The thing is

I get the feeling your responses to this will be similar to others you've gotten in the past. If you like girls, and not guys, you like girls. It's as simple as that.

 

I can't be anything but blunt...AGAIN

YOU NEED to see a therapist! You have been told a TON of times how we feel about this and I don't think you want to listen

Foxface

 

:bang:

 

There are sliding scale and sometimes free centers around

Regardless, you have to understand how we as the other members feel. You've asked us over and over and over what we think and we've given you the same response every time and you keep starting the same thread

What is it that you want us to say to you? That's all I have left to ask

What do you want to hear?

Foxface

 

Dude, you are borderline OCD. Get some professional help.

 

People can help you to work that out but you are the only one that can answer that question. And people have already given you their advice on how to find the answer, now the only thing left to do is take that advice!

 

Well, your situation might not be exactly like mine, but close enough. I'll tell you that after months of constant, non-stop questioning, I'm back where I left off, except more at peace with myself. I no longer care what I might be...

 

and what have the members told you countless times? We cannot answer this for you but our feelings have been noted a lot of times

Foxface

 

OP, I've been in the position of asking my loved ones if I've had diseases and ailments or other dilemmas that I didn't have, and they've met with pretty much the same reaction the board is right now. After a while, nobody can respond to you any further. I think you should seek some help out as well, and like others have said, there are free or discounted resources in your area. Seek them out.

 

No, it hasn't been a lie. You are straight. You always have been.

 

Even if you were gay (and I think you're not), you need to stop labeling yourself. All this "am i gay?" stuff is messing with your brain.

 

It means you need to see a therapist.

 

Gay, straight, or something else entirely, *no one* should put themselves through this. If you're gay, worst case scenario, this is not the way to go about discovering it. And if you're straight, well, you're only moving further from where you started off! Really, if it takes medication or therapy, I'd say go for it, because these thoughts are ruining you, and life is hard enough without.

 

No, only if you start jumping to conclusions, fixating on labels, and constantly doubting.

 

Personally, I've found that trying to "test" whether you are gay is only going to make things worse. OP, I'm sure others here can back me up on this: If you're gay, deep down, you won't have to test. Looking at pictures of men or gay porn will arouse you whether you want to be aroused or not. You would have fantasies about guys. You would've at least had some idea you were attracted to men after all this.