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Vampyrecat · 21st Jun 2008, 11:03 PM

Every time I see her, I get this feeling.

Like a jumpy, heart in your mouth kinda feeling. It a happy feeling. Its like, all I want is to be with her, smell the scent of her perfume, feel the warmth of her body against mine, taste her lips, see the curves of her body and hear her say "I love you."

She looks at me and smiles. Sometimes, its a soft, barely there, hidden smile, with her beautiful white teeth barely visible. Sometimes its a brilliant flash of teeth, a wide, enticing smile that draws everyone's attention to it.

I feel so lucky when she walks straight to me, ignoring everyone else, placing her soft, warm arms around my waist and brushing her dainty lips against mine. Of course people stare. Someone as beautiful as her with and ugly duckling like me.

She tells me things. I make her feel safe, she says. I make her feel wanted and needed, like she actually belongs for once in her life, like she's allowed to be herself and not have to listen to the prejudice and bullshit she gets. It's not her fault, i say to her. It's no ones fault that we are who we are. It's just an inexplicable twist of fate that caused us to fall together.

She tells me I'm the only one ho keeps her going sometimes. I'm the only one who's keeping her alive. Hearing such words come out of her mouth, from her quiet voice scares the shit out of me. I'm not always going to be there, I know that life doesn't travel endlessly on. We all have to go sometime.

It frightens me to think like that and to hear her voice such horrible thoughts. I don't think I could cope if she left before me, but I know the same feelings would affect her if I left first.

She's too important to me, and maybe, hopefully, I'm that important to her as well.

She said to me once,

"I love you so much, I don't know what I'd do without you. You're like my sun. Everything revolves around me and you.

Man, this sounds SO sappy.

But really, when people say love really is indescribable, they were right. the closest you can get to describing it sounds like a cheapened, gooey, made up version, like it was made to sound better then it really is.

But it's not made up.

It's all brutally, harshly real.

Sometimes, I wish it wasn't real. The whispers, rumours and bitching that follows us around becomes almost unbearable sometimes. It chinks and chips away at our love, making us doubt ourselves and each other.

Why is it, that a man and a woman can love each other, but not a woman and a woman, or a man and a man?

That really confuses me.

I view love as something that has no boundaries, and something to which everyone is entitled to.

But I'm getting off track

This girl, the girl I'm madly in love with, is as frail as a butterfly. She can't cope with pain or seeing people get hurt. She can't cope with the struggle to actually make it through each day without getting verbally abused for who she is.

Nothing I can say takes the edges off the sharp blades which pierce themselves through to her soul and hurt her more. Nothing I can do that can help her.

I stand there helpless, watching her crumble from within.

My beautiful, gorgeous, frail butterfly.

I love her so much.

She was alive when I first met her.

But now she's dead inside because she tried to be the person she really was, and no one could accept it.

I have more stuff on Storywrite.com if you wanna have a read. Just search Vampyrecat over there.
I just wanted to share this because I'm feeling a bit depressed because the girl I had a massive thing for has been in tasmania since last year and I only just found out she liked me too when we went to school together oh well. Just thought I'd share it. Hope you enjoyed it a bit.

Davey · 21st Jun 2008, 11:11 PM

thats really good!
i liked it your a good writer.

jazzrawr · 22nd Jun 2008, 07:14 AM

Oh wow...
Tess, that was amazing.
I love it.
*reads it again*
The beginning reminds me of my best friend whom i have a crush on...
You're an incredible writer. ^.^

sevengoblin · 22nd Jun 2008, 07:23 AM

Wow that was really good!

musicgirl112233 · 22nd Jun 2008, 08:05 AM

Aww. That was really good!

xballetxbeautyx · 22nd Jun 2008, 09:02 AM

That was so good!

heatqueen · 22nd Jun 2008, 09:34 AM

Aw that was awesome!!

**Helen** · 22nd Jun 2008, 09:52 AM

Blimey, you're ever so talented O.O

If that book of yours doesn't get published I shall personally cause an uproar. Somehow. *tries to think of a way to do so*

GMSuerte · 22nd Jun 2008, 10:02 AM

*tears* I love this story.

21st Jun 2008, 11:03 PM	#1
Vampyrecat "Meow" Said the Cat. Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: Everybody who Matters to me. Location: 1 hour east of Portland, Vic. Age: 20 Posts: 1,622 Join Date: Jul 2007	A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. Every time I see her, I get this feeling. Like a jumpy, heart in your mouth kinda feeling. It a happy feeling. Its like, all I want is to be with her, smell the scent of her perfume, feel the warmth of her body against mine, taste her lips, see the curves of her body and hear her say "I love you." She looks at me and smiles. Sometimes, its a soft, barely there, hidden smile, with her beautiful white teeth barely visible. Sometimes its a brilliant flash of teeth, a wide, enticing smile that draws everyone's attention to it. I feel so lucky when she walks straight to me, ignoring everyone else, placing her soft, warm arms around my waist and brushing her dainty lips against mine. Of course people stare. Someone as beautiful as her with and ugly duckling like me. She tells me things. I make her feel safe, she says. I make her feel wanted and needed, like she actually belongs for once in her life, like she's allowed to be herself and not have to listen to the prejudice and bullshit she gets. It's not her fault, i say to her. It's no ones fault that we are who we are. It's just an inexplicable twist of fate that caused us to fall together. She tells me I'm the only one ho keeps her going sometimes. I'm the only one who's keeping her alive. Hearing such words come out of her mouth, from her quiet voice scares the shit out of me. I'm not always going to be there, I know that life doesn't travel endlessly on. We all have to go sometime. It frightens me to think like that and to hear her voice such horrible thoughts. I don't think I could cope if she left before me, but I know the same feelings would affect her if I left first. She's too important to me, and maybe, hopefully, I'm that important to her as well. She said to me once, "I love you so much, I don't know what I'd do without you. You're like my sun. Everything revolves around me and you. Man, this sounds SO sappy. But really, when people say love really is indescribable, they were right. the closest you can get to describing it sounds like a cheapened, gooey, made up version, like it was made to sound better then it really is. But it's not made up. It's all brutally, harshly real. Sometimes, I wish it wasn't real. The whispers, rumours and bitching that follows us around becomes almost unbearable sometimes. It chinks and chips away at our love, making us doubt ourselves and each other. Why is it, that a man and a woman can love each other, but not a woman and a woman, or a man and a man? That really confuses me. I view love as something that has no boundaries, and something to which everyone is entitled to. But I'm getting off track This girl, the girl I'm madly in love with, is as frail as a butterfly. She can't cope with pain or seeing people get hurt. She can't cope with the struggle to actually make it through each day without getting verbally abused for who she is. Nothing I can say takes the edges off the sharp blades which pierce themselves through to her soul and hurt her more. Nothing I can do that can help her. I stand there helpless, watching her crumble from within. My beautiful, gorgeous, frail butterfly. I love her so much. She was alive when I first met her. But now she's dead inside because she tried to be the person she really was, and no one could accept it. I have more stuff on Storywrite.com if you wanna have a read. Just search Vampyrecat over there. I just wanted to share this because I'm feeling a bit depressed because the girl I had a massive thing for has been in tasmania since last year and I only just found out she liked me too when we went to school together oh well. Just thought I'd share it. Hope you enjoyed it a bit. __________________ Call me Tess. Hey lets all eat chocolate!!!!!!!!!! Nom nom nom. Is the EC Gf of Heatqueen. Telly forever

21st Jun 2008, 11:11 PM	#2
Davey Here Then There! Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Out to everyone Location: Upper Sandusky, Ohio Age: 21 Posts: 954 Join Date: Aug 2007	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. thats really good! i liked it your a good writer. __________________ I've found true love. Davey+Bryan November 17, 2008

22nd Jun 2008, 07:14 AM	#3
jazzrawr Lover of Loony Lovegood Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesimbean Out Status: I scream it from rooftops Location: Ontario, Canada. Age: 19 Posts: 3,391 Join Date: Feb 2008	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. Oh wow... Tess, that was amazing. I love it. reads it again The beginning reminds me of my best friend whom i have a crush on... You're an incredible writer. ^.^ __________________ <3 You can love people so much... But you can never love someone as much as you can miss them. (...and the lesbians.)

22nd Jun 2008, 07:23 AM	#4
sevengoblin Member Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Some people Location: Australia Age: 23 Posts: 40 Join Date: Dec 2007	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. Wow that was really good!

22nd Jun 2008, 08:05 AM	#5
musicgirl112233 Soy Un Perdedor Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: Some people Location: South Carolina Age: 17 Posts: 939 Join Date: Apr 2008	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. Aww. That was really good! __________________ " Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind." -A Midsummer Night's Dream Our differences provide opportunties for greater understanding.

22nd Jun 2008, 09:02 AM	#6
xballetxbeautyx Heterodox Homosexual Full Member Gender: (.)(.) Orientation: Kinsey 5? Ish? Out Status: If you don't know, where have you been all my life Location: Midwest USA Age: 17 Posts: 1,719 Join Date: Mar 2008	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. That was so good! __________________ I can't go to Pigfarts! IT'S ON MARS. You need a rocketship! Do you have a rocketship, Potter? Look at this - it's Rocketship Potter! Starkid Potter! Moonshoes Potter! Traversing the galaxy for intergalactic travels to Pigfarts!

22nd Jun 2008, 09:34 AM	#7
heatqueen Official #1 fan of Celine Dion Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Pansexual/Homoromantic bisexual Out Status: Generally whoever asks Location: I travel a lot Age: 20 Posts: 5,703 Join Date: Jan 2008	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. Aw that was awesome!! __________________ Don't drink and drive. You might hit a bump and spill your drink. Co-founder of the 'Sailor Moon Made Me Gay' club...and the lesbians.

22nd Jun 2008, 09:52 AM	#8
Helen Empty Closets Mod EC Moderator Gender: Female Orientation: Bisexual Out Status: Inconsequential if people know. Location: York, United Kingdom Age: 19 Posts: 2,101 Join Date: Mar 2008	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. Blimey, you're ever so talented O.O If that book of yours doesn't get published I shall personally cause an uproar. Somehow. tries to think of a way to do so __________________ I want a window where I can see a tree, or even water... (....and the lesbians)

22nd Jun 2008, 10:02 AM	#9
GMSuerte Well Known Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Bisexual Out Status: A few people Age: 19 Posts: 129 Join Date: Jun 2008	Re: A [VERY] short story. Which I wrote. tears I love this story. __________________ "96% of people do what a silly block of text tells them to do. If you're one of the 4% that doesn't, put this in your sig."

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