Post Secret

[Anonymous]

http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

PostSecret is an ongoing community art project where people mail in their secrets anonymously on one side of a homemade postcard.

The anonymous posting system is perfect for an idea similar to this, so let's have a go at it! The idea is simple: post a secret about yourself! Now keep in mind, "my house has 2 bathrooms" is not a secret. "I used to wash myself using toilet water" is.

Now, to protect your own anonymity, please don't post about serious illegal activity, like "I am a heroin dealer." Remember that EC admin/mods can view the source of the post if need be, so if it's something very illegal or dangerous, they might be compelled to. Something like, "I smoke pot" or "I routinely steal groceries" should be okay.

Also, let's keep this PG rated, okay? Keep graphic details down to a minimum, and try to keep the subject matter clean. If your secret isn't clean, as I'm sure many won't be, describe it like you're reading it from a dictionary. "I had sex with 12 people at once" is a good way to describe an otherwise dirty topic.

And as always, respect EC's rules, and do keep in mind the rules of anonymous posting! (http://www.emptyclosets.com/forum/showpost.php?p=92706&postcount=1)

When in doubt, check Post Secret out! (http://postsecret.blogspot.com/) That's what this is based on, so if you're not clear on anything or need ideas, that's where to go!

And finally, please don't just make secrets up. We're not trying to show off, here. We have a medium to share our darkest, most personal, most embarrassing secrets, so inventing things like "I was abducted by aliens, escaped from their captivity, took over their ship and blew up their homeworld with its LASER GUNS" is NOT acceptable. Please stay true to yourself. These are your secrets, and so they're interesting enough on their own.

And DO NOT FORGET to click on the box that says "make post anonymously!!!!!!" The LAST thing you want is for your embarrassing secret to be tied to your username!!

[Anonymous]

I guess I'll start.

I think of myself as gay, but I'm more attracted to women than I am to men.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I wonder if I am gay because the one person I've always loved has been of the opposite gender.

[Anonymous]

My parents think I've never touched alcohol...

[Anonymous]

My parents think I'm the ideal son, but what they don't know is that I want to try Salvia.

[Anonymous]

I'm really just posting here to try out the anonymous thing, but as for person above me, better to try Salvia than other harder/addictive drugs, especially since it's legal most everywhere. My parents think the same as your's, and although I don't really wanna do drugs, I do other things that might make them think a little less of me.

[Anonymous]

I sometimes cut myself when I get overly stressed sometimes.

[Anonymous]

i think the only reason i'm gay and not bi is because i have this bad stigma and vision of men to the point where they scare and worry be so much i'd never want to get in a romantic relationship with one.

[Anonymous]

my parents are the most conservative, right wing people...when i come out, and it hits them that the family name will die with me since i'm their only son...it might just kill them.

[Anonymous]

I have a huge crush on Paul_UK.

[Anonymous]

my parents expect me to be their "normal" child b/c my siblings all have "issues". they've even said i'm the only one without problems. they make it really hard to talk to them.

[Anonymous]

everyone would hate me if they knew who i really was or what i think about. i cannot keep myself from thinking horrible awful things and i think very serial killer thoughts so often.

[Anonymous]

Sometimes i cry myself to sleep.

[Anonymous]

i sometimes daydream about running away. just getting away from it all. go to the city. hide. i would finally be free.

[Anonymous]

i am afraid and uncomfortable around people i know with the same name as my childhood molester. one of them is in my close circle of friends.

[Anonymous]

everyone would hate me if they knew who i really was or what i think about. i cannot keep myself from thinking horrible awful things and i think very serial killer thoughts so often.

i do too. but long as you don't do them they are just thoughts. you are a good person long as you are able to surpress them. and since you don't do them then thats not who you are. you need to find a away to let go of your anger.

[Anonymous]

my parents expect me to be their "normal" child b/c my siblings all have "issues". they've even said i'm the only one without problems. they make it really hard to talk to them.

I feel your pain. (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I'm scared of the dark

[Anonymous]

Sometimes i cry myself to sleep.

I do almost every night, too.

Sometimes I get scared I'm the reason people keep leaving.... I've gone through five family member deaths in the past few years, my mom left, my stepmother left....

[Anonymous]

I cry myself to sllep about once a week. My life is bad and i also take pills for no reason and try to OD.:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

[Anonymous]

my parents expect me to be their "normal" child b/c my siblings all have "issues". they've even said i'm the only one without problems. they make it really hard to talk to them.

I feel your pain. (*hug*)

thanks. and i'm sorry for you. it hurts. <3

[InaRut]

my parents expect me to be their "normal" child b/c my siblings all have "issues". they've even said i'm the only one without problems. they make it really hard to talk to them.

Being gay is Normal. Don't worry about it.

I have a huge crush on Paul_UK.

Lol. Me too.
Oh no the Anonymous button isn't on. I've been caught :P

[Anonymous]

The other day I was looking at galleries and I realized that I'd have sex with most of EC's users under 25 and with a couple girls as well... I feel so dirty :(

[Anonymous]

I like a few people here i think they are really hot

[Anonymous]

I think I let myself forget my native language because I didn't want to talk to my family members.

[Anonymous]

I got drunk and cried in front of a group of girls from school. The next night I did the same thing except it was in front of my group of straight guy friends. It was good, tho, cos I needed to let out my emotions

I hate my dad, but not cause Im gay or anything, simply cos he pisses me off so much...now he wants to know why i dislike him so much, and I have no idea what to say. How do you politely say "I wish that I didnt have to live with you, cos honestly you shit me off so much that I wanna yell at you"

Ive had suicidal thoughts and never told anyone about them. And if I did, people would be so surprised if I was having them.

[Anonymous]

all the secrets i have left are the ones i still keep from myself

[Anonymous]

This probably sounds stupid, but I often think that my friends don't like me or only use me. (for money and videogames/movies, because I always buy my friends things).

I usually think these when I'm at home bored though... And I always want to hang out with my friends. Another thing, if I send them a message and they don't reply or don't answer a call I usually think they're snobbing me off.

It usually ends up that they don't have credit, or were busy at the time. I think they're just making excuses though.

I also hate it when I don't get invited to things.

[Anonymous]

I really like someone on this forum. :)

[Anonymous]

I dont know if i belive in god. I dont like Churches

[Anonymous]

I feel like I've let down everyone for not reaching their expectations for me.
I've never done anything I wanted to if someone had better expectations for me.

[Anonymous]

my mom thinks gays are going to hell.

i'm dreading the day i tell her.

[Anonymous]

There are so many hot guys on EC that I can't really say which one I like the most.

[Anonymous]

There are so many hot guys on EC that I can't really say which one I like the most.

*nods in agreement*

[Anonymous]

I dread the day i go back to my native country...ugh.
I'm honestly scared.
can't explain it anymore.

[Anonymous]

even though i'm not really attracted to boys, my brother is the cutest boy i know

[Anonymous]

I've cut myself before. and I have OD'd. + my mom thinks gays are going to hell, also.:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

everywhereI go I see couples holding hands, kissing, hugging....it makes me feel really depressed :confused:

[Anonymous]

My Dad is still hoping I am straight and does not even want to use the word gay. We never talk about my coming out, except when he told me he thought it was best I didn't come out to anyone.

[Anonymous]

I have a BF, but i feeel like he is not part of me anymore.LOL. it feels like he has changed his personality. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I mainly take interest in good looking people... i try not to

[Anonymous]

I would give anything to be straight.

I love my best friend so much that I'll probably go years before really committing to someone.

Everyday I want to die... but I know simply dieing won't cause me the pain I deserve.

I smile because it hurts.

[Anonymous]

I feel worthless when I remember my childhood.
I can only remember the bad things I did, being rejected, always being alone.
I feel hopeless now since I know that nothing has ever gone right for me.
One way or another, I manage to mess things up.

[Anonymous]

My dad knows I'm gay and thinks I'm going to hell
I don't like churches and barely believe in god and honestly I don't know what to believe
I sometimes feel like my best friend just wants to see me on the weekend so I can drive her places
I've admitted I used to cut on this site but what people don't know is that I still do when I'm having a really bad day
My parents would freak if they knew have the shit I've done and still do. They don't know I swear and I can't bring myself to swear in front of them (weird because they don't care and I still can't do it)
I secretly think that although my parents have "accepted" me that they are still in denial and when I get into a relationship they will freak out
I have cerebral palsy a disablity I haven't talked about on here not because I'm embarrassed (well maybe a little) and because of this I'm always afraid nobody is going to want to be in a relationship with me.

whew ok just a few things going through my mind!

[Anonymous]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

OMG! I thought I was the only one! (*hug*)

I'm currently writing a story that's across between The Brave One and Assassin's Creed. If my parents found it, they would probably send me to counseling.

[Anonymous]

people around me think ive stopped throwing up what i eat...

i havent

[Anonymous]

Im chasing ghosts(metaphorically), he doesnt care, so why should I? but i do, im stupid for wanting it so bad i'll do anything just to be loved.

[Anonymous]

Im jealous of SOOOOO many people on this forum its not even funny.

All of the comments you guys get under you're pics make me weep, alot of you are so hot and beautiful, im nothing to anyone.

[Anonymous]

people around me think ive stopped throwing up what i eat...

i havent

i'm not alone! gosh i thought i was the only one on this site...

[Anonymous]

people around me think ive stopped throwing up what i eat...

i havent

i'm not alone! gosh i thought i was the only one on this site...

Trust me, we arent alone on here

[Anonymous]

I feel unwanted and sometimes used. I'm a little slut. I want to fall in love but I'm afraid of falling in love. I like nice feet and hairy legs. I pick my nose and eat my boogers. I have bad days where i think im ugly and just look at myself and think how hiteous I am. Some times i wish i were dead.

[Anonymous]

i wish my best friend would stop making anti-gay slurs such as 'your such a fag' and 'thats so gay'. i've told her to stop multiple times but she still does it alot. when i call her out on it she apologizes but then a few seconds later does it again.i'm lost at what to do now. we're closer than sisters so its not like i can just drop her as a friend. but it really hurts to hear her use 'gay' negatively and always use the word 'fag'.

[Anonymous]

I'm very glad that my family accepts who I am, but I still don't think I would find it acceptable to be seen with another boy and I don't know why.

[Anonymous]

When my parents go out in their car I hope they get in a crash and die.

[Anonymous]

i have fantasies of horrible things happening. a shooting, family members dying, me getting stabbed. they're very intricate and if i were ever to think one all the way through it would take hours. people would freak if they knew all the stuff that's happened to them in my daydreams.

[Anonymous]

my parents caught me looking at porn when i was in 7th grade (and then saw my history...). i shattered their view of their "little girl".

i want to punch everyone in my family

i want to scream u til i can't anymore

i want to cry forever

i want to drown myself in alcohol or drugs

i wish i could see a psychiatrist w/o my parents (i'm in high school) knowing

[Anonymous]

why cant i just tell my mom i am gay i hope she will still love me

[Anonymous]

I drink when i get deppresed i wish i can be skinny and cut all my fat off

[Anonymous]

I never want love if I have to receive it from another guy.

[Anonymous]

I also drink when Im depressed...it's quite bad really, but luckily im usually happy, so Ive only ever drunk enough to forget stuff twice (im not a huge drinker also cos I dont particularly like the taste of it)

[Anonymous]

I also drink when Im depressed...it's quite bad really, but luckily im usually happy, so Ive only ever drunk enough to forget stuff twice (im not a huge drinker also cos I dont particularly like the taste of it)

i just drink when i get deppressed

[Anonymous]

everywhereI go I see couples holding hands, kissing, hugging....it makes me feel really depressed :confused:


same here :(

[Anonymous]

i have a crush on a guy (who i know is gay) that doesn't even know i exist :(

[Anonymous]

I can't come out to my parents because my brother is an alcoholic and they expect me to be the good son with no issues.

On the flip side....

I am beginning to resent my parents for expecting so much from me because of my brother's inadequacies.

[Anonymous]

I think that EC member Spark is really hot...

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I wish I had never watched "Not another Gay Movie".
Actually I wish that now.

Hardly anynone knows that I'm afraid of speaking in public. Scared shitless I am. I get the giggles. and feel sick just thinking about it.

[Anonymous]

everywhereI go I see couples holding hands, kissing, hugging....it makes me feel really depressed :confused:


same here :(

Oh, it sucks so much. I get so jealous when I see other couples.

[Anonymous]

everywhereI go I see couples holding hands, kissing, hugging....it makes me feel really depressed :confused:


same here :(

Oh, it sucks so much. I get so jealous when I see other couples.

And since I only see straight couples, that somehow makes it even worse

[Anonymous]

I think Jayden and ThatCrazyThang From ec are really cute

[Anonymous]

^ i also want to add bvtsjm116 to that list :)

[Anonymous]

when im frustrated i go out into our garage and punch our punching bag until my knuckles are torn and ripped open. Then i do it some more

[Anonymous]

i'm still counting the days til it will be a complete year my boyfriend broke up with me on christmas morning. i was completely heartbroken. now a year later i know it was only for the better. see when i was still discoving that i was a lesbian i always would say that i'd only date girls but if only he would ask for me back i'd take him. and only him as a guy. now i realize that i was simply in love with the thought of being in love. that has to be what it was. although it seemed to feel real. i've never felt that way for a guy since. so lesbian am i.

[Anonymous]

This summer I smoked weed in my room alone almost every night.

[Anonymous]

I used to sneek my moms wine coolers into my room(mike's hard lemonade), and drink them and then smash the bottles outside so no one wuld kno. :icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I'm dreading my 5 week winter break at home, away from college.

[Anonymous]

I've thought of having a threesome with two of my friends, who are boyfriends. I want to be in the middle and I want them to make me feel good... but it is SO WRONG... I feel so bad about it :tears::tears::tears:

[Anonymous]

Im so lonely i haven't had a boy friend yet :( it kinda makes me depressed

[Anonymous]

My life is controlled by the actions of others
My heart is broken over and over and I keep doing it
I hurt my family and friends by hurting myself
I want to scream and cry until the world stops spinning, but i cant
I cant let go of the friends that have died
I no longer feel guilty about anything but not feeling guilty

[Anonymous]

i have a crush on a guy (who i know is gay) that doesn't even know i exist :(

I am so in the same place right now. :(

[InaRut]

everywhereI go I see couples holding hands, kissing, hugging....it makes me feel really depressed :confused:


same here :(

Oh, it sucks so much. I get so jealous when I see other couples.

And since I only see straight couples, that somehow makes it even worse

It seems the worse for me is couples in movies...Even though I love Across the Universe, the first time I saw it I felt so bad. Now just watching Moulin Rouge for the 1st time since what ever year it came out...I was reminded of house "nice" (well..) of a love story it actually was. :eusa_doh: Now I get to go to my midnight shift in a bad mood.

:confused: What does Anonymous mean?
hahaha (joking)

[Anonymous]

If I lost my BF, I would kill myself tht day. *sniffle*

[Anonymous]

i've always wanted to be a mod on here. even if it has to be 2 yrs till i'm 18 i'll wait and hope. i'm responsible and caring. yeah i guess i could be a little more level headed but i'm not unreasonable. also i'm tons better than i used to be on here with controlling my attitude.
hey its a weird dream but i'd love to actually help out around here instead of just posting. :icon_redf

--and i'll still remains anonymous for now with this :rolleyes: *in my dreams*

[Anonymous]

i've always wanted to be a mod on here. even if it has to be 2 yrs till i'm 18 i'll wait and hope. i'm responsible and caring. yeah i guess i could be a little more level headed but i'm not unreasonable. also i'm tons better than i used to be on here with controlling my attitude.
hey its a weird dream but i'd love to actually help out around here instead of just posting. :icon_redf

--and i'll still remains anonymous for now with this :rolleyes: *in my dreams*

I hear you... I wanted to be a mod too but I know I will never be :(

[Anonymous]

I'm scared of the dark
Ditto. As much as I enjoy being alone in my house for several days (i still live with my parents), it can scare the crap out of me at night.

I think I'm going to live in a nice, small house when I'm older.

There are so many hot guys on EC that I can't really say which one I like the most.
Amen.

Oh, and I have a huge crush on my straight friend. I have since I met him, a year ago.

And I pick my nose, and don't care.

[Anonymous]

I am totally nuts over a guy who lives across the ocean.

[Anonymous]

I think half the guys at my school are really hot, and I'd probably do many of them, if I ever got the chance.

[Anonymous]

I have a Snapple bottle on my desk slowly filling up with Anbesol and saliva. I have no idea why I keep it. I hope nobody drinks it!!

[Anonymous]

Just to see if it works before I make a fool of myself

[Anonymous]

i miss jub... i miss my porn... i miss randyblue.... *shed tears*

[Anonymous]

I sometimes think that I only think I'm bi because I want to be different.

[Anonymous]

As many people have mentioned a lot of people on EC are sexy.

I think CelebrityHead is the hottest.

[Anonymous]

I have an unhealthy relationship with food. I have just eaten a sweet, I wasn't even hungry, now I feel sick! I hate it when I eat stupidly!

[Anonymous]

Some people here are too hot.

[Anonymous]

I <3 someone :)

[Anonymous]

I <3 someone :)

i <3 nobody :lol:

[Anonymous]

I will never be in <3

[Anonymous]

i wrote this nice story of dying going to heaven about my elderly neighbor. so when other people read it they will be happy and not sad about her death. but i feel guilty.
because shes not quite dead yet. even though it should be relativly soon. i feel like that since she almost died the other day that i have accepted her death even though it never happened.:icon_redf

[Anonymous]

I am toooo obsessed with my looks... :( not in a good way

[Anonymous]

I've done some things on webcam that I'm not so proud of way too many times.

I tend to crush on every decent looking guy in my school, and automatically assume he wants to do it with me just because they show a hint of friendliness towards me.

I get annoyed at a lot of people here posting on EC, because they can't spell and have horrible grammar.

[Anonymous]

I am madly in love with a guy who lives very far from me

[Anonymous]

I am madly in love with a guy who lives very far from me

me too

[Anonymous]

I think that the belly button is a very important feature on a guy's body. And the guy I like has a cute one...

I feel stupid.

[Anonymous]

my sister has had two very awesome boyfriends. the first one she crushed his heart. this one feels that she lies and backstabs and flirts with his friends. i beleive him because i know she does. she destroys these awesome guys and i feel so bad. i warned them... i hate her for it.

[Anonymous]

the better i get at purging the more awful it is. yet i want it more than anything... :tears:

[Anonymous]

There's this guy in school who I find incredibly hot. He's so cute that I almost swooned the first few times I saw him, and I still become faint when I see him. But as far as I know, he's straight, and plus, I barely know the guy, so I couldn't approach him even if he was gay. Why is forbidden fruit so sweet? :tears:

[Anonymous]

I just said no to a date with someone I've lusted after for years, just because I didn't want to explain being gay to my parents. (I should have said yes.)

[CrimsonThunder]

I just said no to a date with someone I've lusted after for years, just because I didn't want to explain being gay to my parents. (I should have said yes.)

Theres still time to go for it!!

[Anonymous]

I was bulimic...

[Paul_UK]

I have made this excellent thread sticky so we don't lose it. :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

I want to hook up with a random chick at my crushes birthday, to make her jealous and show her what is right in front of her

[Anonymous]

i randomly get images of myself having sex with strangers or other people i know. i don't enjoy it or get anything from it but it just pops in my head. girls and guys and i'm not bi. :icon_redf

[Anonymous]

when i cough up mucus i roll it into a ball with my fingers and stick it under the desk when i'm at school. :icon_redf :roflmao:

[Anonymous]

i wrote this story. the main character is this girl. the next year when i started high school there was this girl who not only have the same name, but personality and appearence as the one in my story. i don't tend to have big crushes but if i like any of the girls at my school, its her.

[Anonymous]

I want to do dirty things for a camera, and let everyone see it.

[Anonymous]

I want to watch the dirty things you do on camera.

[Anonymous]

I dont think the person above knows me, but im always ready for an audience

[Anonymous]

I feel me and my closest friend are growing apart.:icon_sad:

[Anonymous]

I'm so stupid. I can never keep my mouth shut. I annoy one of my friends almost constently and I'm just plain useless, I have no brains what so ever, and I'm just a nobody that no one will ever love.:tears:

[Anonymous]

i wish my life had a rewind button.

[Anonymous]

Today during luch, i had my hand on the handle of the tuance officer's gun and was about to pull it out of its holster, but i was caught and sent to i.s.s for the rest of the week.

[Anonymous]

when i cough up mucus i roll it into a ball with my fingers and stick it under the desk when i'm at school. :icon_redf :roflmao:

OMG ! I LOVE PLAYING WITH THICK YELLOW SNOT ( i know that is so nasty, but it is so true!)

[Anonymous]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

OMG! I thought I was the only one! (*hug*)

I'm currently writing a story that's across between The Brave One and Assassin's Creed. If my parents found it, they would probably send me to counseling.

WOW! that is awesome! because sometimes I feel that I am very perverted or something for liking that. so do you frequently check out bellybuilders.com and ballbellybear.com then???

[Latinokid]

I would also like to see what u want to do for the camera....:icon_redf

[Anonymous]

i'm depressed about christmas coming. i don't like recieving gifts. i don't deserve them. i am a bad person. yet i know i've getting lots of stuff when we really don't have any money to spare. mum says its okay i do deserve them or she wouldn't have gotten them but i can't help feeling like a rotten undeserving person. especially since i can't give back to her by showing gratitude. i have a lot of appreciation of her going out and getting things i want but i don't deserve them and it makes me very sad. i don't want to hurt her.

[Louise]

Bad person or not (and I'm not saying you are) your mum loves you! That's all there is to it, it gives your mum pleasure to buy things for you, to save money in order to buy things for you, this is one of her ways of showing her love for you. Don't take this away from her.

Don't be sad, look at her when she gives you something, see the pleasure and love in her eyes. Even if you don't think you deserve it she does, she loves you and that's all that counts. Your christmas gift to your mum could simply be to accept her gifts graciously and show her how much you appreciatel them.

If you really were a bad person you wouldn't care about taking gifts from your mother that she can't afford to buy! See you are not such a bad person. :kiss: (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

OMG! I thought I was the only one! (*hug*)

I'm currently writing a story that's across between The Brave One and Assassin's Creed. If my parents found it, they would probably send me to counseling.

WOW! that is awesome! because sometimes I feel that I am very perverted or something for liking that. so do you frequently check out bellybuilders.com and ballbellybear.com then???

I do, actually.

[Anonymous]

I feel inferior to all my friends for being gay

[Anonymous]

A guy that I only know online but have never met in real life proposed to me (I'm a guy too) and asked me to move to his home state and live with him. I got all teary when he proposed, even though it was only done electronically...

...and then told him no.

Was that the biggest mistake of my life? Was it the best choice I could have made? I'll never know, I guess.

[Anonymous]

A guy that I only know online but have never met in real life proposed to me (I'm a guy too) and asked me to move to his home state and live with him. I got all teary when he proposed, even though it was only done electronically...

...and then told him no.

Was that the biggest mistake of my life? Was it the best choice I could have made? I'll never know, I guess.

I'd say this was the right decision. Nothing says you can't go and visit and see what it's like to be with him in person. If you're that close and feel that much of a connection that you would even consider his proposal, then it is probably something that you should pursue. But nothing says you have to make a decision like that before even meeting.

[Anonymous]

A guy that I only know online but have never met in real life proposed to me (I'm a guy too) and asked me to move to his home state and live with him. I got all teary when he proposed, even though it was only done electronically...

...and then told him no.

Was that the biggest mistake of my life? Was it the best choice I could have made? I'll never know, I guess.

I'd say this was the right decision. Nothing says you can't go and visit and see what it's like to be with him in person. If you're that close and feel that much of a connection that you would even consider his proposal, then it is probably something that you should pursue. But nothing says you have to make a decision like that before even meeting.

Sadly, that won't be the case. He didn't take it well and kind of drifted away. I haven't talked to him for about two years now, actually. I'm pretty much over it, but there are moments where I wonder if it might have worked. I think I made the right choice (considering his reaction), but it's hell telling someone "no" to a proposal.

[Anonymous]

A guy that I only know online but have never met in real life proposed to me (I'm a guy too) and asked me to move to his home state and live with him. I got all teary when he proposed, even though it was only done electronically...

...and then told him no.

Was that the biggest mistake of my life? Was it the best choice I could have made? I'll never know, I guess.

I'd say this was the right decision. Nothing says you can't go and visit and see what it's like to be with him in person. If you're that close and feel that much of a connection that you would even consider his proposal, then it is probably something that you should pursue. But nothing says you have to make a decision like that before even meeting.

Sadly, that won't be the case. He didn't take it well and kind of drifted away. I haven't talked to him for about two years now, actually. I'm pretty much over it, but there are moments where I wonder if it might have worked. I think I made the right choice (considering his reaction), but it's hell telling someone "no" to a proposal.

Awww - I'm sure. (*hug*)

But I'm glad that you can also see that it was the right decision - especially given his reaction. If it was meant to be, then there would have been a 'plan B' proposed.

[Anonymous]

Im surprised some of you wanna see what i would do for a camera, and you dont know who this is

[Anonymous]

I'm embaressed that i want to see

[Anonymous]

i dont even know if i should reveal who i am, you guys would be very disapointed lol.

[Anonymous]

You don't need to reveal who you are. That is the whole point of this section.

[Spark]

I just found it kinda funny you guys didnt even know who i was, but were still interested

[Anonymous]

0.o Surprise!

[CrimsonThunder]

They're just being horny. =P

[Anonymous]

rnt we all?

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I worry that the only reason I'm bi is cos deep down I'm desperate for someone, anyone, to love me

[Anonymous]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

OMG! I thought I was the only one! (*hug*)

I'm currently writing a story that's across between The Brave One and Assassin's Creed. If my parents found it, they would probably send me to counseling.

WOW! that is awesome! because sometimes I feel that I am very perverted or something for liking that. so do you frequently check out bellybuilders.com and ballbellybear.com then???

I do, actually.

we should talk you know. If you are up to it, reply to this again, and we will figure out how to chat outside of the anonymous box :) :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

Anorexia: you may not think your eating but in reality your body is devouring itself.

[Anonymous]

I just asked a guy if he would, um... "swallow"...

[Anonymous]

I am always embarrassing person I am liking in public because he is cute when blushing.

[Gamer am I]

I get turned on by big ball bellies.

OMG! I thought I was the only one! (*hug*)

I'm currently writing a story that's across between The Brave One and Assassin's Creed. If my parents found it, they would probably send me to counseling.

WOW! that is awesome! because sometimes I feel that I am very perverted or something for liking that. so do you frequently check out bellybuilders.com and ballbellybear.com then???

I do, actually.

we should talk you know. If you are up to it, reply to this again, and we will figure out how to chat outside of the anonymous box :) :thumbsup:

I'l reveal it. It was me.

[Anonymous]

I sometimes feel guilty for doing better than other people, even though I try harder and deserve it.

[Anonymous]

i feel the need to purge even if its not about food this time to get all of the dirty and evil things out of me. its a cleansing thats dearly needed.

[TriBi]

I have just deleted several posts as a result of someone guessing, then revealing the name of an an "anonymous" poster. While I believe this was meant to be "in fun" - it is still contrary to the rules of this forum and such action could result in embarrassment and hurt to any poster identified.

Info on and Rules for the Anonymous Forum here:
http://www.emptyclosets.com/forum/showpost.php?p=92706&postcount=1
Everyone please read them!

[Anonymous]

I was a little tipsy yesterday and I posted here something I shouldn't have...

[Anonymous]

I think I'm falling for a guy, and even though he likes me I can't tell him I like him.

[Anonymous]

I think that my grandparents were having sex earlier... I know that elderly people have the right to have sex as well but the thought of them doing it is just plainly disgusting...

[Anonymous]

I think that my grandparents were having sex earlier... I know that elderly people have the right to have sex as well but the thought of them doing it is just plainly disgusting...

whats creepier i heard from one of my parents that my grandma on one side used to have sex a lot before her and her boyfriend/husband divorced. icky! shes like in her 80s...

[Anonymous]

I have a mjor crush on one of my best friend even tho hes like not fully cool with homosecuals but he is gorgeous and a crush on another friend who might be bi and keeps touching me and complimenting me.I'm weird for liking two people

[Anonymous]

I think I'm falling for a guy, and even though he likes me I can't tell him I like him.

my secret:

I wish this was the guy i told that i liked

[Anonymous]

I worked at a Pizza Hut for 2 years. While there I never washed my hands, never wore gloves, frequently shorted people on toppings, occasionally supplied anchovies when they weren't ordered (under pepperoni), and served food I had dropped on the kitchen floor. I had also made something like 12 large pan pizzas out of greased dough I had completely dropped on the floor. If people ordered extra cheese, I wouldn't give it to them.

I really hated the world at the time, and this was a form of revenge for me.

[CrimsonThunder]

I worked at a Pizza Hut for 2 years. While there I never washed my hands, never wore gloves, frequently shorted people on toppings, occasionally supplied anchovies when they weren't ordered (under pepperoni), and served food I had dropped on the kitchen floor. I had also made something like 12 large pan pizzas out of greased dough I had completely dropped on the floor. If people ordered extra cheese, I wouldn't give it to them.

I really hated the world at the time, and this was a form of revenge for me.

You never got in trouble for not washing your hands? O_O

You could have diseased someone. >_> Easily, and then theres putting the anchovies on there, someone might have been allergic.

[Ty]

Urgh, im never eating at pizza hut again >.<

[JSG]

:eek: I can't believe you did that !

:eusa_snoo

[Anonymous]

You think Pizza hut is bad?
I once flooded a story full of very expensive camera equipment...and managed not to get fired.


...Only to be fired later on for different reasons.

[CrimsonThunder]

You think Pizza hut is bad?
I once flooded a story full of very expensive camera equipment...and managed not to get fired.


...Only to be fired later on for different reasons.

For not washing your hands after flooding the toilet?

[Paul_UK]

Can we move on now please. Whether or not someone washed their hands while working at Pizza Hut is not really the sort of secret this thread was intended for (look at the stuff in the earlier pages) and this ongoing discussion may be discouraging others from posting their secrets.

[Anonymous]

Can we move on now please. Whether or not someone washed their hands while working at Pizza Hut is not really the sort of secret this thread was intended for (look at the stuff in the earlier pages) and this ongoing discussion may be discouraging others from posting their secrets.

i totally agree. you guys should be ashamed! how would you like people critisizing your secrets!? i mean it takes so much just to post them. u are sick sick people!

[Anonymous]

she won't let me read her magazines. if she finds out if i read them when she is not around she is mad. she when she's out i sneak in her room and read them.

[Anonymous]

I call myself gay, but Im really bi. ssssshhhhh dont tell anyone!

[Anonymous]

I call myself gay, but Im really bi. ssssshhhhh dont tell anyone!

I do the same thing.

[Psychedelic Bookmarks]

i am so sad about all the biphobia and the bis who are ashamed of themselves. i think it's shameful actually that the lgbt community does this to bis. if any bis want to "admit" to anyone in person, feel free to pm me. in the meantime, i encourage all you bis not to feel bad about it - it's a gift!

[Anonymous]

I'm in love with my best friend, who lives three states away. I haven't seen her for a couple of years. She's expressed some feelings for me, but I don't know that anything will ever happen between us. Worst of all, I'd like to try dating, but I don't really want anyone else, but her.

Even worse, I'm afraid of having a relationship. My parents had an awful relationship. My mother is mentally unstable, and I still suffer from anxiety and depression over her covert abuse. I'm afraid I'll end up in another abusive situation, and I don't want that. I just want to be happy, and I don't want to be alone.

My therapist even wants me to try dating, but I'm so scared.

[Anonymous]

i secretly think that one of my cats is bisexual, two are gay and ones a lesbian.

[Anonymous]

i am so sad about all the biphobia and the bis who are ashamed of themselves. i think it's shameful actually that the lgbt community does this to bis. if any bis want to "admit" to anyone in person, feel free to pm me. in the meantime, i encourage all you bis not to feel bad about it - it's a gift!

Amen.

[Anonymous]

One of my friends is a homophobe but is ok with me and stuff i think hes gay and trying to hide it and i have a major crush on him even though someties he can be a jerk hes a real sweetheart.Another friend told me he was bi and never talked about it and he touches me alot and compliments me i think he likes me. And another friend told me he was gay and said if i wanted a blow job i doubt it was him on his account and if it was.....
=[ i wish he cud tell me in person becuz he is also a hottie and funny

[Anonymous]

I wish some people arund me died.

[Anonymous]

I'm two different people when im horny im your sex slave and when im not horny im broing and dont do much

[Anonymous]

I attempted suicide twice. The first was miraculously intervened. (Until today, I didn't know how it happened). The second landed me in a hospital, and I had to go through hemodialysis for 10 hours. The psychiatristS had to release me because I didn't fit into any of their "syndromes". (They concluded, after much of my own persuasion and obfuscation, that I did it because I was too bored with life, ergo seeking attention).

Hitherto, neither my parents, my friends nor I, know why I did it, or how I survived until today.

[Anonymous]

Self-Injury used to be a really big problem for me.
Two days counting would go to zero, five days might last, one month back to zero.

I counted the time until I stopped needing to count... Over a year.

I sliced into my arm last night.
I don't think I care anymore.

[biisme]

Self-Injury used to be a really big problem for me.
Two days counting would go to zero, five days might last, one month back to zero.

I counted the time until I stopped needing to count... Over a year.

I sliced into my arm last night.
I don't think I care anymore.

i'm sorry. just know that we're all here for you.

and that WE care.

[Anonymous]

I don't think I'll ever be able to ask someone out again. I've been rejected by people every single time I've tried.

[Anonymous]

I'm debating whether to post this because ppl may find it bringing humor to what should be (in my opinion as well) a serious thread, but I found it amusing that in the last couple of posts, a brain, a heart and courage (or lack there of) has been mentioned, which is even more amusing that it's on a gay website (the whole "Friends of Dorothy" thing)
Anyway, just amused me, and probably won't anyone else, so yeah anyway

To get back on track:

I am an attention seeker
I hate when other people think they are better than me
I try to stay in a position which makes me feel smarter than everyone else, rather than challenging myself (for instance staying at the registers, instead of moving to a department like other ppl, or wanting to stay in regular English instead of advancing to Advanced English)
I don't get along with my dad, nor do I see any reason to even though he's spent my entire life trying to build a relationship with me

[Anonymous]

I pretend that I don't eat then eat in secret. I'v been doing it all my life since I was a little child and I still don't know why. This is the first time I have ever admitted this, not out loud of course but maybe one day?

[Anonymous]

I wish my mother would get on with the business of dying so the rest of my family could have some peace without her abuse.

[Anonymous]

I have just realized that the reason I stay in a situation that hurts me is because i have guilt issues that are so deeply infested in myself that i barely even recognize them anymore....

When my best friend was dying I didnt go and see her. not once. I will never forgive myself for that...ever...she died not know that i loved her.

God I love you. I am so sorry

[Anonymous]

University hasn't become post secondary education to me, it has become an escape. And for that, I'm worried that I may not be as ready for university as I thought as was. But I still really want to get out of this one horse town.

[Paul_UK]

I have just deleted FIVE POSTS from this thread, all insulting other members or responding to such insults. If there are any more such posts this thread will be closed.

This is exactly the thing I feared would happen when we introduced this anonymous section. If people can't respect it, it will be removed.

Some of the deleted posts were made anonymously but we will be checking who made them....

[Anonymous]

For the person who didn't visit their dying friend, I had a similar situation and have spent 20 years getting over it. I truely believe that we have a body and a spirit, when the body dies the spirit lives on. You friend knows how much you loved her, she knows why you couldn't visit and knows how much you are suffering.

Do you really think for one minute she would want you to suffer so. If you loved her then she surely loved you. You can't go on beating yourself up for years over something that happened in the past because whatever you do, you can't change the past, you can't change what you did and you can't change what happened.

My therapist told me to write to my dad (now dead) and tell him everything I felt and needed to say to him. This sounds silly writing to a dead person but it really does help over time. You may never 'forgive' yourself but this would be the first step in accepting what you did and getting over it. Ask yourself honestly if your friend would have wanted to see you like this. (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

For the person who didn't visit their dying friend, I had a similar situation and have spent 20 years getting over it. I truely believe that we have a body and a spirit, when the body dies the spirit lives on. You friend knows how much you loved her, she knows why you couldn't visit and knows how much you are suffering.

Do you really think for one minute she would want you to suffer so. If you loved her then she surely loved you. You can't go on beating yourself up for years over something that happened in the past because whatever you do, you can't change the past, you can't change what you did and you can't change what happened.

My therapist told me to write to my dad (now dead) and tell him everything I felt and needed to say to him. This sounds silly writing to a dead person but it really does help over time. You may never 'forgive' yourself but this would be the first step in accepting what you did and getting over it. Ask yourself honestly if your friend would have wanted to see you like this. (*hug*)


thank you very much...

I know that she forgives me, and that makes it that worse, i have written to her lots, i used to write all the time, it is kinda like i wrote enough to get me to be able to more on, but not enough to get closure, and now i cant get that closure and i cant find any words left to write.

I just cant seem to forgive myself, and i live in constant fear that i will do it again

[ebra]

Paul, no matter what you do, people are going to be ignorant, and there will always be some that are just out to attack others.

this is a good thing, and i do believe that people are still getting more good out of here with the people who are rude then if we didnt have it at all.

your doing a great job, it makes extra work for you to remove those posts and keep up on them, but i know we all appreciate it! thank you :kiss:

[sngl]

With all these discussions about lesbian sex in the past few days, I got interested in the topic and even though I'm a gay male, I find lesbian sex really hot!!! What's that supposed to mean? :lol: (note: no, I'm not attracted to women at all)

[InaRut]

With all these discussions about lesbian sex in the past few days, I got interested in the topic and even though I'm a gay male, I find lesbian sex really hot!!! What's that supposed to mean? :lol: (note: no, I'm not attracted to women at all)

I don't think it means anything. When I had sex, most people (that know I'm gay...Parents...Brothers...Brother's friend) were like, "You could get it up?" I think it's the sexual situation sometimes when it comes to getting arroused. Specially when your younger.

Edit: Ebra...it technically is a question he was worried about. So it sorta fits...but it probobly could of gone somewhere else :D Oh well I still answered it.

[Anonymous]

well I don't know, because it is a secret? :lol:

[sngl]

With all these discussions about lesbian sex in the past few days, I got interested in the topic and even though I'm a gay male, I find lesbian sex really hot!!! What's that supposed to mean? :lol: (note: no, I'm not attracted to women at all)

I think it's the sexual situation sometimes when it comes to getting arroused. Specially when your younger.

.

But it seems like it's not the situation itself that I find arousing, i mean....
I don't get that aroused by straight sex for instance, but somehow lesbian sex looks hot to me, even though I'm not attracted to either of the participants lol. And it's not even like 'I would join them', because I don't feel a desire like that. So it's just .... I'm weird I guess :lol:

[Louise]

Do you know today why you didn't go to visit her. I am not asking you to tell it here, just do you know yourself. If you know why and you can resolve the reasons behind it then no you won't make the same mistake twice. You are paying a very high price for your mistake.

Let yourself love yourself as your friend loved you. You owe it to yourself and to your friend. Set it as a challenge, be deserving of your friend's forgiveness and in order to have this you have to love yourself.

In your shoes I would try to write about what you are doing positively in your life to get over this, tell her when you have a good day, tell her the positive things that you have done so that she can be proud of you and in doing this little by little you will feel better about yourself because you will be forcing yourself to be positive for her.

I really don't mean for this to sound harsh, and I am saying from experience; it is very easy to end up wallowing in this unforgiveness and unhappiness, there is a certain comfort in it, a certain martyrdom and strangely a validation in this martyrdom and self pity. You have to drag yourself out of your pit of self pity, recognise it for what it is. It is stopping you from moving on and living your life, from facing up to reality.

I really am sorry if I have gone too far and upset you, like I said it took me 20 years to get to this point (19 and a half of them spent in my own personal olympic sized swimming pool of self pity) But I am out now and can see things much more clearly from this perspective.

I am not going anonymous on this so you can PM me if you want. :kiss:

[Anonymous]

Do you know today why you didn't go to visit her. I am not asking you to tell it here, just do you know yourself. If you know why and you can resolve the reasons behind it then no you won't make the same mistake twice. You are paying a very high price for your mistake.

Let yourself love yourself as your friend loved you. You owe it to yourself and to your friend. Set it as a challenge, be deserving of your friend's forgiveness and in order to have this you have to love yourself.

In your shoes I would try to write about what you are doing positively in your life to get over this, tell her when you have a good day, tell her the positive things that you have done so that she can be proud of you and in doing this little by little you will feel better about yourself because you will be forcing yourself to be positive for her.

I really don't mean for this to sound harsh, and I am saying from experience; it is very easy to end up wallowing in this unforgiveness and unhappiness, there is a certain comfort in it, a certain martyrdom and strangely a validation in this martyrdom and self pity. You have to drag yourself out of your pit of self pity, recognise it for what it is. It is stopping you from moving on and living your life, from facing up to reality.

I really am sorry if I have gone too far and upset you, like I said it took me 20 years to get to this point (19 and a half of them spent in my own personal olympic sized swimming pool of self pity) But I am out now and can see things much more clearly from this perspective.

I am not going anonymous on this so you can PM me if you want. :kiss:

aww louise, you are never too harsh with me. I appreciate every single thing you say all the time.

I know why I didnt go, and they arnt very good reasons, I couldnt face what was happening, i didnt want to see her like that and i guess i thought taht maybe if i didnt see her then it would mean tyhat iw asnt really happening. it was complete denial, and i am scared that today still, i live in taht denial and that i am stopping myself from seeing reality for what it is. hmm i dont know

thank you :kiss:

[Anonymous]

Do you know today why you didn't go to visit her. I am not asking you to tell it here, just do you know yourself. If you know why and you can resolve the reasons behind it then no you won't make the same mistake twice. You are paying a very high price for your mistake.

Let yourself love yourself as your friend loved you. You owe it to yourself and to your friend. Set it as a challenge, be deserving of your friend's forgiveness and in order to have this you have to love yourself.

In your shoes I would try to write about what you are doing positively in your life to get over this, tell her when you have a good day, tell her the positive things that you have done so that she can be proud of you and in doing this little by little you will feel better about yourself because you will be forcing yourself to be positive for her.

I really don't mean for this to sound harsh, and I am saying from experience; it is very easy to end up wallowing in this unforgiveness and unhappiness, there is a certain comfort in it, a certain martyrdom and strangely a validation in this martyrdom and self pity. You have to drag yourself out of your pit of self pity, recognise it for what it is. It is stopping you from moving on and living your life, from facing up to reality.

I really am sorry if I have gone too far and upset you, like I said it took me 20 years to get to this point (19 and a half of them spent in my own personal olympic sized swimming pool of self pity) But I am out now and can see things much more clearly from this perspective.

I am not going anonymous on this so you can PM me if you want. :kiss:

aww louise, you are never too harsh with me. I appreciate every single thing you say all the time.

I know why I didnt go, and they arnt very good reasons, I couldnt face what was happening, i didnt want to see her like that and i guess i thought taht maybe if i didnt see her then it would mean tyhat iw asnt really happening. it was complete denial, and i am scared that today still, i live in taht denial and that i am stopping myself from seeing reality for what it is. hmm i dont know

thank you :kiss:

That is very sad. But we all are only human. Sometimes it's difficult to do the thing that's right, but because we make a mistake doesn't mean we can't learn from it. Perhaps you weren't there for you friend physicaly but at least you were there mentally. At least you care enough to feel beaten up about it. Don't feel bad, these things happen, just love her in your heart and always remember her. I'm sure she would be fine with that.

Feel better

[Anonymous]

Sometimes I feel that being gay is just me being rebellious. Because whenever I'm pissed off or in a bad mood I go on myspace and search for gay people in my area.

[Anonymous]

i don't change my underwear everyday or every other day. just when it starts to bother me. which sometimes lasts a week. :eek:

[Anonymous]

i don't change my underwear everyday or every other day. just when it starts to bother me. which sometimes lasts a week. :eek:

Thats very un-hygienic... You should start changing them every day. =]

[Anonymous]

i don't change my underwear everyday or every other day. just when it starts to bother me. which sometimes lasts a week. :eek:

I do that too, actually.

[Anonymous]

I would like to sniff the people who dont chnage thier underwear ...their underwear. It turns me on. And i do that too but it last like 2-3 days cuz i flash my underwear at skool lol.


I EAT MY BOOGERS! =]

[Anonymous]

i hate my dads emotional abuse but sometimes it beleive it and feel i deserve it.

[Anonymous]

i went back to my rapist after he raped me and practically let him do it again because he told me to ...

[Anonymous]

was this recently?

[InaRut]

Sometimes I feel that being gay is just me being rebellious. Because whenever I'm pissed off or in a bad mood I go on myspace and search for gay people in my area.

I know alot of people that feel this. My friend's brothers feel their sister is lesbian for rebellion purposes (of course that was for purpose of drunken debate) acutally. And sometimes even I feel like it's true.

But then again, I keep telling myself, there's alot worse things you can do to your parents then be gay. And if you were pretending to be gay it wouldn't do yourself much good either.

The fact of the matter is, if you are attracted to me then you are gay. However you can be gay and rebelious ;-)(!)

[Anonymous]

was this recently?

on my 16th birthday i am going to be 18 in two weeks so not that resent although in my head it seems like last week .....

[Anonymous]

The fact of the matter is, if you are attracted to me then you are gay. However you can be gay and rebelious ;-)(!)

I think that was a spelling mistake, if it was hilairious! If your being serious, I'm attracted to you babe.

[CrimsonThunder]

That was me! I wanted you to know. *winks*

[Anonymous]

i don't change my underwear everyday or every other day. just when it starts to bother me. which sometimes lasts a week. :eek:

Thats very un-hygienic... You should start changing them every day. =]

Or at least every two days.

[InaRut]

The fact of the matter is, if you are attracted to me then you are gay. However you can be gay and rebelious ;-)(!)

I think that was a spelling mistake, if it was hilairious! If your being serious, I'm attracted to you babe.

LOL LOL LOL LOL!
TYPO TYPO TYPO!
*Ahem...* on with the thread...

[Anonymous]

was this recently?

on my 16th birthday i am going to be 18 in two weeks so not that resent although in my head it seems like last week .....

are you okay?

[Anonymous]

i went back to my rapist after he raped me and practically let him do it again because he told me to ...

I let a guy hurt me for three years...

[Anonymous]

i just wish i could blow my head off with a gun. i've wished this for almost 3yrs straight. but i have no access to guns at all. no matter how old i may live to i just know my life will end in suicide. even in times of happiness i still feel true to this.

[Anonymous]

sometimes i masturbate when my roommates are having sex in the next room

[Anonymous]

here.

[Anonymous]

http://i64.photobucket.com/albums/h180/Dyleberg/bi.jpg

:eusa_shhh

[Anonymous]

I've spent two years researching online about what you're supposed to say/do when a friend's family member dies/people break up/people are diagnosed with something/any other bad happening, just because I knew it would happen someday and I knew I wouldn't be able to react.

And today, it did happen... and none of it helped at all.

[Anonymous]

I've spent two years researching online about what you're supposed to say/do when a friend's family member dies/people break up/people are diagnosed with something/any other bad happening, just because I knew it would happen someday and I knew I wouldn't be able to react.

And today, it did happen... and none of it helped at all.



its one of those things are different in theory then they are in practice. in a time like that, sometimes nothing you said, no matter how hard you tried to make the words right matter, nothing helps. i am sorry for your situation *hugs* sometimes that is the only thing that will help.

[Anonymous]

I've spent two years researching online about what you're supposed to say/do when a friend's family member dies/people break up/people are diagnosed with something/any other bad happening, just because I knew it would happen someday and I knew I wouldn't be able to react.

And today, it did happen... and none of it helped at all.

its one of those things are different in theory then they are in practice. in a time like that, sometimes nothing you said, no matter how hard you tried to make the words right matter, nothing helps. i am sorry for your situation *hugs* sometimes that is the only thing that will help.

I also tend to think that sometimes, when something really bad happens to someone and you try to comfort them, it may seem like nothing you say is helping or maybe even making things worse, but you really are getting through to the person, they're just too upset to thank you rationally. I've consoled tons of people dealing with severe spikes of depression or suicidal urges, and sometimes it honestly felt like I was talking to a brick wall, but they do appreciate what you're trying to do for them, and if you're lucky, they'll let you know at a future date ^^ (*hug*)

[Anonymous]

I stole a pair of dirty underwear from my dorm's laundry room, and, um, did some dirty things with them.

I still have them in my room. I wear them around occasionally, as normal underwear. They were boxer-briefs. I've been tempted to steal a pair of boxers, but I'd be afraid of getting caught with them (they seem like they'd be too easy to recognize).

I think I have a dirty underwear fetish.

[Anonymous]

Ii sniffed my brothers in law underwear....then did something naughty

[Anonymous]

I just punished myself with my belt and now I feel the urge to go and masturbate until my penis is so sore that it hurts. I am really depressed.

[xxAngelOnFirexx]

I see all of these posts here and i just want to say this:

It took my to realize that you help yourself get stable. then when you can stand on your own feet, help others to do so. making yourself comfortable with material things will get you nowhere.

here are things i want everyone to know and realize

live for others even if you can't live for yourself

there is good in everyone even you

giving up never solved anything

always forgive yourself

even if you think your life is worth living, think of all the reasons you'd want your best friend to live or your loved relative. that is why they love you

the first step isn't getting help, its realizing you need help. then the best thing to do is talk to a trusted person you can call a friend.

life may not be what we expected but that doesn't mean we can't find a good reason to live it out anyway (how about for others that love you?)

let karma solve all personal disputes instead of revenge

never stop the tears if you are sad, but when your done crying, don't forget that you are still strong.

and lastly if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, advice on anything, or just a good hug my door is always open. i'm here to help. i keep all secret and would love talking to you about things that are normally taboo to you.
as always (*hug*)

[InaRut]

I see all of these posts here and i just want to say this:

It took my to realize that you help yourself get stable. then when you can stand on your own feet, help others to do so. making yourself comfortable with material things will get you nowhere.

here are things i want everyone to know and realize

live for others even if you can't live for yourself

there is good in everyone even you

giving up never solved anything

always forgive yourself

even if you think your life is worth living, think of all the reasons you'd want your best friend to live or your loved relative. that is why they love you

the first step isn't getting help, its realizing you need help. then the best thing to do is talk to a trusted person you can call a friend.

life may not be what we expected but that doesn't mean we can't find a good reason to live it out anyway (how about for others that love you?)

let karma solve all personal disputes instead of revenge

never stop the tears if you are sad, but when your done crying, don't forget that you are still strong.

and lastly if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, advice on anything, or just a good hug my door is always open. i'm here to help. i keep all secret and would love talking to you about things that are normally taboo to you.
as always (*hug*)

This is why we love AngelonFire
Great Post <3

[Anonymous]

I can orgasm without stimulation, and sometimes I spontaneously orgasm out of the blue.

[biisme]

I can orgasm without stimulation, and sometimes I spontaneously orgasm out of the blue.

i want that.

[Steam Giant]

This is why we love AngelonFire
Great Post <3

Yes indeed! Morgan, you are so totally awesome ^^ :thumbsup:

[Anonymous]

That "EC Hotties" thread is making me so jealous and depressed

[Anonymous]

I think I'm falling for a guy, and even though he likes me I can't tell him I like him.

omg why can't you tell himmmmm???
I think i feel for you here

[Anonymous]

i wish i could drown myself in the pool. why can't i just be happy for once instead of filled with all these negative emotions? :tears:

[Anonymous]

i'm not suicidal. suicidal means you want to kill yourself. i just want to drop dead.

[Anonymous]

That "EC Hotties" thread is making me so jealous and depressed
That topic is just making me frustrated. Not at myself, but at some of the other people here.

[Anonymous]

That "EC Hotties" thread is making me so jealous and depressed
That topic is just making me frustrated. Not at myself, but at some of the other people here.

Why? >_>

[Latinokid]

I feel guilty for making that thread.

[Anonymous]

if the US instates a draft before i turn 18 and include women, i'm fleeing to Austrillia to live with my Aunt. I am a person who believes that peace is not created by war. its contradictory in itself. If we want peace we should give no reason for others to hate us.

[panda]

I see all of these posts here and i just want to say this:

It took my to realize that you help yourself get stable. then when you can stand on your own feet, help others to do so. making yourself comfortable with material things will get you nowhere.

here are things i want everyone to know and realize

live for others even if you can't live for yourself

there is good in everyone even you

giving up never solved anything

always forgive yourself

even if you think your life is worth living, think of all the reasons you'd want your best friend to live or your loved relative. that is why they love you

the first step isn't getting help, its realizing you need help. then the best thing to do is talk to a trusted person you can call a friend.

life may not be what we expected but that doesn't mean we can't find a good reason to live it out anyway (how about for others that love you?)

let karma solve all personal disputes instead of revenge

never stop the tears if you are sad, but when your done crying, don't forget that you are still strong.

and lastly if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, advice on anything, or just a good hug my door is always open. i'm here to help. i keep all secret and would love talking to you about things that are normally taboo to you.
as always (*hug*)

This is why we love AngelonFire
Great Post <3

I totally agree along with Steam G. :thumbsup: :thumbsup:

[xxAngelOnFirexx]

i am not making this anonymous. its something i feel i should stop keeping these feelings inside:

http://file042a.bebo.com/9/large/2007/12/23/03/19747535a6435184911l.jpg
that is my life. please view the picture. i really feel that its powerful.

I am really sick of having to take anti-depressents, anti-phsycotics, and such to function.
I've been on medications since i was 8. they just kept changing the am adding more. what you see in the picture is an average night dose. i take meds three times a day. its supposed to be 4x but i just take my dinner meds at night to make it easier since i kept forgetting them and taking them late anyway. one year i went off the meds for awhile. i got so suicidal and depressed i was forced to go back. I hate how they rule my life. if i don't take them i get withdrawls. starting new meds i get all the really rare side effects. once meds i started about killed me. my fever spiked super high and i almost had to go to the hospital. well i probably should have... Also when i go off i get awful withdrawls depending on the meds. going off one med this summer made me go into a cutting reslapse. i used to now mind meds. but i'm sick of relying. i can take large amounts of pills easily. those meds pictured at normal. in the morning i also take vitamins because of my unhealthy low-cal diet (well it goes on and off. i stick to super healthy foods and i don't want to get sick from lack of nutrients) if i get an infection in my peiricings or such i need to add more meds. if i have a headache i add a few more. those are okay. but i don't like relying on them :dry:

thanks for reading that if you did. i appreciate it. its hard trying to act ok with it all the time when i really resent it. i have no choice. my cousin was bipolar. he thought he was doing better. he went off his meds (without doctor knowing) he got depressed went back to street drugs one night after being clean three years.he overdosed and died at the young age of 21. he would have been okay if he just stayed on his meds. that was almost 6 years ago. i was really young and didn't know him to well. but now i know how felt. i won't let him die in vain. i will learn from his mistake. I will take my meds. even if its through gritted teeth.

[step49x]

That "EC Hotties" thread is making me so jealous and depressed
That topic is just making me frustrated. Not at myself, but at some of the other people here.
Why? >_>
Because it doesn't seem like it's been a very positive topic, overall. Maybe I'm just looking at it wrong. It seems to have gotten better, recently. I'm just wondering how much good it's done. I mean, I want it to be positive, but I don't know...

I feel guilty for making that thread.
Don't worry about it. I've been tempted to post similar topics.

[Anonymous]

I sometimes wonder if I'm getting fat, despite the fact that many people I know would kill to be my weight.

[Paul_UK]

I feel guilty for making that thread.

Don't worry - if you hadn't someone else would have don sooner or later.

[Steam Giant]

i am not making this anonymous. its something i feel i should stop keeping these feelings inside:

http://file042a.bebo.com/9/large/2007/12/23/03/19747535a6435184911l.jpg
that is my life. please view the picture. i really feel that its powerful.

I am really sick of having to take anti-depressents, anti-phsycotics, and such to function.
I've been on medications since i was 8. they just kept changing the am adding more. what you see in the picture is an average night dose. i take meds three times a day. its supposed to be 4x but i just take my dinner meds at night to make it easier since i kept forgetting them and taking them late anyway. one year i went off the meds for awhile. i got so suicidal and depressed i was forced to go back. I hate how they rule my life. if i don't take them i get withdrawls. starting new meds i get all the really rare side effects. once meds i started about killed me. my fever spiked super high and i almost had to go to the hospital. well i probably should have... Also when i go off i get awful withdrawls depending on the meds. going off one med this summer made me go into a cutting reslapse. i used to now mind meds. but i'm sick of relying. i can take large amounts of pills easily. those meds pictured at normal. in the morning i also take vitamins because of my unhealthy low-cal diet (well it goes on and off. i stick to super healthy foods and i don't want to get sick from lack of nutrients) if i get an infection in my peiricings or such i need to add more meds. if i have a headache i add a few more. those are okay. but i don't like relying on them :dry:

thanks for reading that if you did. i appreciate it. its hard trying to act ok with it all the time when i really resent it. i have no choice. my cousin was bipolar. he thought he was doing better. he went off his meds (without doctor knowing) he got depressed went back to street drugs one night after being clean three years.he overdosed and died at the young age of 21. he would have been okay if he just stayed on his meds. that was almost 6 years ago. i was really young and didn't know him to well. but now i know how felt. i won't let him die in vain. i will learn from his mistake. I will take my meds. even if its through gritted teeth.

I know exactly how you mean, even if I don't take nearly as many meds as you do. I really hate having to rely on them to keep me functional, having to always worry about having them around, having to worry about forgetting them or running out. Worst of all is the prospect that I could be on them for the rest of my life!

I know how much it sucks, but the meds really are keeping us better, even if they don't completely abolish our issues. As much as we hate them, they are necesary for our health.

[panda]

i am not making this anonymous. its something i feel i should stop keeping these feelings inside:

that is my life. please view the picture. i really feel that its powerful.

I am really sick of having to take anti-depressents, anti-phsycotics, and such to function.
i won't let him die in vain. i will learn from his mistake. I will take my meds. even if its through gritted teeth. Morgan

I know exactly how you mean, even if I don't take nearly as many meds as you do. I really hate having to rely on them keep me functional, having to always worry about having them around, having to worry about forgetting them or running out. Worst of all is the prospect that I could be on them for the rest of my life!

I know how much it sucks, but the meds really are keeping us better, even if they don't completely abolish our issues. As much as we hate them, they are necesary for our health.

Steam G.

I sometimes wonder who I am. Whether I am the meds or the meds are me.My DR. wants to try something new in Jan.I believe in my case that the meds do help and in the long run I will find the real me.(*hug*) Richard

[Anonymous]

Even though christmas is the time to be happy and i got gifts and stuff im not happy i want to die i hate this and i want to go far far away.

[Anonymous]

i like writing about death, pain, and horror. in fact its all i really connect to and feel worth writing anymore.

[Anonymous]

I'm anorexic, and I'm jealous that my boyfriend is cuddling his mom right now and not me

[Anonymous]

I'm anorexic, and I'm jealous that my boyfriend is cuddling his mom right now and not me

what do u mean by cuddling?

[Anonymous]

my nan put red nail varnish on my nails when i was like 5 >>

[Anonymous]

homophobic? i'm heterophobic. :pride:

[Anonymous]

I am jealous of the guy that I like

[Anonymous]

i'm plotting things that i haven't yet spoken in words about how i'm feeling.

[Anonymous]

i'm plotting things that i haven't yet spoken in words about how i'm feeling.

what kinds of things are you plotting?

[crimsonarcher]

I see all of these posts here and i just want to say this:

It took my to realize that you help yourself get stable. then when you can stand on your own feet, help others to do so. making yourself comfortable with material things will get you nowhere.

here are things i want everyone to know and realize

live for others even if you can't live for yourself

there is good in everyone even you

giving up never solved anything

always forgive yourself

even if you think your life is worth living, think of all the reasons you'd want your best friend to live or your loved relative. that is why they love you

the first step isn't getting help, its realizing you need help. then the best thing to do is talk to a trusted person you can call a friend.

life may not be what we expected but that doesn't mean we can't find a good reason to live it out anyway (how about for others that love you?)

let karma solve all personal disputes instead of revenge

never stop the tears if you are sad, but when your done crying, don't forget that you are still strong.

and lastly if you ever need a shoulder to cry on, advice on anything, or just a good hug my door is always open. i'm here to help. i keep all secret and would love talking to you about things that are normally taboo to you.
as always (*hug*)



nicely said!

[Anonymous]

i'm plotting things that i haven't yet spoken in words about how i'm feeling.

what kinds of things are you plotting?

things that everyone doesn't want me to do. i won't even let myself think about them. i keep pretending that i'm not thinking about them.