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[Anonymous]

>>>I rehearse wedding vows in the shower.

I put on rock concerts in the shower. Maybe I'm rehearsing for your wedding reception. :D

Lex

I sing RENT in the shower...No joke, I'm practising for the time I get up on the stage for myself :D

I dance in the shower. Probably not the safest thing to do, but one of the funnest.

If you guys could host a variety show - Lex rocking out, Dave singing Rent, and Étoile and guests dancing amongst it all - it would make my wedding. :D

[Level N Human]

^ That was me, the person on the inside of all the quote frames of course.

[Jebs]

I wish my SI scars would fade away in time for school so i could wear short sleeved tops and participate is PE.

Dealing with these kind of scars are pretty difficult. The best way to get rid of these is, in my experience, is consistently applying Vitamin E oil (twice a day) and even some Cocoa Butter. Though my scars are not even close to being faded, they have reduced in visibilty a good bit, most of the scars are skin color. Though some are still bright red and really apparent. Just remember it will take a good bit of time for this to heal. Sorry. Good luck.

Also, if the SI scars are from burns you should look into BIOSKINCARE. It helps.

(*hug*)

[firecausesburns]

I'd give almost anything to be musical. I feel like the only person in the world with no musical ability, and it seems like the only way to have people like you is to be talented.

[nodoubtjunkie]

I'd give almost anything to be musical. I feel like the only person in the world with no musical ability, and it seems like the only way to have people like you is to be talented.

I know how you feel, i possess no ability to play a musical instrument, perhaps due to the lack of sense of rhythm, i can't dance. I suppose i can sing, but even then i can't sing in front of even a small crowd, i can only ever manage to get anything out in front of about 3 people at max. I wish i was musical enough to be able to say that I'm a 'musical person' but I suppose that wil never be the case, some people have got it, some people haven't. I'm sure you have an special gift, for drawing or painting, or sports, or writing? Alot of people would give their right leg to have the special talent you have :D

(*hug*)

[firecausesburns]

I'd give almost anything to be musical. I feel like the only person in the world with no musical ability, and it seems like the only way to have people like you is to be talented.

I know how you feel, i possess no ability to play a musical instrument, perhaps due to the lack of sense of rhythm, i can't dance. I suppose i can sing, but even then i can't sing in front of even a small crowd, i can only ever manage to get anything out in front of about 3 people at max. I wish i was musical enough to be able to say that I'm a 'musical person' but I suppose that wil never be the case, some people have got it, some people haven't. I'm sure you have an special gift, for drawing or painting, or sports, or writing? Alot of people would give their right leg to have the special talent you have :D

(*hug*)


If I have a talent, I haven't found it yet. My body doesn't work (I have a neurological problem that's completely fubared my ability to walk unaided), so sport's out of the question, and I can barely draw a stick figure. I'm reasonable at a few things (cooking and writing, mainly) but there's always going to be heaps of people much better at those things than I am. (*hug*) But thanks.

[nodoubtjunkie]

I'd give almost anything to be musical. I feel like the only person in the world with no musical ability, and it seems like the only way to have people like you is to be talented.

I know how you feel, i possess no ability to play a musical instrument, perhaps due to the lack of sense of rhythm, i can't dance. I suppose i can sing, but even then i can't sing in front of even a small crowd, i can only ever manage to get anything out in front of about 3 people at max. I wish i was musical enough to be able to say that I'm a 'musical person' but I suppose that wil never be the case, some people have got it, some people haven't. I'm sure you have an special gift, for drawing or painting, or sports, or writing? Alot of people would give their right leg to have the special talent you have :D

(*hug*)


If I have a talent, I haven't found it yet. My body doesn't work (I have a neurological problem that's completely fubared my ability to walk unaided), so sport's out of the question, and I can barely draw a stick figure. I'm reasonable at a few things (cooking and writing, mainly) but there's always going to be heaps of people much better at those things than I am. (*hug*) But thanks.

aw, i'm sorry =[

And you do have a talent, not many people are as nice as you :D

and your posts always make me smile. (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I have a neurological problem that's completely fubared my ability to walk unaided

(*hug*)I need walking aids too. On a good day, I need a stick. On a bad day, a chair.



It sucks to be a disabled gay person. So many stereotypes to deal with.

[Lexington]

>>>I'd give almost anything to be musical. I feel like the only person in the world with no musical ability, and it seems like the only way to have people like you is to be talented.

Although it'd kick ass to be musical, that talent does seem to be outside many people's grasp. (Including mine.) However, if you still "love the vibe", you can still work in music. Bands need producers, engineers, lighting techs, graphic designers, concert promoters, website designers, managers and drivers. All people vital to keeping the music coming. :)

Lex

[tylerksub]

Tyler is way too excited about Lex's 2,000th post.:eusa_danc

[Lexington]

More excited than Lex, who didn't even notice. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I am in love with my best friend. I think she's the most beautiful woman inside and out that I've ever met. I would love to show her just how special she is to me. Even though she is gay too, she doesn't think we'll ever be together. I will always hold a special place in my heart for her. I am still holding on to the hope that some day we can be together. I really cherish her, and hope that I can some day show her just how much.

[Anonymous]

I am in love with my best friend. I think she's the most beautiful woman inside and out that I've ever met. I would love to show her just how special she is to me. Even though she is gay too, she doesn't think we'll ever be together. I will always hold a special place in my heart for her. I am still holding on to the hope that some day we can be together. I really cherish her, and hope that I can some day show her just how much.

i am in the exact same position.

[Anonymous]

I had a nightmare last night, i went to the local chippy to find out they had run out of chips.

i seriously don't know what the world is coming to.

[Anonymous]

I had a nightmare last night, i went to the local chippy to find out they had run out of chips.

i seriously don't know what the world is coming to.

I'd like to have your kind of nightmares...
Mine are so.. twisted
:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I just lied my friend.

[Anonymous]

I can tell friends mood by her personal message on MSN.

[Anonymous]

My mom threw something of mine out. And now I'm crying.

[Anonymous]

YOU NEED TO CHILL THE :***: OUT.
*phew*

[Anonymous]

I'd rather be single than with someone who doesn't love me.

[Anonymous]

I'm a closeted naturist. I just really like being naked, it's not a sexual thing (most of the time ;)), i just really really like being naked.

[Anonymous]

for the earliest memory thread- all i can think of is being molested when i was 4.

[biisme]

for the earliest memory thread- all i can think of is being molested when i was 4.

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(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)(*hug*)( *hug*)

[nodoubtjunkie]

Maybe this isn't really that much of a secret but what the hoosie.

When i log on to EC, i feel normal. I actually feel like i have somewhere with people where i feel pretty much the same as anyone else. I find it very theraputic, it's nice to feel like i am not being judged for my orientation, it means alot to me.

so, thanks to everyone here at EC for helping me out, even if you don't realise you are.

(*hug*)

[Ronnie92]

I feel the same as nodoubtjunkie I love meeting people my own age and just talk for fun.I laugh all the time when I read what you guys post,it just makes me feel happy.

[Anonymous]

I hate lying to my friend, but I dont want him to pity me or give me false hope like he's done in the past.

[Anonymous]

Maybe this isn't really that much of a secret but what the hoosie.

When i log on to EC, i feel normal. I actually feel like i have somewhere with people where i feel pretty much the same as anyone else. I find it very theraputic, it's nice to feel like i am not being judged for my orientation, it means alot to me.

so, thanks to everyone here at EC for helping me out, even if you don't realise you are.

(*hug*)

I feel the same as nodoubtjunkie I love meeting people my own age and just talk for fun.I laugh all the time when I read what you guys post,it just makes me feel happy.

(&&&) This is the ultimate no judgement zone (&&&)

[pirateninja]

Maybe this isn't really that much of a secret but what the hoosie.

When i log on to EC, i feel normal. I actually feel like i have somewhere with people where i feel pretty much the same as anyone else. I find it very theraputic, it's nice to feel like i am not being judged for my orientation, it means alot to me.

so, thanks to everyone here at EC for helping me out, even if you don't realise you are.

(*hug*)

I feel the same as nodoubtjunkie I love meeting people my own age and just talk for fun.I laugh all the time when I read what you guys post,it just makes me feel happy.

(&&&) This is the ultimate no judgement zone (&&&)


Definitely.

I know you hear scares of "you don't know who you're talking to" on the internet and I do try to be cautious when talking to people, but here I can't help it; when I log on it feels as if I've walked into a large group of friends, only the conversation before has been written down so I can follow it, or I can talk aboot so many different subjects that are on my mind. I can attempt to make people laugh or just sit back and let others make me crack up. I can try to help someone or actually ask for help (although rarely) as I completely suck at that in real life.

Theraputic probably is the best word. I find myself happiest when I'm around people who make me laugh. You guys definitely do that for me.

[heatqueen]

^Yup. People actually appreciate my weirdness. ;) And there're loads of people to flirt with, unlike the real world.....

So (*hug*) to EC!! :D

[Anonymous]

Hm... For the past few days, bordering a week or two I was absolutely planning on going to the gym at least once... hasn't happened. I've just been feeling really unmotivated and spaced out, and generally kinda glum. The feeling has really only increased since I've gotten back to school and had work to do... All I find myself doing is sitting at my desk reading a book, lying in my bed reading a book or spacing out completely.
Usually I would be really psyched to get the chance to go to a gym for free or go out and do something... but I dunno, I kinda just want to sit around and be alone in my little corner...

[Anonymous]

My girlfriend's bought me presents, just cause she wanted to, it's not my birthday or anything like that, she says she's got them for me cause she saw them and thought of me and couldn't make up her mind so she got them all (and she's had a pay rise =]) lol. She says she's got me an Elliefrump, (an elephant) teddy, a me2u bear and a Humphrey (Humphrey's corner - Google if unsure) of which i am currently obsessed with. I feel very lucky and very loved to have such a thoughtful girlfriend. I just feel adored, i wish i could bottle it and give to all my friends here on EC, it feels so lovely and warm and fluffy.

[Anonymous]

My secret? I'm going to leave EC.

Not because no one replies to me, or anything like that. I just feel like...I don't fit in, I've been here for a while and...I could never "get the hang of this place" so to say. EC is a nice place, with nice people, I just don't fit in here.

SO with that, I say Goodbye to:

Behling: You're a really nice person, it's nice talking to you.
Lexington: Cause he gives the best advice known to man! (and gargoyles) ;)
Vampyrie: You helped me through the hardest point in my life, thank you.

Good luck EC, I wish you the best. (*hug*)

[ducktress]

I am in love with my best friend. I think she's the most beautiful woman inside and out that I've ever met. I would love to show her just how special she is to me. Even though she is gay too, she doesn't think we'll ever be together. I will always hold a special place in my heart for her. I am still holding on to the hope that some day we can be together. I really cherish her, and hope that I can some day show her just how much.

Right back at cha!

[Vampyrecat]

My secret? I'm going to leave EC.

Not because no one replies to me, or anything like that. I just feel like...I don't fit in, I've been here for a while and...I could never "get the hang of this place" so to say. EC is a nice place, with nice people, I just don't fit in here.

SO with that, I say Goodbye to:

Behling: You're a really nice person, it's nice talking to you.
Lexington: Cause he gives the best advice known to man! (and gargoyles) ;)
Vampyrie: You helped me through the hardest point in my life, thank you.

Good luck EC, I wish you the best. (*hug*)

i'm not sure exactly 100% who you are, but if you are who i think, then remember what i said.

I'm sorry you feel that you don't fit in. I always enjoyed talking to you and I'll miss that.

If you ever need or want to contact me, you have my empty closets email, and I'll still help you if you need it.

:) Best wishes. I hope you don't leave. But if you do I wish you the best of everything you endeaver for.

[Lexington]

>>>Good luck EC, I wish you the best

Thanks, anon. Feel free to keep your account active, and PM whenever you'd like. :)

Lex

[Wander]

When I clean any part of the house, I never dust. Ever. It always slips my mind, and by the time I finish the rest of the cleaning I'm too tired to do anything else.

[Lexington]

^ I don't dust either. I just turn the ceiling fan on "high" before I start cleaning anything else. :D

Lex

[Anonymous]

i'm scared i'm only getting bk with my ex because shes the safe option...

[nodoubtjunkie]

I should really be doing my Art essay, which i've had over two months to do, but i'm only actually getting round to do now, and it's due on tuesday, but i keep getting distracted. I'm thinking of turning my internet connection off, then it will be harder to get distracted by EC lol. But then again, i'll just end up playing solitaire lol.

Concentrate Marie, concentrate.....

[Anonymous]

EC can be quite depressing sometimes.

[Anonymous]

i feel like going off to uni & getting with any hot women i can...but then i'd b just as bad as the girls that have hurt me...

[Anonymous]

i'm beginning to feel suicidal again but i can't tell anyone or they'll want me to go back to hospital.

[Anonymous]

i want to talk to sum1...yet dont know what to say...i want company...yet dont want to see anybody

[EthanS]

i want to talk to sum1...yet dont know what to say...i want company...yet dont want to see anybody

YErh thats how i feel sometimes :/

[Anonymous]

I've always tried to be the best at everything to make my parents proud.


I don't think me parents will be proud of me after I tell them I'm transgender.
I don't know if they could be.

[kristi]

I've always tried to be the best at everything to make my parents proud.


I don't think me parents will be proud of me after I tell them I'm transgender.
I don't know if they could be.

You need to be proud of yourself first. Congratulations on admitting to yourself that you're transgender. That is a huge step in the right direction. Acceptance is the key. If you accept who you are and take pride in the wonderful person that you've become, others will follow suit. Never be afraid to be true to yourself. At the end of the day, only you can look yourself in the mirror and have peace. :eusa_clap

[Étoile]

I should really be doing my Art essay, which i've had over two months to do, but i'm only actually getting round to do now, and it's due on tuesday, but i keep getting distracted. I'm thinking of turning my internet connection off, then it will be harder to get distracted by EC lol. But then again, i'll just end up playing solitaire lol.

Concentrate Marie, concentrate.....

I'm in the exact same boat as you. I have to write 2 10-page journals on Catch-22 and In Cold Blood for my AP English class and I haven't even attempted to start yet and it's due Tuesday, the first day of school. I've had over 2 months to write them, so it's solely on procrastination. I started reading the 2 books but Catch-22 was so confusing that I gave up and In Cold Blood creeped me out and made me feel sad about the future events to come (It's about a real life account on a quadruple homicide. Not my kind of read).

[panda]

I should really be doing my Art essay, which i've had over two months to do, but i'm only actually getting round to do now, and it's due on tuesday, but i keep getting distracted. I'm thinking of turning my internet connection off, then it will be harder to get distracted by EC lol. But then again, i'll just end up playing solitaire lol.

Concentrate Marie, concentrate.....

I'm in the exact same boat as you. I have to write 2 10-page journals on Catch-22 and In Cold Blood for my AP English class and I haven't even attempted to start yet and it's due Tuesday, the first day of school. I've had over 2 months to write them, so it's solely on procrastination. I started reading the 2 books but Catch-22 was so confusing that I gave up and In Cold Blood creeped me out and made me feel sad about the future events to come (It's about a real life account on a quadruple homicide. Not my kind of read).

Watch the Movies .Both are good films.

[Joey]

I should really be doing my Art essay, which i've had over two months to do, but i'm only actually getting round to do now, and it's due on tuesday, but i keep getting distracted. I'm thinking of turning my internet connection off, then it will be harder to get distracted by EC lol. But then again, i'll just end up playing solitaire lol.

Concentrate Marie, concentrate.....

I'm in the exact same boat as you. I have to write 2 10-page journals on Catch-22 and In Cold Blood for my AP English class and I haven't even attempted to start yet and it's due Tuesday, the first day of school. I've had over 2 months to write them, so it's solely on procrastination. I started reading the 2 books but Catch-22 was so confusing that I gave up and In Cold Blood creeped me out and made me feel sad about the future events to come (It's about a real life account on a quadruple homicide. Not my kind of read).

Watch the Movies .Both are good films.

If you write based on the movies do not... I repeat, DO NOT! refer to the characters as "aptly played by so-and-so". Teachers don't really like that kind of talk...

[Étoile]

Thanks for the suggestions guys. :) I didn't even think about watching the movies, that's a good idea.

[Asteroid]

i'm beginning to feel suicidal again but i can't tell anyone or they'll want me to go back to hospital.

Hey there! If you have suicidal thoughts again, please see someone about it. Talk about it. Seek the help you need. It is important that you continue to address the issues that cause you to feel this way. Once you have begun to address them again, you will feel better about yourself and your life. Feel free to contact any of the advisors or staff if you want and need to talk (http://www.emptyclosets.com/forum/showthread.php?t=13273). Don't give up on life. You will be able to get through this. Please seek help.

[firecausesburns]

I've always been told that I'm gifted and that I could be incredibly successful. If I worked constantly and never took a break, I could probably be one of the top students in the state. I don't see the point in it, though. I crack under pressure, and I get sick really easily - if I have to exert myself physically or mentally for too long, I fall into fatigue that can knock me out for a week. The condition I have has some symptoms similar to chrosnic fatigue.
I do the work I have to do and have some time to relax. I'll still do well and get into the area I want to get into, but I don't see the point in killing myself to get a 99 when all I need is a 75. I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm useless and lazy because of this. Most of my 'friends' act like I'm some kind of complete slacker who never does a minute's work and expects to get by on the special consideration I get for my illness. I'm not.

(Also, I can't wait to finish school, because it'll mean getting away from these people and finding people who actually care about me. I'm scared I'm not worth it and will never find true friends - I don't like myself much and I personally wouldn't want to be friends with me - but I want to try.)

[Anonymous]

i feel i should tell her gf what shes really up to but i dont want the girl to think i'm doin it to get bk at her for not liking me anymore

[Anonymous]

I've always been told that I'm gifted and that I could be incredibly successful. If I worked constantly and never took a break, I could probably be one of the top students in the state. I don't see the point in it, though. I crack under pressure, and I get sick really easily - if I have to exert myself physically or mentally for too long, I fall into fatigue that can knock me out for a week. The condition I have has some symptoms similar to chrosnic fatigue.
I do the work I have to do and have some time to relax. I'll still do well and get into the area I want to get into, but I don't see the point in killing myself to get a 99 when all I need is a 75. I'm sick of being made to feel like I'm useless and lazy because of this. Most of my 'friends' act like I'm some kind of complete slacker who never does a minute's work and expects to get by on the special consideration I get for my illness. I'm not.

(Also, I can't wait to finish school, because it'll mean getting away from these people and finding people who actually care about me. I'm scared I'm not worth it and will never find true friends - I don't like myself much and I personally wouldn't want to be friends with me - but I want to try.)

Story of my life. I could have written that (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

im in love with my bestfriend as well, im a junior now, and i fell for him when i waz in 6th grade!!! he's everything i could ever ask for in a guy! he's sraight, but has admitted to having feelings for me! bt theres a problem, my other bestfriend had a crush on him, and ive never tld anyone about my feelings for him, so i told her i would talk to him 4 her! and now theyve been for three months, and they go rly good together, bt i cant help but 2 envy her, she got what ive wanted for yrs in a matter of days!!! i feel incredibly stupid for hooking them up, and i feel really bad for having hostility toward my bestfriend.:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

Ever since you came into my life you've made things incredibly complicated. I am scared,anxious,and alone in this struggle. this time if something goes wrong i wont have a shoulder to cry on or someone to talk to. i'm scared this secret will eat me alive.i'm scared of what will happen when everyone finds out.

and despite all that-i think you might be worth it.

[Anonymous]

I stole a picture of you when you were a girl because i wanted to make sure i'd always know what she looked like.

she was beautiful. i wish i would have met her when she was you.

[Anonymous]

It was my first day of a new school today!



Sucked.

[interstella]

It's strange how today I've been from happy, to suicidal and back to happy. That's never happened before.

I start school again on Thursday, and I'm dreading it. I aim to be out to everyone by next July (hopefully)

[Anonymous]

even though I said i'd give you a chance,i really doubt i'll be dating you just because the circumstances scare me too much.

I'm sorry.

[Anonymous]

I'm starting a new school. There is one lesbian there.

I don't crush easily, which puts me through phases of doubt. So even if I were to fall for anyone at all, why would it be the lesbian?? It'd probably just be the fit straight girl...

Am I really doomed to be single for the next 2 years, thus rendering me having never been in a relationship by age 18?? *sigh* What are the odds...um, zero?? *sigh*

[xxAngelOnFirexx]

i'm beginning to feel suicidal again but i can't tell anyone or they'll want me to go back to hospital.

for once in my life i'm actually not feeling suicidal. go back to the hospital. it will be worth it. I've been three times and well it may not seem to help it gets you safe from yourself for a while. which is exaclty what you may need at this time in your life. i know i hated it but please suck it out for just alittle while until your better. life's a rollar coaster it has its ups and downs but it will always settle out in the end. (*hug*)

[nodoubtjunkie]

School in the morning. :tears:

Finding it quite hard to be excited for this, I'm absolutely dreading it.

Wish me luck.

Only 9 hours to go.

Hmm, i should really get some sleep.

[Lexington]

>>>Am I really doomed to be single for the next 2 years, thus rendering me having never been in a relationship by age 18?? *sigh* What are the odds...um, zero?? *sigh*

Or "one". :)

I was older than 18 when I finally entered my first relationship. I'd like to think I came out OK. :)

Lex

[-Michael-]

>>>Am I really doomed to be single for the next 2 years, thus rendering me having never been in a relationship by age 18?? *sigh* What are the odds...um, zero?? *sigh*

Or "one". :)

I was older than 18 when I finally entered my first relationship. I'd like to think I came out OK. :)

Lex

Thats what you'd LIKE to think Lex ;)

:lol:

[Lexington]

Hey, who you gonna believe, the gargoyle or the sodomite?

...don't answer that. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I have a maaajor internety crush on Martin.

[EthanS]

^

That was ME!!!!!!!!! only jkin lol

I wanna quit my job and get a new one but i'll need to pay back 1000 pound... unless i work for a few more months

[Anonymous]

I still have that maaaajor interenty crush on martin :)


...:dry:and it was not you ^

[Alexander]

>>>Am I really doomed to be single for the next 2 years, thus rendering me having never been in a relationship by age 18?? *sigh* What are the odds...um, zero?? *sigh*

Or "one". :)

I was older than 18 when I finally entered my first relationship. I'd like to think I came out OK. :)

Lex

It's not a big deal to wait a bit longer before meeting someone you really like to be with. It's definitely a safer bet that you'll get what you want from the relationship. I'm personally just going to try to find a date to senior prom, then no boyfriends till I'm settled in college! There's no rush.

[nodoubtjunkie]

School in the morning. :tears:

Finding it quite hard to be excited for this, I'm absolutely dreading it.

Wish me luck.

Only 9 hours to go.

Hmm, i should really get some sleep.

Okay, I've only got like, 40 minutes before i need to be heading out of the door. I'm shit scared and shaking like mad, i'm so not good in new situations. I'm kinda excited at the same time, i was told that my new school has the biggest student LGBT community of any school in the county, so i might meet some people that i could have something in common with. So, yeah, i thought I'd squeeze a little more EC time in before I'm doomed to spend every waking moment stuck to a book for the next 10 months or so. Needless to say, my EC time will drop dramatically, which i am not, under any circumstances, happy about.
I shall have to go to bed early and wake up early again, instead of going to bed in the early hours and waking up for lunch, kinda thing. Once again, not a happy bunny!
But i suppose it was me that chose to go on to higher education, so i have noone to blame but myself :eusa_booh lol. But then again, i would just be working anyway, if i wasn't in education, so I'd have been doing this for at least a couple of months now, at least i've had the summer to be lazy with :D
I should really stop typing now, as i can hear myself doing that really annoying nervous dribble. Farewell EC, i shall be back as soon as i possibly can!
Good luck to everyone who starts back at school today too, hope everything goes spiffingly.
Lovage to everyone in general, you guys have really brightened up my summer and kept me sane :)
(&&&) and much love.

Marie
(nodoubtjunkie)

[Lexington]

Go kick ass. :thumbsup:

Lex

[Anonymous]

I'm a wedding photographer, and every day at work I see happily married couples. It gets me depressed.

[Anonymous]

i told you & everyone at work that theres nothing going on...so why do i still think about u?!:help:

[panda]

[QUOTE=nodoubtjunkie;299087]School in the morning. :tears:


I suppose it was me that chose to go on to higher education, so i have noone to blame but myself :eusa_booh lol.

Marie
(nodoubtjunkie)

Marie, So many more things in life are possible with more education.

So,, Follow Lex's advice.:thumbsup:...:thumbsup:

[nodoubtjunkie]

It was bad. I really don't fit in, the people in my form are basically exactly the opposite to me.
They are the 'in' crowd. I am not. But there was this really cool deaf girl in my form, i was like the only person who could communicate with her, i know basic sign language, so i think that helped us both. I had history this afternoon, double period, but in two different classes with two different teachers. Confusing, i know. But one is for British History, the other for Russian.
Hopefully, i will be able to form a bond between me and Ellie (the deaf girl) over the next few days, she is in two of the same subjects as me. The history lessons were great, i really enjoyed them. I think I'm just going to dive into my work and hope that i find some people that are my sorta people in my other classes, you never know, there is still hope yet. But I kinda feel like I'm gonna spend ALOT of my free time in the library.

Thanks for all your support EC, it is most appreciated (&&&)

Marie xXx

[Beth]

rihanna's disturbia video scares me rather a lot

[Lexington]

>>>It was bad. I really don't fit in, the people in my form are basically exactly the opposite to me. They are the 'in' crowd. I am not.

Don't be too quick to dismiss them...or, rather, don't be too quick to feel that they're going to dismiss you. You never know. No, you're not suddenly going to be "part of the crowd", but keep your options open. Stay friendly, stay open. Don't ignore Ellie, obviously, but don't feel you have to choose. You'll eventually find some more people you click with.

Lex

[Anonymous]

i love her...so why am i waiting for u to txt?!why am i bothered that u havent?!why am i bothered if u got home ok?!

[Anonymous]

i have a mini crush on white fox :icon_redf

[Anonymous]

i tell myself its not cheating if the other girl has the same name...

[Anonymous]

I've fallen for someone on EC... We have a high chance of actually meeting in real life. I have no idea what to do... :bang:

[Lexington]

>>>I've fallen for someone on EC... We have a high chance of actually meeting in real life. I have no idea what to do...

A HIGH chance? Then why not go for it? Keep the relationship going, see if you can meet up for coffee or something, see what happens?

Lex

[Anonymous]

I wish someone would say they had a crush on me.

[Anonymous]

I wish someone would say they had a crush on me.

I have a crush on you.

[Anonymous]

I wish someone would say they had a crush on me.

I have a crush on you.

Now I wish I knew who you were :D

[nodoubtjunkie]

I wish someone would say they had a crush on me.

I have a crush on you.

i might have too, if i knew who you were....LOL.

[Anonymous]

*paranoia*

[Anonymous]

i cant leave anything alone.i have to ask what u mean even after uve told me to forget it...and everytime i wish i had just forgotten it

[Anonymous]

i wanna cut into my flesh
i wanna cut into my soul
i wanna cut as far as it gets
juts so i can fill this deep damn hole

i wanna cut to feel alive
i wanna cut to lose my pride
i wanna cut to open the wound
just so i know i haven't died

i wanna cut my wrists
i wanna cut my hand
i wanna cut my heart out
just to hang it on a rubber band

i wanna cut to live
i wanna cut to die
i just wanna cut myself
and i really don't know why

I want to find that dear old razor
and dig it in my skin
and later i'll think of the battle
that i really didn't win.

but i know i cannot do that
so i'll put it all away
and know i cannot ever do it
tomorrow or any day.





its my eleven months today no cutting and part of me regrets it all :dry: but as much as i'd like to start again i know i can't and it would destroy my effort and those who care about me so for that i'll try.:icon_wink

[Anonymous]

im sorry that i doubt you.

[Joey]

...I hate you french language. I hate you so dearly. Why do you make no sense to me?

[Anonymous]

I wish someone would say they had a crush on me.

So do I. As far as I know, nobody ever has.

[gutsrie]

I wish someone would say they had a crush on me.

So do I. As far as I know, nobody ever has.

just because no one has said anything doesn't mean you don't have an admirer. you could have a secret crush around somewhere thinking about you from a distance.

[-Michael-]

i tell myself its not cheating if the other girl has the same name...

:roflmao::roflmao::roflmao:

This is genius...

[Anonymous]

i tell myself its not cheating if the other girl has the same name...

:roflmao::roflmao::roflmao:

This is genius...
it might just destroy the world tho

but for now its workin for me...

[Anonymous]

i think you're being distant cuz u know ive only come bk because things went wrong with her............



but now i think maybe you're using me the way i'm using u cuz he's left

[nodoubtjunkie]

I have just found out, from doing my art homework, i am stupidly good at drawing ears on a big scale, like the size of an a4 piece if paper, it looks really good. I'm kinda scared of the fact that ears are like, the best thing i can draw, and i can tell that drawing ears well is going to get me really far in life lol.

I'm gonna go back to my ear.

:roflmao:

[Anonymous]

I fancied you! A lot! You were definately the hottest person I have ever met in real life - and you were a good person, too, as well as hot. But now you are just a memory.

[Starlight]

You are my happiness, my sadness.
The reason for living and the reason I long to die.
You are my pillar of strength, my greatest weakness.
You are my Angel, my Demon
:tears:

[Anonymous]

i burned myself and now i feel so guilty i'm trying not to cry. i feel like i'm going to throw up. i didn't even leave a mark! but just the thought of coming so close to doing something worse makes me so sick :tears: i'm really sorry- to myself. even though it really was nothing big at all. at least i didn't end up cutting. :bang:

[Anonymous]

I went through two years of completely voluntary separation from my father. It was well after I had realized my sexuality, for the people who think an absent father has any effect on that...that's over now, but I'm still pretty distant from him. And my mother, but I'm closer to her and her side of the family than my dad's.

[jazzrawr]

I have just found out, from doing my art homework, i am stupidly good at drawing ears on a big scale, like the size of an a4 piece if paper, it looks really good. I'm kinda scared of the fact that ears are like, the best thing i can draw, and i can tell that drawing ears well is going to get me really far in life lol.

I'm gonna go back to my ear.

:roflmao:

HAHAHAHA XD
Oh, Marie. XD
I'll confess...I'm pretty good at drawing hands.
I like hands. XD

[biisme]

i burned myself and now i feel so guilty i'm trying not to cry. i feel like i'm going to throw up. i didn't even leave a mark! but just the thought of coming so close to doing something worse makes me so sick :tears: i'm really sorry- to myself. even though it really was nothing big at all. at least i didn't end up cutting. :bang:

I think you should be scared. You didn't end up cutting, but you did something equally just as bad! (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

Why do you want to cut? And, have you talked to anyone about these feelings? I think you should really tell someone.

[Anonymous]

i burned myself and now i feel so guilty i'm trying not to cry. i feel like i'm going to throw up. i didn't even leave a mark! but just the thought of coming so close to doing something worse makes me so sick :tears: i'm really sorry- to myself. even though it really was nothing big at all. at least i didn't end up cutting. :bang:

I think you should be scared. You didn't end up cutting, but you did something equally just as bad! (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

Why do you want to cut? And, have you talked to anyone about these feelings? I think you should really tell someone.

i barely touched the flame to me. not enough to burn but enough to feel the pain for like 3 seconds. i've talked to my best friend about it. so its not like i'm keeping it to myself. i just have been having problems lately...

[Anonymous]

I have nightmares about forgetting everything I've learned, and an irrational fear of just waking up Dumb one day.:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I like trying on womens clothes ever since i was in my late teens, does that make me weird

[biisme]

i burned myself and now i feel so guilty i'm trying not to cry. i feel like i'm going to throw up. i didn't even leave a mark! but just the thought of coming so close to doing something worse makes me so sick :tears: i'm really sorry- to myself. even though it really was nothing big at all. at least i didn't end up cutting. :bang:

I think you should be scared. You didn't end up cutting, but you did something equally just as bad! (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

Why do you want to cut? And, have you talked to anyone about these feelings? I think you should really tell someone.

i barely touched the flame to me. not enough to burn but enough to feel the pain for like 3 seconds. i've talked to my best friend about it. so its not like i'm keeping it to myself. i just have been having problems lately...

I really hope everything gets better for you. (*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

Truly, I do. And, if you ever want to talk, you can ALWAYS sent me a PM.

[Anonymous]

When I'm in a relationship. I'm extremely diva and super-fabulous. I mean when I walk down the street Jon Bennet wishes she was me.


The thing is, that I'm a straight-acting male who has thoughts like these.

[gutsrie]

I like trying on womens clothes ever since i was in my late teens, does that make me weird

weird is good! :thumbsup:

i've done so on occasion as well though not since my mom found out i've been wearing her favorite dresses...

[Swamp56]

I'm gay....

LOL, seriously though, I have OCD and depression ;o .

[Anonymous]

Im afraid of falling in love with her for fear that what happened in her last relationship will happen to us... but its too late i love her!

[Anonymous]

I'm tempted to cheat all the time. I fear that I'll give in one day. :(

[Muzzy]

I believe my mom is voting for McCain.:bang:

[Anonymous]

I considered killing myself today...:tears:

[Anonymous]

I believe my mom is voting for McCain.:bang:

NO

WAY

!

:eek:

[Anonymous]

i dont care about u.ur shallow.ur a complete cow.in ur words "a headfuck".so why when i agreed to cover his shift later did i think ooooooh i wonder if ur in later too...




if you are in...when we're cleaning after the place closes...we will be in there...by the showers...i'll be thinking of that dream u had

[Anonymous]

I guess I didn't really love you, because I wouldn't give up anything for you.
u kept telling me I was immature? look in the mirror.
I don't miss you. I miss the idea of you, and I hope you have a nice life, but I guess u were just there to quench my summer boredom, and I'm sorry I ever met you.
I've still never been kissed.

[xxAngelOnFirexx]

I considered killing myself today...:tears:

want to talk about it? feel free to PM me! I've been there before. lots of times. (*hug*)

[jazzrawr]

I have a crush on my friend's exchange student. >.<
Damn it. XD

[Anonymous]

Ive been unintentionaly starving myself this past week.

Its becoming a reflex to just say
"Im not hungry"

[The Enigmatic]

I got sick of hearing my mum and sister complaining about leaving the toilet seat up so I decided that as a joke I'd start putting both the seat and lid down.....now it's like a year later and I only just realized that I've been doing it ever since. lol, it's not really a secret just something random I thought of.
I suppose the secret could be that I was doing it on purpose to annoy them, I'll think of something better next time hahahaha.

[Lexington]

>>>Ive been unintentionaly starving myself this past week. It's becoming a reflex to just say "Im not hungry"

Do you know what might be behind this? Why you're doing it? Feel free to PM me if you don't want to talk on the board...

Lex

[Anonymous]

>>>Ive been unintentionaly starving myself this past week. It's becoming a reflex to just say "Im not hungry"

Do you know what might be behind this? Why you're doing it? Feel free to PM me if you don't want to talk on the board...

Lex

I don't know.
I know i dont like the way i look.
But its not asif i am consiously not eating when hungry.
Im just ignoring the stomach cramps and stuff.
don't know why...

[Anonymous]

i'm bipolar and ADD and have something called dysgraphia (can't spell)--it's kinda the opposite of dyslexia.

[Anonymous]

I got sick of hearing my mum and sister complaining about leaving the toilet seat up so I decided that as a joke I'd start putting both the seat and lid down.....now it's like a year later and I only just realized that I've been doing it ever since. lol, it's not really a secret just something random I thought of.
I suppose the secret could be that I was doing it on purpose to annoy them, I'll think of something better next time hahahaha.

:roflmao:

[Anonymous]

Ive been unintentionaly starving myself this past week.

Its becoming a reflex to just say
"Im not hungry"

I just plain don't get hungry, are people supposed to "feel" when they're hungry?
Because I don't. Sometimes I it's 2-3 days before I realize I haven't eaten.
I'm not trying to "steal your thunder" or anything I'm just saying that I'm in a similar, yet different, boat.

[Anonymous]

I just plain don't get hungry, are people supposed to "feel" when they're hungry?
Because I don't. Sometimes I it's 2-3 days before I realize I haven't eaten.
I'm not trying to "steal your thunder" or anything I'm just saying that I'm in a similar, yet different, boat.
OP
Well i know when im hungry, i just don't do anything about it anymore.

I think with the past 4 days ive had a sandwhich and a redbull...
oh and a coffee...

[Lexington]

Your body gives off signals for a reason. When your ankle hurts, it's your body saying "there's something wrong here - look into it." When you get really sleepy, it's your body saying "I need some time to recharge." And when you're hungry, it's your body asking for fuel. You don't have to sit down and eat a huge burger and large fries each time your body asks for a fill-up, of course, but it's best to feed it something. If you're looking to lose some weight, keep some low-cal, healthy snacks around the house - fresh veggies are always good. Then, when you feel hungry, you can give your body what it needs - fuel - without ignoring the hunger pains.

Lex

[Anonymous]

I have a crush on my friend's exchange student. >.<
Damn it. XD

I'm secretly wishing that your friends exchange student is me. And that you could be crushing on me too.

[Anonymous]

Ive been unintentionaly starving myself this past week.

Its becoming a reflex to just say
"Im not hungry"

wow me too! except mine is intentionally...

[EthanS]

i'm bipolar and ADD and have something called dysgraphia (can't spell)--it's kinda the opposite of dyslexia.

Does that mean your really clever?

[-Michael-]

i'm bipolar and ADD and have something called dysgraphia (can't spell)--it's kinda the opposite of dyslexia.

Does that mean your really clever?

Means they can read without being able to write properly
They all differ.
Things like qbdp can really confuse them.
Things like randomly large letters can happen.

[biisme]

Ive been unintentionaly starving myself this past week.

Its becoming a reflex to just say
"Im not hungry"

wow me too! except mine is intentionally...

Hmmmm.....I think you guys should try to eat, ESPECIALLY the person who is starving themselves purposely. Having a nutrional diet is very important. Please try to eat some more.

[Anonymous]

i have my moments of cleverness. the dysgraphia messes me up alot at school bc of all the writing but now that i can print off something to show my teachers what i'm trying to explain its gotten better.
i'm just glad there is finally a name 4 it. i spent a really long time just thinking i was dumb bc of what my stupid teachers told me.

[Anonymous]

I don't want to fall in love anymore. I can't breathe without feeling the pain.

[Anonymous]

i'm sorry hun. i know that it hurts; and it's hard but you can't give up.

[Anonymous]

you said u were sad i was leaving in a few weeks
now u dont care
i'm dropping hints that ive got a week left
please!!!!!do something!!!!!!!!:help:

[Anonymous]

Im afraid of falling in love with her for fear that what happened in her last relationship will happen to us... but its too late i love her!
i read that & thought...i dont remember posting that
:icon_redf
now i'm questionning my feelings for this girl...i just thought that i'd posted it so there must be sumthing in my mind?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!

[Anonymous]

I guess I didn't really love you, because I wouldn't give up anything for you.
u kept telling me I was immature? look in the mirror.
I don't miss you. I miss the idea of you, and I hope you have a nice life.
this feels like it should be mine too
there was a time when i would have given up the world for u.now i dont feel like ur worth it or deserve it in the slightest...i'm so glad i realised this b4 i did go throwing away my dreams
u have a nice life...i know i will!
both the girls in my life are immature yet make out its me :confused:
they need to snap out & get a grip

[Anonymous]

I'm over you. You spoke me to like :***: last time we spoke, so goodbye feelings hello freedom.

[Anonymous]

someone just posted another secret that could have been mine

[Anonymous]

I want to SI so badly right now, but i am NOT going to give into temptation, it's just NOT going to happen. I won't let it.

[Anonymous]

I want to SI so badly right now, but i am NOT going to give into temptation, it's just NOT going to happen. I won't let it.

You can aboid temptation. I know you can! (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I want to SI so badly right now, but i am NOT going to give into temptation, it's just NOT going to happen. I won't let it.

go you! (*hug*) i'm fighting too.

[Anonymous]

i lost 10lbs since monday. i think its due to starting back at my eating disorder this week...

[biisme]

i lost 10lbs since monday. i think its due to starting back at my eating disorder this week...

That is a very severe weight loss!!! You cannot allow yourself to lose so much weight; you can seriously injure yourself this way. Have you told anoyone about your continuation of your eating disorder?

[Anonymous]

I don't know what SI is.

[biisme]

I don't know what SI is.

I believe it stands for "self-injury"

[Anonymous]

my life is absolutely meaningless and the person i am is not good enough, good-looking enough, or man enough for anything.
i hate myself and do not see the point in doing anything.

[Tokarov]

I've fallen for someone on EC... We have a high chance of actually meeting in real life. I have no idea what to do... :bang:


Go for it! See where it goes, ya never know! :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

im in love with someone ive never met, but know more about than most people i have met.

[Asteroid]

my life is absolutely meaningless and the person i am is not good enough, good-looking enough, or man enough for anything.
i hate myself and do not see the point in doing anything.

Hi there! I am sorry that you feel this way. Let me start off by saying that life is never meaningless. Sometimes it might feel this way, but keep in mind that these feelings will pass. We are all different and have our unique qualities that make us who we are. I am sure you have lots of great qualities in you that other people will want to know about. There is a point to everything we do in life.

I think what might help you is if you try to build up some self-esteem and some self-worth. This will allow you to see things differently and your outlook on life will change.

Try to concentrate on the things that you are good at and accept your weaknesses. In doing the things that you are good at and that you like you will be able to generate some pride in what you are doing and it will allow you to build up some self-esteem. It does not matter what it is. If you like for example swimming, go and do that. If you like jogging, go and do that. Whatever it is that you like, go for it. Every time you do something that you like, and it does not matter what it is, try to set yourself a realistic goal and try to achieve it. If you achieve that goal great you can set the bar higher and try to achieve that. If not, that's okay too. It is something to look forward to for the next time. In doing the things that you like and setting yourself realistic goals and working to achieve them you will build self-worth and self-esteem. Talk about your goals (related to the things you like, or even more general goals in life that you might have) the things you like and do with your friends. Often we have to hear ourselves talking about these things so that we become aware of them. Also, talking about your goals will allow you to think more about them which will help you to change your outlook on life as well. Start working towards these goals.

In building up some self-esteem and self-worth you will also allow yourself to start liking yourself (and eventually loving yourself) for who you are. Try to stand in front of a mirror and look at yourself and say to yourself "I like me for who I am. This is the way I was meant to be and that is okay. It makes completes me as a person." Try to do it every day and with time you will start to like yourself for who you are.

Never give up on yourself. Try to set yourself some goals and try to achieve them. Give it a try!

I hope this helps a bit!

[Anonymous]

i let myself get really into a girl...i thought she was funny,cool,bit crazy,chilled,just a really great girl...then i find out stuff about her that makes me think omg!shes awful.
this happened with my last gf,i thought she was funny and cool and random...then i find out her drug habits (bad enuf on its own) extended to cocaine

i dont half pick em

[-Michael-]

I don't know what SI is.

I believe it stands for "self-injury"

inflict

[biisme]

I don't know what SI is.

I believe it stands for "self-injury"

inflict

hmmm...the internet has been lying to me again...

[Anonymous]

si is self injury. you can also call it cutting, self harm, self munilation or bloodletting. it's when people cut, burn, or purposely hurt themselves. there are even several famous people who've participate.

[-Michael-]

si is self injury. you can also call it cutting, self harm, self munilation or bloodletting. it's when people cut, burn, or purposely hurt themselves. there are even several famous people who've participate.

self injury myself...doesnt really make snese...

SH would

[Anonymous]

si is self injury. you can also call it cutting, self harm, self munilation or bloodletting. it's when people cut, burn, or purposely hurt themselves. there are even several famous people who've participate.

i'm sorry, but i find your choice of vocabulary insulting, you make it sound like its a choice, like its a fun thing to do, a fun thing to go through, like some sort of craze. Sorry if i've take this the wrong way, but it's a sensitive subject.

[Anonymous]

i think i've started to fall really hard for someone today, and i think they feel the same way, we just connected and we just kinda, bounced off each other. We had a brilliant day together, as friends, but i really, really hope that we can work something out, she made me laugh and smile so much i thought my jaw would break :icon_bigg

[Trumpetplyer23]

I'm falling for her, but I'm so afraid that it's just a joke, and I'm too afraid to ask her. Looks like I'll be playing the subliminal hint game until I get enough guts to say 'hey, can I talk to you' and actually do it.

[Anonymous]

i have a new number...its an excuse to txt u...but i'm afraid u'll be with ur gf & she'll kick off

[Anonymous]

Im f***ing DESPERATE to live in a city like LA with a gay community rather than the middle of nowhere, as I do now.

[Anonymous]

I'm scared and not really sure what to do. It seems whatever I do I can't really win and it's all confusing me. I don't know what I want anymore and I feel like I shouldn't have to decide yet but that that's what everyone expects me to do. Oh and I just want a hug.

[ltb2511]

I'm scared and not really sure what to do. It seems whatever I do I can't really win and it's all confusing me. I don't know what I want anymore and I feel like I shouldn't have to decide yet but that that's what everyone expects me to do. Oh and I just want a hug.

(*hug*) (&&&) (*hug*) BIG HUGS!

[Anonymous]

I'm scared and not really sure what to do. It seems whatever I do I can't really win and it's all confusing me. I don't know what I want anymore and I feel like I shouldn't have to decide yet but that that's what everyone expects me to do. Oh and I just want a hug.

(*hug*) Now that last need we can (sort of) tend to :) (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I am scared of what my family and my mom will think of me. :tears: I am lost and cannot find the path I need to be on. I wish someone would just appear and help guide me. I just want that one person to come and sweep me off my feat.

[Anonymous]

It really, really annoys me when things get spelled wrong or over abbreviated. I can make acceptions, and often do, but I find myself wanted to change everything to proper English. The one thing I hate the most though, it when apostrophes are missed out, I know it's not the end of the world, but it just makes me want to scream slightly.

[Anonymous]

It really, really annoys me when things get spelled wrong or over abbreviated. I can make acceptions, and often do, but I find myself wanted to change everything to proper English. The one thing I hate the most though, it when apostrophes are missed out, I know it's not the end of the world, but it just makes me want to scream slightly.

Me too, a bit.
I detest chatspeak. :|
It makes me want to hit something. XD

[Anonymous]

I'm scared of hospitals.


And I have to go on Monday :(

[biisme]

I am scared of what my family and my mom will think of me. :tears: I am lost and cannot find the path I need to be on. I wish someone would just appear and help guide me. I just want that one person to come and sweep me off my feat.

(*hug*)(*hug*)

*arrempts to sweep poster of their virtual feet*

[biisme]

I'm scared of hospitals.


And I have to go on Monday :(

I hope everything goes okay!!!!!!!! (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I'm pretty skeptic about a good bit of posts here..

[Midnight Angel]

I'm seriously addicted to RENT. The movie especially. It is so amazing. My sister and I watch it every day and we love it. We have like in depth conversations about it lol.

[Anonymous]

My ex boyfriend who i have never gotten over even after a year and a half told me he would love me again if he could take my looks and the way i am in bed and put it with another persons personality. I still hook up with him because the only time he ever pays any attention to me is when we are in his bed.

[Lexington]

>>>My ex boyfriend who i have never gotten over even after a year and a half told me he would love me again if he could take my looks and the way i am in bed and put it with another persons personality

You've got more to offer than a cute face and a hot body. DTMFA.

Lex

[Lexington]

>>>Im f***ing DESPERATE to live in a city like LA with a gay community rather than the middle of nowhere, as I do now.

Don't feel that it's LA or nothing. People seem to think of Denver as a backward city in the middle of "the hate state", but there's a large and thriving gay scene here. Cast your eyes towards the nearest city of decent size - chances are you'll be fine there. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

The thought of going back on monday knocks me sick.
But the thought of seeing your smile again makes me impatient.

[Anonymous]

i'm scared that i dont randomly pop into ur head anymore...cuz u sure as hell pop into mine.............


i want u 2 be out again 2moro nite but at the same i dont want u 2 b incase u pull!!!


i feel a tad bad now cuz sum1 said sumthin about chat speak lol

[Anonymous]

i feel a tad bad now cuz sum1 said sumthin about chat speak lol
:icon_roll

[interstella]

Am I gay? Am I bi? Could I even be straight? Who knows? I sure as hell don't. :confused:

[Anonymous]

i feel a tad bad now cuz sum1 said sumthin about chat speak lol
:icon_roll

thanks!:rolleyes:

[Anonymous]

I had a dream last night about being raped...by one of my best friends. I couldn't look him in the eye after that--I'm terrified of men for some inexplicable reason. No offense to guys and all...but I get scared, and I don't know why.

[mediumdietcoke]

Am I gay? Am I bi? Could I even be straight? Who knows? I sure as hell don't. :confused:

Who knows, really? Does anyone really ever know?

[amyleona]

i just got into a fight with my mom. it ended with her telling me to just leave her alone. but i cant, i have to explain. everything that i said, i meant, but she took it all the wrong way.

for years, my family hasnt been ale to do much because of my moms health and her work. basically, she is on call 24/7. at any moment, she can get an outage and she will have to work. she has osteo and rhumatory arthritis in her knees, which pretty much means that its VERY difficult for her to walk. we may have something planned, but then we cant do anything because she cant walk that day without holding on to me.

its not just outings that get canceled with us. its everything. whenever we have anything to planned, it gets canceld. like tonight, we were going to watch a movie, and now we cant because...i dont even know why actually.

it hurts so much to see her struggle to walk 20' to her car. it hurts me when my mom, the only one who supports me in whatever i do, cant go to see me get my ribbon at the art/science/literature/history fair. it hurts me to be the only one in a show whos mom cant go to see any of the performances because she cant walk. it hurts me to have to go to movies and shows by myself. but most of all, it hurts me to see how much it hurts my mom.

*punches pillow...really hard*

[nodoubtjunkie]

I GOT HIT ON TODAY!!
Well, kinda.... lol.
It was in art class, and the girl i sit next to in the other art class grabbed the seat next to mine and claimed it as hers for the rest of the year. Needless to say, this pleases me greatly as she is very, erm, shall we say visually pleasing? lol. And we were harmlessly flirting for the two hour period we had together. Nearing the end of the lesson the teacher said that she had some invitations for the opening of the exhibition, which i have some work in, which opens on friday. Stevie, this girl, asked if she could grab an invitation and come and see my work, totally fine by me. So then, as we were packing up, i told her that she looked really cool today (she was wearing like a knee length black and white polkadot dress with black skinny jeans and pumps) and she was like, no, i just threw these on this morning, type of thing. But then she turned round to me and said, 'but i really like what you're wearing, the whole shirt-waistcoat-cute-thing really suits you, you look gorgeous today'. this made me very happy lol. And as we were walking out of school she asked me if she could have my number, and that she'd text me later, which she has done :D lol.
Tell me what you think, am i reading too much into this? or am i genuinely picking up signals here? cause i don't want to be like, oh she like me, type of thing, when she doesn't. So what do you think?

[-Michael-]

I GOT HIT ON TODAY!!
Well, kinda.... lol.
It was in art class, and the girl i sit next to in the other art class grabbed the seat next to mine and claimed it as hers for the rest of the year. Needless to say, this pleases me greatly as she is very, erm, shall we say visually pleasing? lol. And we were harmlessly flirting for the two hour period we had together. Nearing the end of the lesson the teacher said that she had some invitations for the opening of the exhibition, which i have some work in, which opens on friday. Stevie, this girl, asked if she could grab an invitation and come and see my work, totally fine by me. So then, as we were packing up, i told her that she looked really cool today (she was wearing like a knee length black and white polkadot dress with black skinny jeans and pumps) and she was like, no, i just threw these on this morning, type of thing. But then she turned round to me and said, 'but i really like what you're wearing, the whole shirt-waistcoat-cute-thing really suits you, you look gorgeous today'. this made me very happy lol. And as we were walking out of school she asked me if she could have my number, and that she'd text me later, which she has done :D lol.
Tell me what you think, am i reading too much into this? or am i genuinely picking up signals here? cause i don't want to be like, oh she like me, type of thing, when she doesn't. So what do you think?


MAZ HAS GOT A GIRLFRIEND.

MAZ HAD GOT A GRILFRIEND.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

aha i crack myself up :')

[Anonymous]

I GOT HIT ON TODAY!!
Well, kinda.... lol.
It was in art class, and the girl i sit next to in the other art class grabbed the seat next to mine and claimed it as hers for the rest of the year. Needless to say, this pleases me greatly as she is very, erm, shall we say visually pleasing? lol. And we were harmlessly flirting for the two hour period we had together. Nearing the end of the lesson the teacher said that she had some invitations for the opening of the exhibition, which i have some work in, which opens on friday. Stevie, this girl, asked if she could grab an invitation and come and see my work, totally fine by me. So then, as we were packing up, i told her that she looked really cool today (she was wearing like a knee length black and white polkadot dress with black skinny jeans and pumps) and she was like, no, i just threw these on this morning, type of thing. But then she turned round to me and said, 'but i really like what you're wearing, the whole shirt-waistcoat-cute-thing really suits you, you look gorgeous today'. this made me very happy lol. And as we were walking out of school she asked me if she could have my number, and that she'd text me later, which she has done :D lol.
Tell me what you think, am i reading too much into this? or am i genuinely picking up signals here? cause i don't want to be like, oh she like me, type of thing, when she doesn't. So what do you think?


MAZ HAS GOT A GIRLFRIEND.

MAZ HAD GOT A GRILFRIEND.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

aha i crack myself up :')

oh michael, your maturity level amazes me!

you did you get so grown up???

LMAO, oj :D

With any luck :D she perdy :)

Fingers crossed (yn) :)

[nodoubtjunkie]

^^ damned red box lol. Twas moi :]

[Trumpetplyer23]

I feel like my dad doesn't love me or care about me. Like I'm just another bill for him to pay. I've felt like this for years :( :( :( :tears:

[Joey]

I feel like my dad doesn't love me or care about me. Like I'm just another bill for him to pay. I've felt like this for years :( :( :( :tears:

(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I'm falling for a straight guy. AGAIN!

It's like feelings are like moving trains, you Cannot stop them! Then they hit you hard and you feel like craaaaaaaaaaap. (well you'd be dead, but you get the picture)

I just got over my LAST one. :bang:

[ccdd]

I'm back at square one: I think I'm straight. Or gay. Or maybe bi. Or in a phase. Or I've convinced myself - you know, that I'm gay.

Oh dear, we're here again :eusa_doh:

[Anonymous]

I'm back at square one: I think I'm straight. Or gay. Or maybe bi. Or in a phase. Or I've convinced myself - you know, that I'm gay.

Oh dear, we're here again :eusa_doh:

Hey I know its hard, and incredibly confusing but really try not to worry too much about it all. However cliched it may sound just follow your heart and whatever feels right to you. If you can manage to ignore all the conflicting thoughts and just live in the present things will become clearer. Don't give up on it all yet as I'm sure it will work itself out. Good luck and I hope it all goes well. (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I almost committed suicide today while my parents were away.
I'm tired of causing pain to everyone around me. I wish there was a way to undo my coming out.

[biisme]

I almost committed suicide today while my parents were away.
I'm tired of causing pain to everyone around me. I wish there was a way to undo my coming out.

I beg of you, DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE!!!!!!! Please, do not!!!! What's been going on?

You can always PM me, or any other member of the staff if you want to talk. Please, talk to someone.

[Wander]

I almost committed suicide today while my parents were away.
I'm tired of causing pain to everyone around me. I wish there was a way to undo my coming out.

I beg of you, DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE!!!!!!! Please, do not!!!! What's been going on?

You can always PM me, or any other member of the staff if you want to talk. Please, talk to someone.

That.

For me: I have a pretty strong crush on a guy a barely know, but who is very likely gay himself. Just yesterday, I had a disturbing mental image of him dead, and he wasn't at school today. I got a little nervous when he didn't show up to lunch, and I'm really anxious about tomorrow. I feel like a timid schoolgirl, but that was a really freaky combination of thoughts and events.

[Anonymous]

I almost committed suicide today while my parents were away.
I'm tired of causing pain to everyone around me. I wish there was a way to undo my coming out.

Please please take out all thoughts of suicide from your head. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I had a friend who committed suicide, and let me tell, it's not the answer. Please contact one of the Mods or anyone you can on the boards xxx

[ccdd]

I just saw my crush and as usual she was absolutely beautiful with the most wonderful laugh and smile, and wearing the most lovely perfume...

*sigh*

[Anonymous]

i cant believe i gave u my new number
i'm leaving
come on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i didnt txt back with anything that was worth of a response...but my mind is wandering again...maybe you're not txting back because you've got with someone AGAIN





my ex...i havent thought about her as much as i should have this week

[Loveless]

I'm falling for a straight guy. AGAIN!

It's like feelings are like moving trains, you Cannot stop them! Then they hit you hard and you feel like craaaaaaaaaaap. (well you'd be dead, but you get the picture)

I just got over my LAST one. :bang:

I hate crushes :tantrum:

[jazzrawr]

I'm falling for a straight guy. AGAIN!

It's like feelings are like moving trains, you Cannot stop them! Then they hit you hard and you feel like craaaaaaaaaaap. (well you'd be dead, but you get the picture)

I just got over my LAST one. :bang:

I hate crushes :tantrum:

Me too.
I also hate when someone you've had a crush on for over a year tells you she's questioning her sexuality, but she lives in Niagra Falls. >.<
Eff my life. XD

[Anonymous]

I fixed a club election to get voted president.

[Anonymous]

I fixed a club election to get voted president.

How far away were u originally?

[Anonymous]

I'm scared that I can't get a possible relationship going, simply because I'm timid due to numerous past rejections. I keep telling myself to just chill and go for it, but I'm terribly afraid of getting hurt again.

[Anonymous]

i think im starting to get a crush on someone here.

*head hits table*

[Anonymous]

i think im starting to get a crush on someone here.

*head hits table*

lol me too :rolleyes:

[nodoubtjunkie]

I really feel like giving up. I'm so sick of being so scared all the time. I just need someone to hold me. I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm sorry.

I love you guys, you're the ones keeping me going.

[Starlight]

I really feel like giving up. I'm so sick of being so scared all the time. I just need someone to hold me. I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm sorry.

I love you guys, you're the ones keeping me going.

Be strong Marie (*hug*)

[ltb2511]

I really feel like giving up. I'm so sick of being so scared all the time. I just need someone to hold me. I don't know what to do anymore.

I'm sorry.

I love you guys, you're the ones keeping me going.

You are one of the strongest people I know. (*hug*) You'll get through this Marie.

Love Lauren. X

[Anonymous]

I fixed a club election to get voted president.

Just like George Bush.:icon_wink

[Anonymous]

i'm leaving tomorrow.
i sit & think hmm what do i miss?what am i bothered about leaving behind?

it makes me sick when u come to mind
i dont like u.you're a vile bitch.
but still...

its was only a bit of fun.you're actually nothing to me
my life was fine before you barged in!!

[yahooooo]

It has been almost five monthes since I came out to the first person, someone who used to be a close friend. Since then we haven't seen each other outside school or places where we were forced to be together. I have tired texting, sending facebook messages, anything I could think of to get in touch and although I get a reply, it is cold and obvious that she doesn't want to see me. She doesn't think its right and it makes her uncomfortable - why, she doens't know. It has hurt me so much and what she has done has upset me so much. I needed her and she just didn't care. I feel so pathetic that I miss her so much and am still trying to get back into contact even when all my previous efforts have been thrown back in my face. She doens't seem to care yet I can't let go. So today I deceided for my own good I am going to try and let go of her. I came out to her via text as I was too scared to tell her face to face. I kept all those texts in a folder on my mobile, I just couldn't delete them until today. They are gone now and I'm hoping it can be the start of not letting myself be hurt by her actions. I went through a period of hating her for what she did but then I realised that like me, she never asked for this, probably had no idea what to do and has deceided denial and escape is the easiest way of handling something she has no skills to cope with. I still miss her so much though and wish I understood why she couldn't just be honest with me instead of building up my hopes by saying she was accepting and still wants to be friends, then acting so cold and ignoring me. I would love so much to talk to her but when ever I try she closes up. I don't know whether to keep trying or whether to give up. Whenever in the past I have tried to explain how obvious it is that she is uncomfortable with it and how us being friends will not work while I know there is a bit of me that she hates and refuses to awknowledge she acts as if I am only imagining this. It's just all so confusing and I miss her so much.

[Anonymous]

i think im starting to get a crush on someone here.

*head hits table*

lol me too :rolleyes:

Me three :)

[Lexington]

i think im starting to get a crush on someone here.

*head hits table*

lol me too :rolleyes:

Me three :)

Relax, you three - there's plenty of gargoyle to go around. :roflmao:

Lex

[Anonymous]

When I finish reading the day's newspaper, I take black and red pens and Jokerface all the obituary portraits.

[Noah]

Sorry about the suicide message guys,
I've been having a rough time.
I'm getting over it though, there's light at the end of the tunnel.
:icon_bigg

Thanks for everything!

[Anonymous]

i think im starting to get a crush on someone here.

*head hits table*

lol me too :rolleyes:

Me three :)

Relax, you three - there's plenty of gargoyle to go around. :roflmao:

Lex

[op]

sorry lex, i dont think youre a performing arts person...or a girl...


lol

[Anonymous]

I have a few EC crushes. Too bad they all live on a different continent. >.<

[Anonymous]

I hate that I'm a lesbian. Sometimes I just wish I was straight.

[Anonymous]

This may be the last time I ever post...I'm losing consciousness as I type. Suicide is my only way out.

[Anonymous]

Please don't do that . There's a better life ahead .Don't give up.

[Anonymous]

This may be the last time I ever post...I'm losing consciousness as I type. Suicide is my only way out.

Please don't:( (*hug*)(*hug*)

[Anonymous]

This may be the last time I ever post...I'm losing consciousness as I type. Suicide is my only way out.

Do NOT commit suicide!!!!!!

Call someone. Tell someone. Just scream. Please, do something.

[Anonymous]

This may be the last time I ever post...I'm losing consciousness as I type. Suicide is my only way out.


dont. just please, dont. there is always another way out. i used to think that suicide was the only option too, but it wasnt. im getting better, i am happier. you can be too, if you just stay alive. that all you have to do. please, just do that for everyone here. we will always be here for you.

[Anonymous]

I hate that I'm a lesbian. Sometimes I just wish I was straight.

you sound like me a year ago. i used to think i hated who i was because everyone else did. i eventually figured out that i just valued those people too much to not think that way.

[Lexington]

This may be the last time I ever post...I'm losing consciousness as I type. Suicide is my only way out.

Do NOT commit suicide!!!!!!

Call someone. Tell someone. Just scream. Please, do something.

We've managed to locate the OP, and it appears everything's under control. Thank you for all your responses - you guys kick ass. :)

Lex

[Anonymous]

I asked my dad for somewhere to live.

What does he give me?

A digital camera.

Okay, so now i have a new digital camera, rock on, but a decent place to live?

Hmn....No.

Thanks for the camera Dad.

[Anonymous]

i decided i'm going to try and stop being bulimic

[Anonymous]

i decided i'm going to try and stop being bulimic

Good for you! We're all behind you in your efforts, don't forget that. =]

[Joey]

hm... I don't know if I'll be happy later on in life. I don't know if what I've spent the last few years studying will make me happy as a career... I keep on thinking that maybe I would've been happier pursuing what I enjoyed doing (music) instead of what I thought would be ok, but lucrative (biology)

Not only that, but I think I might have been happier going to a different university... :/ This whole thing might have been a bit of a miss.

[Anonymous]

I've never considered doing a school shooting or mall bombing or anything like that, but I've always hoped that when I do die it's a little more interesting for the survivors to watch than heart failure or suffocation.

[seanathon]

How come all my daydreams involve me being watched by huge crowds, spectators and admirers, yet my nightmares always involve me being watched from afar by one person?

[Anonymous]

I'm questioning...life can be a bitch sometimes; it throws some random person into the mix, and suddenly everything you knew is no longer true. Love is like a cruel game, and we are the playing pieces; someone larger and more important than us rolls the dice, and we're pulled toward someone against our will, and at the same time they're pulled away from us with just the same, if not a stronger force. I'm sick of moving six squares to the right to find that it's still empty.
And when it's someone of the opposite sex, when I was so certain just recently...well, it's just a little too much. If only I could look at him and let my fears permeate the air to drive him away; if only I were no longer that skittish little girl inside, intimidated by everyone except that one person who takes your heart and holds it just long enough so it crushes me in agonizing pain form the inside out when they finally tear it to pieces.
Just when I thought I had it figured...

[Anonymous]

I don't understand why RENT is so popular. I really just don't get it. The songs are interesting but I don't find them as something that would invoke me singing along. I actually find them annoying. The plot is odd at best and the characters/actors freak me out.

What the hell dude, you can't pay rent, why not get a smaller apartment? He's got like library sized windows and a pretty schweet view so I'm sure that's gotta be worth a pretty penny.

Anyway, I really don't see why everyone I know is crazy for it.

[Atom]

I've never considered doing a school shooting or mall bombing or anything like that, but I've always hoped that when I do die it's a little more interesting for the survivors to watch than heart failure or suffocation.

i love this person.

[Midnight Angel]

I don't understand why RENT is so popular. I really just don't get it. The songs are interesting but I don't find them as something that would invoke me singing along. I actually find them annoying. The plot is odd at best and the characters/actors freak me out.

What the hell dude, you can't pay rent, why not get a smaller apartment? He's got like library sized windows and a pretty schweet view so I'm sure that's gotta be worth a pretty penny.

Anyway, I really don't see why everyone I know is crazy for it.

I love rent. I'm like obsessed with it lol. I love the message I love the plot I love the characters and actors and I love the songs. Idk I guess me and the people you know get something from it that you don't.

[Lexington]

>>>Thanks for the camera Dad.

Take a picture of an apartment and send it to your Dad.

Lex

[Wander]

I've never considered doing a school shooting or mall bombing or anything like that, but I've always hoped that when I do die it's a little more interesting for the survivors to watch than heart failure or suffocation.

i love this person.

Thank you.

[Anonymous]

Lately I wonder what would my friends say if they knew I was gay and had sex with some guy they saw me with once thinking it was a new friend. I'm sure they'd be surprised if I said I had sex 7 times in the span of 5 days. :p

[Anonymous]

I've written erotica in class.

[Miaplacidus]

I've written erotica in class.

So have I. lol.

[Anonymous]

I've written erotica in class.

So have I. lol.

Me too, in the back of a very boring history lesson lol.

[Miaplacidus]

I wrote erotica (okay okay... PORN) about a very cute straight friend of mine and a hot classmate and posted it online. Names changed of course...

[Anonymous]

Despite what the majority might think about God and Homosexuality, I believe in God and I beleive that he loves me despite the fact that I'm gay. It's what gives me my strength to keep going and to keep fighting...

[Anonymous]

everyone would hate me if they knew who i really was or what i think about. i cannot keep myself from thinking horrible awful things and i think very serial killer thoughts so often.

i do too. but long as you don't do them they are just thoughts. you are a good person long as you are able to surpress them. and since you don't do them then thats not who you are. you need to find a away to let go of your anger.

actually, many psychologists believe these thoughts are part of every human-beings thought-process, and serial killers only act because they don't express these thoughts in any which way.

art is a good one. so is writing. suppressing is the exact opposite of healthy.

[Anonymous]

I've made-out with over 10 members of the opposite sex.
Most times were boring.
I've only made-out with one member of the same-sex.
Loved it, though I was drunk.

I've been wanting to sex with the same sex ever since. I'M FUCKING HORNY, DAMNIT!!

[Anonymous]

I just lied to my best friend.
It makes me feel bad, but it would only hurt that person if they knew.

[Anonymous]

I'm just wondering exactly what I do.

I mean, what's my role? What do people see me as? I completely suck ass at being sympathetic or whatever to other people. I mean, I let them rant at me and listen, but I'm terrible when it comes to advice for people. I'm the sort of person who just listens, and then that's it. Then I'm stuck. What then? My advice is terrible, even if I do give it.

And I see people on EC giving and sharing advice, and I just think, why can't I do that? Like I said, I can listen, but as for anything else I suck. And then I wonder just how useful a person I am on EC or anywhere else.

I mean, what do I do? What the hell do I do????

[Anonymous]

I post on another board somewhere for something unrelated but there I can't be myself even online because some of the other members are homophobic :(. I feel much better here.