I am very upset right now. Normally don't cry about anything. But i ran into two of my cousins. And i feel REALLY sad. I felt like adding another blog but this time this blog is a vocal blog. I'm just going to lie down and cry for a bit. :tears: The Vocal blog is venting about my encounter.
http://emptyclosets.com/forum/blogs/ladyblacksoul10/9138-blog-3-good-bye-estranged-cousins.html Everything is here in the link above. I'm still crying as i am typing. I'm really torn. Normally, i'm very cheerful and ditzy like a blonde but today my heart is broken.
I ran into two of my cousins who i haven't seen in three years. I'm upset because they're grown up and just by chance i ran into them at Starbucks. At first it was nice seeing them but when i began interracting with them their demeanor was so different. It almost felt like my presence bothered me. I wanted to say good bye to them because this was probably that last time they'll encounter me as a male. My last words to them was "I miss you" and they didn't care. My aunt brain washed them into hating me and my family...
Hi there! Sorry to read about what happened. How would you feel about letting them know how their actions/change in demeanor made you feel? I think it might help you to get some of your disappointment and anger out. If nothing comes of it, at least you have tried and let them know that their behaviour is not okay. (*hug*)
It's not worth it, they have been brainwashed into being cold and distant. Plus both of them are autistic and i don't want to bother them since my presence totally bothered them. It sucks that my final words to them as a male was "I miss you". As sad as it was i made my peace with it.
I see. Your final words were still spoken from the heart, and from a place of caring about them and for the relationship you have with them. (*hug*)
