Black Heart

[Anonymous]

Even though i shold be happy the way my life is going its really lookng up but want to die. i WAnt to stab myself over and over and over just lie on the floor as i bleed to death. In school out of nowhere i get depressed and sad i jus want things to be...different for me but they're not. I like this guy alot but he hasnt talked to me in like 4 days so that really isnt helping. I laugh at others people misery and their misfortunes if they outvalue mine they make me feel better. For example if i lost $100 and someone lost $400 that makes me feel better and makes things alright.

Anyone else out there with a black heart?

[Jim1454]

I wish there was something I could do for you. If things are that bleak for you, please get some help. Talk to someone that you can trust and let them know that you're that unhappy... Life isn't as bad as it feels right now, and it doesn't have to feel that bad either.

[Anonymous]

I wish. But all of a sudden i find it hard to open up and be emotionaly attached to things/people. Like here i can tell you all my problems and my emotions but irl not really. If a family relative died or a friend or parent i prob wudnt cry unless one of those friends was like hot/cute then maybe i wud but then again all my friends are hot/cute lol.