Having one of those days (or rather couple of days as it started yesterday).... I get to work yesterday, feeling nice and productive, when a couple of my coworkers got into longggg discussion about dating/online dating/ being single in the winter and how horrible. They were going on about how impossible it is to find somebody decent today. Then suddenly. I felt SO SINGLE. I was perfectly fine (okay maybe not, not perfectly) being single until that point. The entire conversation just made me *horribly aware* of how single I was. ...not that I can do anything about it as I'm not the best "catch" at the moment. I'm aiming to pay off my HUGE 36000$ student loan in the next year and a half and am job hunting for my second job...so until I am DEBT free I am not the most "eligible bachelorette". (clearly I have no problem divulging very personal info with massive groups of strangers online. Then there's another coworker whom I have a MASSIVE crush on. I'm perfectly cool around everybody else but I can't even have a normal conversation with her. Anytime she's around the thoughts in my brain turn to mush. I'm sure it must look something like this: :icon_redf:eek::love::icon_redf Well anyhow yesterday she was wearing this AMAZING smelling perfume and looking cute as usual...it's almost PAINFUL!! Anyhow, this morning I randomly check the FB page of a girl I was dating last year... just out of pure curiosity. Always a stupid idea. Anyhow, the first post that I saw was a post from another woman I met online a long while ago. I didn't have the best of experiences with that woman, and now apparently the two are hanging out. Seeing the post just...startled me I guess?! It rattled my emotions and I'm not even sure why. I don't have any residual feelings for the girl I was dating and certainly not for the other one from online. I don't know why I care... or IF I care. But clearly it bothered me in *some* sense as I felt the need to come post about it here. ANYHOWWWW Thank you EC for allowing me to vent. I love this place.... NOW I'm off to actually go do something productive before heading to work!
Thanks for venting. While it might seems useless/unneccessary to some, I love those posts. First you are feeling better (hopefully) after you vent on. Second we all need to get reminded everyone of us has bad days/moments every now and then but life goes on. Feel free to vent anytime you want...
