Today was one of those days where I was just irritated with my surrounds and myself. To cut to the chase I feel dysfunctional and awkward. Because I once again find myself single. I find myself desperate for attention. But in the same breath getting sick to the stomach thinking I have to possibly put up with someones nonsense again. I crave to be held and cuddled and loved. I crave to hold and cuddle and love in return. Without fear. With respect. I feel mislead. I feel conned. I feel lost. Although I am surrounded by people who love me for who I am I feel so isolated and abandoned. Abandoned by what I thought was love.
i'm kind of in the same boat in the sense that i crave to mean something to someone, yet at the same time i can't stand dealing with drama and bullshit that comes along with having a girlfriend. but i'm definitely not feeling awkward and dysfunctional about the situation..... just roll with the punches bro.
Thank you DB. I am not, for damn sure, not going to chase affection out of desperation. But if it happens to cross my path in a subtle way... c'est la vie!
