Hey everyone, I'm really, really down today. All I want to do is cry. I met with my attorney yesterday. I know that financially, it might be rough for awhile. I can't find a job. I got turned down for another job yesterday. Wife wants me out of the house ASAP. I literally have no money to my name, just a ton of bills. Wife is also threatening to not pay for daughter's education at her dream school. Instead, making her go to a 2nd rate school. I've sent out 40 or 50 resumes, and haven't heard anything, except no. And all I want to do is cry and eat (and I'm already 200+ pounds overweight). I'm not supposed to tell anyone yet that we're getting a divorce because daughter doesn't know yet. And I'm not supposed to tell anyone for a LONG time after that that I'm gay. UGH.
Really sorry that you feel this way at the moment. I'm glad that you feel you can chat to us about it here on EC, sharing always eases the burden. (*hug*) If you think you're going to have temporary difficulties with homelessness etc., remember that there are charities out there like the Salvation Army, YMCA which may be able to put you up for a few nights. Alternatively, do you have any family or friends nearby who might be able to offer you a bed and shelter? It's great that you're being pro-active about finding a job, everybody finds it difficult but it's just unfortunate that you perhaps need it more urgently. Just try to be patient and something will come along your way, keep sending out your resume and don't give up. As for what you are and aren't supposed to do, don't let anyone dictate your life. Okay, it's best for you to cooperate with your wife on how to tell your daughter that you're getting divorced, but as for your sexuality, that is not her secret to force on you. If you want other people to know, then you have every right to tell them. (*hug*)
you need to put things into perspective at the moment your wife is being totally unreasonable . Have you been to see a doctor about what happening at the moment . am sure something will come up on the job front .
I do see a regular psychologist as well as a trauma specialist. I also see my family doc every 8 weeks. I'm on anti-anxiety meds as well as depression meds.
