Ok let me start with some back ground growing up i was always interested in girls for as long as i can remember,but now i'm having problems with my sexual orientation i have been for about 1-2 years i'm 14 by the way. So i have liked girls and think about kissing them and doing stuff with them you know normal boy stuff. But when i'm around gay guy i start to feel weird not like i like them or anything its just u start to feel uneasy and nervous and i just feel really bad like my self esteem comes down and i just start to think i'm gay and just feel really bad. About last year i started to watch gay porn its funny cause sometimes gay porn gets me going and sometimes it doesn't and sometimes i just watch straight porn, like i feel like i'm experimenting and feel really stuck in this stage of life,like i feel i just want to get out sometimes when i go youtube and watch see like two boys together or kissing or anything i get tingly inside and thinks its really cute but when i think of myself kissing a guy i just i just feel like its gross like i don't want to.i've never in my life had legitimate feeling for a guy like do for girls. Sometimes i wonder how it would feel like to have sex with a guy so i try out some stuff like i pretend i'm fucking a guy or sometime i stick something in my ass(which is really unpleasant for me) but some times the idea of anything going the butthole turns me on and i think i'll like it but then when i do it i hate it.When school started we got this exchange student from Colombia and he's a bit gay and he kind of has a thing for me like he steals my hat and every time he sees me he high fives me and so on he kind of likes me but i have no idea how i'm suppose to feel about it.So i'm just here really confused mixed emotions and just really frustrated. Like at this point i don't know who i am and i don't know who i want to end up with. So i don't you could say i'mm bisexual or bicurious i don't know only time will tell. So i'd appreciate it if anyone can help me with this.:bang::tears:
