What is Your Earliest Memory of Your First Gay Experience?

I don't exactly know if I'm gay, but I remember being drawn to my now-girlfriend back in fourth grade. I couldn't tell why, but I always wanted to be with her and wanted her to like me. In the beginning of eighth grade when a guy asked her out I felt incredibly jealous. I wanted to be with her, I didn't want anyone else to take my place.

 

I had dreams of myself and this boy kissing.. I was 10 or 11. I had a big crush on him but I'm not sure if I realised it at the time.

Other than that, I've noticed shirtless men on TV ads for years. Ditto in magazines. Even when I was 8 I'd enjoy looking at these men on deodorant ads.

 

It was in 4th grade. I was doing gymnastics and stuff, and there was this really pretty girl in my gymnastics class. Like, pretty, long dark hair and gentle features... (〃▽〃)

And there it went. I was always stuttering and blushing around her and- gosh, I really don't think I've changed all that much, aha ^.^

 

It's not an experience as such, but I had a crush on a guy called Dallas in my cricket team pretty much all the way from grade 1 to grade 9 (when he moved away). We somehow always ended up in the same cricket team, and then in high school - we ended up in nearly all the same classes as well.
I still think about him sometimes.

Had quite a few gay-ish experiences while going through puberty as well with guys that I was attracted to from my grade. Always while out camping - Never touched each other or anything, just strip poker, sleeping naked, comparing ourselves to eachother etc.. Pretty sure that's pretty common for teenaged boys though.

 

... It is?

 

My very first gay experience... hmm

Well I had a giant crush on my preschool teacher's assistant, but that's not really an "experience" I guess.

In kindergarten, I taught myself piano just to spend time with a girl so she would do sign language and sing along with me.

But I guess my first real experience was in the second grade where I chased my best friend around the playground trying to get her to kiss me. She thought it was gross and weird... I didn't.

Haha, and then it took me another 6 or 7 years to realize that that wasn't a thing that most straight girls did. XD

 

Well, the guys I did it with are all definitely straight now, so I figured it must be.

 

Mine was my best friend when we were 8 or 9. We did everything back then, multiple times. Back then we prefaced everything with "its not like we're gay...." Yeah, somehow that didn't end up working out too well.

 

I remember that I liked this girl when I was five. I don't remember this, but I apparently pulled her hair.

 

That kicked off the next 7 or 8 years of just feeling different from everyone else. I remember going to bed each night praying to just die cuz I couldn't stand the feelings inside of me, not understanding why I felt it all and scared of anyone else knowing "my dirty little secret". But then when I was 16 I fell madly for my straight male friend, and even tho unreciprocated, that showed me how strong an emotional connection could feel. I've still not actually "been with" a guy since my childhood, shuffled back into closet and had kids and stuff, but finally reached the point where I need to be true to myself and quit pushing it all back. Now I just want to embrace it all and hopefully finally have my peace of mind.

 

I was like 11 or 12, looking for new underwear, and saw the male models in tight underwear...Now that I think about it that might have been the first time I was sexually aroused.

 

Hmm. Depends on if you go by my sex or my gender.

By sex: My friend when we were about 4... yeah... I think I'm hypersexual for real, I've always liked sex lol.

By gender: I dated two girls quickly after each other when I was about 6.

 

The first time I noticed the fact that I was attracted to men too (this was way before I realized I was transgender) was one day when I was about 9ish, saw a model ad and ended up staring at it far too long.

 

I think one of my first crushes was on Melody from Ariel, when I was about 3. So yeah, I've definitely always been a lesbian..xD

 

I was late with my crushes, my first gay experience was in high school and it was very deeply emotional. I longed to be with him so badly and I always got super nervous, I never realized I crushed on him at the time. I almost got him, but he got away by rejecting me and then I heard people talking behind my back and that in turn made me even more depressed, I took it really hard and I still think if I get dumped I'll still take it as hard as I did that year.

 

I liked that Mavis vampire girl from Hotel Transylvania when I was like 10, but new memories keep surfacing with my sexuality, so who knows how much I've been repressing? I thought to myself, "wow, I'd really date her if I was a guy."

 

In retrospect, probably when I was 8 and I imagined what it would be like to be my (male) teacher - to clarify, I imagined morphing into him. Not that weird, right? Right...? Guys?

Now that I think about it, my first crush (kind of, at least) was on this super quiet boy at primary school, probably starting at the age of 6 (that's when I first started paying attention to him). Now, I was a quiet child but I mean that this boy was proper Ferb (of Phineas and Ferb) - cool and silent. I knew him for 8 years, and considered him a friend, but honestly couldn't tell you more than his name and the fact that he was the youngest of 4 brothers. So mysterious - I guess that's why I liked him... and why I always checked him out when we were changing.

 

Um, let me see... I think there was certainly some tongue-lashing involved. It was messy, and I mean messy. The situation was running out of hand and things were getting hotter by the minute. Very intense, it was quite the, eeeerm, back and forth I would say.

So yeah, terrible, terrible fight with my sister over her new Barbie. I really wanted to play with that piece of cheap plastic, mostly because I was told not to.

 

The earliest experience I can accurately date was when I was nearly 13 years old, and started junior high PE. I found myself very interested in seeing my classmates nude in the locker room, although I didn't understand why.