Post Secret

[Anonymous]

I've been fucked over my so many people in my life that I think that I will never find someone who wont screw me over, in a boyfriend at least.

[Anonymous]

Just seeing the underwear thread elsewhere... Sometimes I wear basketball shorts underneath my jeans, with nothing underneath the shorts :grin:

[Anonymous]

I have done that too. Not so much now but I do have and have always has a *thing* for shorts. ;)

[Anonymous]

is seriously embaressed right now

[Tokarov]

1. Music does change my mood also
2. I want a boyfriend so bad so I just know what it feels like to know that someone likes you more than a friend...that it almost led me to suicide.

But I'm better now, but I still feel horrible...like I have to change my entire personality just to be accepted by people...


and I AM NOT posting anonymously because I'm tired of hiding!

[crimsonarcher]

I feel that i've done something horrible to the one person..In other words, i feel a lot of guilt.

[panda]

I think music sounds better when the lead singer is attractive...
Or maybe I think the lead singer is attractive when I hear good music.. I'm not sure

But either way, it's nothing that I'm proud of. :(

If Janis Joplin was around today she would never be recorded because she was pretty ordinary looking.But a great voice.

[Anonymous]

I was talking to a boy I liked when I reached 500 posts. I told him I was counting down too.

But I didn't get a thread on it. No one else seemed to notice either. It's a stupid reason, but it did hurt my feelings.

[biisme]

i want to wish u a happy 500 posts!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY 500 POSTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Paul_UK]

A lot of people pass post count milestones without being noticed. Most of us are more interested in looking at the messages rather than the numbers. I have sometimes noticed people at something like 1010 posts and realised nobody noted the 1000, but it's too late by then.

Please don't worry about it. It's nothing personal.

Belated congrats on your first 500 though, and hopefully we'll notice the 1000!

[Tokarov]

Biisme is probably is better person than all my friends and people at my school combined! Which is a good...bad thing? lol. <3 biisme! :)

[biisme]

Biisme is probably is better person than all my friends and people at my school combined! Which is a good...bad thing? lol. <3 biisme! :)

Thank you!!!! You're so sweeeeeeeeet. I <3 u too!

(*hug*) (*hug*)

[EthanS]

A lot of people pass post count milestones without being noticed. Most of us are more interested in looking at the messages rather than the numbers. I have sometimes noticed people at something like 1010 posts and realised nobody noted the 1000, but it's too late by then.

Please don't worry about it. It's nothing personal.

Belated congrats on your first 500 though, and hopefully we'll notice the 1000!

LOl.. yer alllot of us havnt been noticed and i dotn think we even care ¬__¬

[step49x]

I tend to avoid all the post count threads. If one is made for me, I might read it, but I probably won't post in it. It's not something I care about.

I think the Anonymous Forum was one of the best things to ever happen to EC. It really makes me sad when Paul threatens to close it, though I know why he does. I wish people would stop abusing it.

I can definitely see the whole "clique" thing that goes on here, and it annoys me a bit. I also feel frustrated by the threads like "EC Valentines." I mean, it's great if you get named, but not everyone does. I usually check, but I know that people won't mention me (at least, not specifically). I'm not on often enough for most people to know who I am. I don't mind, though (well, i do, but i don't). Those threads can be good, but it just seems like people put way too much emphasis on them.

I love underwear so much I try and talk about it to annnnyyyonne at school etc!
That sounds like fun... :icon_twis

I tend to crush on any guy who is nice enough to me.
I swear, I like half the guys I see walking down the street. I wish I was more selective...

Biisme, I tend to skim over your posts when you respond to anonymous posters, but it really makes me glad to know that you're always out there, giving support. :) Thanks also to everyone else that tries their best to offer support, even when people don't think they deserve it (you all do deserve it, no one is worthless! if you don't think this applies to you, then you're exactly who i'm talking to!!).

I dislike mentioning names, because for every one person I mention, that's hundreds of others I didn't... :icon_sad:

[latinolover]

hmmm i have 1 big crush on e.c ...wonder who it iss lawl

[biisme]

Biisme, I tend to skim over your posts when you respond to anonymous posters, but it really makes me glad to know that you're always out there, giving support. :)

oooo....thank you. :)

and happy belated valentine's day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i <3 u!!!!!!!! (*hug*) (*hug*)

[step49x]

:dry:

Biisme, I tend to skim over your posts when you respond to anonymous posters, but it really makes me glad to know that you're always out there, giving support. :)

oooo....thank you. :)

and happy belated valentine's day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i <3 u!!!!!!!! (*hug*) (*hug*)
Thanks. :)

I should have mentioned, I prefer to call it "Singles Awareness Day." ;)

[biisme]

:dry:

Biisme, I tend to skim over your posts when you respond to anonymous posters, but it really makes me glad to know that you're always out there, giving support. :)

oooo....thank you. :)

and happy belated valentine's day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i <3 u!!!!!!!! (*hug*) (*hug*)
Thanks. :)

I should have mentioned, I prefer to call it "Singles Awareness Day." ;)


hahaha....yea....i've never had a chance to recognize a valentine... o well

[Anonymous]

Ok I am going to try to get this back on topic by saying my secrets


I am in love with soemone from Australia
And I listen to alot of country music !!!

[Anonymous]

I only wake up on the right side of the bed when I have an erotic dream :lol:

[KatoKumi]

I prefer the left side of the bed.

So whoever you are, we belong together. :icon_wink


<3

[pirateninja]

If I had the time and money, right now, I would travel just to meet a certain female EC member who's very posts make my heart melt.

Bah, I'm far too soppy.

[biisme]

I wish I could think of a really good idea for a novel

[Anonymous]

Everyday, I worry no one will ever call me their best friend.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I want to move out of my house, even though everyone depends on me. I can't take members of my family living directionless lives while abusing far too much alcohol and drugs. I'm also not "out" at home to them.

[Anonymous]

I like boys. wait. that's not a secret.

How about this: I have kissed a girl even though I'm gay. sweet man.

[Anonymous]

Bah, I feel forgotten, I have problems too....

[Paul_UK]

Not forgotten. Just impossible to identify in this thread.

Have you posted something that hasn't had many replies?

[Anonymous]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.

[Anonymous]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.


I have to say sometimes I feel the same way.

[Latinokid]

I drool over a lot of people. But I find it just ugh a waste of time anymore to do anything here I think I've like outgrown this site.

[Anonymous]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.
Samii, babyboy, sexyalex, Kimi are all very sexy !!
I know I've left many other guys out but I just can't think of anyothers just now.
Yes, I'm white and I find those guys insanely HOT !!

[Anonymous]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.
I have to say sometimes I feel the same way.
One thing that kind of bugs me about this site is how almost everyone is white. Nothing against this site, but it seems like it could be a bit of a turn off for some people. I am white, so I know I don't have to worry about this. I know it's got to be hard for you guys, though.

[biisme]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.


I have to say sometimes I feel the same way.

I'm so sorry that you guys feel this way. Let me know if there's anything I can do to help with this.

[Anonymous]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.

Samii, babyboy, sexyalex, Kimi are all very sexy !!
I know I've left many other guys out but I just can't think of anyothers just now.
Yes, I'm white and I find those guys insanely HOT !!

yeah i'm not on that list. so that's why i feel so unattractive here.

[Latinokid]

*Cough* Jedd *Cough* Hello anyone with me?

[Étoile]

i've never felt this outside this site.

i actually feel judged because i'm not white. not that everyone is being racist or discriminatory towards me, but I feel as though I'm so ugly because it seems like the white people are always the ones being drooled over.

I know how you feel. Although there are many white people who are insanely attractive, when that's the main race I see in the media being portrayed as beautiful, it makes me question my own attractiveness. I understand that it's not racist when people are not attracted to a certain race, but it's a major confidence crusher when time and time again you see/hear people say "I don't find black guys attractive." or "I don't go for Asians." It seems as if Whites are the standard food (like chicken) that everyone loves and can relate to while other races are foods for the acquired taste. Just my 2 cents.

[Paralyzer]

*Cough* Jedd *Cough* Hello anyone with me?

:smilewave

[biisme]

I see what you guys are all saying, and it's valid, and I'm sorry. It is discriminatory in the world, and I wish it weren't. I like the person for who they are, not what they look like, but that's not the same for everyone else in the world. I'm sorry.

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Chamber of Life]

This topic is very intresting and I feel some of it is true.

[Anonymous]

I think back to the amazing sex with my last boyfriend all the time, everyday usually.
I remember everything, how he smelled, tasted, every inch of his body.

It often distracts and causes some unwanted excitement downstairs.
And I'm worried that in my next relationship, if the sex isn't as good, I won't be able to keep my mind on it; I'll be thinking about my ex.

[Anonymous]

im in love with the song
hit me baby one more time
:tears:

and liek someone said earlier
i feel like if im ignord because of my race

[Anonymous]

I absolutely can't stand a certain member here at EC. For obvious reasons, I'm not going to mention their user name, but every time I read one of this person's posts, I just want to scream. They're close-minded and ignorant.

I just really needed to get that off my chest. Hopefully this won't be considered flaming or a personal attack as I've not even mentioned the gender.

[Anonymous]

I'm between 18-24, (seems like a good bracket without being too specific) I do physical activities at least four times a week, two being cardiovascular, this is not counting work where I'm constantly moving...

So I'm not in bad shape/overweight/anything of that sort.


I have high blood pressure... It doesn't run in my family and I haven't been able to give blood because of it on at least three or more times. I've asked my mother to set up a check up with the doctor but she claims it is no big deal and keeps putting it off. (I'm under their insurance...)

I do drink Dr. Pepper on occasion but that is when I go out and sense I am poor... I don't go out to eat often enough for it to matter... other then that I drink water or milk... I don't eat candy, although I am a gum addict. (Oral fixation... you'd think I'd been a smoker... I'm not by the way.)


I'm worried... My last time I got my blood pressure taken (machine in WalMart) it was 140 or so over 79... We weren't playing around... I just walked in and we walked around and I took my blood pressure...

The last time I attempted to give blood, My pulse was over 120 at rest. I'm not scared of needles or afraid of the pain or the questions they will ask... I just want to help people. (Even if I don't give off that attitude.)


It really freaks me out and I just needed to type it out.



-Hypertension OC


p.s.
I decided to sign it as if it were a dear Abby letter. (OC is a nick name from work.)

[Ty]

I'm between 18-24, (seems like a good bracket without being too specific) I do physical activities at least four times a week, two being cardiovascular, this is not counting work where I'm constantly moving...

So I'm not in bad shape/overweight/anything of that sort.


I have high blood pressure... It doesn't run in my family and I haven't been able to give blood because of it on at least three or more times. I've asked my mother to set up a check up with the doctor but she claims it is no big deal and keeps putting it off. (I'm under their insurance...)

I do drink Dr. Pepper on occasion but that is when I go out and sense I am poor... I don't go out to eat often enough for it to matter... other then that I drink water or milk... I don't eat candy, although I am a gum addict. (Oral fixation... you'd think I'd been a smoker... I'm not by the way.)


I'm worried... My last time I got my blood pressure taken (machine in WalMart) it was 140 or so over 79... We weren't playing around... I just walked in and we walked around and I took my blood pressure...

The last time I attempted to give blood, My pulse was over 120 at rest. I'm not scared of needles or afraid of the pain or the questions they will ask... I just want to help people. (Even if I don't give off that attitude.)


It really freaks me out and I just needed to type it out.



-Hypertension OC


p.s.
I decided to sign it as if it were a dear Abby letter. (OC is a nick name from work.)


You really need to go see a doctor for this =/ Arrange to see them yourself if you have to.

[Anonymous]

I'm going to ask her again today if she will make arangements for it... we might have to wait till tomorrow or something of that sorts so I can find a day I can go without work or school interfering.

I hope there isn't anymore arguing over it. I mean a checkup is never a bad thing... right?


-Hypertension OC

[Anonymous]

okay i cant stick out my tongue and i feel unatractiveeee am i and doest that make me weired i mean i CANT STICK MY TONGUE OUTTTT and do stuff[wink wink] like sex stufff ugh idont knowww

[EthanS]

o.O why?? whats wrong with your tongue

o yea, i hate it when people say 'so??' or 'why??' to me

[Anonymous]

I would do anything to be straight.

[Quitex]

I would do anything to be straight.

why? o_o

[Anonymous]

postwhores get all the attention

[biisme]

postwhores get all the attention

I would give you attention and love, but that's hard to do when you're anonymous.

But, to whoever you are:

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Kyle]

I'm shy, have no friends and dropped out of school. :icon_sad:

[biisme]

I'll be your friend!

[Sexiican01]

i'll be someone's friend too
(:

[Anonymous]

I just want to reach out and hold you close, but I have to resist.

I don't want to lose hope again.

[Anonymous]

Tonight I am feeling pretty depressed. I'm so lonely and too scared to come out to anyone. I get frustrated with myself coz I have perfect opportunities and then just CAN'T get the words out.... sigh

I don't want to be alone when I'm old...

Oh well. I'll grin and bear it. Maybe I'm just tired...

[Paul_UK]

Tonight I am feeling pretty depressed. I'm so lonely and too scared to come out to anyone. I get frustrated with myself coz I have perfect opportunities and then just CAN'T get the words out.... sigh

I don't want to be alone when I'm old...

Oh well. I'll grin and bear it. Maybe I'm just tired...

We've all had those perfect opportunities and let them go. Another one will come along soon, and maybe that time you will be able to say something.

A few more weeks or months is not a big deal.

I don't know how old you are now, but if you're in your teens, 20's, 30's, 40's.... you've got loads of time ahead. There is so much time between now and being "old" that you shouldn't be worrying about that now.

[Anonymous]

I just want to reach out and hold you close, but I have to resist.

I don't want to lose hope again.

I'm on the opposite side of this... and i'm slowly losing hope. I have no idea if you're the guy I like... but I wish you wouldn't resist, because I've been so alone, and I'm starting to believe you don't want anything to do with me...

I know you don't want to lose hope... but I am.

[biisme]

hates daylight's saving time...

the spring one

[Anonymous]

My whole life I have accepted the fact that because I like men, I must be gay.

The other day I finally understood that I am transsexual.

I cried for five hours straight.

[sngl]

postwhores get all the attention

Of course they do! If your name is in every single thread then you'll surely be noticed no matter how smart or how stupid you are.

I'm not trying to offend anyone btw. I believe that postwhores are a healthy part of every online community :icon_bigg

[Paul_UK]

My whole life I have accepted the fact that because I like men, I must be gay.

The other day I finally understood that I am transsexual.

I cried for five hours straight.

Have you contacted Darya (divadarya) to talk about this? I'm sure she'd be pleased to discus it with you and help you understand yourself.

[Ty]

My whole life I have accepted the fact that because I like men, I must be gay.

The other day I finally understood that I am transsexual.

I cried for five hours straight.



I've often thought about if I were a transexual. But I don't really like wearing womens clothes and I like my penis so I doubt it. Hmmm. I agree with Paul, contact divadarya she'll be helpful =]

[Anonymous]

My true total friend count?

One.

[Brett]

I only hang out with my "best friend" so that he won't out me.

[pirateninja]

You'd all hate me if you knew me in real life. And I'm not saying this for attention or anything, but just because it is pure fact.

In real life I am very easily angered and very prone to attacking those closest to me when pushed to the limit. I'm also very terrible at the comforting or knowing what to say in certain situations.

At least on the forum I can think before I post something. And that is why I love it here.

[divadarya]

My whole life I have accepted the fact that because I like men, I must be gay.

The other day I finally understood that I am transsexual.

I cried for five hours straight.

I TOTALLY understand. Give your "lightning bolt" a few days; it took me over a year of batting about the idea before I really *accepted* being trans...just like in the grieving process, acceptance may feel peaceful, or you feel just numb.

If you know you are trans, I'm always here;happy to email you off-list.

[Anonymous]

My true total friend count?

One.

to you and to brett and to pirateninja I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!

[Anonymous]

I think EC is slowly deteriorating my sanity. I feel I should leave soon.
But I don't want to tell anyone.

[pirateninja]

My true total friend count?

One.

to you and to brett and to pirateninja I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!

Thank you whoever you are. You just made my day. :D

[Anonymous]

why couldn't i have just been born into the right body?

[biisme]

My true total friend count?

One.

to you and to brett and to pirateninja I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!

Thank you whoever you are. You just made my day. :D

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

i forgot to unclick the box :icon_redf

[pirateninja]

why couldn't i have just been born into the right body?

I ask myself the same thing every day.

Still, no point feeling bad about what we never had, right?

(I heard that in a song somewhere, but I can't remember which one :D)

[davo-man]

I am so f*cking pissed off right now.....I am so f*cking pissed off at her....she doesn't even know what a bitch shes being....and she f*cking meant to be one of my best friends.....bitch

[biisme]

I am so f*cking pissed off right now.....I am so f*cking pissed off at her....she doesn't even know what a bitch shes being....and she f*cking meant to be one of my best friends.....bitch

what happened?

[Anonymous]

I wish I could hug everyone who has ever had a hardship. I wish I could make them feel better. I'm sorry for those who has ever felt pain that they never needed. I hope that life only gets better for them. May your hearts now only find the love they have been looking for.

[Anonymous]

this is another night spent crying myself to sleep wishing for another warm body because this is how i calibrate my worth.

[davo-man]

^ (To Biisme) Looking back on it, it's really not a big deal and I feel kinda dumb that I posted that, it's just that one of my friends (Bec) started going out with one of my other best friends (James) very quickly after I told her I had a serious crush on him. Now, they never spend any time apart, and although I've gotten over my crush, I haven't been able to see him (without her) just to catch up as friends. What really pissed me off is that next weekend, someone is having an outdoors screening of Rocky Horror Picture Show, and I'd organised months in advance that we were all going to go in a big group. Now, a week and a bit beforehand, she's decided that she needs a night alone with him, even though they both said that they wanted to come and were looking forward to it. I'm just annoyed how I never see him anymore, because he cant go anywhere with her, and she is incredibly lazy and never does anything social because "she works so hard". Fair enough, you have a full time job, but that shouldn't stop your bf from going out with friends. Eurgh. It's like I feel bad if I ask him to go somewhere when I know she can't go, cos it's like she expects him to say no

[biisme]

^ (To Biisme) Looking back on it, it's really not a big deal and I feel kinda dumb that I posted that, it's just that one of my friends (Bec) started going out with one of my other best friends (James) very quickly after I told her I had a serious crush on him. Now, they never spend any time apart, and although I've gotten over my crush, I haven't been able to see him (without her) just to catch up as friends. What really pissed me off is that next weekend, someone is having an outdoors screening of Rocky Horror Picture Show, and I'd organised months in advance that we were all going to go in a big group. Now, a week and a bit beforehand, she's decided that she needs a night alone with him, even though they both said that they wanted to come and were looking forward to it. I'm just annoyed how I never see him anymore, because he cant go anywhere with her, and she is incredibly lazy and never does anything social because "she works so hard". Fair enough, you have a full time job, but that shouldn't stop your bf from going out with friends. Eurgh. It's like I feel bad if I ask him to go somewhere when I know she can't go, cos it's like she expects him to say no

Oh....I'm sorry honey.

I hope he realizes soon the hold she has over his life, and you guys can hang out again.

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

I'm always here! (although it's OBVIOUSLY not the same)

:kiss:

[Anonymous]

I feel alone in the world .. empty .. like no one to love me .. and no one knows i exist

im scared of life .. and scared that im going to be alone the rest of my life =[

[biisme]

I feel alone in the world .. empty .. like no one to love me .. and no one knows i exist

im scared of life .. and scared that im going to be alone the rest of my life =[

I loooooooove yooooouuuuuu!!!!!!!!

:kiss: :kiss: (*hug*) (*hug*) :kiss:

[Anonymous]

All I wanted was a girlfriend to hug me and make everything better...

But no. There were no arms around me. I hate being f***ing alone.

[Psychedelic Bookmarks]

All I wanted was a girlfriend to hug me and make everything better...

But no. There were no arms around me. I hate being f***ing alone.

Me too.

[Anonymous]

My parents just discovered a gay 18-rated film I bought and have banned me from watching it. It doesn't even deserve an 18, it's only been given that because homosexuality is seen as so controversial. But they have just said that they don't want me watching it.

I feel like they don't understand me at all and underestimate me. And they somehow want me to be isolated and lonely, because they won't let me have any kind of support for my sexuality, and keep trying to close off any sources of support or feeling of belonging.

[biisme]

My parents just discovered a gay 18-rated film I bought and have banned me from watching it. It doesn't even deserve an 18, it's only been given that because homosexuality is seen as so controversial. But they have just said that they don't want me watching it.

I feel like they don't understand me at all and underestimate me. And they somehow want me to be isolated and lonely, because they won't let me have any kind of support for my sexuality, and keep trying to close off any sources of support or feeling of belonging.

I'm sorry.

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

postwhores get all the attention

amen to that...but oh well. they keep the forum alive..

[Anonymous]

I just wish that me and my boyfriend were still together. I mean we're still friends and he loves me (as a friend tho) but, I still love him more than that. I cry myself to sleep wishing we were still together knowing he'll never would want to get back together. I just wish he sees that breaking up with me won't make things better, that people get hurt in relationships, and that the love for one another that counts...

[Anonymous]

When i am alone in a room with a mirror i will start to talk to myself. I have even at some times yelled at myself and even on the odd occasion busted up laughing at somthing i said. I don't know if i just do this because i have only had myself as a friend for so long or if i am just completly insane. :confused:

[Anonymous]

I burn myself sometimes avec une hair-straightener...
Only on my upper arm though, so no one can see
Om nom nom nom

[Anonymous]

I burn myself sometimes avec une hair-straightener...
Only on my upper arm though, so no one can see
Om nom nom nom

I do the same with razors.

[EthanS]

When i am alone in a room with a mirror i will start to talk to myself. I have even at some times yelled at myself and even on the odd occasion busted up laughing at somthing i said. I don't know if i just do this because i have only had myself as a friend for so long or if i am just completly insane. :confused:


Yer i do that, when i see something reflective i always look at my self :(, but i dotn talk to my self, i think i have bdd or im jus obssessed :dry:

[Anonymous]

Never before have I felt so alone =/
Can't be good that I often contemplate suicide :confused:

[Anonymous]

Never before have I felt so alone =/
Can't be good that I often contemplate suicide :confused:

Be sure to reach out to someone, because other people won't necessarily know that you're feeling that way. It's not a sign that they don't care - they just don't know. Tell someone and ask for help. Please.

[Latinokid]

It's strange a month ago I was depressed and wanted to kill myself. But that has stopped I'm always happy love living love my friends and love life. I think if you focus all your energy on what makes you happy and just ignore and brush off your shoulder all the negative stuff and the haters then you would be happy. Works for me. You should check out The Secret and LoveBScott <--- really inspirational (youtube him) and it can help you. Just gotta find what works for you.

[Anonymous]

i've cried ever day since i was in 7th grade.
it started because i thought people hated me.
it continues because i hate myself.:(

[Anonymous]

if i have a booger, and no tissue, i pick it
and if i have no appt. place for it, i eat it
...bernie botz has it down pact...

[Anonymous]

i wish i could hugs all my friends friends without it being weird, not just the girls. boys give the best hugs in my opinion, but they so rarely hug...
damn heteros (j/j =])

[Anonymous]

I'm afraid that the career i'm pursuing now isn't the one i'm going to end up in..:(

[biisme]

i've cried ever day since i was in 7th grade.
it started because i thought people hated me.
it continues because i hate myself.:(

I'm sorry honey

(*hug*)

[Paul_UK]

I'm afraid that the career i'm pursuing now isn't the one i'm going to end up in..:(

My career now isn't what I studied for either. I spent several years at college on day release studying electronics, and now I've moved over to website design and IT.

Quite a few people I know have different careers to what they studied for, too. It's not unusual.

[Stevie J]

i've cried ever day since i was in 7th grade.
it started because i thought people hated me.
it continues because i hate myself.:(

I'm sorry honey

(*hug*)

thank you

[biisme]

i've cried ever day since i was in 7th grade.
it started because i thought people hated me.
it continues because i hate myself.:(

I'm sorry honey

(*hug*)

thank you

If you ever want to talk you can PM me at any time.

(*hug*)

[panda]

I'm afraid that the career i'm pursuing now isn't the one i'm going to end up in..:(

The way the job market is today, the experts say that each person can actually have five (5) different career paths. Don't worry!!

[Anonymous]

When I'm alone, I just want to cry. I can be happy and it'll just sneak up on me.

I don't know if I'm ever really happy. It's like there's a place deep within that can't be touched, can't be seen, and won't go away.

[Anonymous]

The first "famous" guy I found hot was a cartoon character.

[Anonymous]

I hide knifes all around my house and outside, so if I ever need one to cut myself with or o protect myself with from my brother and his gangster friends, I have one with me.

[Latinokid]

I hide knifes all around my house and outside, so if I ever need one to cut myself with or o protect myself with from my brother and his gangster friends, I have one with me.

I'm sorry that it has come down to that (*hug*) . Do you think your brother or any of his friends would ever be capable of doing something to you.

[Anonymous]

I hide knifes all around my house and outside, so if I ever need one to cut myself with or o protect myself with from my brother and his gangster friends, I have one with me.

I'm sorry that it has come down to that (*hug*) . Do you think your brother or any of his friends would ever be capable of doing something to you.

They already do! Beat me up almost every day! This morning he kicked me n a certain space an dnow I have a big bruise there!

[Anonymous]

I've been turned on by a total of 4 manga characters and had sexual fantasies about them.

[Anonymous]

I'm heterophobic. I know I shouldn't be but straight guys kind of disgust me (no problem with straight girls). With only two or three exceptions, they are just so stupid! They only seem to have two emotions: horny and drunk.

Sadly I'm not exactly thrilled when I see straight guys joining EC.

[Paul_UK]

I think the straight guys who join EC are not typical straight guys though.

[davo-man]

I'm heterophobic. I know I shouldn't be but straight guys kind of disgust me (no problem with straight girls). With only two or three exceptions, they are just so stupid! They only seem to have two emotions: horny and drunk.


Hehe you totally stole my quote from my signature...me and my friend were having a convo about how silly boys can be and I said that!

Hmmm my secret would be that, although I was completely out at high school, i still haven't told anyone at uni yet...It's not like the opputunity hasn't come about, they actually if there was anything about me that I'd like to share and I said no (silly me)...I'm nervous that they won't talk to me and I'll have no one to talk to at uni, whereas at school I knew what their reactions were going to be when I told them

[Stevie J]

I hide knifes all around my house and outside, so if I ever need one to cut myself with or o protect myself with from my brother and his gangster friends, I have one with me.

I'm sorry that it has come down to that (*hug*) . Do you think your brother or any of his friends would ever be capable of doing something to you.

They already do! Beat me up almost every day! This morning he kicked me n a certain space an dnow I have a big bruise there!

i think you need to leave

[Anonymous]

After looking through all the posts, it seems I didn't really leave a dent on EC.
And it just hurts that no one really cared much, regarding where I was.

I guess I've decided I'm not coming back.
At least not any time soon.

[Anonymous]

I've been turned on by a total of 4 manga characters and had sexual fantasies about them.

C'mon, show hasn't?

I think KNOW all of my 'friends' hate me!

[Psychedelic Bookmarks]

After looking through all the posts, it seems I didn't really leave a dent on EC.
And it just hurts that no one really cared much, regarding where I was.

I guess I've decided I'm not coming back.
At least not any time soon.

This is really sad :( I'm sure that, whoever you are, we do care about how you are and how you're getting on. If we haven't mentioned you in your absence, sorry, but there are so many people here and we all have lives to lead, you know. If you don't come on for a while you can't blame us if we stop posting about you all the time. Still, I'm sorry you feel this way. If you have problems or need a little tlc, please remember we're all here if you need us. (*hug*)

[sngl]

After looking through all the posts, it seems I didn't really leave a dent on EC.
And it just hurts that no one really cared much, regarding where I was.

I guess I've decided I'm not coming back.
At least not any time soon.

I'm assuming that you're talking about a thread or threads that you started because you needed advice with something and you didn't get many replies.

The thing is, in the support and advice section, people don't really post when they don't have anything useful to say. So for ex. if I can't give any advice then I'd rather not reply than say something like 'I'm sorry, but I can't help you'. So if you don't get many replies, it doesn't necessarily mean that people don't care or that you're being ignored.

So please don't leave because as Arneneithel said, we really do care...:icon_wink

[Anonymous]

I'm heterophobic. I know I shouldn't be but straight guys kind of disgust me (no problem with straight girls). With only two or three exceptions, they are just so stupid! They only seem to have two emotions: horny and drunk.

Sadly I'm not exactly thrilled when I see straight guys joining EC.

I kinda agree with you, cause MOST of the straight guys I see are just...well horny and drunk...

but like paul said, the ones who join EC are different, I mean...horny and drunk straight guys wouldn't join EC.

But not all of them are like that, some are actually nice and dont care if someone is gay or not. The ones I've told dont care at all that I'm gay.

[biisme]

After looking through all the posts, it seems I didn't really leave a dent on EC.
And it just hurts that no one really cared much, regarding where I was.

I guess I've decided I'm not coming back.
At least not any time soon.

Noooooooooo....please don't leave honey.

[Martin]

After looking through all the posts, it seems I didn't really leave a dent on EC.
And it just hurts that no one really cared much, regarding where I was.

I guess I've decided I'm not coming back.
At least not any time soon.

Actuallllllllllly, the mods deal with noticing disappearances and other stuff. You just can't access the stuff to know whether you have been noticed or not. Any member queries also get PM'ed to mods rather than posted on EC.

So yeah, it may look like nobody notices members but we have hawk eyes really. :D

[Dizzy]

I kinda agree with you, cause MOST of the straight guys I see are just...well horny and drunk...

but like paul said, the ones who join EC are different, I mean...horny and drunk straight guys wouldn't join EC.

But not all of them are like that, some are actually nice and dont care if someone is gay or not. The ones I've told dont care at all that I'm gay.

It isn't a feature of straight guys, it's the normal social culture for our age. Queer people, like other minority groups, tend to want to separate themselves from that culture. However just because someone is NOT queer (i.e straight), does not mean they have those characteristics. All my male friends are straight, and none of them are in the slightest like that.

[Anonymous]

Part of me wants to die just to make certain people feel guilty.

Goddammit, I hate my sick thoughts.

[Anonymous]

Why can't you notice me? Why can't I pluck up the courage to tell you how I feel? Why can't I just ask your number or msn? I need you, although you don't need me.

[Anonymous]

brandon aka Spark Imiss you come back

[Anonymous]

Everyone except my family (and 3 friends) forgot about my birthday... even EC. But oh well, I forgive you EC, no offence :icon_wink . It just sucks when you tell all your friends "Happy Birthday" on their birthday and they forget about yours... :dry:

[Anonymous]

Why can't you notice me? Why can't I pluck up the courage to tell you how I feel? Why can't I just ask your number or msn? I need you, although you don't need me.

do it! step out of your box and take a chance. i do it all the time and i only suffer humiliation on occasion :icon_bigg

[Stevie J]

Everyone except my family (and 3 friends) forgot about my birthday... even EC. But oh well, I forgive you EC, no offence :icon_wink . It just sucks when you tell all your friends "Happy Birthday" on their birthday and they forget about yours... :dry:
wow. i know exactly this; totaly happened to me in november.
i'm sorry. i hope everyday is happy though!(*hug*)

[EthanS]

After looking through all the posts, it seems I didn't really leave a dent on EC.
And it just hurts that no one really cared much, regarding where I was.

I guess I've decided I'm not coming back.
At least not any time soon.

I've noticed some people not on as much but i dont post about it incase no one replies ¬_¬

[Anonymous]

What is wrong with EC? Paul keeps deleting posts in the Anon section because their not supportive or something like that. This site use to be a happy one now its gone down hill. Everything Martin does is okay just because Paul has a crush on him. This pisses me off favoritism and yet you expect other people to do things your way and you let others get away with this....

[pirateninja]

What is wrong with EC? Paul keeps deleting posts in the Anon section because their not supportive or something like that. This site use to be a happy one now its gone down hill. Everything Martin does is okay just because Paul has a crush on him. This pisses me off favoritism and yet you expect other people to do things your way and you let others get away with this....

Rules is rules.

And I highly doubt Paul has a crush on Martin. Most of the Martin threads are moved to fun and games anyway to stick to the rules.

Anonymous section is in support and advice section because the anonymous feature shouldn't be abused to hide our identity while making innapropriate posts; it should be used to hide our identity while making posts that may include sensitive subjects.

[biisme]

Part of me wants to die just to make certain people feel guilty.

Goddammit, I hate my sick thoughts.

This means you're not considering this. Right?

[Anonymous]

Part of me wants to die just to make certain people feel guilty.

Goddammit, I hate my sick thoughts.

This means you're not considering this. Right?

No. I'm not going to throw my life away just to get back at people.

I'm just pissed off at them and I want them to know that they hurt me.

But I hate myself for even THINKING that my death should be used to get back at them.

But, no, I'm not going to kill myself just for those assholes.

[biisme]

Part of me wants to die just to make certain people feel guilty.

Goddammit, I hate my sick thoughts.

This means you're not considering this. Right?

No. I'm not going to throw my life away just to get back at people.

I'm just pissed off at them and I want them to know that they hurt me.

But I hate myself for even THINKING that my death should be used to get back at them.

But, no, I'm not going to kill myself just for those assholes.


Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not for how you feel, but that you're not considering it.

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

Part of me wants to die just to make certain people feel guilty.

Goddammit, I hate my sick thoughts.

This means you're not considering this. Right?

No. I'm not going to throw my life away just to get back at people.

I'm just pissed off at them and I want them to know that they hurt me.

But I hate myself for even THINKING that my death should be used to get back at them.

But, no, I'm not going to kill myself just for those assholes.


Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not for how you feel, but that you're not considering it.

(*hug*)

Thanks, right now it's nice to know someone cares. I need this place to vent stuff. I usually just keep it to myself, and allow my mind to go over it, when I shouldn't.

My parents would pitch a fit if they knew some of the things I thought. That or they'd worry uncontrollably or pack me off to some psychiatrist.

[Anonymous]

If my bi best friend,

(who has been dating his girlfriend for 7 months and to this date is perma-stuck on 1st base)

would let me mess around with him (i.e.... have him cheat on his girlfriend...) I would do it without a second thought.

Last night he called me drunk and said he has always wondered what it would be like to do stuff with me and that he wants to. Without telling his girlfriend.

I think I might not be able to stop myself, and it doesn't phase me at all. Which is what REALLY scares me. I feel so twisted...

[Anonymous]

i think im being bullyed on here
:(

[Martin]

i think im being bullyed on here
:(

If you want it to be investigated then you can PM either myself or another of the mods and we'll look into it. Otherwise there is not much that can be done while you wish to hide behind anon. We wouldn't reveal your identity to anybody if you did report it though.

[Anonymous]

I joined recently and I thought this was a welcoming place, but I was wrong. People here are right about favoritism on these boards, as well as bullying. I won't be returning here for a long long time. This is supposed to be a safe haven, but I think people are using it as an opportunity to feel superior to others because of the way they've been treated in the real world, and thats just not fair. Goodbye empty closets, its been nice knowing you.

[biisme]

I joined recently and I thought this was a welcoming place, but I was wrong. People here are right about favoritism on these boards, as well as bullying. I won't be returning here for a long long time. This is supposed to be a safe haven, but I think people are using it as an opportunity to feel superior to others because of the way they've been treated in the real world, and thats just not fair. Goodbye empty closets, its been nice knowing you.

I am so sorry that you have had a bad exprience thus far on the forum. I don't know who is bullying you, but I urge you to tell a moderator so they can take care of it, rather than leaving. It IS supposed to be a safe haven, and anyone who is making it not so needs to be reported. I don't know what I can do to help, but if you ever need to talk or anything you can PM me at any time. I hope we find a better way to resolve this than you leaving. But, if in the end you do decide to leave, I wish you the best of luck in your future and I hope that you find/have friends that will be there to support you.

(*hug*)

[beckyg]

I joined recently and I thought this was a welcoming place, but I was wrong. People here are right about favoritism on these boards, as well as bullying. I won't be returning here for a long long time. This is supposed to be a safe haven, but I think people are using it as an opportunity to feel superior to others because of the way they've been treated in the real world, and thats just not fair. Goodbye empty closets, its been nice knowing you.

I am so sorry that you have had a bad exprience thus far on the forum. I don't know who is bullying you, but I urge you to tell a moderator so they can take care of it, rather than leaving. It IS supposed to be a safe haven, and anyone who is making it not so needs to be reported. I don't know what I can do to help, but if you ever need to talk or anything you can PM me at any time. I hope we find a better way to resolve this than you leaving. But, if in the end you do decide to leave, I wish you the best of luck in your future and I hope that you find/have friends that will be there to support you.

(*hug*)

Biisme is absolutely right! Please let us know so we can help you. Being a safe haven is the absolute goal and purpose of Empty Closets and when someone feels like you do, we need to do something about it! Send me a PM please.

[Paralyzer]

I joined recently and I thought this was a welcoming place, but I was wrong. People here are right about favoritism on these boards, as well as bullying. I won't be returning here for a long long time. This is supposed to be a safe haven, but I think people are using it as an opportunity to feel superior to others because of the way they've been treated in the real world, and thats just not fair. Goodbye empty closets, its been nice knowing you.


I know I'm not an EC vet or anything but..
I remember when I first joined this place seemed so innocent and new, it was like everyone comforted everyone and gave everyone a fair chance at everything..

Though I haven't directly or indirecty (for that matter) felt like I've been picked on or ignored... I've noticed that the diversity of the people posting seems lower than ever lately and everything that people talk about is about something someone did days/weeks/months ago and I'd say it's kinda hard and intimidating for someone to get involved when they have no idea what's going on time and time again.

Generally, I'm a fan of the Fun and Games section... but before I joined EC, I thought I'd be posting heart wrenching stories (for me) for support and stuff. I felt so welcomed from the randomness and involvement in the F&G section that I felt no need to vent. I'd have to say that the F&G section is important for that very matter.

I don't mean to b**ch or anything, I'm just pointing out something I've noticed over the period of a few weeks.. idk, for all I know, this whole 'EC is dying' thing has been going on long before February.. but I hope that maybe . ... something changes..
I have no grudges against anyone and I kinda feel bad dissing EC because it really has been a help for me.. I just hope it somehow helps

[Anonymous]

I joined in sept. last year and it is true, EC has changed quite a lot since then. I don't blame anyone either, but as more and more people join, it seems to get a bit unfriendlier here.

[Paul_UK]

I joined recently and I thought this was a welcoming place, but I was wrong. People here are right about favoritism on these boards, as well as bullying. I won't be returning here for a long long time. This is supposed to be a safe haven, but I think people are using it as an opportunity to feel superior to others because of the way they've been treated in the real world, and thats just not fair. Goodbye empty closets, its been nice knowing you.

I know one of the mods has now sent you a PM. I hope you will give us a chance to try to resolve this.

You and anyone else with any concerns about the running of the site or the attitude of other members towards you are always welcome to PM me or any of the moderators, and we will do our best to help. You can see who the mods are by clicking the View Forum Leaders (http://www.emptyclosets.com/forum/showgroups.php) link at the bottom of the front page.

I joined in sept. last year and it is true, EC has changed quite a lot since then. I don't blame anyone either, but as more and more people join, it seems to get a bit unfriendlier here.

That is an inevitable consequence of the site growing unfortunately. We try to avoid it an keep the place as friendly and welcoming as possible, but I do realise that with increasing numbers of increasingly active members it can be more difficult for newer and less active members to feel at home here.

[Anonymous]

My boyfriend thinks he's my first

[Miaplacidus]

I joined in sept. last year and it is true, EC has changed quite a lot since then. I don't blame anyone either, but as more and more people join, it seems to get a bit unfriendlier here.

I agree - it's getting too big. However, regarding favoritism... I used to think that was true, but now I don't think so. Obviously we are all human, and seriously I don't think that Paul has a crush on Martin (if he did he'd have to face half of EC and his own partner)

[Anonymous]

I used to come here every day. I used to love this place. I used to post all the time. I used to give great advice and help so many people.

But now I come here every few days, if even that. I don't ever post, ever. I honestly hate this place, but I might continue to use the anonymous section.

The opinions are so divided. There are those like me that feel ignored, unwanted, and unnecessary, and then there are those that are adored by all and get about what seems like millions of compliments on their pictures and whatnot.

It's sad. It really is. At least we still have the anonymous section.

And by the way...I've not been personally bullied by anyone myself, but it is prevalent.

[Paul_UK]

We hear comments occassionally that saying that people are being bullied, but we haven't seen any real evidence of it in the forums and nobody has reported anything to any of the mods by PM.

We can't do anything about it if we don't know about it. So please TELL US and allow us to sort it out. We will keep it anonymous so the bully won't know who told us. Remember if they are bullying you they are probably bullying someone else too.

We certainly would not allow anyone to be bullied here, so if anyone here is bullying anyone else here then I suggest you stop NOW!

[Paul_UK]

I agree - it's getting too big. However, regarding favoritism... I used to think that was true, but now I don't think so. Obviously we are all human, and seriously I don't think that Paul has a crush on Martin (if he did he'd have to face half of EC and his own partner)

Martin has become a good friend and we talk a lot on MSN etc. There is a bit of flirty banter occasionally which spills over into the odd forum post (such as the "wake up next to" thread), but that's all it is. If it's giving the wrong impression though we'll try to reduce it.

Almost everything the mod team does in their mod duties is recorded and accountable. I say "almost everything" because some minor things such as moving a thread, deleting a completely off-topic post in a support thread or having a quick quiet word with someone in the chatroom are not worth recording.

Everything else is recorded. For forum issues we normally use the post report facility which creates a thread in the Staff Room where we discuss what needs doing and/or record what has been done. With chatroom issues we generally copy/paste the relevant part of the chatroom logs, or an extract if that's enough to illustrate the problem. If a PM is sent to a member we either post a copy/paste of the PM or give a summary, depending on the content. When/if a reply is received that is recorded the same way. Where a summary is posted we don't delete the full PM for at least a couple of months (most are probably like me and only delete older PMs when the box is getting full!) so we can retrieve them if needed.

We have a really good mod team here now. Things do get discussed and decisions reached quickly. A kind of unwritten rule is that three people need to agree (the mod raising the issue and two others), which allows things to get done without having to wait hours until other mods come online.

We are human though, and we don't always get it completely right. Most of the time I think we do OK though. If you do have an issue with something one of the mod team has or hasn't done then please PM me or another mod. We will normally all know the background info already, and can always ask the original mod for copies of all relevant PMs etc.

As I said in my post above though, if there is a problem please contact us and we will try to help. We can't fix things if we don't know about them!

[Vampyrecat]

Paul has said everything for me.

We do our best, and we check everything regularly, but if we miss something we can't help you unless you TELL us. We aren't scary and we really do love helping you guys out, because its what we're here for.

You are more then welcome to PM or Email the moderators of EC if you have any problems, queries, or if you just want to chat about life. We do respond to your PM's as soon as possible, and we generally give a summary of what's going on to the other moderators in the mod sections (ie, if there's a problem and we all need to fix it.) so that we all know what's going on in cases such as this.

Feel free to PM me or Email me at Tess (at) emptyclosets.com if you want to talk about anything.

[Paul_UK]

Feel free to PM me or Email me at Tess (at) emptyclosets.com if you want to talk about anything.

Mine is Paul (at) emptyclosets.com

[Anonymous]

I joined in sept. last year and it is true, EC has changed quite a lot since then. I don't blame anyone either, but as more and more people join, it seems to get a bit unfriendlier here.
You can't begrudge EC a bit more traffic. It's only fair after the work it's done to get it. :rolleyes:

[Miaplacidus]

Paul and Tess, I'd recommend you to repost your e-mail addresses as a picture or as, say, "paul at emptyclosets.com" if you don't want to be flooded with spam. That's what happened when I posted the original content address for Full Spectrum in plain text. Thought you might like to know.

[Paul_UK]

I'll do that (and edit Tess')

[Anonymous]

When I'm alone, and it's dark and late at night, I start to think too much. Then, I'm afraid of my feelings.

I may think I'm happy, believe I'm happy, look happy, but when I look deeper...I realize that's not true.

[Anonymous]

I'm happiest when I look like a boy...
Tomboy, gender-bender, really.
But even when I was really little, I'd pretend to be a boy in my head sometimes as well.

I don't know if any of this means anything, but it's scary to look in the mirror, notice how boyish you look, and love walking out the door like that.

[Anonymous]

im racist

[Anonymous]

I'm in love with a married woman

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I feel guilty because I don't have enough time, or the expertise, to help everyone on the support boards :( Sorry if you ever feel left out.

[Anonymous]

im baaaaaaaaaaaaaack

[biisme]

im baaaaaaaaaaaaaack

welcome back!!!!

[Anonymous]

A day hasn't gone by that I haven't felt like I'm letting someone down. sorry.

[Anonymous]

I'm in love with someone on ec but he doesn't love me

[Anonymous]

I can never seem to tell when I actually have a crush on someone, or when I'm forcing my feelings.

[Anonymous]

If my bi best friend,

(who has been dating his girlfriend for 7 months and to this date is perma-stuck on 1st base)

would let me mess around with him (i.e.... have him cheat on his girlfriend...) I would do it without a second thought.

Last night he called me drunk and said he has always wondered what it would be like to do stuff with me and that he wants to. Without telling his girlfriend.

I think I might not be able to stop myself, and it doesn't phase me at all. Which is what REALLY scares me. I feel so twisted...Well... thinking that you "can't stop yourself" is your biggest problem, because that makes it sound inevitable and the fact of the matter is that we always have a choice. Well, unless you suffer from compulsive behaviour when it comes to sleeping with people, in which case you should be seeking medical help. But mainly when people say "I don't think I could stop myself" it's usually them giving themselves permission to do something they know they really shouldn't be doing by phrasing it like it's inevitable.

For instance, say you recently ended up in bed with a really incredibly hot guy who is totally sweet and totally into you. But the guy has a boyfriend. But say you knew the guy was maybe not as into fidelity as most people with boyfriends are.

So in that situation, you could say it was inevitable the two of you were going to fool around. But of course that's not true. You could have not shared the bed with him, you could have sent him home to his boyfriend, you could have stuck yourself in a cold shower all night and given yourself pneumonia, or you could simply have just not let anything happen. The whole notion that there are situations where we "just can't stop ourselves" is basically reducing us down to animal status, purely driven by instinct. We always have choices to make and making a choice but then passing it off as something that was just bound to happen? That's shirking responsibility big-time.

Of course, in your case, you might want to ask yourself WHY you feel you would do what you're thinking of doing without a second thought. I usually find that kind of exercise goes well with "Well let's pretend I was his girlfriend... how would I feel if I found out X was doing that with Y" (where you are Y). I think a lot of times people cheating is a good example of not putting ourselves in other people's shoes. Well that and having too big a craving for instant gratification. Both things seem to be unpleasant facets of modern life.

[joeyconnick]

I kinda agree with you, cause MOST of the straight guys I see are just...well horny and drunk...

but like paul said, the ones who join EC are different, I mean...horny and drunk straight guys wouldn't join EC.

But not all of them are like that, some are actually nice and dont care if someone is gay or not. The ones I've told dont care at all that I'm gay.

It isn't a feature of straight guys, it's the normal social culture for our age. Queer people, like other minority groups, tend to want to separate themselves from that culture. However just because someone is NOT queer (i.e straight), does not mean they have those characteristics. All my male friends are straight, and none of them are in the slightest like that.I think calling it "the normal social culture for our age" is... well maybe not inaccurate but definitely gives it way too much tacit approval. I think it's a social/cultural thing that is perhaps overly accepted and taken to be inevitable (if you watch TV and movies) when it isn't necessarily reflective of everything that goes on in adolescence and certainly not at all reflective of what's going on in the lives of many adolescents. It's one of those things where I really wonder how much it would be considered "the norm" if there weren't all these myriad ways in which we get told, over and over, that it is "the" norm.

[Anonymous]

I can never seem to tell when I actually have a crush on someone, or when I'm forcing my feelings.

I have the exact same problem.

[Anonymous]

I can never seem to tell when I actually have a crush on someone, or when I'm forcing my feelings.

I think I'm forcing my feelings right now.

[Anonymous]

I can't help but feel like ever since I admitted I was gay, my life has been headed toward a dead end. Why can't I see that not having a "normal" life doesn't mean not having a life at all?

[Anonymous]

I don't have any friends. I only have my psp.

[biisme]

I don't have any friends. I only have my psp.

I will be your friend.

[Kev21]

Just out of curiousity, who goes to the Post Secret site every Sunday? I'm pretty much obsessed with it. Has anyone gone to one of the exhibits? Its like a travelling thing and the guy speaks. I wish I could.

[Zūn Jìng]

I don't have any friends. I only have my psp.

I will also be your friend.(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I don't have any friends. I only have my psp.

I have a psp too, perhaps we should get them together and see if they have kids. =) Then their kids can also be our friends, and keep multiplaying until they take over the world! (!)

Or I could be your friend too...except my browser keep covering up the "post anonymously" button so you won't know who I am...until I write it here: Alex89

[Anonymous]

I can never seem to tell when I actually have a crush on someone, or when I'm forcing my feelings.

I think I'm forcing my feelings right now.

(*hug*)

Follow your heart. It will lead you to the right place.
I followed my mind and it didn't.

[JSG]

Just out of curiousity, who goes to the Post Secret site every Sunday? I'm pretty much obsessed with it. Has anyone gone to one of the exhibits? Its like a travelling thing and the guy speaks. I wish I could.
Yep, I do, both the English one and the French one :D

[Anonymous]

i'm kinda.... in love with my best friend.

[ccdd]

i'm kinda.... in love with my best friend.

^^ I'm totally with you on that one. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I know I'm gay but I'm worried if I tell other people (My friends teachers etc.) they will discriminate me for who I am.

[Anonymous]

I like to eat lipgloss :roflmao:

That sounds so weird but it's true.

[Anonymous]

I'm tired of being perved on by older guys >_>

[Anonymous]

I'm in love with a Straight guy (what's wrong with me)

[Anonymous]

I want to cry so much right now. My mom is always taking out her frustration on me and today she tried to grab my hair and pull me back put i shoved my hand in her face and then I said a whole bunch of shi!t to her and she went to her room. I wish she would die this always happens! I just want to get away from it all. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I had a dream last night that someone had written something really horrible about me on here and saying how I should go away. :(

But I know you'd never do that :)

[Anonymous]

If you were gay or bisexual it'd be great, if only it could happen. I just know we could fall in love.

[biisme]

I want to cry so much right now. My mom is always taking out her frustration on me and today she tried to grab my hair and pull me back put i shoved my hand in her face and then I said a whole bunch of shi!t to her and she went to her room. I wish she would die this always happens! I just want to get away from it all. :icon_sad:


I'm so sorry honey!!!!

[biisme]

I had a dream last night that someone had written something really horrible about me on here and saying how I should go away. :(

But I know you'd never do that :)

you're right! we love you!!!!!

[Anonymous]

I want to cry so much right now. My mom is always taking out her frustration on me and today she tried to grab my hair and pull me back put i shoved my hand in her face and then I said a whole bunch of shi!t to her and she went to her room. I wish she would die this always happens! I just want to get away from it all. :icon_sad:

Awwww I'm so sorry =[

(*hug*)

[Emile]

I want to cry so much right now. My mom is always taking out her frustration on me and today she tried to grab my hair and pull me back put i shoved my hand in her face and then I said a whole bunch of shi!t to her and she went to her room. I wish she would die this always happens! I just want to get away from it all. :icon_sad:

Awwww I'm so sorry =[

(*hug*)

Oops that was me who said "Awwww I'm so sorry =["
I forgot to untick the box! Sorry!

[Anonymous]

However obvious I think you're being, or however obvious you think you're being, I don't know how you feel about me.

And I don't know how I feel about you.

[Anonymous]

i have never let myself be attracted to my friends. except recently i have discovered an odd type of relationship forming with my closest friend. I find myself looking at her, thinking about her in ways i feel i shouldn't b/c of our friendship. She's straight, i'm not. She trusts me enough to walk around naked in her towel just after she gets out of the shower, etc. I feel awkward, yet i love her (as a friend, not a lover). Whats even more confusing is that the way we interact has led many people to think we are dating. She hangs me her purse, jacket, books, whatever (without asking) and pretend to get upset and say i'm her personal slave and then she'll go try on clothes and there i will be waiting for to finish checking herself out in the mirror. She gets bitchy with me whenever i take someone else's side or don't talk to her more than i talk to others. I'm confused b/c i have a crush on my best friend, and our relationship just makes it harder. (Sorry this is such a long secret, but it feels good to let it out)

[EthanS]

The soul mate thing aint even real..:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

i have a crush on one of my best friends

[Anonymous]

Im stick of being the strong one - all my mates seem to think that nothing upsets me. i wish i could be more open about me emotions but i hate looking weak and vunerable. i suppose its my own fault but i just feel like im being pathetic.

[Anonymous]

Im stick of being the strong one - all my mates seem to think that nothing upsets me. i wish i could be more open about me emotions but i hate looking weak and vunerable. i suppose its my own fault but i just feel like im being pathetic.

I know how you feel. Once I went a whole year without crying. But I cracked up on new year's day and since then I've been more vulnerable to it. This is why I wish I had a partner, so they could be there for me; so they could be the strong one instead.

[Anonymous]

The soul mate thing aint even real..:icon_sad:

You just haven't found yours yet. I believe it's real!

[EthanS]

Well IF it is real, not everyone finds theirs before they die..

[Anonymous]

You're still pretty young EthanS
You'll find him soon enough
(*hug*)

[EthanS]

It might be a her .. i dunoo.. sonetimes i dont even want a partner :confused: :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I can't stop thinking about my best friend...

[Anonymous]

My friend, who is married, knows I am in love with her. I feel so guilty and horrible about it, and am afraid that it will destroy our friendship. It kills me every day.

[Anonymous]

I'm like a contained mess. No one else knows now; it's contained, but not controlled.

[Anonymous]

I still fancy another EC member but he still does not fancy me

[Anonymous]

I still fancy another EC member but he still does not fancy me

I know how you feel. I even feel tempted to just tell the person on here just to see how they react. If they do feel the same way, they ain't showing it :(

[Anonymous]

I'm so self absorbed, it's not even funny.

And the worst part is that it doesn't manifest itself extrinsically. It's not that I'm narcissistic or vain, because I would look a lot better if I were. No, it's the way I listen and regard and see and understand other people.

Although it's certainly not preferable, I can live with this.

[Anonymous]

I make up problems to explain me to myself.


Maybe it's because I am always surrounded by more interesting, more different, more crazy people, or maybe it's because I just really do have some undiagnosed mental problem.




Which, I admit, would explain a bunch.

[Anonymous]

I'm like a contained mess. No one else knows now; it's contained, but not controlled.


i understand in ways that i cant even explain...i am so numb, and it hurts so bad, and i am so afraid i will always be composed...

[Paul_UK]

Maybe it's because I am always surrounded by more interesting, more different, more crazy people, or maybe it's because I just really do have some undiagnosed mental problem.

There are always more interesting, more crazy, more whatever people around us. But if you look further you will find that there are less interesting, less crazy etc people too.

Also the more interesting, more whatever part is only a part of their personality. There is also the negatives that you see because they don't want you to. The over-confidence or whatever could be a mask to hide the true person.

You should really be grateful that your problems are perhaps smaller by comparison. That you don't have some life-threatening medical condition or personal issues that cause you co consider self-harm. When it comes to that sort of thing, being ordinary and less interesting is good!

I should know, because I think I fit into that category too. :thumbsup: Be yourself, be grateful that you don't have such major issues to deal with, and you'll be fine. And a lot less stressed too! :)

[Anonymous]

I have a huge crush on Beebo

[Anonymous]

i sometimes feel like nobody would be interested in me coz my life isnt established enough

[Paul_UK]

What do you mean by "established"? I obviously don't know your age, but if you're in your teens then it is fairly normal to be in a state of flux. There is so much that can and will change, school -> college -> first job. Plus sexuality, coming out, first partner etc. It's all happening and changing, so it is probably unreasonable for anyone to expect life to be established at that age.

[EthanS]

When i come online and i see 'him' on, I keep checking if he posts so i can read what he says... and when he goes offline i feel i dont want to stay online much.. I know creepy ¬__¬, not as creepy as it sounds though.. i hope

[pirateninja]

When i come online and i see 'him' on, I keep checking if he posts so i can read what he says... and when he goes offline i feel i dont want to stay online much.. I know creepy ¬__¬, not as creepy as it sounds though.. i hope

I feel like that too. About a "her" though

[EthanS]

Atleast Im not alone :)

[Anonymous]

Being the only openly gay person at a small, conservative school sometimes makes me so incredibly depressed and I feel that I can't do anything right. The past couple weeks have been even worse because my partner and I broke up. Before, I felt I had little self-worth, but now it's sunk even lower and I've come to realize that the only reason I'm still in this school and around these people is because I'm already so deep into the curriculum, all this pain and suffering I've felt for the past 2 years would've been for nothing at all...

Sometimes, I walk around picking out reasons to hate people... either they're too happy, they're too accomplished. It's not a matter of jealousy, it's just a matter of how absolutely miserable I am almost constantly now.... I don't want what they have, I just hate them for not knowing how I feel.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes, I walk around campus wearing noise canceling headphones without playing music in them... just so I can ignore everybody around me and have an excuse not to talk with people

[Joey]

Whenever I'm home, I walk around in the woods around my house for hours talking to myself... trying to find a way to justify my decisions and actions and what's happened in my life. Sometimes I can convince myself it's all for the greater good (whatever that may be)

[Anonymous]

My boyfriend just totally killed my good mood :(

[Anonymous]

Ok, this is pretty much the 3rd time I've posted in here tonight... it all seems that I'm realizing all this now.

From a "wanting to be in a relationship" aspect, I feel completely inadequate when it comes to showing affection, even with the tiny displays of "like". Even moreso if the relationship led to having sex, being a virgin I would feel as if I'm disappointing my partner with my inexperience.
Coming out as gay relatively late makes me feel as if I have missed out on so much already... and I'm barely on the brink of 20. Of my family and friends, I'm the only one who hadn't had a relationship before. And even then, my first relationship barely lasted 2 months and completely fell apart because I was never there.
When I talk with my friends about matters of sex or anything like that, I feel left out because I'm the only one who hasn't had sex... only messed around, and even now I'm ashamed because of it...

[Anonymous]

I have no idea what's going on.

I just want a life, I just don't want to think about one person all the time. I'm such an obsessive person, and I don't know how to drop something like that. I'm basically having to devalue everything and anything that is and could be to make myself as content as i can.

The entire ordeal is ridiculous. I just need to be able to hold interesting conversation. That's it. I need to be able to talk and be interesting.



but actually me blowing something like this up is why i can't stop thinking about it. it's called a subconcious masochism.

[Jim1454]

Ok, this is pretty much the 3rd time I've posted in here tonight... it all seems that I'm realizing all this now.

From a "wanting to be in a relationship" aspect, I feel completely inadequate when it comes to showing affection, even with the tiny displays of "like". Even moreso if the relationship led to having sex, being a virgin I would feel as if I'm disappointing my partner with my inexperience.
Coming out as gay relatively late makes me feel as if I have missed out on so much already... and I'm barely on the brink of 20. Of my family and friends, I'm the only one who hadn't had a relationship before. And even then, my first relationship barely lasted 2 months and completely fell apart because I was never there.
When I talk with my friends about matters of sex or anything like that, I feel left out because I'm the only one who hasn't had sex... only messed around, and even now I'm ashamed because of it...

I know it's hard - but believe me - not EVERYONE has had sex by the time they are 20. I was 25, and there have been threads in here before discussing that very topic. Unfortunately, TV and movies give the impression that EVERYONE IS having sex - and you end up feeling quite self conscious about it if you aren't.

And in terms of being inexperienced - it isn't really rocket science. You'll figure it all out a lot faster than you think you will. So try not to worry about it. The right person will come along when you least expect it, and it will all be good!

[Anonymous]

I just learned that someone close to me is having a rough time, but they haven't told me directly about it. It makes me sad that they're having a tough time right now, and have an uncertain future, and I'm not able to help them. I hope they reach out for some help. I'm not supposed to know that they are going through this difficult time so I don't want to break the confidence in which I was told...

[Paul_UK]

I just learned that someone close to me is having a rough time, but they haven't told me directly about it. It makes me sad that they're having a tough time right now, and have an uncertain future, and I'm not able to help them. I hope they reach out for some help. I'm not supposed to know that they are going through this difficult time so I don't want to break the confidence in which I was told...

He/she probably doesn't want to bother you with their troubles. You obviously can't mention what you know, but do try to spend more time with him/her and ask if he/she is OK etc. Be there for them, it sounds like they need friends now. Let them talk if they want to.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I feel that EC is my dirty little secret. Even though I know it's not dirty, just secret.

[Anonymous]

The person I love may be cheating on me.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I feel that EC is my dirty little secret. Even though I know it's not dirty, just secret.Oh it's totally dirty, depending on whose posts you read. :lol:

[Anonymous]

I feel guilty about getting a thread closed by a mod. I know that it was probably the best thing for the thread to be closed in the long run because it was getting so heated and nasty (I don't think it would be a good idea for it to be reopened) but in hindsight I don't think that I should have been the one to call for it should be closed. I don't have a great deal of experience in the discussion in question in this particular thread and I don't believe that I was in any position to pass any judgement on whether the thread was going in a good or bad direction.

I know that was long for a secret but I feel so much better for saying it.

[JSG]

Well, you just asked for the mods to close it, they make the final decision on wether to close it or not.

[Anonymous]

JANVIER!!!!!! I love your new avatar! Its so awesome. Like mine! We are banana buddies!

On EC I like, Dan, Martin, and Janvier. At school, i like Alex.
lol

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I feel that EC is my dirty little secret. Even though I know it's not dirty, just secret.

me too :)

[Paul_UK]

Well, you just asked for the mods to close it, they make the final decision on wether to close it or not.
Exactly. We look at the thread and the close request and decide whether to follow the request. If it's a personal support thread and the thread starter wants it closing then most likely it will be closed. If it's a more general discussion then we may feel it's better left open (perhaps with a couple of posts edited or deleted) instead.

Quite often with more troublesome threads, by the time members suggest it should be closed the mods would already be concerned about it and pleased to get rid of it too!

[Anonymous]

hmm... a secret... i considered suicide today. just like i do almost every day.

[Joey]

Not a secret or anything, just want to get this off my chest. My roommate and his girlfriend are dunces in the area of biology and, basically all the sciences (which happens to be my strongpoint) In a given night, if they ask me a bunch of questions because they are trying to do homework and don't understand it... I will purposely give them bad info because I'm tired of them bombarding me with question after question.

One time, even, they made me draw out equations and graphs for them because "You aren't doing anything else... so why won't you help us?"

....Assholes

[EthanS]

tell them to f*ck off! their just using u for work that they cba doin

p.s im a hypicrit:dry:

[Kat22]

hmm... a secret... i considered suicide today. just like i do almost every day.

Hello Anonymous,

Will you please pm me? I'd like to talk to you. I know what it's like to be where you are emotionally. Even if you just want to someone to rant to about everything that sucks right now, pm me. Please?

I heart you because I know how hard it is!(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

My life is falling to pieces. I don't know how or why or where I went wrong, but now everything is falling apart and I have no one left to talk to. :tears: Those I would talk to I can't :tears:

[Anonymous]

i hate you more than you know. i want to tell your mother you're gay, so she can send you off to some camp, or tell your straight homophone jerk of a crush that you like him, so he'll bash your face in. i want to ruin your life.

and why am i making such a big deal of this other guy? i've known him two days!


"Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me."
well, at least i know who to blame.

[biisme]

My life is falling to pieces. I don't know how or why or where I went wrong, but now everything is falling apart and I have no one left to talk to. :tears: Those I would talk to I can't :tears:

You can talk to me if you want. (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I'm ridiculously insecure about how I look and very very self conscious.... I don't like the way I look, nor the shape that I am (which I'm told I'm in excellent shape) Recently I found out that I quite possibly have medical condition called "gynecomastia" which has made me even more insecure with how I look. Because of this, I rarely have my shirt off for long because I feel that I would be the source of ridicule... and I hate how that makes me feel

[EthanS]

I'm ridiculously insecure about how I look and very very self conscious.... I don't like the way I look, nor the shape that I am (which I'm told I'm in excellent shape) Recently I found out that I quite possibly have medical condition called "gynecomastia" which has made me even more insecure with how I look. Because of this, I rarely have my shirt off for long because I feel that I would be the source of ridicule... and I hate how that makes me feel

Thata how i feel ..:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I drink whenever possible, ive tried to commit suicide several times and i think about doing it again everyday:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

My secret at this moment is...


...Life is good.


Although I don't know if the guy likes me, whether I like him, what will happen in the next minute, or in the next second, I think I'm finding myself faster and better than ever. I think I'm starting to be me, whoever that is, and I'm starting to enjoy it. I don't care whether things have been good or bad, I just focus on this very second in time, and the summation of all my feelings to this point have led nowhere and shown me nothing.


And the beautiful thing is that tomorrow I will probably feel so horrible and post here with a depressing post tomorrow. But right now, although I don't know why, I don't care.

[Vampyrecat]

I'm really sorry to hear that so many people here are feeling so sad and lonely, I'd do anything to help you people. Please, please please PM me or send me an email at

Tessatemptyclosetsdotcom.

I'm always going to give you my time and I'll listen as much as you like.

I love you all. You make me so proud, all the great things you all do. You have the courage to be yourselves, to stand up for what you believe in, to even just recognize the fact that it's okay to be different. It just amazes me to see people who are able to participate in The Day of Silence and who do so in spite of everything people say against it and who do things like pom pom dances and I just really admire you all.

Remember, you're all strong, smart, brave independent people who deserve everything good and great in life they can get.

Hope this helps some people.

[Anonymous]

My friends and I are planning a trip for August to the Dells...
We were discussing it tonight and looking at hotels, mainly looking for rooms