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silentsound · 12th Oct 2008, 05:11 PM

Ok, so I know that there are a bajillion threads like this, but recently I have come to realize just how much EC has done for me over the past few months and how far you all have helped me come. Why does this suddenly hit home more than ever, you ask? Because I have been busy as hell and unable to get on the internet that much... and I don't miss you. I enjoy being a part of EC and getting on when I can, but I don't need that time as much as before because I am comfortable enough with who I am that I don't need that constant reassurance that it's ok.

I came to EC with a very uncomfortable understanding of who I am and with an acceptance of myself that was actually just resigning myself to something that I knew deep down I couldn't control. So I showed up here and I started talking. I started letting my insecurities show and putting my thoughts and fears out there. And a funny thing happened: the more I talked and the more I found people who were going through the same stuff I was the less I obsessed over it all and I could suddenly breathe.

In almost two months to the day it will be the one year anniversary of my "oh shit I'm gay or something!" moment. I stand here now, ten months later, and being gay is not the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning or the last thing I think of before I go to bed. It crosses my mind throughout the day without panic or embarrassment or fear. I even came out to someone about two months back, and even though I am in no hurry to be out, I don't think I could have ever taken that step in the state I was in before coming here.

So, I know I'm rambling, but thanks EC. Without you I never could be where I am right now. Please don't think I am saying goodbye, because I will be around forever if I can. Just... thanks, you really flipped on the light in my closet.

Love you guys,

Silent

Ronnie92 · 12th Oct 2008, 05:26 PM

We love you to Silent

**Victor** · 12th Oct 2008, 05:45 PM

I'm very happy for you. EC has pretty much done the same for me, although I haven't come out to any additional people yet, but I very much want to come out now, compared to my pre-EC days where I certainly felt that being gay was a burden. I certainly don't feel that way now, at least not nearly as much.
But anyway, I don't want to steal your thunder or anything. I'm still very much happy for you and hopefully things can only get so much better from this point on for you!

silentsound · 12th Oct 2008, 05:59 PM

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Originally Posted by Vic

I'm very happy for you. EC has pretty much done the same for me, although I haven't come out to any additional people yet, but I very much want to come out now, compared to my pre-EC days where I certainly felt that being gay was a burden. I certainly don't feel that way now, at least not nearly as much.
But anyway, I don't want to steal your thunder or anything. I'm still very much happy for you and hopefully things can only get so much better from this point on for you!

Don't worry, my Thunder is quite intact =P

SpacerX · 13th Oct 2008, 11:25 AM

that's really cool, wish i had found this place a year ago!

beckyg · 13th Oct 2008, 11:35 AM

Its always good to read posts like these. Thank you!

shakerdancee · 13th Oct 2008, 05:06 PM

12th Oct 2008, 05:11 PM	#1
silentsound Flaming Thespian Full Member Gender: Female Orientation: Lesbian Out Status: most people Age: 18 Posts: 2,253 Join Date: Jun 2008	To My Dearest Empty Closets... Ok, so I know that there are a bajillion threads like this, but recently I have come to realize just how much EC has done for me over the past few months and how far you all have helped me come. Why does this suddenly hit home more than ever, you ask? Because I have been busy as hell and unable to get on the internet that much... and I don't miss you. I enjoy being a part of EC and getting on when I can, but I don't need that time as much as before because I am comfortable enough with who I am that I don't need that constant reassurance that it's ok. I came to EC with a very uncomfortable understanding of who I am and with an acceptance of myself that was actually just resigning myself to something that I knew deep down I couldn't control. So I showed up here and I started talking. I started letting my insecurities show and putting my thoughts and fears out there. And a funny thing happened: the more I talked and the more I found people who were going through the same stuff I was the less I obsessed over it all and I could suddenly breathe. In almost two months to the day it will be the one year anniversary of my "oh shit I'm gay or something!" moment. I stand here now, ten months later, and being gay is not the first thing I think about when I wake up in the morning or the last thing I think of before I go to bed. It crosses my mind throughout the day without panic or embarrassment or fear. I even came out to someone about two months back, and even though I am in no hurry to be out, I don't think I could have ever taken that step in the state I was in before coming here. So, I know I'm rambling, but thanks EC. Without you I never could be where I am right now. Please don't think I am saying goodbye, because I will be around forever if I can. Just... thanks, you really flipped on the light in my closet. Love you guys, Silent __________________ ...and I can't wait to figure out what's *wrong* with me, so I can say 'this is the way I [used] to be'

12th Oct 2008, 05:26 PM	#2
Ronnie92 Musical Comic Geek Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Bisexual with a preference for guys Out Status: So much better than before Location: Atlantic City,NJ Age: 19 Posts: 732 Join Date: Aug 2008	Re: To My Dearest Empty Closets... We love you to Silent __________________ "Why should I apologize for being who I am when I am just being true to my self."-Ororo Munroe Xx Marie,Oswaldo,Tim,Igor Kenny,Amy,Sarah My EC Besties Forever xX Member of the Sailor Moon Made Me Gay Club

12th Oct 2008, 05:45 PM	#3
Victor Moo EC Moderator Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Pretty damn out Location: California Age: 21 Posts: 1,971 Join Date: Aug 2008	Re: To My Dearest Empty Closets... I'm very happy for you. EC has pretty much done the same for me, although I haven't come out to any additional people yet, but I very much want to come out now, compared to my pre-EC days where I certainly felt that being gay was a burden. I certainly don't feel that way now, at least not nearly as much. But anyway, I don't want to steal your thunder or anything. I'm still very much happy for you and hopefully things can only get so much better from this point on for you!

13th Oct 2008, 11:25 AM	#5
SpacerX Experience = Learning Full Member Gender: Male Orientation: Gay Out Status: Out and About! Location: Wexford, Ireland Posts: 104 Join Date: Sep 2008	Re: To My Dearest Empty Closets... that's really cool, wish i had found this place a year ago!

13th Oct 2008, 11:35 AM	#6
beckyg PFLAG Mom Community Liaison Gender: Female Orientation: Straight Out Status: Out to everyone/Yes, parents come out too! Location: Middle of Oregon Age: 50 Posts: 7,572 Join Date: Mar 2007	Re: To My Dearest Empty Closets... Its always good to read posts like these. Thank you! __________________ "When we're free to love anyone we choose, When this worlds big enough for all different views, When we're all free to worship from our own kind of pew, Then we shall be free" ~ Garth Brooks

13th Oct 2008, 05:06 PM	#7
shakerdancee Oom-pah! Regular Member Gender: Male Orientation: Not sure Out Status: Anyone who asks Location: California Age: 19 Posts: 304 Join Date: Mar 2008	Re: To My Dearest Empty Closets... who?