I've never dated anyone in my life. I would always try to "like" girls when I was smaller until I FINALLY recently accepted myself as gay. I realize now that I never wanted a gf. Even though the media and those around me threw images of what my love life should be (heterosexual) part of me felt like that wasn't who I truly was but I would still ignore all those emotions. I was stuck in the middle between denying my true identity, or truly being myself. I'm glad I now accept myself for being who I am, but I'm still struggling with loving someone. I've never experienced deep love with someone... or shared my heart with anyone. I'm ready to experience a real relationship in which I can feel like I'm being honest with myself and the other person.
