I can't see counselor at the moment, I didn't start my college yet. And since you all have been advising me to contact a one, I wanna know if theres sites for the suicidal attempts. I Can't talk through phone these days. So the only way is through the internet.
One thing that you could try is TrevorChat, which is a service staffed by trained counselors. However, it's only available from 3-9PM eastern. I know you said that you can't talk on the phone, but why not? The Trevor Lifeline is available 24/7 at 866-488-7386