Does your brain mock you?

I've had the same experience. I think with me it's when I get stressed about it

 

Lesbian sex isn't gross its beautiful! But yeah, um I used to think really homophobic thoughts to myself but over time I'be gotten over it. Its just part of the journey of accepting yourself.sometimes I still think bad things but I know that they're wrong and if I try to imagine myself as straight its icky and feels wrong. So I dunno you just gotta work at it. There's nothing wrong at all with being gay!

 

Throughout my life, my sexual dreams have been very few. Its like my brain has a censoreship comitee. Situations occur but the actual act just doesn't happen. I can be in bed with a woman or a man, it can get erotic but it stops short of anything actually happening. This perhaps represents the fact that except with my wife I have never been confident or even really comfortable initiating.

Sure though my brain can torment me, that was what caused me so long to come out. Now it's getting much quieter, and I recognise it for what it is.

 

We go back and forth

 

My brain mocks me by giving me dreams at night about meeting people and having romantic connetions with them, when I know it most likely won't happen in a while because I'm sort of shy :/

 

I have voices in my head who laugh mockingly... so yeah ^^

 

HA mine always does. It's so pleasant isn't it *sarcasm* xD it might be because of the fear you have of being bi. It's hard but you just have to get passed your fear and accept that you may be ^^

 

My brain messes with emotionally but not in homophobic ways. Ill have a dream where I'm laying in bed with my ex or current crush (it changes from time to time). Nothing raunchy just cuddling and talking till we fall asleep and then I wake up and feel cold, alone, and for some reason hungry.

 

My dreams are sheer insanity, I cannot think of the last time I had a dream that wasn't lurid. And this is going back more than 25 years at least. Heck in the end I learnt to control them just to get some kind of reason, then unlearned because I wasn't getting a proper nights sleep. Even then though the one thing I could never control was erotic nature situations.

You can see why for a while I turned to shamanism of a kind before finally becoming a human rationalist.

But control of dreams is one thing, controlling your subconscious when it is self destructive in whatever degree or fashion is something else. I too am glad to finally be able to talk to someone who knows.

 

I won't put up with that shit from a mere lump of neurons. My brain once tried to mock me, long ago, but I gave it a piece of my mind and it shut up. It's got no leverage. None. I mean, sure it tried to pull that crap about "I have control over your motor functions...I can stop you from breathing". Yeah, right, brain, let's see you do it...I give you two minutes tops, and then *bing* I'm back to breathing again. Dumbass organ meat. Then it throws at me "I control your thoughts". I'm like, oh, so that means *you're* the one who's talking to yourself! That was when I found that my brain is easily embarrassed, and has a hard time thinking of snappy comebacks. So I told it, "look, I'll prove to you that you don't control my thoughts: if you don't shut up and start working for *me*, like you're damned well supposed to, I will have you replaced with an artificial brain that makes decisions 1000's of time quicker and with less error. Now: why the hell would you produce a thought like that? Huh? It's not even in your interest to give me an idea like that. Clearly that's not something *you* came up with, now is it?"

What could it say? I haven't had a lick of trouble with it since then. Never forget: your brain works for *you*; not the other way around.

 

I've had a lot fewer gay themed dreams since I've come out. I think my subconscious was trying to tell me "Dude you like dick...just accept it." Good thing I finally did

 

GROSS Lesbian Sex?! Well.. your brain and my brain need to have a talk! We disagree here! Wow chica.. that's something right there!

Actually yes I do get mocked by my brain through mental health issues.. I hate having mild social phobia and I hate feeling like i'm not enough. I don't know what the fuck i'm doing with my life. I just want a girl to come along again. I hope to finish my diploma of beauty therapy course with great effort too!
Still.. How could you not like this?!


♥ xx

 

I've said it before, but I was raised by homophobic, violently bigoted fundamental Christians with seriously dampened intelligence. They poisoned my brain so much as a child that the roots of the weed are still there. All these stupid and pointlessly negative thoughts randomly pop into my head because of it and haunt me to this day. It's like I have to share my head with a dimwitted bigot roommate.

Though I brush all of said thoughts aside because of their obvious sheer stupidity, it's terribly annoying and I hope one day it dies out.

 

(*hug*) ♥

 

Oh you have no idea.

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I have bad dreams all the time. Sad thing is, the DSM-5 is out and gender dysmorphia is still seen as a form of mental illness.