Anonymous
4th Jan 2008, 11:54 PM
i am in need of some serious help.
k so a couple of years ago, in 8th grade, i started to have a crush on this guy named cody. and i didnt know what to think of it cause throughout elementary school I never felt one way or another about chicks or dudes. but i remember in kindergarden that when my class watched science movies everyday i would always sit behind this one kid and reach in his pants and feel up his ass and package. but then we moved to a really small school with only like 30 kids.
anyways..... in 8th grade i didnt really do anything about this crush except tell a few of my good chick friends and they couldnt really give me advice. but then at the same time as LIKING him (which was like the whole year) i had 2 girlfriends, which werent all that serious and only lasted for 3 weeks to a month each. so that totally confused me
then for 9th grade i moved to a totally new school (not just up to high school but to a new city and everything..) and i didnt have any crushes so i just thought whatever and moved on. but then everything changed. i met this guy Tyler and he is so good looking, so nice, and funny and just all around good. but he's straight. and im totally in love with him to this day, and i dont know what to do because theres not that much of a gay population at my school, at least not that i know about, and theres no one that i can talk to. i tried to talk to my friend courtney but i ended up liking her a lot and we almost dated sao that made me even more confused. so i tried to talk to my mom, and she just told me that it was a phase and that my body was changing. and i believed her and tried to ignore the feelings i had. but then they kept coming back and i triend to talk to her again and she put me in therapy. so i figured my way out of that.
and now its 10th grade and im in love with tyler, and in my heart know that im definitly not straight, but in my head im not sure. because theres this whole thing with this girl and its really confusing and i just have no idea what to think right now.
so if you have any advice or anything, please tell me.
k so a couple of years ago, in 8th grade, i started to have a crush on this guy named cody. and i didnt know what to think of it cause throughout elementary school I never felt one way or another about chicks or dudes. but i remember in kindergarden that when my class watched science movies everyday i would always sit behind this one kid and reach in his pants and feel up his ass and package. but then we moved to a really small school with only like 30 kids.
anyways..... in 8th grade i didnt really do anything about this crush except tell a few of my good chick friends and they couldnt really give me advice. but then at the same time as LIKING him (which was like the whole year) i had 2 girlfriends, which werent all that serious and only lasted for 3 weeks to a month each. so that totally confused me
then for 9th grade i moved to a totally new school (not just up to high school but to a new city and everything..) and i didnt have any crushes so i just thought whatever and moved on. but then everything changed. i met this guy Tyler and he is so good looking, so nice, and funny and just all around good. but he's straight. and im totally in love with him to this day, and i dont know what to do because theres not that much of a gay population at my school, at least not that i know about, and theres no one that i can talk to. i tried to talk to my friend courtney but i ended up liking her a lot and we almost dated sao that made me even more confused. so i tried to talk to my mom, and she just told me that it was a phase and that my body was changing. and i believed her and tried to ignore the feelings i had. but then they kept coming back and i triend to talk to her again and she put me in therapy. so i figured my way out of that.
and now its 10th grade and im in love with tyler, and in my heart know that im definitly not straight, but in my head im not sure. because theres this whole thing with this girl and its really confusing and i just have no idea what to think right now.
so if you have any advice or anything, please tell me.