Problems

[Anonymous]

I have problems that I feel like I can't tell anyone. Two of my friends really annoy me lately. I feel they're just acting silly towards certain things, or blatantly unintelligent.
But I never feel like I can tell people my problems any more.
Not just because I think they'll judge me, but also for the fact that they may say "You shouldn't feel bad for thinking that..." because I do. And hearing that won't just make those feelings go away.
I don't even want to tell anyone, because all of my friends have their own problems. Everyone does.
My friends don't even ask "How are you" when I ask them how they are.
I'm a freak because of the music I listen to.
I'm ashamed of everything.
I'm not good at anything.
I'm not good for anything.
I'm annoying.
Too enthusiastic.
Too different.
Unmotivated.
Unintelligent.
I stopped cutting myself for a boy who ripped out my heart and crushed it to pieces.
I miss being able to bleed without feeling guilty.
But I walked through that door and it locked itself behind me. I can not go back.

[Anonymous]

(*hug*) (*hug*) (*hug*)

Your feelings and thoughts are valid because they are yours so people telling you not to feel like this are not really hearing your distress. It sounds to me like you are depressed and need to get some help.

Depression can be caused by a series of unfortunate events which have spread themselves over the last few years and another one comes along before you have got over the first and they just build up and build up, it can also be caused by an imbalance of chemicals in the brain. In the two cases you need medical help to help you through this.

You can't hope to cope with everything all on your own, no one can, especially if the people around you are not able to listen and HEAR what you are saying.

It sounds to me as though your self esteem is at rock bottom. Maybe you need to break up your problems into bite sized manageable portions. Take one problem at a time let's say 'I'm ashamed of everything' break this down, what specifically are you ashamed of? OK, for each thing that you are ashamed off ask yourself why? When you have an answer to each of things ask yourself if this is really a valid reason, does it really matter and if so to whom.

By breaking things down one by one ten problems which seem very daunting all grouped together take on a different more manageable aspect.

I would seriously advise getting councelling if you possibly can, the councellor will help you see things in a different light and give you confidence in yourself. :kiss:

[Anonymous]

I'm glad to hear that you're going to stay away from cutting - it isn't an answer to anything.

We're all here to help and encourage each other. Good luck.

[Anonymous]

Me again.
*sigh*
There's been two days this week where I haven't slept at all.
One day I slept for about 3 hours.
I haven't been taking my inhaler/antibiotics.
I've been doing a lot of heavy activity, but I'm not supposed to because of the medication I actually am taking.
Tomorrow, I have;
4 pages of terms and notes to write for my law class.
A monologue to memorize for my Drama class.
A book to read for my English class.
I have to learn how to operate about 5 computer programs.
All of this stuff is due Monday.
3 of these four things are worth 30% of my final mark for the term in those respective classes.
As for the option of talking to someone... I just don't know. I'm not good at talking to adults in the first place, but I have had at least three friends in the past year who have been to a therapist and been put on medication. All of them have told me that it just made them worse.

[biisme]

then don't go to a psychiatrist. go to a pychologist. no medicine there.

[beckyg]

I agree, a psychologist sounds like a good alternative for you. You really need to be talking to someone.

[Astaroth]

As for the option of talking to someone... I just don't know. I'm not good at talking to adults in the first place, but I have had at least three friends in the past year who have been to a therapist and been put on medication. All of them have told me that it just made them worse.

Never let someone else's failure define your success. What didn't work for them could very well be the key to your recovery! They may have not cooperated with the psychiatrist properly and were misdiagnosed. They might not have kept up with their prescriptions properly and tampered the results. There are a whole host of reasons that things didn't work out for your friends. But none of those reasons should stop you from at least trying to work out your own problems. The worst that can happen is that the same thing happens to you and you're back on step one.