What things make you feel vulnerable? Beyond obvious things like trust and relationships. Me: -People knowing the meaning behind my tattoos -The reason I love certain movies and other media -People knowing my trans history, particularly when an authority knows it, but everyone else doesn't - more so than if it were common knowledge -Pissing -Some of the finer points of my politics, philosophy and values -CCTV, digital surveillance and cops -Listing the things that make me feel vulnerable
-Getting into college. I'm homeschooled, and I'm about to get a GED, so I'm afraid the college system will eat me alive during the admissions process. That's all I can think of now. The continuation of my education causes 99% of my non-gay related anxiety.
-Talking about my sexual history -Being the only queer/female in a room full of people, especially if the majority are straight, cisgender men that I don't know -Gender essentialism -Being expected to/forced to: act/dress/be as hetero- and cis- normative as possible at the expense of my personal integrity, comfort and well being. -Being hit on/patronized/generally disrespected by middle aged straight male customers while I'm at work and can't say anything in my own defense for fear of being reported to my managers for 'being rude to a customer' -Being alone on public transportation -Talking about something that means a lot to me (my future career path, my partner, my ideas about life and my values) with someone I don't know well.
not really these days I'm too damn tired to care what anyone thinks. I'm pretty much an open book...maybe to excess
People knowing what I do under the covers, and people knowing my real gender. Those are probably the only 'secrets' I have, so yeah. I also feel really, really vulnerable if I don't wear jackets or long sleeves in places where there are a lot of people. Why? I have no idea.
At this point about the only thing that makes me feel really vulnerable is any hint of financial insecurity.
~ The thought of anyone around me possibly figuring out I have issues. ~ Sleeping. ~ Christianity in a whole. ~ Social situations involving school. (Specific)