The hardest thing is seeing the one you love with someone else.

Nothing hurts more than watching the one you love, the one you want so bad, be in love? with someone else and all you can do is sit there and watch and pretend everythings alright.

I think one of the hardest thing in the world, is seeing the only one you've ever loved with someone else. It's been a 2 or 3 weeks since I've posted here, but I'm so broken hearted again today, I just thought I'd say what I feel. My ex talked to me today (after 2-3 weeks) and we decided to be friends again on facebook. I noticed the one and only love of my life is now with someone else. (via fb pics) Her name is Michelle, and we have not been together for a long time. 2 years to be exact. So, she found someone new and is going on with her life. (I'm here stuck, still hoping) I tried looking into other girls since we broke up, but it just wasn't the same. Mich and I were together most of the time. She was just the only girl who ever gave me those weird feelings. It's amazing how you can feel sparks just by when someone touches your hand. She was just so loving, caring, accepting, and most of all not judgemental. To her, I was just this nice guy who was so good to people, and would never hurt a fly. So we ended up breaking up in May of 2013.(and we've been on and off until january 2014) Ever since then I have been regretting mistakes I've done, and I've been wanting her back. A few times around, I honestly thought we were going to get back together. But ever since she got together with this guy (who is her officemate)she doesn't talk to me anymore, pretty much ignores me, since I still kind of have strong feelings for this girl, right now I feel cheated on, broken hearted and betrayed, like how could she do this to me. The day we had closure she said to me "I love you..only you..and I will never love this way again." and now I see her pictures with that guy, and it just tears me apart. :bang:

Most people tell me that I should get over her but its really hard. Everyone tells me that I am really young and that I will find someone special again, but sometimes I just don't believe it anymore. I'm not the most attractive guy in the world, which is one reason why I guess I don't get many dates. And no matter how lovely a girl looks, I still cannot look at her the same way I did with my ex. It's still her who I am longing for..


I don't know how to end this..as of the moment..I'm still stuck. I don't know if I should move on with us being friends, go with the flow of us loving each other even if she's not with me anymore or just move on with my life without her.

(again, our issue was, parents wants her to settle down with a guy.)


PS: I'm dying inside.

I'm so sorry to vent out guys..hope you understand..
Oh yes. I am great pretender. (pretending not to be hurt) :tears:

 

*I agree. Feelings will stay as it is. And yeah it will be a never ending cycle. It's hard being friends and seeing her with someone else. (though she said they were only friends, still she's giving time to this guy so it means there's something special) :icon_sad:

*I'll try my best to move on..really..I'm so tired being an option..If only she can fight for us..if only she will choose me again..Thank you for listening..(*hug*)

 

same here.. :icon_sad: (*hug*)

---------- Post added 27th Jan 2014 at 06:30 AM ----------

Im sorry to hear that.. (*hug*) but it's true, it'll take time..:icon_sad:

 

She told me one bad reaction she will end it all..It means even if I'm hurting I cannot complain, I cannot be jealous and I cannot talk to her about the other guy. I'm so f*cking broken. All I ever did was to love her and I don't think I deserve this. :-(

 

Hopefully..(*hug*)

 

Yeah..and I hope we'll be fine soon..(*hug*)

 

Thank you Mirko (*hug*) I'm working on being busy as of the moment..and I don't text or call her a lot..I'm starting to change..I don't want her to be my priority anymore cause she's just making me an option. Seems unfair to me. I'm spending time with my friends and enjoying my time doing things and becoming a better man. Time will come, I will finally let her go..move on and enjoy life without her..It's hard now but I think I can do it soon. (*hug*)

 

Hopefully..(*hug*)

---------- Post added 28th Jan 2014 at 07:43 AM ----------

:eek: can you help me find a match?just kidding..sorry to hear about that..maybe it was just a coincidence.

 

I'm still hoping that one day she will come back in my arms..or in the future maybe..who knows..but as of the moment the only choice that I have is to move on..:icon_sad: best wishes to both of you..

 

We spent tues night, wednesday (whole day), and thursday together. Tues night she slept over at my house, wed I slept over in their house. Thursday we stayed at their house. I don't know it's very complicated. She still loves me, but she will never come back to me and she chose to move on to this new guy. Guy is courting her but they have mutual feelings already and she's falling for the guy. AGAIN PARENTS WANTS HER TO SETTLE DOWN WITH A GUY SO I THINK PRESSURE IS ON HER THAT'S WHY SHE CHOSE TO BE WITH THIS GUY INSTEAD OF ME. So right now..the only choice I have is to move on, even if we still both love each other. The end of our story. :'-(