is! :rolleyes:

Damn! Just saw him again, and he was SO friendly and chatty! This is going to be a real challenge! :eusa_doh:

[biisme]

http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d199/borednign0red/notforhim.jpg

thought id add sum art.
bc every1 else is jus typin.

pretty

[Anonymous]

I'm mad.

And I hate myself for being mad; because I never get mad. And the boy I want is with someone else, and that shouldn't have happenned. It's because I don't swallow my pride, and I can't stand myself. I cried like, three different times due to like, 600 stupid reasons. And it's to the point I'm losing my friends, and many many parts of myself.

My thick skin is breaking, and I'm not used to being so exposed.

And I'm still crying now.
Even after probably the most perfect nights twice in a row, this is wrecking me. And I can't show anyone else; because I'm supposed to be the one that doesn't break under pressure or anything hard. I'm the rock everyone else leans on.

And if I go crazy, then so do they.

And I wish I had someone to go to.

So, a huge hybrid secret.
And now I feel a little better.

[Anonymous]

http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d199/borednign0red/plainnothappy.jpg

[Anonymous]

I have a huge crush on my best friend (A), but he's straight.

I have another best friend (B), who frustrates me. She is convinced being gay is a choice.

B also has a crush on A. A kind of likes B, but just as a friend.

About a week ago, they made out. I'm so jealous of B, because she did what I'll never be able to do (and because i know A is straight, what i'd never try to do).

[Anonymous]

Even though i have already come out to my brother and mom i don't tell them that i go to a GSA i just tell them that i am staying late and when they ask about it i change the subject. I also doubt that i would tell my brother or mother if i get a boyfriend just because i am worried that while they may accept me when i say i am gay if i actually confirm it and show them that it is true then it will become more than just words and they will have to face reality and may treat me differently.

[Étoile]

Everytime I see the word 'Anonymous', it really creeps me out. LOL The thought of not knowing who or what something is makes me uncomfortable. Maybe because I'm a know-it-all and must know everything.:lol:

[Paul_UK]

A lot of members, including me, have found it a useful way of discussing things we don't want associated with our own named.

[Miaplacidus]

A lot of members, including me, have found it a useful way of discussing things we don't want associated with our own named.

Oooohhhh I wonder which Paul's secrets are... lol

[Paul_UK]

I have started a couple of other threads in Anonymous too.

No public guessing of the identity anyone's anonymous posts or threads though, please.

[Anonymous]

I love Paul ! If I were a few years older or him a few younger ;)

[Anonymous]

http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d199/borednign0red/comingout.jpg

[Paul_UK]

I love Paul ! If I were a few years older or him a few younger ;)

Thank you, whoever you are :kiss:

I wish that sometimes too... :confused:

[Latinokid]

I want to feel loved and have someone who i can spend time with and hold. Someone to tell me everything is going to be all right that I'm not a failure and that things can change. Some to make me laugh when I'm down and someone to be their when I want to cry. I want someone to be my friend to hold me. =(

[Anonymous]

I want to feel loved and have someone who i can spend time with and hold. Someone to tell me everything is going to be all right that I'm not a failure and that things can change. Some to make me laugh when I'm down and someone to be their when I want to cry. I want someone to be my friend to hold me. =(

i wish i lived in new york so i could go hold latinokid.

but, since i'm in RI...

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[biisme]

that was me above...and have some more hugs

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)
(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I wish that straight girls would stop falling in love with me. I guess it's kind of flattering to know that I'm lovable, but I really wish I could hook a guy, now and then...

[Anonymous]

I've been talking to three guys on here that I have huge crushes on them, and honestly would bang the shit out of them, but two of them are two old, and one of them is too young. I think. I'm not sure how people about age differences. I personally wouldn't look at it as a huge difference (two years older, and maybe two years younger)

[biisme]

i do not believe that to be a significant age difference....

i would date a guy 7 years older than me or 4 years younger...

and a girl 5 years older and a girl 3 years younger

[step49x]

I'm 19 right now. Legally, I'm not sure how low I'd go. Maybe 17, I don't know. It would depend on maturity level. I don't think I'd want to go any higher than lower-20's.

[Anonymous]

Homosexuality in middle eastern culture is a really big taboo.

I'm wondering if my dad will still mention me to his family when he finds out...

[Anonymous]

I sometimes make homophobic comments around my parents just so they'll stop suspecting me.

I even told my mom I didn't support gay marriage.

Why can't I stop doing this?

[Anonymous]

I feel like crying right now. Why is my life such a mess? My dad who is an alcoholic called me just now and was drunk and said that no matter what I'm his son and my mom keep putting him down and dissing him. I started to cry. I love my dad and I don't know what to do for him. I told him to stop be he just can't. Life just loves messing with me.

[biisme]

I feel like crying right now. Why is my life such a mess? My dad who is an alcoholic called me just now and was drunk and said that no matter what I'm his son and my mom keep putting him down and dissing him. I started to cry. I love my dad and I don't know what to do for him. I told him to stop be he just can't. Life just loves messing with me.

i'm so sorry. at least he calles and told you something nice.

how long has your dad been an alcoholic? has he ever tried to get help, or is it just realy hard for him?

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Latinokid]

Other people's misery and loss makes me feel better.

[Anonymous]

I'm terrified. Of everything.

[Anonymous]

I obsess over my hair to the point where it cuts into my life because I'm going to the restroom every 5 minutes to make sure that not a strand is out of place, or I'm poking at it and messing with it if I don't have access to a restroom.

[Anonymous]

I yearn to be noticed and appreciated.

[Anonymous]

I had a really, and I mean REALLY good night last night with my Valentine!:icon_wink

[Anonymous]

I yearn to be noticed and appreciated.

i'm noticing you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

and i appreciate you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss: :kiss:

[biisme]

I had a really, and I mean REALLY good night last night with my Valentine!:icon_wink

i wish i had a REALLY good night...

[Anonymous]

I have fallin in love with my boyfriend another EC member.

[biisme]

love is good.

[BabyBoy]

Aw, I wish I had love.

[biisme]

i'll give u some virtual love

:kiss: (*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I got a boy's number today.

But I'm debating whether to call it or not.

And I already know that he's not for me, but:

I just wanna get into another bad relationship; so that I can pretend the last one didn't happen.




Feels a little hollow though :/

[Anonymous]

I got a boy's number today.

But I'm debating whether to call it or not.

And I already know that he's not for me, but:

I just wanna get into another bad relationship; so that I can pretend the last one didn't happen.




Feels a little hollow though :/

Don't do it. You'll regret it.

[BabyBoy]

i'll give u some virtual love

:kiss: (*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*)

Thank you! (*hug*) :kiss:

[Anonymous]

i am everything that i hate in people.

[Anonymous]

Don't do it. You'll regret it.

To be perfectly honest, the regret is what I'm looking for.





And I totally get where you're coming from. About the...hating everything about yourself because it's what you hate in other people.

Not sure how to solve it. I guess just look at the world with more open eyes?

Understand that people change and so will you.

[jocr92]

i dunno. i hate hypocrites, but i am one
i hate ignorance and im ignorant
i hate stupidity and im stupid
im cynical!!! seriously

[Anonymous]

This month pisses me off because it contains Valentines Day.

I hate Valentines day because I'm alone.

I don't want to be alone anymore.

[Anonymous]

I hate that I'm thinking that I'm in love with you.
I don't want this feeling. Not yet.

[Anonymous]

Just feeling a lil lonely now. Wishing for some love from some guy...somewhere. I know it sounds desperate and it sounds petty and ridiculous. But my last relationships have been horrible...and the last one i was in love, only to be cast down because he listened to his therapist and broke up w/ me because he needed 'alone time'. Just wish things were a little easier and finding someone that could care about me was a little easier. I really just want someone to hug for a long time....someone I can wake up to them making breakfast, heh. Maybe its just me....maybe I expect too much....:icon_sad:

[KatoKumi]

Just feeling a lil lonely now. Wishing for some love from some guy...somewhere. I know it sounds desperate and it sounds petty and ridiculous. But my last relationships have been horrible...and the last one i was in love, only to be cast down because he listened to his therapist and broke up w/ me because he needed 'alone time'. Just wish things were a little easier and finding someone that could care about me was a little easier. I really just want someone to hug for a long time....someone I can wake up to them making breakfast, heh. Maybe its just me....maybe I expect too much....:icon_sad:

I feel like I expect too much too.

Eh, lately what I've been experiencing is kinda the same. Kinda just want to be loved. And if the person I'm after doesn't like me back, then I'm trying for some other person's love. I have like a club with me and a bunch of girls that do that, actually.

Just, you know, don't suck too hard on the lollipop of life. And if you don't wait for love to come it's not gonna help your emotional state. Just take it slow. Don't ravage yourself. And if you wanna chillax then the contact info's on the side<3

Good luck.
From a person who should really take his own advice x_X.

[Anonymous]

I really like someone a whole lot. Distance sucks especially when you find someone you like. ><

[Anonymous]

I wish I had the guts to go out and try and find a guy to have a relationship with... I WANT to but I'm just too scared...

[Anonymous]

I wish I lived closer to a certain EC member. Even being in the same country as them would make a load of difference. I mean, posting to them is okay, but I'd love to meet this person and get to know them more personally. *resolves to take some kind of gap year out*

[Anonymous]

There's a member here that I really, really like, and we live roughly an hour or two apart. I want to meet him so bad, but age difference prevents this.

[Anonymous]

The topic in Chit Chat where you post your pic pisses me off.

[Anonymous]

The topic in Chit Chat where you post your pic pisses me off.

Whys? :confused:

[Anonymous]

I'm worried that I will never stop being in love with my best guy friend, evn after I've gone to college next year and he still has two years of high school left. I secretly pray from him to decide to go to the same college as me.

[Anonymous]

There's a member here that I really, really like, and we live roughly an hour or two apart. I want to meet him so bad, but age difference prevents this.

how big is that difference?

[Anonymous]

All I want is someone to hold me. And cuddle with me.

Why am I alone?

[EthanS]

i dunno. i hate hypocrites, but i am one
i hate ignorance and im ignorant
i hate stupidity and im stupid
im cynical!!! seriously

You aint the only one :P

[EthanS]

I think i have 2 sides to me or is that normal??.. like sometimes i like violence like gangs and stuff..and not sympathetic, sometimes i dont like violence i just want to cuddle and get quite sympathetic.. I dont have a split personality that i know.. i think -__-

[Anonymous]

how do i cuddle with people that live around the world?

[KatoKumi]

:cyber-cuddle:
<3

[Anonymous]

:cyber-cuddle:
<3

thnx hon.

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

i need a good cuddle

[Anonymous]

It's sad when a dog has to act like she's excited.

It really says something about the world.

[Anonymous]

It's sad when a dog has to act like she's excited.

It really says something about the world.

what?

[Anonymous]

I'm completely in love with my best friend, and i think she may like me too but im too scared to make a move because i dont know if shes comfortable with the idea.

[Anonymous]

There's a member here that I really, really like, and we live roughly an hour or two apart. I want to meet him so bad, but age difference prevents this.

how big is that difference?

Too big. Legality issues.

[Anonymous]

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I really really like someone on here too but we live in different states. =\

[Anonymous]

i love monique

[Brett]

i love monique

OMG! Who doesn't?

[Paul_UK]

I have just deleted eight rubbish posts from this thread (things like "wow" and smilies).

Six of them were posted by the same person (anonymously, but I looked it up) who will be receiving a PM from me shortly.

If people continue to abuse it I will close it.

[Anonymous]

I always feel like I'm annoying evertone around me, like they're all staring at me thinking "Oh my God, who is this freak and why is he talking to me?"
I guess it's all just in my head, but I don't know sometimes..........
And I also feel like I'm being ignored, so I tend to compensate by doing nice things, or teying to be funny so that some one will pay attention to me, but they don't.............I guess I'm just not funny or smart enough to impress anyone.........

But whatever, it feels good just to vent.....I love Anonymous threads.

[Anonymous]

Whatever poisons in this bottle
will leave me broken, sore and stiff
But it's the genie at the bottom who I'm sucking at,
he owes me one last wish
So here's a present to let you know I still exist
I hope the next boy that you kiss has something terribly contagious on his lips

But I got a plan (I got a plan)
To drink for forty days and forty nights
A sip for every second-hand tick

[Anonymous]

I wish I lived closer to a certain EC member. Even being in the same country as them would make a load of difference. I mean, posting to them is okay, but I'd love to meet this person and get to know them more personally. *resolves to take some kind of gap year out*

I feel exactly the same.

[Anonymous]

I'm still mad at a person for the stupidest reason ever.

I learned a song for him on the guitar. An instrument I don't play.

He told me he'd listen to it later.


Later never came.

And I feel retarded for still being mad.

[EthanS]

I have just deleted eight rubbish posts from this thread (things like "wow" and smilies).

Six of them were posted by the same person (anonymously, but I looked it up) who will be receiving a PM from me shortly.

If people continue to abuse it I will close it.

:eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: ...................... I had no idea you can look them up ... and that you would ..

[EthanS]

I sometimes get confused bout life.. i think do we HAVE to follow these rules?? or can we do what we want..

oops keep forgettin bout unclkin :dry:

[Anonymous]

I feel unwelcome here...and as if people don't like me anymore.....EC doesn't feel liek what it used to.

[biisme]

I feel unwelcome here...and as if people don't like me anymore.....EC doesn't feel liek what it used to.

O....you're always welcome here.

What do you feel has changed?

[Anonymous]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.

Anyway, my observations may be completely off the mark, and I didnt write this to offend anyone, so please dont be offended.

My secret? I'm skipping work on Saturday, so that I can get horribly drunk on Friday

[Brett]

No, I believe that you are exactly right about this. The more that EC tries to reach out to people that need probably the most support and guidance (ie. high schoolers/ teens) the more that their attutides and way of life wil become present in the site. It's a verry unfortunate side effect of an important task of this site, and I hate to say that I feel like one of the ignored. But I believe that with a little more maturity of the veteran EC-ers to be accepting and allowing more people to get involved. then fewer people will have to feel this way, and the site will pick up a little.

But i'm done rambling now sorry to anyone that read this whole entire thing. I'm just so wordy :(

[Brett]

I always feel like I'm annoying evertone around me, like they're all staring at me thinking "Oh my God, who is this freak and why is he talking to me?"
I guess it's all just in my head, but I don't know sometimes..........
And I also feel like I'm being ignored, so I tend to compensate by doing nice things, or teying to be funny so that some one will pay attention to me, but they don't.............I guess I'm just not funny or smart enough to impress anyone.........

But whatever, it feels good just to vent.....I love Anonymous threads.
PS:
My secret is that this was me.....

[biisme]

No, I believe that you are exactly right about this. The more that EC tries to reach out to people that need probably the most support and guidance (ie. high schoolers/ teens) the more that their attutides and way of life wil become present in the site. It's a verry unfortunate side effect of an important task of this site, and I hate to say that I feel like one of the ignored. But I believe that with a little more maturity of the veteran EC-ers to be accepting and allowing more people to get involved. then fewer people will have to feel this way, and the site will pick up a little.

But i'm done rambling now sorry to anyone that read this whole entire thing. I'm just so wordy :(

I am not ignoring you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

I'm here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

The only family member I cared for died yesterday shortly after I gave her a hug.

One of the things I hold most dear to me is a can of Axe Unlimited. The old cans before they "revamped" the smells. The person I love the most wore it and it is the only thing that slightly comforts me anymore... and sadly is will run out.




I need... someone to actually care.

[biisme]

I'm so so so so sorry. (*hug*)

If you want to talk, please PM me.

[Anonymous]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.

Anyway, my observations may be completely off the mark, and I didnt write this to offend anyone, so please dont be offended.

My secret? I'm skipping work on Saturday, so that I can get horribly drunk on Friday

You got everything straight on the mark. Exactly what I was aiming for.

[Paul_UK]

I have just deleted eight rubbish posts from this thread (things like "wow" and smilies).

Six of them were posted by the same person (anonymously, but I looked it up) who will be receiving a PM from me shortly.

If people continue to abuse it I will close it.

:eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: ...................... I had no idea you can look them up ... and that you would ..

We can, but only do when there is a problem. I have only had to do so about three times since this anonymous section was added so it's very rare. We respect your anonymity.

[Anonymous]

I respect the selflessness and selfishness that some of the al-quida members and islam people take for their beliefs. I dont support how they kill people, but its amazing that they will take their own life to make a point. I think its incredible that they have that willpower and sole belief in Allah to do that. and im completely christian.

[Paul_UK]

I have just deleted eight rubbish posts from this thread (things like "wow" and smilies).

Six of them were posted by the same person (anonymously, but I looked it up) who will be receiving a PM from me shortly.

If people continue to abuse it I will close it.

:eek: :eek: :eek: :eek: ...................... I had no idea you can look them up ... and that you would ..

We can, but only do when there is a problem. I have only had to do so about three times since this anonymous section was added so it's very rare. We respect your anonymity.

By the way, the fact that we can check who posted anonymously is mentioned clearly in the sticky post here (http://www.emptyclosets.com/forum/showthread.php?t=5445) containing the section rules.

[KatoKumi]

I respect the selflessness and selfishness that some of the al-quida members and islam people take for their beliefs. I dont support how they kill people, but its amazing that they will take their own life to make a point. I think its incredible that they have that willpower and sole belief in Allah to do that. and im completely christian.

Very different way to look at it, but I guess it's commendable in a way. To devote so much to something.

But I hear they die either way. So I suppose they pick the more honorable way.

Rather than a hanging by the government or something.

[Anonymous]

I kind of hate my life.

Really sexual orientation is the least of my worries.

To start off with i don't have any really good friends. I mean I have people in my class that I do homework with and might go to the bar with on Friday, but I don't have any true friends that would come over just to hang out, that I could go do random stuff with, tell secrets to, etc.

I also worry that people might perceive me as annoying and might not like me / avoid me.

I really hate school. Back when I was in high school and junior high I enjoyed school; I understood everything, followed all the classes, and did all my homework and knew all the material before going into an exam. Now in 4th year uni, I can't follow along most of my classes, the professor might as well be talking gibberish. It takes me hours and hours to do what should be "easy" assignments and half the time I just give up and submit either something incomplete, or copied. I can be at school 12 hours + a day every day of the week and still be behind and still not know what's going on. Exams always feel like a gamble on whether I learned enough.

I've failed 3 courses so far, and got a number of D's. Granted these aren't easy courses, they are reasonably hard. But for some reason I have to take 6 courses at once when in any other (easier) program you aren't allowed to take more than 5. In the last two years I'm sure I passed due to shear luck. I'm pretty sure the stress has cut a number of years off my life. Oh and it pisses me off that I pay over four grand a term but the buildings are basically falling apart, and all the lab equipment is horribly outdated. That and most of the professors can't teach and some seem to go out of their way to be downright terrible.

And all this school means I don't have any time to pursue a life. And I'm jealous of the people that have a life, have friends, and can do well in school.

[Anonymous]

I hate myself right now, and I'm hating my best friends for no reason.
I'm staring at all of my homework in a pile on the floor, and thinking to myself, "I'll do it later" which repeats every hour.
Martin is hot. So is Jerr.

[Anonymous]

I enjoyed being spanked as a child... :eusa_shif

[Anonymous]

I'm too much of a "perfect-moment seeker" that I tell myself I'm never content with where I am. I will always long for what I don't have, and never have what I long for. I say I only feel truly happy when I'm with my friends, but I'm such a bad friend. I don't know how to communicate, how to express myself verbally, how to make any sort of conversation. I hate to think and um and mutter and stumble over everything I say, and yet I'm a leader in many clubs at my school. Everyone expects me to present myself in an understandable way, and I never deliver.

But more importantly, I can't express myself verbally. I want to be able to fill the silence with myself, I want to be able to envelop silence with nonchalant, yet effortless comments, I want to be able to envelop the silence with myself, I want to be able to want to be able to want to be able to want to be able to want to be able to be able to be me. I want to be able to say something more on this topic it means so much to me. But my mind doesn't think anything new nor interesting nor relevant, so I just have what's here. And what's isn't what I don't have.


I want to be me fully. To implode onto the world, scattering my organs and guts throughout the air, through time and space. I don't need to be remembered, I just need to open up and find myself. I don't need to be me for myself, I just need to be me to survive. Otherwise I'll be trapped inside the cage of my mind, stuck here in my thoughts, stuck here on this paper, stuck here in this computer, stuck in everything I do, never free nor true nor beautiful nor loved. Never free.

I first need to know who I am. I need to find myself to free myself.



I first need to call the doctor about the burning sensations I've been having.

[Anonymous]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.

Anyway, my observations may be completely off the mark, and I didnt write this to offend anyone, so please dont be offended.

My secret? I'm skipping work on Saturday, so that I can get horribly drunk on Friday

I agree, dont get me wrong, EC is a great place. But like this person said, Most people here are in high school and the whole clique thing is here too, just like school.

But People can still get help here, like biisme for example, is such an awesome person and always helpful. I feel excluded too...but I guess I turn to friends more for help then this site...even though I have no gay friends, I feel like they can't really help but be there for me, cause they cant truly understand what it is like...

My Secret? I came out to 2 friends as Bi instead of the truth...which is gay...

[KatoKumi]

My Secret? I came out to 2 friends as Bi instead of the truth...which is gay...

Lol I think a lot of people do that. I guess it makes it easier than saying you don't even have a chance at the life other people want from you[?]

I don't know much what to say, but that's pretty normal.

[Anonymous]

My secret: I don't like your views and don't agree with you, but regret not ending things better.

But I guess this is exactly how you expect people to treat each other. This is how you want it, and I won't interfere with your happiness.


Besides, enemies are a lot of fun, in a different way.

[Jerr]

I hate myself right now, and I'm hating my best friends for no reason.
I'm staring at all of my homework in a pile on the floor, and thinking to myself, "I'll do it later" which repeats every hour.
Martin is hot. So is Jerr.

I haven't done homework... in like forever and I'm in my 3rd semester of college. (I counted both summer semesters as one.)

I usually don't bother doing things that are required for me to pass until like oh... 3 am? So don't feel bad. I manage to pass.


By the way, thank you.

[JSG]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.


True, EC has changed but I don't really get the whole high-school clique thing...
I still don't really understand how people feel left out or ignored, this place is for everyone, if you have a problem, there's ALWAYS someone to help you.

[Anonymous]

I have to agree about the whole clique thing. I know I don't fit in here, however I don't really feel ignored or anything. If I need help, I feel that I can get it, and I also help others. I just ignore all the 'popular' people so to speak as I do in school.

[sngl]

I also worry that people might perceive me as annoying and might not like me / avoid me.


Me too.


Oh and it pisses me off that the buildings are basically falling apart, and all the lab equipment is horribly outdated. That and most of the professors can't teach and some seem to go out of their way to be downright terrible.


Same here. :rolleyes:


And I'm jealous of the people that have a life, have friends, and can do well in school.

Again, me too. I know that I'm missing out on lots of things. I have many friends but very few of them, if any actually care about me. I think I'm misunderstood by most people. Somehow they get the idea that I'm not interested in them...I don't know why though. Maybe it's the way I talk or my body language, or maybe I'm just really uninteresting/annoying...:eusa_doh:

[Anonymous]

i'm an old member who used to post here alot and all the time. now i'm a lurker. i left without telling anyone i was leaving a few months ago. i doubt i'd be remembered.

[biisme]

i'm an old member who used to post here alot and all the time. now i'm a lurker. i left without telling anyone i was leaving a few months ago. i doubt i'd be remembered.

ooooo...come back!!!!!!!!!!

[Anonymous]

I feel..incomplete like i want to be normal nd have a girlfriend sometimes thinking of gay sex makes me nauscious and disgusted at what I am.

[Anonymous]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.


True, EC has changed but I don't really get the whole high-school clique thing...
I still don't really understand how people feel left out or ignored, this place is for everyone, if you have a problem, there's ALWAYS someone to help you.

Well what I think that they're talking about is that many people such as Phill or Ty can say something and be near worshiped for it. People such as myself or other newer people on the site, however, tend to have to post and re-post to have an oppion heard. Or have to send a PM more than once to get a response. Although the cliques aren't quite as extreme as they are in high school, they are there and some people feel discouraged by them and leave the site without ever even getting to be known.

[Anonymous]

I hate that you hang around with him so much and the way you act around him. I hate that you get jealous because your girlfriend talks to me more than she does you.
I hate that I love you so much but know how you'll react if I told you. You mean more to me than life itself, but you'll never know that.

[Jerr]

I hate that my friend can't go 10 minutes without texting her boyfriend and if she waits too long he gets pissed off. I mean come the :***: on! My Gr.... nvm. That is something I don't wish to share... but still... I think having 3 hours with me once a week evens out with his time he gets to spend with her every day.


ALSO


I believe biisme would give the world a hug everyday if it were at all possible.

[Anonymous]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.


True, EC has changed but I don't really get the whole high-school clique thing...
I still don't really understand how people feel left out or ignored, this place is for everyone, if you have a problem, there's ALWAYS someone to help you.

Well what I think that they're talking about is that many people such as Phill or Ty can say something and be near worshiped for it. People such as myself or other newer people on the site, however, tend to have to post and re-post to have an oppion heard. Or have to send a PM more than once to get a response. Although the cliques aren't quite as extreme as they are in high school, they are there and some people feel discouraged by them and leave the site without ever even getting to be known.

That's very true. Ty and Phill are great guys and all, but its a very good point. If they post something, alot of people would respond fairly quickly, as to me or another new person, who would have to post more than once, or pm more than once to get a response.

But yeah, the cliques are DEFINETELY not as bad as real high school. I wouldn't even call them cliques, its just more like the more popular people on this site get more responses and faster replies, than say to someone new. But I'm not saying their bad people...I have yet to see someone on this site who I don't like :)

[Anonymous]

I agree that the general tone of EC has changed over a recent period of time. I'm not sure how to describe it, but to me it kind of feels like Year 9 in high school. Like, there are ppl who are "in", those who want to be, and those who don't care either way. Like for instance the old Pics thread, where it became all random and stuff, and there were ppl who were participating, and then other ppl who wanted to particpate, but felt excluded (at least that's the way I saw it as). Then there's the mod team, that's kind of like the leadership team at school (like school captain etc)

It's prob just cos there are so many ppl here who are at the age where they're still in high school or just out of it, and so that "clique" culture is still very much part of there lives.


True, EC has changed but I don't really get the whole high-school clique thing...
I still don't really understand how people feel left out or ignored, this place is for everyone, if you have a problem, there's ALWAYS someone to help you.

Well what I think that they're talking about is that many people such as Phill or Ty can say something and be near worshiped for it. People such as myself or other newer people on the site, however, tend to have to post and re-post to have an oppion heard. Or have to send a PM more than once to get a response. Although the cliques aren't quite as extreme as they are in high school, they are there and some people feel discouraged by them and leave the site without ever even getting to be known.

That's very true. Ty and Phill are great guys and all, but its a very good point. If they post something, alot of people would respond fairly quickly, as to me or another new person, who would have to post more than once, or pm more than once to get a response.

But yeah, the cliques are DEFINETELY not as bad as real high school. I wouldn't even call them cliques, its just more like the more popular people on this site get more responses and faster replies, than say to someone new. But I'm not saying their bad people...I have yet to see someone on this site who I don't like :)

i wouldnt say clique either, maybe people find them more interesting. or know them moree. we cant all check everyones thread. i mean honestly some people threads are just boring.

[Anonymous]

^^^ Well that's just a little rude.......

[Anonymous]

I hate being bisexual. Romantically attracted to girls and sexualy attracted to boys. Makes me think if I ever get married that it could get really screwed up.

[Anonymous]

I'm still in love with someone I really shouldn't care about.
I've made so many tries at love, and seriously, I don't know anymore.
I think it's time I finally gave up. Love isn't worth the trouble, and I'm ready to accept that.


But like a fool I actually thought something great was going to happen to change my mind.
The knight~in~shining~armor thing.


That's silly even for me.

[Anonymous]

I dislike crushes - I hate that a person is capable of messing with my emotions and feelings.

[Anonymous]

The days I wait for him to come back seem like forever :icon_sad:

[biisme]

I am sorry that so many people here feel unheard. I try to read most threads, and I try to respond to them too, but it's hard to hit all of them.

However, I ALWAYS respond to PMs. So please, send me one if you want to talk.

[Jerr]

I am sorry that so many people here feel unheard. I try to read most threads, and I try to respond to them too, but it's hard to hit all of them.

However, I ALWAYS respond to PMs. So please, send me one if you want to talk.

No one blames you for them not being heard. You are fantastic. If they felt unheard by you it is through no fault of your own. I mean honestly... one has to TRY to be neglected by you.

You're heart is 3 sizes above average. (Soo doing the Grinch thing even though it is feb... that's right... I did it.)

[Anonymous]

As a gay man with real identity issues, I figured it would be great to grow breasts, but very discreetly. A miraculous cream did the business - they should be small and there for me only but it's gone awry - they are fabulous but there getting less and less discreet!! Oh well!

[biisme]

Hmmm...is there no way to stop them from growing any more?

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I prefer being with my gay friends than my straight friends... even though I've known my straight friends for longer.

[Anonymous]

I am sorry that so many people here feel unheard. I try to read most threads, and I try to respond to them too, but it's hard to hit all of them.

However, I ALWAYS respond to PMs. So please, send me one if you want to talk.

No one blames you for them not being heard. You are fantastic. If they felt unheard by you it is through no fault of your own. I mean honestly... one has to TRY to be neglected by you.
You're heart is 3 sizes above average. (Soo doing the Grinch thing even though it is feb... that's right... I did it.)

AMEN TO THAT!

[Tokarov]

^ sorry thats me...dang button.

[biisme]

Oooooo....you guys are so nice.

I love you both!

[Anonymous]

I am so In Love ......It Hurts ....But we don't get to see each other a lot so i feel physically deprived

[Anonymous]

I love being unique, but I'm just so different in most ways that I want to be this unreal "standard." And I hate myself for that, because I really like who I am.


And every other second I think something different. Every moment I am something different. I think different things everyday, and do not think of myself a contradiction, rather a human.


I haven't practiced my DECA presentation and I have to present tomorrow for some people. All I want to do right now as I type these words is read. I wish I had the ability to express myself, and I wish I could live without sleep. healthily.



I also wish I could end this post amazingly, but I could care a little less about that right now at this second.

[biisme]

I hope u feel better!!!!!!!

:kiss: (*hug*) :kiss: (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I'm gay, yet I'm going to go out with one of my best friends who is a girl after she breaks up with her boyfriend. I'm more confused than I thought.

[KatoKumi]

If you're not going to be into it, please don't do it.
Because that's gonna hurt both of you when it's over if you're not really interested.

._.

[Anonymous]

I'm pretty sure I like her though.
We've been best friends since 1st grade, and are both now finally admitting the strong feelings we've had for each other ever since.
We made it clear though this could merely a be a trial for me to see if I'm truly gay, and she assured me she's ok with it.

Also, one more secret/tidbit I want to get off my chest.
I was talking to a friend of mine that I recently came out to, and he said he had a gay brother. I'm thinking the guy's like 16 or something, and he tells me that he's 10! He says it's real too, not just acting gay, but he's really into guys. He even has a boyfriend. It's crazy.

I'm older than him, and I can't even seem to get one. I'm jealous.

[Anonymous]

I'm always paranoid that whenever I make a post or topic anonymously, someone's going to guess that it's me or a staff member will see that it's me. Stupid, I know.

[Windowlicker]

I feel stupid for not coming out to my friend (I had planned to do it today).
Now I'm drunk and I thought that alcohol would give me the guts to do it but all it did was getting me paranoid.
I also thought that I should make this post anonymously because otherwise it would look as if I'm trying to get attention, but f***k that, I just want to be myself. Aw damnt now it sounds like I want everyone to feel sorry about me but believe me it's not like that.

I know that when I wake up I'll feel like smashin my head onto the wall for making such a stupid post. :bang:

[Paul_UK]

Sometimes I prefer being with my gay friends than my straight friends... even though I've known my straight friends for longer.

So do I. Although my straight friends have known for many years I still feel I can be myself more in the company of gay people. I have some very interesting and entertaining discussions with the two gay guys I share an office with at work which we wouldn't have if there was someone straight there no matter how well he/she knew us.

I'm always paranoid that whenever I make a post or topic anonymously, someone's going to guess that it's me or a staff member will see that it's me. Stupid, I know.

Don't worry. Unless you post something totally inappropriate such as a direct insult aimed at another member we will not be finding out who posted. We can't see it from the thread. We have to use the forum admin system to find out.

There is always the risk of someone guessing from your writing style though. I try to word things a bit differently to normal when posting anonymously as I think my writing is recognisable sometimes.

[Anonymous]

There is always the risk of someone guessing from your writing style though. I try to word things a bit differently to normal when posting anonymously as I think my writing is recognisable sometimes.

I totally do the same thing. I'm not sure if people notice, but when I post, I often use ellipsis/points of suspension (...) to indicate pauses in thoughts etc I also often start paragraphs with "Anyway" or "Also". I also never abreviate words, apart from some special occasions (for instance ppl, tho, tomoro etc in which case I always abreviate those words).

Anyway, the point I was going to make was that none of my Anonymous posts use those typing conventions (or at least I try not to).

Anyway, my secret: I have got a heavy crush on the English/Russian hybrid that I know, but have too much respect and friendship love to even think about him that way. Doesn't stop me from swooning whenever i see or think about him....Oh, and he's coming back from Perth for 10 days in 2 months...I'm so excited!

Just out of interest, I wonder if anyone knows who I am from the typing conventions I have written above?

[KatoKumi]

from your writing style though. I try to word things a bit differently to normal when posting anonymously as I think my writing is recognisable sometimes.

That's totally me.

I try not to post in the anonymous sections, lol.

Mostly because everyone can tell it's me; I can't change my typing style; since it's just how I've typed since forever.

It's a second nature thing now.

[biisme]

I usually don't post anonymously....but, it doesn't matter how I post becasue my writing style changes so much, from post to post, and from PM to PM. Sometimes I write out long sentences with proper grammer and punctuation, and other times i use all lower-case and many ellipses.

[EthanS]

Yer my typing changes alot ^_^

[Anonymous]

I wish that people would see that I'm not as together as I seem to be. I wish they would see I have problems.

I wish they would see how hurt, angry, lonely and lost I am.

I wish I could let down my walls and ask for help when I need it.

[KatoKumi]

I wish that people would see that I'm not as together as I seem to be. I wish they would see I have problems.

I wish they would see how hurt, angry, lonely and lost I am.

I wish I could let down my walls and ask for help when I need it.

That's my problem too.
I'm sorry ;[


But lately I've learned that asking for help isn't that bad. Just like start with small things. That's what I did on this site. x_x;

[Anonymous]

I wish that people would see that I'm not as together as I seem to be. I wish they would see I have problems.

I wish they would see how hurt, angry, lonely and lost I am.

I wish I could let down my walls and ask for help when I need it.

That's my problem too.
I'm sorry ;[


But lately I've learned that asking for help isn't that bad. Just like start with small things. That's what I did on this site. x_x;

I feel the need to be the helper. And, I hate burdening people with my problems.

[KatoKumi]

I feel the need to be the helper. And, I hate burdening people with my problems.

Oh tell me about it!


Since you're like the rock everyone else leans on, and if you crumble, then they do too?
I've been there.

I am there, actually.

._.

[Anonymous]

It irritates me when people bump threads from months ago that are irrelevant now. It's happening a lot lately too.

[Anonymous]

I feel the need to be the helper. And, I hate burdening people with my problems.

Oh tell me about it!


Since you're like the rock everyone else leans on, and if you crumble, then they do too?
I've been there.

I am there, actually.

._.

hmmmm....I don't think they would crumble....because they (EC) have other people to talk too....

[Anonymous]

My existence is pointless. I sometimes wonder why i exist if i am just invisible to everyone.

[Paul_UK]

My existence is pointless. I sometimes wonder why i exist if i am just invisible to everyone.

It upsets me when people post things like that because it is so difficult to offer much support with so little info to go on.

Perhaps you and others who feel this way could start new threads, anonymous if you prefer, with some more info so we can try to help you through.

Meanwhile here is a (&&&) for you all.

[biisme]

My existence is pointless. I sometimes wonder why i exist if i am just invisible to everyone.

You are even more invisible when you post anonymously.

[Anonymous]

lets just say I did something bad to my friend while he was asleep.
And I'm the only one who knows it happend.

[Anonymous]

Kinda silly cuz these lyrics are from High School Musical, but somehow I feel like I can relate to them:

Now I know your not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true


I think that I have accepted that I am fine with living alone for the rest of my life, which is ok with me because for some reason my entire life I have had the feeling I'm going to die young in some sort of accident. Oh well!

[Anonymous]

I like guys i think but i jst can't get past the whole religion thing. I'm too afraid that everything I believe in will be made redundant by an admission that I am gay. Stupid i know.

And, i keep telling my friends that im jst not interested in going out with anyone which was tru for a while but not anymore. now i just continue that presumption because im afraid that my friends will start trying to set me up with girls.

[Anonymous]

I feel like a failure.

I feel like I have no motivation.

I feel like I just struggle through each day.

I feel like every little thing annoys or depresses me.

I feel the need to apologise profusely for my every mistake, and I make more and more each day.

But I can't ask for help. I need to be the one that succeeds. They can't know how bad I feel.

[Paul_UK]

We all need help at some points in out lives. There is nothing wrong in that. It doesn't make you a failure, it just makes you human. If you ask for and get the help you need now you'll succeed better in the future because you will be stringer and more confident. Please try to seek the help you need.

You could start a new anonymous thread here with more info.

[Anonymous]

Some of threads that got bumped are highly relevant to some of us, IMHO.

[Paul_UK]

Often they contain good info too, which saves people from having to repeat all the info or go searching for the older thread where the info is.

Quite a lot of subjects do come around again and again, which is understandable and expected. If you find an older thread that covers your situation and carry on from there I see no problems.

[Bond231]

I don't mind not posting anonymously! HA!

I sometimes look at porn when my mum is taking a nap near me.

I keep a butt plug under my bed.

I think I have an awful body and will not let anyone see it!

I love underwear so much I try and talk about it to annnnyyyonne at school etc!

[KatoKumi]

I don't like it when I talk to people, and they just talk like the world's out to get them.


This boy that likes me, [and I think I have feelings for him too] has times where he says:
"No one cares. No one needs me."

But I just wanna tell him "I need you."


Because the world has everything to offer someone if they'd just stop complaining and actually get what they're looking for. I think it's frightening, but sometimes you have to sacrifice a certain part of yourself to get what you're looking for.

[EthanS]

I mainly look at the down side of most things but I try to look at the bright side and when i do , sometimes something bad comes up so iI just come back down again..

[Anonymous]

I hate showing affection. It bothers the hell out of me.

I hate saying "I love you" to people, I rarely, if ever, say it.

I hate physical affection. I don't like holding hands and I don't like giving hugs and stuff. It's weird.

The only reason I want to go out with someone really is to say I have someone that's mine. I don't want physical or emotional affection. Is that weird?

[Anonymous]

I found out two weeks ago that I cannot have children. I want to be able to give my girlfriend children, but now I never can. I am the femme in the relationship, and my girlfriend always told me she pictured me having our kids. I feel like a failure and a defect as a girl. :icon_redf

[Paralyzer]

I think music sounds better when the lead singer is attractive...
Or maybe I think the lead singer is attractive when I hear good music.. I'm not sure

But either way, it's nothing that I'm proud of. :(

[Anonymous]

I tend to crush on any guy who is nice enough to me.

[Latinokid]

Music changes my mood.:eek:

[Anonymous]

My advice to people on online relationships is to "don't go there". But secretly I want one just to know that someone cares about me and actually have a boyfriend since I can't have one in real life. :icon_redf

[Paul_UK]

I found out two weeks ago that I cannot have children. I want to be able to give my girlfriend children, but now I never can. I am the femme in the relationship, and my girlfriend always told me she pictured me having our kids. I feel like a failure and a defect as a girl. :icon_redf

What about adoption? Is that an option where you live for lesbian couples?

Or could your girlfriend have children instead?