martin19
25th Jun 2006, 08:41 AM
I had been feeling this since I was 6 I guess and I hadn't told this to anybody except to those guys who I had been having sex with and that was two people only to be honest. A friend of mine who lives in my same building (Alex) and another guy from secondary school (Justin). Anyway, the point is that after becoming 19 I really felt I needed to get this out of my chest because it was too much pressure to contain and I thought I would explode if I didn't do that.
After hearing that this guy living in the very same building had told one or two of his friends he was bisexual, I felt the stenght needed to come out, firstly, to my friends, although I felt very insecure with all that as it would be a one way ticket.
I met up with Mark (one of my best friends) and decided to tell him first about all this. Sincerly, I had always thought he was gay so that's why I had chosen him to be the first to know, but things ended up being me the onlyone gay. Although I still feel he's gay but doesn't accept himself.
He reacted quite well, and suggested me to tell this to Mary as she was lesbian and she would give me a piece of advice and may be introduce me to some of her gay friends.
It had been really moving for me to tell Mark all this, so I wasn't completely prepared to tell Mary. Mainly because I had had a crash on her years ago.
Two months after my first coming out, being about four o'clock in the afternoon I called Mary and vomit it to her. She was more than shocked but happy at the same time. After all, his best friend was gay as her. Our relationship boosted up and I felt really great going out with her to gay places and getting to know about the gay scene.
I know my coming out doesn't sound that interesting or exciting (I'm not a great writer either) but I just wanted it to be known and encourage young guys to tell this to at least one person in your life, a really meaningful person because it will free you of the unsufferable and inhuman feeling of encarcelation of your sentiments. Being gay shouldn't be a dictatorship.
Thanks God for making me gay.
Martin, UK.
After hearing that this guy living in the very same building had told one or two of his friends he was bisexual, I felt the stenght needed to come out, firstly, to my friends, although I felt very insecure with all that as it would be a one way ticket.
I met up with Mark (one of my best friends) and decided to tell him first about all this. Sincerly, I had always thought he was gay so that's why I had chosen him to be the first to know, but things ended up being me the onlyone gay. Although I still feel he's gay but doesn't accept himself.
He reacted quite well, and suggested me to tell this to Mary as she was lesbian and she would give me a piece of advice and may be introduce me to some of her gay friends.
It had been really moving for me to tell Mark all this, so I wasn't completely prepared to tell Mary. Mainly because I had had a crash on her years ago.
Two months after my first coming out, being about four o'clock in the afternoon I called Mary and vomit it to her. She was more than shocked but happy at the same time. After all, his best friend was gay as her. Our relationship boosted up and I felt really great going out with her to gay places and getting to know about the gay scene.
I know my coming out doesn't sound that interesting or exciting (I'm not a great writer either) but I just wanted it to be known and encourage young guys to tell this to at least one person in your life, a really meaningful person because it will free you of the unsufferable and inhuman feeling of encarcelation of your sentiments. Being gay shouldn't be a dictatorship.
Thanks God for making me gay.
Martin, UK.