I feel HAPPY and almost proud of my sexuality, yet when I was asked about it last week, I couldn't muster the courage to say "I'm gay". I'm embarrassed to say it. I'm embarrassed about being gay. While I've gotten better at referring to myself as "gay", I still cringe a little when I do it... Other times however, I say that "I'm gay" to myself or my sister, and I say it with pride and confidence. Does this ever happen to you? Am I still in the transitional stage from acceptance to pride? Will I ever be fully prideful in my sexuality?
It's natural to feel this way. Sometimes, society instills homophobia into children. It's insidious, and hard to eradicate. Most who reach a stage of admitting their sexuality to themselves manage to overcome it. I don't know how, precisely. Just act as it it isn't there, say "I'm gay" despite your fear, and maybe you'll find it affects you less in time.
That's natural but you're on the road of acceptance and you're getting closer just keep driving and you'll make it (*hug*) Love you (*hug*)
I'm at that stage as well. I cringe when I call myself gay and I cringe even more when I call myself a lesbian.
Yes! Even though I publicly came out through facebook it wasn't like I said it, so yeah, sometimes when people who saw my post and still act as if I like girls it annoys me but I sometimes can never say "man I'm gay, I don't like girls that way". So it does happen to me and I get angry at myself because of it.
