My first love was a straight woman eight years older than me. I was a teen, she a college grad. And I loved her for her sweetness and patience. But even if she did like me, it could not be due to the age difference. Now I'm noticing her flaws, two years later, (it's VERY hard to have a conversation with her, she's got few opinions on my interests). It's hard to think of what to talk about with her anymore... And it's not fair to her, because she did nothing to deserve my newfound lack of interest. Have you ever fallen out of love? Is it always this sad?
Anything that fails sucks. I definitely have been on the receiving end but also myself falling out of love too. For me it's kind of like a melancholy and nostalgic feeling. In particular, people change as a relationship continues. For me, it felt like the mourning of a person I thought she was, or the person she used to be, you know?
