I am questioning my sexuality and feel that I have been repressing my attraction to girls for a long time. I am 27 and just came out to my family. I still have never been with a girl and have been with/ dated a lot of different guys in my life. I am wondering if I was just with guys/ seeking their attention so I felt like I had some value to contribute to the world. Even now after coming out, I find myself checking out guys, or trying to get them to notice me. Believe me, I know this makes me sound pathetic, but am I doing this because I am attracted to these guys? Or do I just crave their attention, especially right now because I am so alone and sad? Are there any other lesbians out there who find themselves drawn to men like this? Am I crazy?
