Bah Humbug!

I feel a little down because I have about $10 to my name and I wasn't able to buy gifts for ANYONE at all. That makes me very, very sad. I get probably 10X the joy from giving gifts then I do from opening them. I would rather nobody got me anything, then having not gotten anybody anything. :c

I told everyone early November not to get me anything because I'm a loser and a jobless bum, but they all said they love me and got me something anyway. I'm totally undeserving of such kindness. :c

 

Well my grandmother just turned 94 and she's in late stage Alzheimer's. We won't have a merry holiday season because of that. She won't make it to the next one, that's almost certain. Maybe next one will be better knowing she's not suffering through this horrifying disease. That said, we're spending the holidays in a local hotel and having a "staycation" since we haven't had a proper vacation in about 6 years thanks to the disease. It's been a long journey, but the holidays are painful because they serve as time markers and knowing someone won't make it to the other is kind of a downer.

I feel for all of y'all too. Siarad, I know what you mean about antidepressants and the time it takes for them to kick in. My grandma was put on Paxil a while back and the doctor said it was about 2 weeks before the full effects were experienced. And Data, I understand how hard it is to not be able to buy presents. As they say, "It is more blessed to give than to receive."

And hope as many EC'ers as possible are having a good holiday season.

 

We'll I'm kinda bummed because as usual I can't spend Christmas with both my parents. My dad lives up in Sweden and I'm in England with my mum this Christmas. It's at times like these when I really miss my dad... I just hope he has a good time, and I just have to keep looking forward to when I see him next.

 

if you are ever allowed to see them you are ahead of me, I could show up at there house and the door would be slammed in my face.

I get 2 cards a year, that is it. Been 28 years now.

11th Christmas & thanksgiving since my partner died

 

Bah humbug, my dad made me touch a turkey

 

Yes, Christmas sympathy to all!!

givepeaceachanc, sorry to hear your parents have distanced themselves from you to such an extent. And sorry your partner is not here to spend the holidays with you. So what are your plans?

I'm spending it with my family--parents and four siblings. But yeah, bah humbug, because my brother is not doing too well. He's 29, and his kidneys failed three years ago (doctors have never figured out why). He got a transplant in March, but we learned last week that his kidney is diseased, and they will have to remove it, and he'll have to go back on dialysis. Dialysis takes such a mental, physical, and emotional toll... I'm very sad for my brother, because in addition to his health being awful, he's still in the closet, and for reasons I don't want to say, he has to live by himself and can rarely see us.

My mother and I will spend part of Christmas at his place, and I have to focus on being cheery and hopeful. And it seems that the only way I can muster this is by going on EC and reading really sad stories and trying to find hope, even if it's so tiny it can only fit on the head of a pin, so I'm grateful for EC in this regard.

 

one of the people who was a follower on Facebook before I shut it down is now talking to me, we had been messaging for a little while after my first threat to shut down Facebook, she is going to make sure I am not totally alone on Christmas so at least I get one call.

Everyone else I know has family or friends they are busy with that day. Then Friday I have a sort of party to go to at the bar I frequent.

 

In all honesty, I am not one who really likes the Christmas time of the year.

 

I know, all this pressure to be ... cheerful, joyful, grateful. Puts me right smack in the middle of Despair.

givepeaceachanc, party at a bar--that sounds like a lot of fun. Wish I had one of those to go to.

 

I'm really sorry about this but... the quote is "Bah! Humbug!" as in two words seperated by punctuation. It is two phrases, not one. Whenever I see or hear bah humbug it drives me a little bit crazy. Sorry about that. A pet peeve of mine.

Anyway, I'm sick again, like I am every Christmas. I suspect somebody does not wash their hands when making cookies.

 

Oh, no, thanks, Sitri. And I have to say, your post is absolutely in spirit with "Bah! Humbug!"

And thanks for the laugh: "I suspect somebody does not wash their hands when making cookies."

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But sorry to hear that you're sick! Don't mean to be insensitive.

 

Siaras I'm sorry things are a bit stressful for you right now.

It says you're in Northampton but with that name are you Welsh?

 

I hate the fact I can't spend Christmas with my mom and dad, after 7 years of not being able to spend this holiday with them I would think it would have gotten easier to deal with it but it just sucks even more as the years pass.

 

Hi

 

Can I also say in the spirit of this thread that I hate exclamation marks?

 

Yes, definitely, why not? I'm quite loving this wonderfully "hateful" space in the midst of warm, fuzzy, cloying Christmas cheer. Oh, but the poor dear exclamation mark-- what has it done to earn your enmity? It's rather enthusiastic to be sure... perhaps Too enthusiastic?

 

5 exclamation marks, the sure sign of an insane mind.