I deserve to die.

[Samus610]

I can't take it anymore. My mom is mad that I didn't get her anything for christmas. So as a last minute idea I made her a hemp necklace. But she didn't want it. I don't deserve to live. I'm just a horrible person without a soul. I should just slit my wrists. I don't deserve to walk this earth or breath the air. I deserve to be six feet under. I just wanna die. The stress is too much. I'm so much like my father. I'm a horrible person. I forget to get a present for my mom, sometimes I don't respect her, and I don't take responsiblity for anything I've done. I'm a burden to my friends. Even now I'm crying while I write this. I am truly pathetic. I should have never been born. All I do is cause pain. I'm never going to do anything with my life. I should just die.:tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears: :tears:

[Anonymous]

(*hug*) Listen one of the challenges of growing up and even when you are an adult is realizing that sometimes people we love don't treat us in the way we think they should. It hurts alot, I know because I have people in my life who have treated me badly. You kind of have to separate yourself from that. Look at your good qualities and realize you are here on this earth for a reason. You are a valuable human being. Suicide is never the answer. Some wise soul here said it's a "permanent solution to a temporary problem." Your mom is inconsiderate and rude but its her problem and not yours. Hang in there. We love you!

[CrimsonThunder]

Oh noes, did you accidentally unclick the anonymous post?

Honestly, I don't think not buying your mum a present isn't that bad. I don't want to buy my mum one just because I wanted to save money... But I bought everyone else presents. Christmas is expensive after all.

And I think its a beatufiul thing that you MADE your mum something, wether she likes it or not is not your fault.

(hugs)

[JayHew]

It is a shame that your mom rejects what you made for her, but that is her problem not yours. There is little you can do to make that different as you do not have any control over another person's mind, but you can certainly change what you think and how you feel. Understand it is difficult being in the world of today feeling alone, which is not entirely true for any of us, but it may seem that way. How it comes about is from our attitudes and the way we approach things. Having low self esteem is one aspect we all struggle to overcome, some having worse problems than others.

The only thing you need understand is for now and the foreseeable future there is no one in God's little green apple who is able to contribute as you do. In that you are unique and special and it has purpose. Are you really a bad person, probably not, just as probably your dad isn't a total troll either (after all at some point your mother saw fit to fall in love and marry him, so even she saw good at some point). I am not saying there is no room for improvement, but suicide is final, whereas working things one at a time can change your entire world. One thing that could help you is to seek out counseling for yourself. Often there are many organizations out there available to help. Start now and have no expectations except to eventually getting better in your attitude concerning yourself as well as for what is going on around you.

Good luck, and if you want, you can always PM me.

[Samus610]

Thanks. I'm feeling better. Thanks for your help.

[Kimi]

It is a shame that your mom rejects what you made for her, but that is her problem not yours.

I was thinking same thing. How could she rejects your present!?!?

Just because you forgot a present for your mom that doesn't make you horrible person at all.

And Christmas is not about presents originally, right?
Glad to hear you are feeling better now:)

[Anonymous]

Oh noes, did you accidentally unclick the anonymous post?

Honestly, I don't think not buying your mum a present isn't that bad. I don't want to buy my mum one just because I wanted to save money... But I bought everyone else presents. Christmas is expensive after all.

And I think its a beatufiul thing that you MADE your mum something, wether she likes it or not is not your fault.

(hugs)
Didn't buy the person that carried you for 9 month? Gave you all her love? :eusa_naug
Anyway...

She shouldn't have refused the present you made for her, a gift is a gift.
I think a handmade one by your own son is much more special than anything else, you're not a horrible person that deserves to die. Theres much worse than not buying a gift for christmas.

It's not even christmas yet.

[JSG]

^ Me

[Anonymous]

First rule of life: YOU ARE ALIVE. Never, EVER say you deserve to die. You might think you believe it, and others may as well, but it's not true. You are a beautiful person no matter what you think of yourself, and there's always a reason to live, however small.

Your parents should count themselves lucky that you thought enough of them to keep living with them, instead of running away like so many others. Just that you even thought of getting your family gifts should be enough for them, and if they don't realize it, then they need to seriously look at their lives and put them in perspective.

[Ty]

I never get my mum or dad anything for christmas...

[Anonymous]

Overlooking the fact to get your mum a pressie for Christmas is not the end of the world, maybe she was a little bit hurt and maybe it was justified but you need to keep some perspective. What you did was thoughtless, and we have all of us been thoughtless at times in our lives. You haven't done anything terrible, you haven't been a bad person.

I think it is lovely that you spent the time and energy to make her a hemp necklace and good manners required that she accept even if she never wore the damn thing! I think of the two misdomeanours yours is the least important, you were thoughtless, your mum's refusal of your gift was mean and meaness beats thoughtlessness any day in my book.

Sorry I don't mean to critisize your mum but please don't take things so hard, you are a human being and as such you are not perfect, none of us are! :kiss:

[Anonymous]

It is a shame that your mom rejects what you made for her, but that is her problem not yours. There is little you can do to make that different as you do not have any control over another person's mind, but you can certainly change what you think and how you feel. Understand it is difficult being in the world of today feeling alone, which is not entirely true for any of us, but it may seem that way. How it comes about is from our attitudes and the way we approach things. Having low self esteem is one aspect we all struggle to overcome, some having worse problems than others.

The only thing you need understand is for now and the foreseeable future there is no one in God's little green apple who is able to contribute as you do. In that you are unique and special and it has purpose. Are you really a bad person, probably not, just as probably your dad isn't a total troll either (after all at some point your mother saw fit to fall in love and marry him, so even she saw good at some point). I am not saying there is no room for improvement, but suicide is final, whereas working things one at a time can change your entire world. One thing that could help you is to seek out counseling for yourself. Often there are many organizations out there available to help. Start now and have no expectations except to eventually getting better in your attitude concerning yourself as well as for what is going on around you.

Good luck, and if you want, you can always PM me.

110% agreed it is your mom who is missing out from the wonderful things. You shouldn't let this discourage you. Use this to build yourself up and make you stronger."N-n-now th-that that don't kill me
Can only make me stronger"-Kanye West Stronger

[Urman]

^ me

It is a shame that your mom rejects what you made for her, but that is her problem not yours. There is little you can do to make that different as you do not have any control over another person's mind, but you can certainly change what you think and how you feel. Understand it is difficult being in the world of today feeling alone, which is not entirely true for any of us, but it may seem that way. How it comes about is from our attitudes and the way we approach things. Having low self esteem is one aspect we all struggle to overcome, some having worse problems than others.

The only thing you need understand is for now and the foreseeable future there is no one in God's little green apple who is able to contribute as you do. In that you are unique and special and it has purpose. Are you really a bad person, probably not, just as probably your dad isn't a total troll either (after all at some point your mother saw fit to fall in love and marry him, so even she saw good at some point). I am not saying there is no room for improvement, but suicide is final, whereas working things one at a time can change your entire world. One thing that could help you is to seek out counseling for yourself. Often there are many organizations out there available to help. Start now and have no expectations except to eventually getting better in your attitude concerning yourself as well as for what is going on around you.

Good luck, and if you want, you can always PM me.

110% agreed it is your mom who is missing out from the wonderful things. You shouldn't let this discourage you. Use this to build yourself up and make you stronger."N-n-now th-that that don't kill me
Can only make me stronger"-Kanye West Stronger

[Anonymous]

So... ur stressed and want to die because u didnt buy a present??...... theres always next year you colud get her something even btter, and you made her a necklace which is thoughtful.. I thought it was 'the thought that counts', unless she knew you didnt buy her one and made something.

[Anonymous]

When ur 16 the last thing u think about is buying parents gifts for holidays, i know i never did and this year will atually be the first i do buy them gifts. but ur mum shudnt of rejected what u made.

no1 deserves to die, unless they have taken the life of others or basically taken their lives and in no way, shape or form have u done anything like that =]

ur just feeling like rap atm but dont worry it will pass in time and ull emerge and be as happy as anyone else, all it takes is amazing friends to support you and people to listen and then determination and im sure u have all of them =]

[Anonymous]

that was me btw, forgot to uncheck the box oops lol

but one thing i did forget...

A GIANT MASSIVE HUG!


we will always be here for u and never forget that!

[Tom]

eep did it agen, soz lol

[Anonymous]

if you deserved to die you would already be dead of natural causes. no one deserves it. you just need to find a reason to love yourself and find that person deep down inside of you that you can appreciate and care for.