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[Asteroid]

I feel like a big piece of shit right now. I just want to get laid, even if I have to pay someone, because I feel so alone. I will never find anyone for me. this is so fucking stupid, life is so worthless
i hate myself.

Hi! Often it seems that life isn't going anywhere, but before you know it, it will change. Good things do happen. Sometimes it take a while to find someone with whom you would like to be together with. But don't give up hope. Don't get all down. You will find someone in time. In the meantime, when you feel alone, call a friend to hang out with. Do some activities together. This could help you in overcoming your feelings of being alone. Sometimes we find that someone special when we least expect it. So is "life worthless"? Absolutely not! Just give it some time...

If you need someone to talk to or just want to vent feel free to pm me at anytime. We are all here for you.

Hope this helps!

[Blue0090]

I'm a hopeless romantic...


Love / Romance > Sex / Lust

[Quitex]

I feel like a big piece of shit right now. I just want to get laid, even if I have to pay someone, because I feel so alone. I will never find anyone for me. this is so fucking stupid, life is so worthless
i hate myself.

That was me.
I've been staring at this screen trying to post something but all I can come up with are tears. I want to end this thing. I want to suffer no more. Just go away fast without looking back, gah leave this place, leave this town and this freaking lie I told everyone.

I don't know if I am even gay anymore, I just want to know who I really am.
but I can't.

[Quitex]

PS. an update, feeling better. Thanks you (you know who I am talking to) and hopefully I will be doing better. soon :)

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I feel worthless constantly
I wish I could be like other people who are normal
I constantly hope I don't wake up in the morning and have thought of suicide

[Anonymous]

I thinks ive fell for my best friends boyfriend...


I find him perfect and sweet and she treats him so bad...


haha :) ill live

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I daydream about getting kicked out of my house... only because I know the person I would call is the girl who I have a crush on because she is such a good person and a good friend.

The girl I have a huge crush on is getting married in August.

[interstella]

I just drank a HUGE bottle of water and now I feel really sick.

[LOVEjames]

Wimp. xD I drink about 3 litres of water a day.

[Anonymous]

I know this is kinda gross. In elementry my cousin and i usta get naked and play with each other. Put our penis' in each others mouth and stuff. lol i started early

[seanathon]

I feel like giggling right now really badly.

This happens a lot.

I just want to giggle. ;_;

[Anonymous]

I feel like giggling right now really badly.

This happens a lot.

I just want to giggle. ;_;

At least you don't want to cry. That's good!!! :)

[Anonymous]

It hurts me, because I really like this guy a lot. But he likes someone else I dont like. He knows I like him, but he could careless. Uh, I wish they feelings never started.

[Anonymous]

I know this is kinda gross. In elementry my cousin and i usta get naked and play with each other. Put our penis' in each others mouth and stuff. lol i started early

I actually don't find that gross at all.

[Anonymous]

I'm hopelessly in love with my girlfriend
i wish i could tell my mum about her
i'm currently skiving my councelling appointment
i hate my councellor
and, right now, i have a really bad obsession with Amanda Donohoe lol

[Miaplacidus]

I realized that I'm intensely turned on by a guy who could be my father.

[Anonymous]

For a forty-five year old straight male, my counselor was the first person in my life to get what it is to be a twenty-something lesbian. I'll never forget that.

[Anonymous]

"You'll never fit in with those church people," they said. I beg to differ. My Christian school saved my life.

[Anonymous]

I've got massive control issues in my current relationship.

[Anonymous]

I want to be chubby and proud. but I'm not chubby. And I'm not proud.

[Joey]

I want to be chubby and proud. but I'm not chubby. And I'm not proud.

You can have my chubbiness! I'm done with it lol.

On my own note, why am I attracted to some 40 year old fella at church? He's got a daughter who looks a couple years younger then me... lol. That would be silly!

[Trumpetplyer23]

When I graduate from high school, I just want to move away from both of my parents, but my mom wants us to get an apartment together when I go to college...if she still cares about me, that is :(

[LOVEjames]

Just because I have a crush on you doesn't mean that you're the only one out there for me. I have to keep reminding myself of that so I don't get depressed every time I see you.

[firecausesburns]

I don't really have any close friends. I usually tell myself that it doesn't matter and that I'm just a loner, but sometimes it really hurts. I wish I had a best friend, just one person I'm actually important to.

[Anonymous]

Someone I love is getting health test results back today, and I'm terrified that they are going to get bad news... I hope I have the strength to 'be there' for them.

[ltb2511]

I tell myself being a loner is cool and the right choice for me, but when I go out and see people hanging out with their friends, it reminds of my old life and how much i miss it. If i could go back to November the 11th 2006 I would never have done what I did.

[Kenko]

I tell myself being a loner is cool and the right choice for me, but when I go out and see people hanging out with their friends, it reminds of my old life and how much i miss it. If i could go back to November the 11th 2006 I would never have done what I did.

:( What happened that day?

[jazzrawr]

I don't really have any close friends. I usually tell myself that it doesn't matter and that I'm just a loner, but sometimes it really hurts. I wish I had a best friend, just one person I'm actually important to.

I ♥ You Maddy!
Just sayin. :)




And...I think I'm getting over you, Amy.
Thank god. It's taken me long enough.

[Anonymous]

I haven't cut myself for three years now, but I never got rid of the blade I used. I still have it hidden and I still know exactly where it is. I haven't used it, but I've been so tempted.
You know what didn't help? Back when I did cut and my 'best friend' at the time found out (on purpose), she basically told me that I had no right to cut myself because her problems were worse than mine. I needed help, I was asking her to help me. She did the exact opposite.

[Anonymous]

just Because I Have A Crush On You Doesn't Mean That You're The Only One Out There For Me. I Have To Keep Reminding Myself Of That So I Don't Get Depressed Every Time I See You.

Qft!!!

[Anonymous]

I have trichotillomania. it makes me feel terrible when people make jokes about pulling hair out.
"She'll go out of control and pull her hair out"
"He is probably going off and secretly ripping chumks out of his hair."
Its a real disorder, and anyone can get it. It doesn't make me crazy.

[Anonymous]

I don't understand why it is that the more I have to do in real life, the more time I spend on EC....

[Pinstripe]

Ok, a couple of days ago I went to a friend's house (we'll call her A) because she wanted to make a short mockumentary about pandas being forced to watch porn (don't ask :P)
Anyway, at this gathering, there ended up being 5 people and myself, 4 girls and another guy (we'll call him G (for guy)) (always the plan).

So here we were in a park and he started acting kind of gayly, saying stuff that would be classified as sexual innuendo or double entendres to me (where others could hear). Me being the person-who-likes-a-laugh played along with this.

That night, A asked another friend (B) if the other guy and myself were gay (not necessarily together). B told A that we were both straight and then she told me what A had asked (no problem for either of us) and then I asked B if G was actually straight or not as I was confused too.

Fast forward to tonight when G added me on MSN and after talking to me for about 5 minutes asked me out :\

He says that he is serious and I'm rather scared (physically shaking).

Not really needing advice, just talking about stuff. :)

Congratulations for reading this far

[Pinstripe]

As it turns out, B told G to do that because I wasn't sure of his sexuality.

But the real criminal has been revealed :P

[Paralyzer]

As it turns out, B told G to do that because I wasn't sure of his sexuality.

But the real criminal has been revealed :P

So what did you say to G when he asked you out? Did you come out to him?
Is he even gay?

Just questions regarding an epic series of posts.. I'm curious :]

[Pinstripe]

I said "sorry, but I don't like guys". No he's not gay, I'm not either (although I do find that the occasional guy is hot, but not him)

He wasn't hot and he likes sport :P

[Paralyzer]

OH!
Haha, I'm embarassed, I just assumed you were gay :P
Sorry about that :]

Just wondering cause like, it might've been a trap! And I guess it was, I just don't want that to happen to me.

[LOVEjames]

Straight people are confusing. o.O Being gay... you just pull your pants down and say "STICK IT IN." Srsly. Heteros are a confusing species.

[Anonymous]

straight People Are Confusing. O.o Being Gay... You Just Pull Your Pants Down And Say "stick It In." Srsly. Heteros Are A Confusing Species.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahahahhhhahhaahahahahah@!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Beebo]

^ Damn You Red Check Box!

[Anonymous]

The guy I secretly admire just posted above me!!! He's secksie! :icon_redf

[Anonymous]

I feel a tinge of melancholy when I acknowledge that I am given the abilities to accomplish everything sans the one thing I want to accomplish.

I feel even more dejected when I know that I should never lament because I've been given so much to be grateful for.

It's sad when you need help but can't ask for it. But I guess this is a common predicament that everybody goes through in his or her life.

I guess patience is all I need.

[Anonymous]

When I graduate from high school, I just want to move away from both of my parents, but my mom wants us to get an apartment together when I go to college...if she still cares about me, that is :(

I feel the same way. My parents are driving me crazy!

[iNinjaTeddyBear]

^ I posted that

[Anonymous]

There are so many hot guys on EC that I can't really say which one I like the most.

*nods in agreement*

ME TOO! thank you all of em are so sexy

[Anonymous]

I cried looking at this forum! its so depressing and its such a release!
Sometimes i worry that ill be a child molester a cereal killer kill myself eventhough i have no real thoughts like this but im worried tht ill still like guys my age when im too old to like them. Im 13-15 dont wanna reveal my age oh btw im the same poster as above^:tears:

[Anonymous]

im worried tht ill still like guys my age when im too old to like them. Im 13-15 dont wanna reveal my age oh btw im the same poster as above^:tears:

Same here. :|

[joeyconnick]

im worried tht ill still like guys my age when im too old to like them. Im 13-15 dont wanna reveal my age oh btw im the same poster as above^:tears:

Same here. :|I don't think you guys have to worry at all... being gay isn't the same thing as "liking young boys." That's a stereotype about gay people--that they're all pedophiles. The fact that you guys are dealing with your sexuality now (as opposed to being in denial for 20-odd years) means you're WAAAAAAAY less likely to develop sexuality-based issues later in life. (Of course, pedophilia is much more about power than it is about sex, as is rape.)

But yeah... I'm sure there are much more likely things for you guys to worry about... somehow magically never becoming interested in guys your own age is not likely one of them. People's tastes (in everything) do change as we age. And while it may be that you always find some younger guys hot, there's a lot of difference between finding youth attractive (which is very much pushed in our society, and so not totally unacceptable) and being fixated on youth (which is more what you're describing).

For instance, I'm pretty sure a lot of older straight guys found Britney Spears very attractive when she debuted... and that a lot of them were way too old to be involved with her. But I'm also equally sure most of those guys didn't worry that they were pedophiles, because there's a difference between attraction and obsession, and just because they might have found her appealing, it didn't mean they were going to leave their more age-appropriate girlfriends and wives and try to start dating high school girls.

And anyway, you guys are worrying about something quite a ways off into the future--if you're in your teens, you have a good 10 to 20 years before any possible, unlikely fixation on younger guys becomes an issue. So let go of the stereotype and focus on stuff that's happening now.

[interstella]

I wish one of my friends would go on here and come out, especially S.

[Anonymous]

Im really lonely...



I feel everybody has someone except me.

[EthanS]

Well your wrong! i dont either :icon_biggnot that Its something to be happy bout though >.>

[jazzrawr]

Kay, so...

My secret is...


Mmmike...

Is my BETCH. <3 :D

[Mmmike]

Jazzrawr is my BETCH! <`3

[Anonymous]

I am gay.

Those words are still very hard to say aloud >.<

[Beebo]

I am gay.

Those words are still very hard to say aloud >.<

I once took my friend to the top of a huge hill because she was stressing out, and her family was falling apart. And I told her to scream.

It was dark out, and no one knew it was us.

And right there, in front of her, I yelled out at the top of my lungs: I'm GAYYY!!!!

It felt so good.

[Miaplacidus]

This might be shocking to some of you but...

...I don't really read Full Spectrum until after release. While editing I don't really pay attention to the content, it's more about spelling and grammar, and I only need a general idea of the topic and point of view to get a suitable picture. And by the time of release I'm so f**king tired of the magazine that I don't want to even look at it, lol.

A couple of days after release, I sit down and begin actually reading it for pleasure. I started reading Full Spectrum 3 three days after release.

[Anonymous]

I get really annoyed with people younger then me. They all just seem like whiney attention whores.

[Beebo]

This might be shocking to some of you but...

...I don't really read Full Spectrum until after release. While editing I don't really pay attention to the content, it's more about spelling and grammar, and I only need a general idea of the topic and point of view to get a suitable picture. And by the time of release I'm so f**king tired of the magazine that I don't want to even look at it, lol.

A couple of days after release, I sit down and begin actually reading it for pleasure. I started reading Full Spectrum 3 three days after release.

awww thats so funny and honest. :lol::thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

I want to be liked enough for someone to want me to be their fag-hag.

[pirateninja]

I want to be liked enough for someone to want me to be their fag-hag.

I know I'm not male, but do you want to be mine? :D

[Anonymous]

Why is it that every thread I post in dies? And that no one responds to my threads?

[Ty]

I really dont give a fuck that im gay now:p infact I rather enjoy it.

I aint gonna wear the clothes that you like
Im finally dandy with the me inside
one look in the mirror and im tickled pink
I dont give a hoot about what you think


I want to go to university quicker, more oppertunitys and I can just be more open

I actually wanna go guy shopping with Holly (pirateninja) :p

Im guilting of checking out most guys I see whilst walking to work, or just generally.

I dont expect to be in a relationship untill im like 18

I have no regrets :)

I put my email down for the communist party of the UK the other day when i saw a stand promoting them >..<

Im about THIS close to quitting my weekend job

I have no time for anything anymore

Im going to end up getting a few A's and alot of B's for GCSE, despite people telling me im going to get A*'s.

Working with people who work 9-5 scared me. I Will Not End Up Like That.

I once chose to spend my lunchtime with my German teacher

Connor is a total hottie

Things that make me laugh also make me weird

Chris Crocker makes me giggle (not laugh, giggle!!!)

This is proberly the most that ive written on EC in ageeees and I cant stop

Im out to 4 people, and it shouldnt change anytime soon.

Stuart keeps trying to put me off gay sex >..>

I get very frustrated in arguments.

/b/ has bored me recently. Maybe its because ive seen EVERYTHING before.

Joe, stop being creepy, srsly (not on EC)

I almost killed someone when my ipod ran out of battery today

Phil (inarut) is my secrect lover.

I have an xbox but play it about once every two months, or whenever phil (inarut) is like "LETS PLY TEH ORANGE BOX"

My school accused me of breaking a computer screen without any evidence and made me believe that I did it. I cried. But then an hour later I found out that they said I broke it on thursday (the only time i was in the class with that computer) when it was already broken on a Wednesday.

Youve all proberly learned a bit about me from here, which i think is cooooooool

I like being asked questions :)






Ok thats enough. Enjoy :)

[Anonymous]

I actually wanna go guy shopping with Holly (pirateninja) :p

Well, if there is ever any chance of me going up to Oxford, I'll be sure to send you a PM saying "OMFGZZZZ GUY SHOPPINGGGGGGG!!!!!"

[pirateninja]

I actually wanna go guy shopping with Holly (pirateninja) :p

Well, if there is ever any chance of me going up to Oxford, I'll be sure to send you a PM saying "OMFGZZZZ GUY SHOPPINGGGGGGG!!!!!"

[Anonymous]

I wish my dad would drop dead.

[Anonymous]

To the person that called me a "genius"...
To the people who called me "inspirational"...
To the people who said they appreciated my time...

...thanks.

[Anonymous]

I feel sad I've never dated, had sex or even kissed a member of either sex...o and am drifting away from most of my friends in the real world.

[Anonymous]

I feel sad I've never dated, had sex or even kissed a member of either sex...o and am drifting away from most of my friends in the real world.

I feel the exact way, except the sex part not ready for that yet.

[Blue0090]

Pikaboo I'm not anonymous!

I'm turning 16 next year and I'm still learning how to ride a bike :D

Lmfao

[Anonymous]

Pikaboo I'm not anonymous!

I'm turning 16 next year and I'm still learning how to ride a bike :D

Lmfao

omgosh, that's adorable. I'll totally teach you, even though I am so clumsy.

hahah.

Cutest ever.

[Beebo]

Ugh.! That red box gets me every time ^ thats me.

[Paralyzer]

omg, I can ride my bike with no handlebars...
I was inspired after listening to "Handlebars" by the Flobots and like... I'm amazing :D

But I kinda felt sad when this 8 year old girl that lives near me could stand on her bike seat... so w/e, blame it on my homosexuality that I'm not a prodigy at EXTREME SPORTS

[tylerksub]

omg, I can ride my bike with no handlebars...
I was inspired after listening to "Handlebars" by the Flobots and like... I'm amazing :D

But I kinda felt sad when this 8 year old girl that lives near me could stand on her bike seat... so w/e, blame it on my homosexuality that I'm not a prodigy at EXTREME SPORTS

I heard that song a month ago and tried it on a bike that was against my neighbors house "first ride in 6 or more years" went good for 2 secs then straight into parents truck.
I have never bought something from a mall~
i own a 50 pound cat that i'm truly afraid of~
I forgot to exercise today so i'm gunna go running for about an hour byez:dry:

[Blue0090]

Ugh.! That red box gets me every time ^ thats me.

Please doooo! My friend tried to teach me... and I was able to bike for 4 seconds! Lmao. I'l try again next time :P

[Anonymous]

I stole $5.50 USD from my parents today, to pay for a ticket to see The Dark Knight, so that the money I already have could go towards paying for the dinner of a guy I fancy when our posse went out to Baker's Square.

[Nicvcer]

I stole $5.50 USD from my parents today, to pay for a ticket to see The Dark Knight, so that the money I already have could go towards paying for the dinner of a guy I fancy when our posse went out to Baker's Square.

There's a good chance they won't notice, but it's best not to make a habit out of that. It's really not that much money, but stealing is stealing. You should ask next time, they probably wouldn't have minded dishing out five bucks for the most insanely awesome movie ever.

P.S. Is it insanely awesome?!? I want to see it sooo bad.

[Anonymous]

Ugh.! That red box gets me every time ^ thats me.

Please doooo! My friend tried to teach me... and I was able to bike for 4 seconds! Lmao. I'l try again next time :P

Riding a bike is AWESOME... I did it for like... my entire youth. Good luck learning!!!

[Anonymous]

I am such a f**king hypocrite.

I say that I believe in equal rights. And yet at home we have a maid, her husband and daughter and no way in hell do we treat them like our equals. They have a small room that's detached from the house to sleep in, and they don't get our kind of priveleges like going out to fancy restaurants, or going out somewhere other than the supermarket, nope - they stay at home and clean and cook and be our driver.

[Nicvcer]

I am such a f**king hypocrite.

I say that I believe in equal rights. And yet at home we have a maid, her husband and daughter and no way in hell do we treat them like our equals. They have a small room that's detached from the house to sleep in, and they don't get our kind of priveleges like going out to fancy restaurants, or going out somewhere other than the supermarket, nope - they stay at home and clean and cook and be our driver.

They have privileges like going out to fancy restaurants. They just don't have the money, like you do, or they are planning something else with the money the earn from you, rather than wasting it at a fancy restaurant. They can also go where-ever the fuck they want, but they choose not to because they probably have a family in another country they want to support, or perhaps they are trying to save money to buy a house of their own, and serving you might be their only way of getting that money.

Or perhaps they have grown attached to your family and enjoy serving you. I'm sure if Albert were rich (which he totally is) he would most definitely still serve Master Bruce [Batman] instead of just living in his own house, by himself, and watching TV for the rest of his life.

Your servants do have the same rights as you, at least in the united states they would, or most civilized nations. Perhaps you should talk to them, and see what's up, instead of wondering?

[Anonymous]

I am such a f**king hypocrite.

I say that I believe in equal rights. And yet at home we have a maid, her husband and daughter and no way in hell do we treat them like our equals. They have a small room that's detached from the house to sleep in, and they don't get our kind of priveleges like going out to fancy restaurants, or going out somewhere other than the supermarket, nope - they stay at home and clean and cook and be our driver.

They have privileges like going out to fancy restaurants. They just don't have the money, like you do, or they are planning something else with the money the earn from you, rather than wasting it at a fancy restaurant. They can also go where-ever the fuck they want, but they choose not to because they probably have a family in another country they want to support, or perhaps they are trying to save money to buy a house of their own, and serving you might be their only way of getting that money.

Or perhaps they have grown attached to your family and enjoy serving you. I'm sure if Albert were rich (which he totally is) he would most definitely still serve Master Bruce [Batman] instead of just living in his own house, by himself, and watching TV for the rest of his life.

Your servants do have the same rights as you, at least in the united states they would, or most civilized nations. Perhaps you should talk to them, and see what's up, instead of wondering?

Good answer :D.

Whats the name of the butler on Fresh Prince of Bellar? He always cracked me up, he tormented everyone, but he loved it (I could see it in his eye). :D

What a great show.

[Anonymous]

He's only been a member for like 2 weeks now but i am infactuated by TheSuburbianSTL

[Anonymous]

I'm a girl, and not especially feminine (I couldn't care less about clothes, make-up or anything like that) but I'm not a tomboy at all either. I don't fit either stereotype (lesbian or butch) and it feels like girls are never going to find me attractive because I'm not girly enough for those who like feminine girls, nor am I masculine enough for those who like the more butch girls.

[Anonymous]

I have a crush on JAZZ!!!!

[Anonymous]

I swear to gosh if I hear ONE MORE PERSON equate "sex with multiple partners" with "bad/evil/immoral/degraded/immature/wrong/nasty" I am going to SCREAM

:bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang: :bang:

[Anonymous]

I am seriously vexed by the fact that gay kids I talk to online have already done the deed at 14 and here I am, 16 and strong, not having so much as touched a guy in a serious manner. Held his hand.

I'm just jealous, though. :p

[Anonymous]

Hmm this is weird since I never usually have a problem, but I just need to vent. I can't take the gayness in me anymore. It drives me crazy. Well more than that, it makes me feel disgusting. It sucks being a freak and having a problem you can't fix. But oh well. Just sayin.

[Anonymous]

That doesn't make you a freak...

[Anonymous]

He's only been a member for like 2 weeks now but i am infactuated by TheSuburbianSTL

A few -days-, hun ^.^

[Anonymous]

Just tell him, hehe.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I wish I was a male prostitute...

[Anonymous]

i am afraid my "friends" will hate me if i stop wearing lacoste and a&f.. or worse.. i told them i was gay

[Anonymous]

You can stop wearing that shit, just phase it out slowly. I'd like to say I don't discriminate, but I don't talk to anyone who is wearing A&F or Hollister... it just seems like they are so brainwashed to me, a hollow-headed follower...
I do have one friend that wears that crap, and I scoff when I see pictures on his myspace, where everyone looks the same, and is wearing the same brand of clothes... disgusting.

[Myzou]

I am such a f**king hypocrite.

I say that I believe in equal rights. And yet at home we have a maid, her husband and daughter and no way in hell do we treat them like our equals. They have a small room that's detached from the house to sleep in, and they don't get our kind of priveleges like going out to fancy restaurants, or going out somewhere other than the supermarket, nope - they stay at home and clean and cook and be our driver.

They have privileges like going out to fancy restaurants. They just don't have the money, like you do, or they are planning something else with the money the earn from you, rather than wasting it at a fancy restaurant. They can also go where-ever the fuck they want, but they choose not to because they probably have a family in another country they want to support, or perhaps they are trying to save money to buy a house of their own, and serving you might be their only way of getting that money.

Or perhaps they have grown attached to your family and enjoy serving you. I'm sure if Albert were rich (which he totally is) he would most definitely still serve Master Bruce [Batman] instead of just living in his own house, by himself, and watching TV for the rest of his life.

Your servants do have the same rights as you, at least in the united states they would, or most civilized nations. Perhaps you should talk to them, and see what's up, instead of wondering?

Good answer :D.

Whats the name of the butler on Fresh Prince of Bellar? He always cracked me up, he tormented everyone, but he loved it (I could see it in his eye). :D

What a great show.

Jeffrey I think. Yea, he loved them even though they didn't treat him the best at times, I loved the episode where they took him for granted and he got really mad and quit, then they realized what happened and tried to get him back.

The episode with the family portrait made me sad, :(

[iNinjaTeddyBear]

You can stop wearing that shit, just phase it out slowly. I'd like to say I don't discriminate, but I don't talk to anyone who is wearing A&F or Hollister... it just seems like they are so brainwashed to me, a hollow-headed follower...
I do have one friend that wears that crap, and I scoff when I see pictures on his myspace, where everyone looks the same, and is wearing the same brand of clothes... disgusting.

Yea i agree that alot of people where them and they look the same. But i don't judge or discriminate them, if you like to wear them then knock yourself out.

[Anonymous]

i am afraid my "friends" will hate me if i stop wearing lacoste and a&f.. or worse.. i told them i was gay

Wear what you like to wear. If they cared so much about how you dress then they aren't very good friends.

[Psychedelic Bookmarks]

I'm a girl, and not especially feminine (I couldn't care less about clothes, make-up or anything like that) but I'm not a tomboy at all either. I don't fit either stereotype (lesbian or butch) and it feels like girls are never going to find me attractive because I'm not girly enough for those who like feminine girls, nor am I masculine enough for those who like the more butch girls.

Please don't let this make you feel bad about yourself. Plenty of girls are neither butch nor femme and plenty of girls like that. An androgynous style, one with both/neither genders, can be very attractive and there are plenty of happy women like that. I for one do not like anybody who's totally one way or the other, I like a little variety. Most lesbians like to date women with various different styles and few women are rigid about the type they will date - in fact, as a middle-of-the-roader, you're more likely to be most people's type. I am 100% sure that your not being super butch or femme is not going to prevent you from finding someone really special or from attracting girls. Be proud of yourself! Come on, can some other lesbos back me up on this? I don't want this anonymous girlie to feel bad!

[Trumpetplyer23]

I'm a girl, and not especially feminine (I couldn't care less about clothes, make-up or anything like that) but I'm not a tomboy at all either. I don't fit either stereotype (lesbian or butch) and it feels like girls are never going to find me attractive because I'm not girly enough for those who like feminine girls, nor am I masculine enough for those who like the more butch girls.

Please don't let this make you feel bad about yourself. Plenty of girls are neither butch nor femme and plenty of girls like that. An androgynous style, one with both/neither genders, can be very attractive and there are plenty of happy women like that. I for one do not like anybody who's totally one way or the other, I like a little variety. Most lesbians like to date women with various different styles and few women are rigid about the type they will date - in fact, as a middle-of-the-roader, you're more likely to be most people's type. I am 100% sure that your not being super butch or femme is not going to prevent you from finding someone really special or from attracting girls. Be proud of yourself! Come on, can some other lesbos back me up on this? I don't want this anonymous girlie to feel bad!


I may not be a lesbo, but I do like girls, ha ha. Anyways, Arn is right. There are plenty of women out there who are attracted to 'middle of the roaders'. Wanting someone super femme or super butch is just, well, stupid because not many people out there are 100% butch or femme. If a girl wants you to change who you are for them, then they're not worthy of dating you. She should want to date you because of who you are, not the clothes you wear.

Personally, I find both masculine and feminine girls attractive. Not 100% butch or femme. Most of the girls I like don't dress very feminine, but at heart they are quite femme, they like to be girly but don't like to wear girly clothes. And these are (mostly) straight girls I'm talking about, even they don't want to be 100% femme.

Just be yourself and you'll find someone who loves you for the real you. Not a smiling facade of butchiness or feminity.

[Jebs]

You can stop wearing that shit, just phase it out slowly. I'd like to say I don't discriminate, but I don't talk to anyone who is wearing A&F or Hollister... it just seems like they are so brainwashed to me, a hollow-headed follower...
I do have one friend that wears that crap, and I scoff when I see pictures on his myspace, where everyone looks the same, and is wearing the same brand of clothes... disgusting.



Eh... Some people look hot when they wear that stuff. Some people don't. I like the preppy look and try to dress like that, not because I'm a 'conformist' (what ever the hell that means anyways) but because it is comfortable as hell. A nice collar button down AE shirt with my Nautica khaki shorts, my puka shell necklace, and to finish it off with my AE flip-flops. I think it looks nice. Don't think I look brain-washed. :eusa_naug

[Trumpetplyer23]

You can stop wearing that shit, just phase it out slowly. I'd like to say I don't discriminate, but I don't talk to anyone who is wearing A&F or Hollister... it just seems like they are so brainwashed to me, a hollow-headed follower...
I do have one friend that wears that crap, and I scoff when I see pictures on his myspace, where everyone looks the same, and is wearing the same brand of clothes... disgusting.



Eh... Some people look hot when they wear that stuff. Some people don't. I like the preppy look and try to dress like that, not because I'm a 'conformist' (what ever the hell that means anyways) but because it is comfortable as hell. A nice collar button down AE shirt with my Nautica khaki shorts, my puka shell necklace, and to finish it off with my AE flip-flops. I think it looks nice. Don't think I look brain-washed. :eusa_naug

I used to feel the same way as anon, about it being about brainwashing. Honestly I find stuff from American Eagle and Aeropostale (I'm waayyy too poor to shop and Abercrombie and Fitch) to be very comfortable and it fits me well. I used to wear clothes that made me look all weird...I guess you'd say.

The style is great too, and comfortable. I wear polos from Aeropostale and I've got a couple of shirts from American Eagle. Yet, I still wear some pretty *interesting* clothing, at least where I live. I showed up to school one day in a full suit, complete with tie, blazer, and suspenders.

[Anonymous]

I'm a girl, and not especially feminine (I couldn't care less about clothes, make-up or anything like that) but I'm not a tomboy at all either. I don't fit either stereotype (lesbian or butch) and it feels like girls are never going to find me attractive because I'm not girly enough for those who like feminine girls, nor am I masculine enough for those who like the more butch girls.

Please don't let this make you feel bad about yourself. Plenty of girls are neither butch nor femme and plenty of girls like that. An androgynous style, one with both/neither genders, can be very attractive and there are plenty of happy women like that. I for one do not like anybody who's totally one way or the other, I like a little variety. Most lesbians like to date women with various different styles and few women are rigid about the type they will date - in fact, as a middle-of-the-roader, you're more likely to be most people's type. I am 100% sure that your not being super butch or femme is not going to prevent you from finding someone really special or from attracting girls. Be proud of yourself! Come on, can some other lesbos back me up on this? I don't want this anonymous girlie to feel bad!


Hey, of course you'll find girls who find you attractive! I'm the same as you, I'm not really girly or really butch. And i like girls like that. ^.^ I like all kinds of girls, and I think that only liking a specific kind of girl is no fun at all. Open yourself up and get some variety, people!!

But alot of girls like girls who are in the middle. Probably the same amount as like only femme or only butch. :)
So relax sweetie ^.^ Cause I'm in the same style as you! :D
You'll find plenty of lesbians who like you ^.^

[jazzrawr]

^ That was me. Dreaded red box. XD

[Anonymous]

I feel like EC is my life now. I feel like I'm boring my friends with girl problems... I feel like I'm losing them. I really don't want that to happen.

[Anonymous]

HLN_D

aka

Helen

is very very very pretty. Very. Pretty.

[jazzrawr]

HLN_D

aka

Helen

is very very very pretty. Very. Pretty.


I agree ^.^ :D

[Anonymous]

i'm pretty depressed right now. i just wish i had someone to talk to. i feel so alone.:help:

[Anonymous]

HLN_D

aka

Helen

is very very very pretty. Very. Pretty.

Whoever you are, thank you very much for being lovely enough to say something so nice :kiss:

I treasure compliments a lot, don't really get 'em that often ^_^

[Hln D]

RAWR that red box.

The above was me :p

[joeyconnick]

RAWR that red box.

The above was me :pThe procedure is, last time I checked, to just repost the message with the exact same text with the "post anonymously" box UNticked, and then report the post you made anonymously in error so it could then be deleted by a mod, which makes for way "cleaner" threads. Everyone will get that the original anonymous reply was "you."

[Anonymous]

I like sex a LOT.

So much so, that I got a call from my crush a few days ago.

He says he might have gonnorhea (sp?).

Which means that I might have it.



I can't tell my parents. :(

[Anonymous]

JazzRawr is BEAUTIFUL.

It needed to be said.

[Lexington]

Let's keep the "I don't like (EC member)" to a minimum, OK, folks?

Lex

[pirateninja]

Let's keep the "I don't like (EC member)" to a minimum, OK, folks?

Lex

OMGZZZZZ LEX IS SOOOOO RUDE.




I thought it would add irony. :D Love ya really.

[panda]

Pirateninja really burns my caboose :roflmao::roflmao:

[Blue0090]

I told my best friend I'm not in love with him anymore... but the truth is I love him even more now.

[Lexington]

>>>OMGZZZZZ LEX IS SOOOOO RUDE.

>>>I thought it would add irony. Love ya really.

That's OK. I forgive you. You were probably drunk when you posted it, anyway. ;)

Lex

[pirateninja]

Pirateninja really burns my caboose :roflmao::roflmao:

I have absolutely no idea what that means :eek:

[Vampyrecat]

No! Holly is mine! Both of them are!
*huggles*

[Beebo]

Pirateninja really burns my caboose :roflmao::roflmao:

I have absolutely no idea what that means :eek:

AWWWWWWWW. Panda = my hero!!! I think I'll come downtown and visit you sometime.

[TheSuburbian]

I told my best friend I'm not in love with him anymore... but the truth is I love him even more now.

Aww, that's awful. (*hug*)

[Blue0090]

I told my best friend I'm not in love with him anymore... but the truth is I love him even more now.

Aww, that's awful. (*hug*)

Yea, then after that he changed his myspace mood to "depressed" and posted a blog called "For..." and all it was was the lyrics to the song "Fall for You" by Secondhand Serenade (if you dunno the song listen to it)... so that makes me thing he actually cares >_<. But oh well, maybe it wasn't for me. Doesn't really matter anymore.

[firecausesburns]

Please don't let this make you feel bad about yourself. Plenty of girls are neither butch nor femme and plenty of girls like that. An androgynous style, one with both/neither genders, can be very attractive and there are plenty of happy women like that. I for one do not like anybody who's totally one way or the other, I like a little variety. Most lesbians like to date women with various different styles and few women are rigid about the type they will date - in fact, as a middle-of-the-roader, you're more likely to be most people's type. I am 100% sure that your not being super butch or femme is not going to prevent you from finding someone really special or from attracting girls. Be proud of yourself! Come on, can some other lesbos back me up on this? I don't want this anonymous girlie to feel bad!



I may not be a lesbo, but I do like girls, ha ha. Anyways, Arn is right. There are plenty of women out there who are attracted to 'middle of the roaders'. Wanting someone super femme or super butch is just, well, stupid because not many people out there are 100% butch or femme. If a girl wants you to change who you are for them, then they're not worthy of dating you. She should want to date you because of who you are, not the clothes you wear.

Personally, I find both masculine and feminine girls attractive. Not 100% butch or femme. Most of the girls I like don't dress very feminine, but at heart they are quite femme, they like to be girly but don't like to wear girly clothes. And these are (mostly) straight girls I'm talking about, even they don't want to be 100% femme.

Just be yourself and you'll find someone who loves you for the real you. Not a smiling facade of butchiness or feminity.



Hey, of course you'll find girls who find you attractive! I'm the same as you, I'm not really girly or really butch. And i like girls like that. ^.^ I like all kinds of girls, and I think that only liking a specific kind of girl is no fun at all. Open yourself up and get some variety, people!!

But alot of girls like girls who are in the middle. Probably the same amount as like only femme or only butch. :)
So relax sweetie ^.^ Cause I'm in the same style as you! :D
You'll find plenty of lesbians who like you ^.^

Aww, thanks, guys. That's really good to hear, helped me feel a little better :D
(And yeah, it was me who made that initial post.)

[Jebs]

Ouch. I'm just hurt right now. I just talked to a friend about being gay and she said she couldn't accept it at all. She doesn't "agree with the culture" and thinks it is just wrong. This meant a lot to me and it just hurt. I know I don't have to look to people for acceptance.. but this person really meant a lot to me. Kind of lost rambling right now, sad feelings, and more beers to drink. That is about it. :tears:

[Lexington]

We have a culture?

Lex

[Anonymous]

Pirateninja really burns my caboose :roflmao::roflmao:

I have absolutely no idea what that means :eek:

PN, Sorry to have confusseled you.The caboose is the last car on the train, ie;"The Behind car".

In the moments of frivolity on those posts,I thought it was funny to say in code that ,PN bugs me ,which is not true because I think that she is a wonderful human being and an example to the rest of human kind that we should all aspire to be only even a tiny bit as good and funny and smart as she is .:thumbsup:

[panda]

ME^^^^^^^:eusa_doh:

[Paul_UK]

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard.

The anonymous posting system is perfect for an idea similar to this, so let's have a go at it! The idea is simple: post a secret about yourself! Now keep in mind, "my house has 2 bathrooms" is not a secret. "I used to wash myself using toilet water" is.

Now, to protect your own anonymity, please don't post about serious illegal activity, like "I am a heroin dealer." Remember that EC admin/mods can view the source of the post if need be, so if it's something very illegal or dangerous, they might be compelled to. Something like, "I smoke pot" or "I routinely steal groceries" should be okay.

Also, let's keep this PG rated, okay? Keep graphic details down to a minimum, and try to keep the subject matter clean. If your secret isn't clean, as I'm sure many won't be, describe it like you're reading it from a dictionary. "I had sex with 12 people at once" is a good way to describe an otherwise dirty topic.

And as always, respect EC's rules, and do keep in mind the rules of anonymous posting! (http://www.emptyclosets.com/forum/showpost.php?p=92706&postcount=1)

When in doubt, check Post Secret out! (http://postsecret.blogspot.com/) That's what this is based on, so if you're not clear on anything or need ideas, that's where to go!

And finally, please don't just make secrets up. We're not trying to show off, here. We have a medium to share our darkest, most personal, most embarrassing secrets, so inventing things like "I was abducted by aliens, escaped from their captivity, took over their ship and blew up their homeworld with its LASER GUNS" is NOT acceptable. Please stay true to yourself. These are your secrets, and so they're interesting enough on their own.

And DO NOT FORGET to click on the box that says "make post anonymously!!!!!!" The LAST thing you want is for your embarrassing secret to be tied to your username!!

I am quoting this first post from this thread to remind everyone what this thread is about.

It is not a general chat thread. It is definitely not for posting negative comments about other members.

Let's get back to the original purpose, please. :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

i feel guilted that if i killed myself everyone who cares about me would be sad. what ever happened to "they're in a better place now" or "they're much happier now" ???

[panda]

Usually that type of sentiment is reserved for someone who is very old or has gone through some long ,painful terminal illness.
For younger people we feel that the pain is temporary and can be overcome by a change in thinking.This can be achieved through talking things out with a friend, through counseling,or just the passage of time.
It's the thinking that you want to get rid of, not the whole being.
Hang in there. Things will get better.

[Paralyzer]

Ouch. I'm just hurt right now. I just talked to a friend about being gay and she said she couldn't accept it at all. She doesn't "agree with the culture" and thinks it is just wrong. This meant a lot to me and it just hurt. I know I don't have to look to people for acceptance.. but this person really meant a lot to me. Kind of lost rambling right now, sad feelings, and more beers to drink. That is about it. :tears:

I know how you feel... like, if there could have been one friend to accept me it would have been this one guy.. but he wouldn't for nothing. Call him stubburn or call me pushy but it ended our 7 year friendship :[

(*hug*) We need hugs (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I met a girl yesterday who was so cute!! And she thought I looked much older than I am, and we had a great conversation. But, she's straight T-T I really really liked her!

By contrast, I did not like that skanky man who kept trying to come on to me, and clearly also thought I was older than I was >.> How many times do I need to say no, Mr. drunk 'n' pervy??

[Anonymous]

I think the fact that me and my same-age cousin "experimented" at 7 is what made me gay. But I don't think he is gay. And all I can think is "why me?"

[Anonymous]

I think the fact that me and my same-age cousin "experimented" at 7 is what made me gay. But I don't think he is gay. And all I can think is "why me?"

I experimented with my girl cousin around the same age, and I sure as hell ain't straight. I say it's genetics...

[joeyconnick]

I think the fact that me and my same-age cousin "experimented" at 7 is what made me gay. But I don't think he is gay. And all I can think is "why me?"I'm pretty sure experimenting doesn't "make" anyone gay. Basically if someone likes something, they'll do it, and if they don't, they won't. It's kinda like gay people can't really "recruit" people to be gay, because honestly there'd be a heck of a lot more gay people if we could. :p I think maybe (maybe) if some people get sexually abused it can screw up how they handle/relate to their sexuality but I still don't honestly believe you can "turn someone gay." More than anything because that assumes that being straight is "normal/natural" and that being gay is some sort of flawed/failed sexuality, which I don't think it is.

So that would explain why your cousin isn't gay and you are--it's effectively random.

[pirateninja]

Pirateninja really burns my caboose :roflmao::roflmao:

I have absolutely no idea what that means :eek:

PN, Sorry to have confusseled you.The caboose is the last car on the train, ie;"The Behind car".

In the moments of frivolity on those posts,I thought it was funny to say in code that ,PN bugs me ,which is not true because I think that she is a wonderful human being and an example to the rest of human kind that we should all aspire to be only even a tiny bit as good and funny and smart as she is .:thumbsup:

"Pirateninja really burns my behind car" :eek:

That sounds so dirty. :roflmao:

But, seriously, Panda. Thank you. That really made my day :D

[Blue0090]

The thought of pussies has been disgusting me lately. I think im gay :tears:

[seanathon]

I'm so confused lately. I'm gay, but the Bible says I'm not allowed to lay with a man like one lays with a woman...

But I can't have sex with girls - the Bible says I'm not allowed to eat shellfish either!

[Pinstripe]

Is hidden text still hidden if you tell people about it?

I'm meeting a friend (A, who is a guy who is also gay) of a friend (B, who is a girl, but that's kind of irrelevant) (the one who thinks I'm bi and keeps getting guys to flirt with me....) for the first time tomorrow at an interschool debating thing being held at my school.

I found out that B told A to flirt with me and he probably will too. The dilemma, I'm kind of looking forward to it (but which part, I'm not exactly sure of.... even if I do think he is kind of hot...)

[yahooooo]

This isn't much of a secret and I am probably going to sound so pathetic but I don't really care!!

I still can't get over the first person I came out to. I still have all the messages she sent me during our coming out conversation and I still read them every so often even though I know them pretty much to heart. At first I only thought I liked her as a friend, and hopefully she still thinks that this is the case, but to be honest I think I felt quite a bit more than I wanted to or let myself. Now however I have no idea how I feel about her. A part of me really does hate her and the fact that she would rather keep her prejudices than save our friendship. I make all the effort in our relationship and although she replies and is civil I always have the feeling she can't wait to get rid of me. I know that I shouldn't cling on to her while she treats me like this, I just can't let go and also hate myself for that.

I also wonder what things would have been like has she been supportive of me and how much easier, happier and less alone I would feel at this moment in time. I think quite a few of my fears about coming out have come from the fact that because one of my closest friends couldn't get over it then what chance do I have with people who I don't know as well.

Anyway I wish I could give up on her I just can't and don't know what to do about it. Why do I still want to be friends with someone who has basically said that she thinks a whole part of me is disgusting and wrong and also refuses to re-evaluate these ideas even after we have been friends for over 5 years now??

[Blue0090]

My best friend thinks I'm in love with a girl named Melanie Webks, but the truth is she doesn't exist. "Melanie Webks" is just an anagram of his name..

[Lexington]

>>>the Bible says I'm not allowed to lay with a man like one lays with a woman...

So lay with him side by side. Or doggy style. :D

Lex

[Anonymous]

>>>the Bible says I'm not allowed to lay with a man like one lays with a woman...

So lay with him side by side. Or doggy style. :D

Lex

OH Lexington...:eusa_naug:icon_wink

[Anonymous]

Transsexuals and gay men who dress very flamboyantly creep me out and I feel really uncomfortable around them.

[Anonymous]

I am bi, but don't know how to tell anyone. I also don't know how to tell people I am not interested in relationships, marriage...etc. I'm afraid it'll just confuse people.

[Anonymous]

I really am an asshole, but I would be really nice to people if I could just force myself to believe they were not less intelligent than me.

I would love to let people through my trust barrier, and get personal with me, but I do not know of any gays.


I want to make out with a cute kid ALL day long. Its on my mind so often. haha.

[Anonymous]

I think im beginning to like someone on EC

[Anonymous]

I judge bisexual girls. When a girl says she's bisexual, I get annoyed, because I usually think they're doing it for attention or to have a thread of identity. I hate all the 'bisexual' girls at my school. The more I think about it, I guess I'm just as close-minded as every homophobe that hates ME for being gay. So, to all those bisexual girls out there, I'm sorry for judging you. I apologize. It's just hard for me to accept you, and I don't know why. As a gay person, I am appalled at my own hypocrisy.

It's also true for bisexual boys, but more for girls. I don't know why. But I'm sorry for every bisexual (girl or boy) that's reading this. I'm trying to be more open.

[Anonymous]

I think im beginning to like someone on EC

lol me too.. not saying any names..

cough* fred (cant spell actual user name lol), Martin, Seanathon, cough cough**

[pirateninja]

I judge bisexual girls. When a girl says she's bisexual, I get annoyed, because I usually think they're doing it for attention or to have a thread of identity. I hate all the 'bisexual' girls at my school. The more I think about it, I guess I'm just as close-minded as every homophobe that hates ME for being gay. So, to all those bisexual girls out there, I'm sorry for judging you. I apologize. It's just hard for me to accept you, and I don't know why. As a gay person, I am appalled at my own hypocrisy.

It's also true for bisexual boys, but more for girls. I don't know why. But I'm sorry for every bisexual (girl or boy) that's reading this. I'm trying to be more open.

Fact is, I've met quite a few bisexual girls who AREN'T actually bisexual; they honestly just say it for attention. It pisses me off when I meet a girl where one of her first few words is "I'm bisexual" and when I ask her what girls she likes, she just gives me a weird look as if to say "are you crazy?". I hate to stereotype but it's mostly the emo girls who do this, to try and look different or gain sympathy with a whole story aboot how she's scared how her parents will react or how it will affect her life and all she does is want to slice her wrists open. So when I offer advice and help, such as web addresses or phone numbers, again comes that look. She hangs around people who will just say "oh you poor thing, I'm so sorry" and all that, and she laps it up. But when I try to direct her to some real help for her she practically tells me that I must be a simpleton to actually believe her stories and try to be serious aboot all of it.

She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

[Trumpetplyer23]

I judge bisexual girls. When a girl says she's bisexual, I get annoyed, because I usually think they're doing it for attention or to have a thread of identity. I hate all the 'bisexual' girls at my school. The more I think about it, I guess I'm just as close-minded as every homophobe that hates ME for being gay. So, to all those bisexual girls out there, I'm sorry for judging you. I apologize. It's just hard for me to accept you, and I don't know why. As a gay person, I am appalled at my own hypocrisy.

It's also true for bisexual boys, but more for girls. I don't know why. But I'm sorry for every bisexual (girl or boy) that's reading this. I'm trying to be more open.

Fact is, I've met quite a few bisexual girls who AREN'T actually bisexual; they honestly just say it for attention. It pisses me off when I meet a girl where one of her first few words is "I'm bisexual" and when I ask her what girls she likes, she just gives me a weird look as if to say "are you crazy?". I hate to stereotype but it's mostly the emo girls who do this, to try and look different or gain sympathy with a whole story aboot how she's scared how her parents will react or how it will affect her life and all she does is want to slice her wrists open. So when I offer advice and help, such as web addresses or phone numbers, again comes that look. She hangs around people who will just say "oh you poor thing, I'm so sorry" and all that, and she laps it up. But when I try to direct her to some real help for her she practically tells me that I must be a simpleton to actually believe her stories and try to be serious aboot all of it.

She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

I know people like this. First she claims she's bisexual, then she claims that she thinks homosexuality/bisexuality is a sin. She runs around saying that her dad beats her and that the only kind of relief she gets is to cut herself. She once went off on a long rant about how homosexuals will burn in hell, so I said "Wait, I thought you were bisexual?" and she says "No, no, no, no, no." And the real kicker, before she was against homosexuality/bisexuality, she had a girlfriend....and I only knew this because I knew the girl she dated personally.

People like this make people think that bisexuality really is a 'transition' phase or simply non-exisistent.

[Lexington]

>>>She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

Annoying? Yeah. But for us old folks, amazing. In my day, in high school, even the gay kids wouldn't admit to being gay. They'd be bullied and beaten daily, probably with the support and encouragement of the staff and the PTA. So we kept it quiet, or lied about it.

Now? Kids are pretending to be gay even if they aren't, because being gay is THAT friggin' cool. I can't even begin to tell you how amazing that is, and how much I prefer it this way. :D

Lex

[Lexington]

>>>Transsexuals and gay men who dress very flamboyantly creep me out and I feel really uncomfortable around them.

A lot of gay guys (especially) feel this way early on. I did, too, for a bit. I felt that if I spent any time with the "REALLY gay", then it'd be assumed that I was like that, too. I felt like THESE guys were the reason that people hated gays - their in-your-face-ness, their "fruity" behavior - and if they'd only tone it down, and act like the rest of us, the world wouldn't treat us so badly.

Wrong. Homophobes don't hate gays because they lisp or because they wear outrageous clothes (although it does make them easy targets). They hate us because we have sex with guys.

Best way to get over this feeling? Get to know a couple. Chat with some flamobyant gay guys. It'll feel weird at the beginning, but you'll discover two really important facts.

1. They're regular human beings, just like the rest of us.
2. They don't "act" gay any more than I "act" straight. They're not putting on an act - that's just how they are. And they've said, "Screw it - this is how I am, so this is how I'm gonna be." And because of that, they take the lion's share of abuse for homosexuals - not just from homophobic straights, but the "freshly out gays" who, like me years ago, blame them for the existence of homophobia. But they still don't care - they still live life as themselves. And that's actually really admirable. They kick huge amounts of ass. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

Martin, you have such a pretty face! I love it! :kiss:

[Anonymous]

I really am an asshole, but I would be really nice to people if I could just force myself to believe they were not less intelligent than me.

I would love to let people through my trust barrier, and get personal with me, but I do not know of any gays.


I want to make out with a cute kid ALL day long. Its on my mind so often. haha.

*brickface* I know you.

[biisme]

I judge bisexual girls. When a girl says she's bisexual, I get annoyed, because I usually think they're doing it for attention or to have a thread of identity. I hate all the 'bisexual' girls at my school. The more I think about it, I guess I'm just as close-minded as every homophobe that hates ME for being gay. So, to all those bisexual girls out there, I'm sorry for judging you. I apologize. It's just hard for me to accept you, and I don't know why. As a gay person, I am appalled at my own hypocrisy.

It's also true for bisexual boys, but more for girls. I don't know why. But I'm sorry for every bisexual (girl or boy) that's reading this. I'm trying to be more open.

Fact is, I've met quite a few bisexual girls who AREN'T actually bisexual; they honestly just say it for attention. It pisses me off when I meet a girl where one of her first few words is "I'm bisexual" and when I ask her what girls she likes, she just gives me a weird look as if to say "are you crazy?". I hate to stereotype but it's mostly the emo girls who do this, to try and look different or gain sympathy with a whole story aboot how she's scared how her parents will react or how it will affect her life and all she does is want to slice her wrists open. So when I offer advice and help, such as web addresses or phone numbers, again comes that look. She hangs around people who will just say "oh you poor thing, I'm so sorry" and all that, and she laps it up. But when I try to direct her to some real help for her she practically tells me that I must be a simpleton to actually believe her stories and try to be serious aboot all of it.

She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

I know people like this. First she claims she's bisexual, then she claims that she thinks homosexuality/bisexuality is a sin. She runs around saying that her dad beats her and that the only kind of relief she gets is to cut herself. She once went off on a long rant about how homosexuals will burn in hell, so I said "Wait, I thought you were bisexual?" and she says "No, no, no, no, no." And the real kicker, before she was against homosexuality/bisexuality, she had a girlfriend....and I only knew this because I knew the girl she dated personally.

People like this make people think that bisexuality really is a 'transition' phase or simply non-exisistent.

here! let me say something! "i am bisexual"!!! and not for attention!!!

:D

[pirateninja]

I judge bisexual girls. When a girl says she's bisexual, I get annoyed, because I usually think they're doing it for attention or to have a thread of identity. I hate all the 'bisexual' girls at my school. The more I think about it, I guess I'm just as close-minded as every homophobe that hates ME for being gay. So, to all those bisexual girls out there, I'm sorry for judging you. I apologize. It's just hard for me to accept you, and I don't know why. As a gay person, I am appalled at my own hypocrisy.

It's also true for bisexual boys, but more for girls. I don't know why. But I'm sorry for every bisexual (girl or boy) that's reading this. I'm trying to be more open.

Fact is, I've met quite a few bisexual girls who AREN'T actually bisexual; they honestly just say it for attention. It pisses me off when I meet a girl where one of her first few words is "I'm bisexual" and when I ask her what girls she likes, she just gives me a weird look as if to say "are you crazy?". I hate to stereotype but it's mostly the emo girls who do this, to try and look different or gain sympathy with a whole story aboot how she's scared how her parents will react or how it will affect her life and all she does is want to slice her wrists open. So when I offer advice and help, such as web addresses or phone numbers, again comes that look. She hangs around people who will just say "oh you poor thing, I'm so sorry" and all that, and she laps it up. But when I try to direct her to some real help for her she practically tells me that I must be a simpleton to actually believe her stories and try to be serious aboot all of it.

She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

I know people like this. First she claims she's bisexual, then she claims that she thinks homosexuality/bisexuality is a sin. She runs around saying that her dad beats her and that the only kind of relief she gets is to cut herself. She once went off on a long rant about how homosexuals will burn in hell, so I said "Wait, I thought you were bisexual?" and she says "No, no, no, no, no." And the real kicker, before she was against homosexuality/bisexuality, she had a girlfriend....and I only knew this because I knew the girl she dated personally.

People like this make people think that bisexuality really is a 'transition' phase or simply non-exisistent.

here! let me say something! "i am bisexual"!!! and not for attention!!!

:D

Sorry if I made myself unclear. People may use bisexuality as an attention seeking device, but it doesn't mean that everyone who says they are bisexual does.

>>>She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

Annoying? Yeah. But for us old folks, amazing. In my day, in high school, even the gay kids wouldn't admit to being gay. They'd be bullied and beaten daily, probably with the support and encouragement of the staff and the PTA. So we kept it quiet, or lied about it.

Now? Kids are pretending to be gay even if they aren't, because being gay is THAT friggin' cool. I can't even begin to tell you how amazing that is, and how much I prefer it this way.

Lex

I'll admit that while it is a step up from being completely homophobic, it is usually used by emos who use it to gain sympathy from others, men who want to get in with the girls, or by girls who are trying to look hot for their boyfriends. If a man tries to use it to look cool to male friends, or a girl tries to use it to look cool to girl friends, then it fails miserably. Well, that's how it works here in Wolvo, I don't know if Gay Culture is considered cool in other parts of the world.

[biisme]

^^ i knew u weren't saying that.

i was trying to lighten the mood..........

the smiley was supposed to help me do that....

[pirateninja]

I really should stop being so uptight aboot offending people.

[Trumpetplyer23]

I really should stop being so uptight aboot offending people.


I wasn't offended by what you said. I was sharing a story about how I was offended by a girl either pretending to be bisexual or she decided to put herself back in the closet and become homophobic.

I'm more offended by the people who lie, than the people who are suspicious as to whether or not bisexuality exists. The people who lie make the people who are suspicious, well, suspicious.

So, no harm, no foul.

[Anonymous]

I hate my dad. :bang:

[biisme]

I hate my dad. :bang:

i'm sorry (*hug*)

[Master Taco]

Besides the random "I love x.x", this thread is terribly depressing...

[Anonymous]

I judge bisexual girls. When a girl says she's bisexual, I get annoyed, because I usually think they're doing it for attention or to have a thread of identity. I hate all the 'bisexual' girls at my school. The more I think about it, I guess I'm just as close-minded as every homophobe that hates ME for being gay. So, to all those bisexual girls out there, I'm sorry for judging you. I apologize. It's just hard for me to accept you, and I don't know why. As a gay person, I am appalled at my own hypocrisy.

It's also true for bisexual boys, but more for girls. I don't know why. But I'm sorry for every bisexual (girl or boy) that's reading this. I'm trying to be more open.

Fact is, I've met quite a few bisexual girls who AREN'T actually bisexual; they honestly just say it for attention. It pisses me off when I meet a girl where one of her first few words is "I'm bisexual" and when I ask her what girls she likes, she just gives me a weird look as if to say "are you crazy?". I hate to stereotype but it's mostly the emo girls who do this, to try and look different or gain sympathy with a whole story aboot how she's scared how her parents will react or how it will affect her life and all she does is want to slice her wrists open. So when I offer advice and help, such as web addresses or phone numbers, again comes that look. She hangs around people who will just say "oh you poor thing, I'm so sorry" and all that, and she laps it up. But when I try to direct her to some real help for her she practically tells me that I must be a simpleton to actually believe her stories and try to be serious aboot all of it.

She pisses me off. She knows NOTHING of what it means to be gay.

I know people like this. First she claims she's bisexual, then she claims that she thinks homosexuality/bisexuality is a sin. She runs around saying that her dad beats her and that the only kind of relief she gets is to cut herself. She once went off on a long rant about how homosexuals will burn in hell, so I said "Wait, I thought you were bisexual?" and she says "No, no, no, no, no." And the real kicker, before she was against homosexuality/bisexuality, she had a girlfriend....and I only knew this because I knew the girl she dated personally.

People like this make people think that bisexuality really is a 'transition' phase or simply non-exisistent.

here! let me say something! "i am bisexual"!!! and not for attention!!!

:D

Lol me too and I assure you it's not for attention.

[Miaplacidus]

gastro08 is my type. So very my type. LOL :icon_redf

(if you're reading this don't punch me *hides*)

[Trumpetplyer23]

I still find her hot. I'd still go out with her if she wanted to. Yet, I tell myself I don't like her. The world is so confusing..

[Lexington]

>>>Besides the random "I love x.x", this thread is terribly depressing

We tend not to keep happy thoughts a secret. :)

Lex

[Derek the Wolf]

gastro08 is my type. So very my type. LOL :icon_redf

(if you're reading this don't punch me *hides*)

I hear that.

[the ry guy]

I got a huge crush on this guy that just joined my unit he's 20 but he looks like he's 16 he's just so cute i wanna just smuther him with love, its driving me insane :bang:

[Master Taco]

I got a huge crush on this guy that just joined my unit he's 20 but he looks like he's 16 he's just so cute i wanna just smuther him with love, its driving me insane :bang:

Aw! Sounds cute!

[Anonymous]

I need a boyfriend, BADLY.

[seanathon]

My ass hurts.

[Anonymous]

My lip hurts soooo bad. Damn acne. >_>

I can't stand my sister. I feel like I hate her sometimes. She's only eight years old. But she's fat, loud, eats like a pig, and annoying. She takes after my lazy ass mom.

[Anonymous]

The love of my life is getting married soon. I pretend to be happy for her, but it's tearing me up. But at the same time I love seeing her so happy. I hate loving her this much, but I love it too. I love her enough to let her go... but that won't keep me warm at night.

[beyondken]

I danced around the house after my friend came out to MySpace. I still feel giddy thinking about it even though it was almost 2 years ago.. he was my first coming-out friend. But I feel silly to admit it now, since I was scared to admit it back then.

[Anonymous]

I once when i was 7 went in a public shower at a water park with my also naked summer camp counselor. HE WAS HUGE DOWN THERE, AND HAIRY!!!!!

[firecausesburns]

If there was a girl who wanted to be my girlfriend, I'd probably agree, even if I didn't have feelings for her at all. I get really lonely sometimes, and I'm the oldest person I know who's never had any sort of relationship or even been kissed.

[Anonymous]

If there was a girl who wanted to be my girlfriend, I'd probably agree, even if I didn't have feelings for her at all. I get really lonely sometimes, and I'm the oldest person I know who's never had any sort of relationship or even been kissed.

Hey, I thought I'd be into my thirties before I got romantically involved with anyone. It was only by sheer fluke that I ended up with a girlfriend last year.. 17 is very close to 18. Looking back, even though I felt old then to be so inexperienced, the second half of the teen years isn't too late to remain unkissed.

In the end, in a zillion cases out of a zillion and one, good friends will be a better cure for loneliness than an arbitrarily picked partner.

[Trumpetplyer23]

If there was a girl who wanted to be my girlfriend, I'd probably agree, even if I didn't have feelings for her at all. I get really lonely sometimes, and I'm the oldest person I know who's never had any sort of relationship or even been kissed.

Hey, I thought I'd be into my thirties before I got romantically involved with anyone. It was only by sheer fluke that I ended up with a girlfriend last year.. 17 is very close to 18. Looking back, even though I felt old then to be so inexperienced, the second half of the teen years isn't too late to remain unkissed.

In the end, in a zillion cases out of a zillion and one, good friends will be a better cure for loneliness than an arbitrarily picked partner.

I've been relationships when I was younger. There's a lot of commitment and crap that goes along with it and neither of us (the guy and me) were mature enough to continue it (it was a long distance relationship).

Then a couple of years later, I found my first boyfriend that I could actually see everyday. At first he was a real sweetheart and everyone thought we looked good together (even the girl I secretly liked, that was awkward, I'll admit). Then his dumbass started STALKING me. So, I broke up with him, but I regret giving him my first kiss.

So, sometimes, it's better to wait, because the younger you are the more maturity problems you'll have in the relationships. Trust me. It's rare to find people who've begun relationships when they're 11, 12, 13, or 14 and still have them going now. It's rare. Just because at that age, you're still a bratty teenager.

Friends are better than significant others, because your friends will stick by your side when your girlfriend breaks up with you. When your girlfriend breaks up with you, she's not going to help you through it.

Don't be in a rush, let things happen and always know, there will be somebody out there who will love you.

[Pinstripe]

(Not a secret to those who know me in real life, but to you (the collective you of EC) it probably is.)
I am socially retarded.

[Étoile]

I once when i was 7 went in a public shower at a water park with my also naked summer camp counselor. HE WAS HUGE DOWN THERE, AND HAIRY!!!!!

WOW! Sorry about that, I just had to comment on this post. :lol:

[Alexander]

I'm supposed to be composing right now.. But I have a mindblock. :(

My dad confiscated my laptop before I even could open the box. :tantrum:

[Anonymous]

(Not a secret to those who know me in real life, but to you (the collective you of EC) it probably is.)
I am socially retarded.
You are definitely not alone,there's two of us...

[Anonymous]

I feel terrible for costing my parents so much money with my passion but it's what i love and want to do as a career. I know we have problems with money but i just keep doing more and more because i love it so much.

I truly consider my mom one of my best friends; if not my very best friend.

N/O to those who say this, but i dont like when people say hun, babe, etc. even in a relationship. It just bothers me.

I finally decided i love myself. :]

[Anonymous]

The boy i am starting to really like is too Christian to be gay. He questioned his sexuality and converted back to being straight for God. I wish he would understand God loves everyone for who they are .

[Asteroid]

(Not a secret to those who know me in real life, but to you (the collective you of EC) it probably is.)
I am socially retarded.
You are definitely not alone,there's two of us...

I am sure you two are not socially retarded. Just have a bit confidence in yourself guys.

[Anonymous]

last night i was at a party with my boyfriend. At 4in the morning we snuck downstairs and i gave him a blowjob on the sofa in the middle of my friends sitting room...naughty me lol

[Ty]

My best friends already started dumping me for his girlfriend =/

I don't know what I'd do without him. I really don't.

[Paul_UK]

(*hug*) for Ty

[Anonymous]

I find emo posts in this thread very funny and amusing.

[Anonymous]

I got laid today... and he's cute. But I don't think I'm seeing him again. I don't wanna. LOL

[Anonymous]

I have an internet boyfriend, and I wouldn't trade him for any real one.

[Paralyzer]

I have an internet boyfriend, and I wouldn't trade him for any real one.

Same :]

[Anonymous]

wonder if my boyfriend really likes me.

[Anonymous]

I skip women's coming out stories, because lesbians coming out isn't as interesting or as taboo a guy coming out.

[Anonymous]

I skip women's coming out stories, because lesbians coming out isn't as interesting or as taboo a guy coming out.

its okay. i rarely ever read the coming out stories. i guess since i came out it gets sorta old now.

[Anonymous]

I skip women's coming out stories, because lesbians coming out isn't as interesting or as taboo a guy coming out.

its okay. i rarely ever read the coming out stories. i guess since i came out it gets sorta old now.

I do the opposite...

I read the girls' but only sometimes the guys'.

[Anonymous]

I skip women's coming out stories, because lesbians coming out isn't as interesting or as taboo a guy coming out.

Personally I think they're both equally taboo in different ways. When lesbians come out, we have to contend with a lot of shit from straight boys, just like you guys do. And the straight girls can be pretty mean too. It's not an "easy ride" being a lesbian, I promise.

[Anonymous]

My crush has a boyfriend.

Why do I always imagine rosy futures with people before I even know them that well, only to be disappointed when nothing happens? Am I subconsciously masochistic, or what?!

[Anonymous]

This morning I woke up with some guy i just met last night.

[Anonymous]

Am I the only one who thinks it weird having 18 year old people hitting on minors or vice-versa?

[Time]

Am I the only one who thinks it weird having 18 year old people hitting on minors or vice-versa?

My boyfriend is 18, so I'm obviously inclined to disagree, but I see where you're coming from. Unwanted flirting from people in the age range of upper teens is definitely not good when you're a minor. I don't necessarily think it's weird though. It really all depends on the age of the person the 18 year old is hitting on.

[Anonymous]

I am in love with this girl and she doesn't even know that i exist. :tears:

[Anonymous]

I have an extremely low self esteem and have considered cutting because I am scared I will live my whole life alone because I feel ugly and stupid.

[Anonymous]

I wanna have lesbian sex sooo bad.

[Asteroid]

I have an extremely low self esteem and have considered cutting because I am scared I will live my whole life alone because I feel ugly and stupid.

Hi there. Please don't hurt yourself. Hurting yourself is not the answer. Talking about it is. You are not ugly and you are not stupid. No one on this planet is. I am absolutely sure that you are a smart person and that you can and will make your mark.

Do the things that you are good at. Repeat doing them. This will allow you to realize that you are good at the things you do. For example, if you are like collecting stamps, look at your collection. Sort them, try find out what they are worth, try to finish a set of stamps, start creating new sets. Or if you like swimming, do that. Go to the pool and swim. Try to break your own record. Even if you don't break it on the first, second or third try, make it a goal for the next time. Something to look forward to. Or do whatever it is that you like doing, just keep at it and set yourself new goals. Once you have reached them and surpassed them, set yourself new goals. Share your interests with your friends. Tell them about it. Tell them this is what I really like doing and I have fun at it. You need to hear yourself saying this. Indeed, it is a confirmation of what you like and what makes you different from others. This will allow you to start building up self-esteem and self-worth. It will take time to build it up but if you keep at it, you will get there.

Also, to gain self-esteem try to accept that no one is perfect. We are not good at everything but we are good at a whole bunch of other things. Concentrate on those. Pursue those things that you are good at.

Love yourself for who you are. Start by liking yourself and from there (with time) you will start loving yourself). When you get up in the morning or at any time during the day, stand in front of a mirror and start telling yourself "I like myself because of...." Repeat it every day. Like this you will start liking and eventually loving yourself.

You will not live your life alone. You will find someone who will love you for who you are. You will find someone who will see the kindness and the love that is within you. You will find someone who will see that you are a great person that has lots to offer. You are a smart person. Never let anyone tell you anything different.

So, tomorrow morning or even still tonight, start telling yourself "I like myself because I am a smart person." "I like myself because I can contribute so many things to this world." Continue doing this, as long as it takes.

I know you will make it. Please, never give up on yourself.

[Anonymous]

i wish i had of been sober on saturday night so i wouldve had the sense to make out with the drunk guy who was kissing everyone

[matt3208pc]

im a massive harry potter nerd

[Anonymous]

Some days I just wish I could go outside and scream I'm a bisexual but if I did I would probably be beat up and killed!

[Trumpetplyer23]

I'm very nervous around girls, even though most of my friends are girls. Unless I feel like I can trust you, I'll act all mysterious and cool. I have major trust issues with guys and girls.

[Psychedelic Bookmarks]

im a massive harry potter nerd

Heh, me too! And it's no secret!

[Anonymous]

i feel like people hear me, but they dont ever listen
i used to cut. i only stopped because i had to change for gym the next year.
i was afraid what people would say. and i always have been.
the scars have been gone for a while, but i see them everyday.
im afraid of failing.
i take to much advil. i have to take 6+ just to make a little head ache go away now.
im scared or being hated.
there are these two girls who i have been best friends with since 3rd grade. i came out to one, and we havent been the same since. the other one is a conservative catholic.
ill say that i dont care what people think, but for somethings, there is nothing else more important.
i despise indiana jones movies.
i was suicidle for nearly a year and never looked for help.
creative writting makes me want to throw something against a wall.
i used sparknotes instead of reading jane eyre.
i want to leave this town, and never come back sometimes.
the bad memories are enough to make me want to die.
i throw up after seeing roadkill.
when bambis mom was killed, i cried.
there are people i dont want to come out to, because im scared of loosing them.
everynight, i either crash or cry myself to sleep.
i dont eat enough. some days ill eat four hundred calories.
my body cant take anymore stress.
i think i am really sick.
i have a psycological frear of hospitals.
i have been depressed for nearly 5 years.
its hard for me to trust straight guys.
second semmster, i saw Her every day, and she never even looked at me. and it broke my heart.

[Anonymous]

I'm responsible for the deaths of millions.

[amyleona]

theres this girl. and we were friends. when i came out, she told me that she was also bisexual. we talked for a while more, and i told her that i liked her. she said that it was ok, she didnt feel the same way, but none of this would change anything in our frienship. she made me swear that i wouldnt tell anyone, he wasnt ready to come out to her new friends just yet(she had just moved here), she was afraid of what they would think. i told her that i wouldnt tell anyone, and i didnt(my best friend figured it out). then, all of a sudden, she stopped talking to me. she didnt reply to my messages, my calls, she didnt hear me when i said her name... nothing. she hasnt said a word to me since feb. she wont even look at me. and i still like her. she broke my heart, but i cant hate her, i just cant.

[Time]

I'm responsible for the deaths of millions.

How? o_0

[Anonymous]

I'm angry. My friend invited me up to move in with him until I get my own place. Well since I got here, he has been a complete asshole. He acts like I am the biggest annoyance in the world. He doesn't talk to me in the morning.. He basically just ignores me and is short when he does talk. I'm moving out the 15th and I'm probably not going to talk to him anymore. Such an asshole. Ugh.

[Anonymous]

I'm responsible for the deaths of millions.

How? o_0

It's a common joke... by jacking off, according to the most extreme pro-life beliefs.

[Invisible]

I love the sound of rain :)

[Anonymous]

I have started exercising which goes against everything I have ever said about it. :icon_redf

[Trumpetplyer23]

I have never been to a sleepover.

Why? I have a fear I'll get killed in my sleep by my friends or their family. I always tell people its because my mom doesn't want me to get into a lot of trouble.

[Anonymous]

i feel like people hear me, but they dont ever listen
i used to cut. i only stopped because i had to change for gym the next year.
i was afraid what people would say. and i always have been.
the scars have been gone for a while, but i see them everyday.
im afraid of failing.
i take to much advil. i have to take 6+ just to make a little head ache go away now.
im scared or being hated.
there are these two girls who i have been best friends with since 3rd grade. i came out to one, and we havent been the same since. the other one is a conservative catholic.
ill say that i dont care what people think, but for somethings, there is nothing else more important.
i despise indiana jones movies.
i was suicidle for nearly a year and never looked for help.
creative writting makes me want to throw something against a wall.
i used sparknotes instead of reading jane eyre.
i want to leave this town, and never come back sometimes.
the bad memories are enough to make me want to di