Do you sometimes feel like you are missing out on all the fun things that other ppl enjoy because you are kinda closeted and can't really change that in your present situation? But you are working towards changing it. But when you hope to achieve that happiness, you will be quite older. Does it make sense to ya'll?
Honestly, its all so confusing. Idk if its peer pressure. Its so difficult to be true to yourself sometimes. :|
Its so weird. Growing up you are told not to drink, do drugs etc and then suddenly the entire world round you is doing it. Add to it the YOLO thing. But i know it'll be against my moral fiber..
dont worry you'll meet loads of ppl in college ---------- Post added 4th Apr 2014 at 01:43 AM ---------- Also, what if all that Happiness that you work for and sacrifice so much for is not real? Like what if that idea in your head isnt realistic?
Yeah. I mean I am pretty much myself as is otherwise but it does (really) irk me at times. As one example, it's just that urge to join in when I see girls/women comment about some nice looking guy; pretty amazing how much something simple like that can pick at you like all hell. :dry:
I felt this thoughout my teens, don't know why, I just feel it wasn't what I was told it would be. "These are the best years of your life" They weren't. I had to go to school with a bunch of homophobic morons, one of whom actually talked about butt plugs...I mean really, and he didn't have to justify that conversion. Oh and one who actually thought I fancied him, though it was difficult not to enjoy the laughter from everybody incl. teacher when I told him not to flatter himself.
@chrisyboy I'd say I had fun growing up but in all senses but this. I was just...blah when it comes to anything about liking anyone or crushes or anything because I pretty much had no genuine attraction, that I was aware of at the time. I wasn't homeschooled(except for a brief period) like some of you but still feel like I was...sheltered in a way. :\