So I'm leaving tomorrow to spend the week with Sal, my boyfriend We were on Skype talking and I told him I was leaving to shower since I was getting up early tomorrow. Which was totally cool... he told me to call back once I was finished. Anyways, I'm out of the shower and I had packed my bags, and I get back on Skype, only to find out he's talking to his best friend Natalie. Which again, was totally cool and no big deal. He tells me they'd only be talking for a few more minutes. 2 hours later he tells me he's finished... and he can't call because his host-family asked him to be more quiet... which is the only reason he ended his conversation with Natalie in the first place. And now he's being completely unapologetic. I sat here for 2 fucking hours waiting for something that wasn't going to happen. I'm completely floored by his obliviousness right now. He's acting like I shouldn't be mad about wasting 2 hours of my time which I could've spent doing something else... I fucking hate guys
And thinking about why I'm so mad... I realize it isn't even about whether or not he had the courtesy to say something to me. I don't get mad over such stupid things. Besides, I had a lovely two hours watching videos on YouTube and researching people like Christine Ebersole... I now realize I'm so upset because I don't even know if he likes me. Not once have I heard him call me his boyfriend. As far as I know, I don't exist to anyone of his friends back in the US, whereas all of my friends know about him. I'm pretty sure that when you like someone, you share them with the people you care about. I feel like right now that I'm here to occupy his time for the year. Because he couldn't meet any other gay guys in Germany, I'm it.
We currently are And we have a big break through!! He just completely admitted to me that I am his secret!! (This is said in a sarcastically thrilled tone)
At first, the reason was Jermaine, his ex-sorta-still-boyfriend But Jermaine just sent him a message saying how much he hated Sal and was so glad that he was out of his life. So there really isn't a reason now.
I could relate to how you feel. And ..more in a way where you like someone but they don't like you back and just like play you. It is not fun and in my case I just pulled the plug and finished it and was done. I hope things work out for you. It's not fun being mad =(. *HUG*
He asked me if it really bothered me, and my response was 'Of course' He said he just prefered it that way. And in response to my questioning of whether or not he liked me, he said, 'If you honestly think that you're fucking stupid'
