heatqueen
20th Jan 2008, 10:48 AM
Where does one look for a girlfriend?
I live in Dubai, with my family, and there I only have 1 bi friend. Actually technically I have 2, but the other lives in Germany. I don't know anyone else who I could possibly stand a chance with there. And no, me and the bi girl are definitely not ever going to get into a relationship.
I also go to boarding school in England, a girls' school, but it's not very open-minded and the reaction if I came out there would be "You just came to a girls' school to stare us all down" (that's completely untrue actually, I went there before knowing my orientation).
These days all I can seem to think about is how much I want a girlfriend, but I don't know where to look. It seems that everywhere I go, everyone is freakin' straight. It's at the point where I now can't stop fantasizing about Brandi Ryan, an MTV personality on 'A Shot at Love With Tila Tequila'...I really want her but know I can't have her...anyway, this isn't about Brandi, it's about girlfriends. I was in an ICT exam and finished really early, and for the rest of the time, I was constantly thinking how much I'd love to kiss a girl (I never have...sadly...).
I made a vow to myself several years ago that I wouldn't date until I'm 16. Today, if the right person came along, I would happily break it.
I've watched clips on youtube where 2 girls are kissing and envy them so much. What can I do?
I live in Dubai, with my family, and there I only have 1 bi friend. Actually technically I have 2, but the other lives in Germany. I don't know anyone else who I could possibly stand a chance with there. And no, me and the bi girl are definitely not ever going to get into a relationship.
I also go to boarding school in England, a girls' school, but it's not very open-minded and the reaction if I came out there would be "You just came to a girls' school to stare us all down" (that's completely untrue actually, I went there before knowing my orientation).
These days all I can seem to think about is how much I want a girlfriend, but I don't know where to look. It seems that everywhere I go, everyone is freakin' straight. It's at the point where I now can't stop fantasizing about Brandi Ryan, an MTV personality on 'A Shot at Love With Tila Tequila'...I really want her but know I can't have her...anyway, this isn't about Brandi, it's about girlfriends. I was in an ICT exam and finished really early, and for the rest of the time, I was constantly thinking how much I'd love to kiss a girl (I never have...sadly...).
I made a vow to myself several years ago that I wouldn't date until I'm 16. Today, if the right person came along, I would happily break it.
I've watched clips on youtube where 2 girls are kissing and envy them so much. What can I do?