Anonymous
6th Jan 2008, 03:35 PM
First it is probably best for me to explain my illness.
I take tablets for Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) and for my sickness. This took ages to get diagnosed though and caused me to damage myself.
In 2002 I had a stressful year, which is when my illness started appearing. At first i thought i was just stressed, but then i started feeling worse and worse. I then convinced myself i may have crohns disease (my mum has it and was my age when symptoms appeared). I decided that it was food making me sick and that i would stop eating. At the time it seemed sensible, now it was an idiotic thing to do. This never helped me though, and made my illness even worse. By the time i realised i was being an idiot i was trying to eat again. This is when the big problems started.
I tried starting to eat again, but it failed badly. Everytime i did my stomach rejected it. I had always had a weak stomach from a kid, so i wasn't too surprised. It has now got to the point that i am concerned if i don't be sick now. It is mainly of a morning that it affects me. Sometimes even the smell of food is enough to get me going. Anyways, if i don't feel sick in the morning then i tend to make myself sick because i am paranoid that i will be ill when i am at college. This has especially caused problems with my teeth because they're now brittle, and eating anything hard risks them chipping or breaking. :icon_sad:
The few people who do know automatically jump to an eating disorder because i make myself sick, but i'm only doing it to make myself well. I disagree with it being an ED, and i don't want to see a doctor incase they think it is. I just don't see it as an ED. I know they're becoming more common in males, but my reasons for making myself sick aren't because i'm worried about my weight or anything, I just want to be well. :help:
I take tablets for Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS) and for my sickness. This took ages to get diagnosed though and caused me to damage myself.
In 2002 I had a stressful year, which is when my illness started appearing. At first i thought i was just stressed, but then i started feeling worse and worse. I then convinced myself i may have crohns disease (my mum has it and was my age when symptoms appeared). I decided that it was food making me sick and that i would stop eating. At the time it seemed sensible, now it was an idiotic thing to do. This never helped me though, and made my illness even worse. By the time i realised i was being an idiot i was trying to eat again. This is when the big problems started.
I tried starting to eat again, but it failed badly. Everytime i did my stomach rejected it. I had always had a weak stomach from a kid, so i wasn't too surprised. It has now got to the point that i am concerned if i don't be sick now. It is mainly of a morning that it affects me. Sometimes even the smell of food is enough to get me going. Anyways, if i don't feel sick in the morning then i tend to make myself sick because i am paranoid that i will be ill when i am at college. This has especially caused problems with my teeth because they're now brittle, and eating anything hard risks them chipping or breaking. :icon_sad:
The few people who do know automatically jump to an eating disorder because i make myself sick, but i'm only doing it to make myself well. I disagree with it being an ED, and i don't want to see a doctor incase they think it is. I just don't see it as an ED. I know they're becoming more common in males, but my reasons for making myself sick aren't because i'm worried about my weight or anything, I just want to be well. :help: